raptaptapping

[raptaptapping]

Ah yes. Its Having a time time

[raptaptapping]

I just opened up for commissions! I’ll list any information down below and don’t be shy to ask questions!

Pokemon commissions are up - 7 slots only!

🔴 How to order one: contact me on tipsycrow@outlook.dk with the specific wishes and needed references. I’ll gladly answer any questions you may have.

🔴 The process: I’ll offer a review and correction after the sketch, colours and final touches.

🔴 To make you feel safe I won’t ask for payment before I can start your commission.

🔴 I’ll accept full price only (no options for dividing the payment) - this is due to experience with scam

Can’t wait to get started and see your fave companions come to life!

[raptaptapping]

WHEW! This took me a minute to figure out but I’m glad I stuff with the religious horror idea! I feel like all of my horror always leans on the side of sentimental, where there is more emotion involved and subtle terrors, such as in this one! This was originally a commission for @tallwife so please thank Orla for this piece too!

Pictured: Mary Magdalene at the Tomb is about a mother, Janine, and her daughter Atalanta, a traumatizing death and the mysterious ways of religion. I thought a lot about my own experience with religion—how I relate to God as a Black lesbian and how that may differ from other people’s ideas of God. And then I thought about mourning, misery, fate—and angels! I love to think about angels, and I love to think about angels returning to us.

WARNING! There are mentions of suicide and self-harm but nothing graphic or gory—the main death is caused by self-immolation (burning oneself) but again, not graphic. Tread carefully!

tag list beneath the cut!

Keep reading

[raptaptapping]

I'd defend the things I'd researched.

I'd defend coming out when and how I did.

I wouldn't rely on their money or opinions.

I'd move on.

I wouldn't be the one they failed on.

When a person is abused, it causes fear. The fear is warranted and perfectly normal. It’s a reaction to being attacked over and over again by person who has all the power when you have none. When a child or adult who was abused thinks of doing something empowering, the feeling of fear comes up immediately because the abused person knows that their abuser will not like them doing anything to empower themselves and will do everything they can to crush them. In this way, an abused person becomes conditioned to simply stop considering doing the empowering thing. This is why I have posted the question above. I think an important part of surviving and healing from abuse is to recondition your mind to at least consider what you would do if you weren’t afraid, what you would do if your abuser wasn’t in the picture and you were free to make choices for yourself like people in healthy families do.

So…what would you do if there were no traumatizing consequences from an abuser? Think about that. And feel free to respond and tell me! This is a safe place for you to imagine your freedom.

[raptaptapping]

My partner mentioned that we have to allot time for me to recover from being around my parents. To learn to eat regularly again. And to get used to romantic touch again. And just.

They're so good to me.

[raptaptapping]

10 days left

I'm a third of the way through

I miss them

[raptaptapping]

It’s amazing to me how vocally I hate on myself while I have to be in the closet for the holidays.

Like, no parents.

I know how fucking amazing I am. How talented and incredible I am and I can see it and I love it.

But I am living 2/3 a lie of my life and can’t swear.

[raptaptapping]

It is a struggle to not feel the need to cling close and be their everything.

[raptaptapping]

@littleblackneko

AFTERMATH is a Be More Chill fanzine dedicated to the lives of the characters following the deactivation of the SQUIPS!

AFTERMATH is a fanzine created by @richardgoranski that is looking for artists and writers to help make this zine become a reality! 

This zine is for fans of the Be More Chill musical and will allow creators to showcase their interpretations of how the plot of the musical affects those involved post-canon. All proceeds will go to The Trevor Project!

Q: How is the zine set up? A: The art pages of the zine will have 2 pages for each of the kids, 1 for Mr. Heere, 1 for Mr. Reyes, and cover page. 2-3 fics will also be featured, focusing on the Squip Squad as a whole, rather than just a single character.

Q: Will the zine be digital or physical? A: As of right now, the zine will only be digital (sold on gumroad), but I am looking into being able to sell physical copies as well!

Q: How many artists and writers are you looking for? A: We are looking for 20 artists and 3 fic writers, though these numbers are flexible.

Q: Is traditional art accepted? A: Yes, HOWEVER, you must be able to scan your art, and it must fit the template given. (Templates will be recieved upon acceptance to the zine.)

Q: What are you looking for in artists? A: We are looking for unique, appealing, and dynamic styles for art, and captivating, well-written styles for writing.

Q: How will we know if we are accepted? A: You will recieve an email from me congratulating you and giving you more information about moving forward in the zine process! A post on this blog will also be made, listing the accepted artists.

Q: Will participants get a copy of the completed zine? A: YES! All participants will recieve a free digital copy of the zine, as well as a copy of the physical zine if that becomes a reality.

Q: What character designs will be accepted? A: Any! There are multiple productions of BMC that artists draw and write for, as well as unique artist interpretations, so as long as it is evident who you’re depicting!

Q: How will characters be chosen? A: The character for the artist to focus on will be chosen at random. All writers will be focusing on the Squip Squad as a whole, so they will not have characters chosen for them.

For any other questions, please message this blog or @richardgoranski!

Artist Application Writer Application Application Deadline: August 31, 2018

[raptaptapping]

I honestly think people forget that the church and state are supposed to be separate. Give me one non-religious reason against same sex marriage. One non-religious reason against stem cell research. One non-religious reason against safe abortions. Go ahead.

[raptaptapping]

that feel when peeps be closing doors to rooms and are like “The open door makes me anxious” and I just. “GuYs, the closed door stresses me the fuck out.”

[raptaptapping]

But it comforts

I try to live within my means

I try plan and prepare for tomorrow and the after and the time after that.

For a college kid, I have an awful lot. And I would not choose to change that.

I do not regularly eat all the food in my snack drawer, but it comforts me that, should I need to or I am in a weird anxious shameful place eating wise, there is food in my room.

I do not sleep under every one of my blankets every night, but there are plenty should I need more or have a guest over.

My sticky note calendar, idea board, labels, and good thoughts are somewhat wasteful. But it means that I will forget less and possibly acheive more.

I wear the same 25 shirts which is an awful lot less than I own, but I like having them.

I have a touch too much, but it comforts me.

And I am happy about it.

[raptaptapping]

I love my friend.

Trust me I do.

I still have issues with stringed instruments. They just sound really fucking weird and it's a less than happy time to be me.

[raptaptapping]

I'm in a really weird place of crisis and interal existential stress and I fucking hate it

[raptaptapping]

I have no idea when the next time I'll have spoons is.

Which I bad because I am heading into the end of the semester.

[raptaptapping]

How strange to prefer dying as opposedto failure

[raptaptapping]

That weirdass feeling where you definitely feel like you're being too much of...what ever you are. And people don't really like you and just tolerate you and let you exist in their space.

But they're not going to tell you that you annoyed them. Even though you definitely get that distinct feel that you do.

And you are talked over and all that shit.

And it's just

Weird.