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I have to relapse

I spent the last two years telling myself I looked fine and that my body was under control but I always miss it. I miss starving and feeling complete with an empty stomach. I miss being so skinny people look like they want to drop what they're eating and go on a jog. I used to be 110 pounds, how the hell am I 130 now. All that "it's going to be fine" was a lie I hate it I need to restrict I need that fear I need it all back

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Losing weight youve already lost before hurts like a bitch

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The worst thing about gaining weight back is you remember what it was like being skinny. You remember how dainty and little you felt, how delicate your body was, how much the hunger felt good.

I need that feeling again.

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the ultimate thinspo: thinking of my boyfriend picking me up, me being super small and skinny next to him, drowning in his oversized sweaters, making all his clothes look huge even though he's only a size medium 💕

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It was actually kind of a nightmare but I had fun

Friend not only invited me to get sushi, she invited me to an ALL YOU CAN EAT sushi bar… future me, tell me how I’m feeling cause rn idk

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Friend not only invited me to get sushi, she invited me to an ALL YOU CAN EAT sushi bar… future me, tell me how I’m feeling cause rn idk

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Fighting munchies while high is some type of torture

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| low cal recipes ideas |

i gathered all my favourite snack ideas (mainly for myself lol) hope you enjoy<3 ofc calories may vary according to different ingredients.

i know it's hard, but still - eating small portions is better than not eating. i don't want my brain to be eaten by my body and feel dead all the time (although i still do lmao/).

| chocolate cake [140/148]|

ingredients: -20g sweetener (you can add more or less, it's up to you) [0] -20g flour [73] -10g coco powder [23] -2 egg whites [34] -10 blueberries (optional - i like adding them) [8]

1. whip egg whites to the point when they are kinda stiff, then add dry ingredients. 2. mix everything. add blueberries on top. 3. put in the oven for about 20 minutes (170°C or 338°F) 4. leave for a few minutes, so it stiffens.

| banana pancakes [160] |

ingredients: -1 banana [depends on size, let's say 90] -2 egg whites [34] -10g flour [36] (if you want them to be better consistency, add more)

1. whip egg whites, like in the last recipe 2. mash bananas and add them. 3. add flour and mix. as i said, if you aren't satisfied w consistency, you should add more flour 4. put some oil on pan and make some small pancakes (they will be kinda tiny, so this means they will cook faster) 5. after they've cooked, serve them with chosen toppings.

| pita [108] |

ingredients: -30g flour [108] -1/2 tsp baking powder [0] -1 tsp salt [0] -4 tbsp water [0] (you might want to add more or less, depends on what consistency you want to achieve)

1. mix everything together 2. cook like pancakes from last recipe 3. voilà!

but from this pita you could do -> | mini pizza [148] |

ingredients: -pita [108] -tbsp of tomato sauce [40] -spices like oregano or basil [0]

1. just add sauce and spices on one side of pita. 2. cook some more time and again, voilà!

| banana oat cookies |

ingredients: -2 bananas [180] -80g oats [300] (you could also add things like cinnamon, raisins or peanut butter, it depends on what you like)

1. mash bananas, add oats. 2. on baking paper form small cookies, don't forget about spaces between them. 3. bake for 20 minutes (180°C or 356°F) to calculate calories from this one you have to do bit of math but dont worry i got you 480 (+ cals from your own ingredients, but only if u added them ofc) : (number of cookies) = calories for one cookie so if you baked 10 cookies w/o any extra ingredients, one cookie is only 48 calories :)

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if you REBLOG IT

✨you ll lose 11lbs before June 1st✨

if you FOLLOW ME

✨you ll reach your GW soon✨

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one month and ten pound difference 👀

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My Favourite Channels

01. Baggyjeans 3

- low cal recipe videos, restriction vlogs

02. ILikePotatoes

- binge vlogs

03. ella sephy

- restriction/diet vlogs, a few funny ed related videos

04. crybaby eats

weight loss journey, binge vlogs, recovery journey

05. peachy tin

- aesthetic vlogs, binge vlogs

06. l0velys0da

- restriction vlogs

07. luneats

- restriction vlogs, low cal recipes

08. MelissaBug

- binge vlogs, weight loss journey

09. provalonely

- restriction vlogs, binge vlogs

10. 하리야 hariya

- diet vlogs, weight loss tips

11. Suzie Ann

- weight loss journey, diet tips, weight loss tips, low cal recipes

12. little snowflake

- restriction vlogs

13. ophelia laus

- binge vlogs, recovery journey

14. 담지의기록 Damji

weight loss journey, healthy recipes, workout vlogs

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Me: I will fight you

My crush: lol how ur like 100 pounds I can throw you

Me in my head: *giggles intensely*

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I’m gonna start this because it’s a monday :)

i won’t bombarde so i’ll do a weekly update.

Starting weight: 170lbs (yikes)

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binging and labelling it as a metabolism boost day really feels like a pro gamer move

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TW TW TW TW TW

IF YOU ARE IN OR CONSIDERING RECOVERY, DO NOT READ PLEASE

having recovered and let myself go loose and eat whatever i want is the worst fuckinf thing because it really puts it into perspective to me how ugly i am when i’m fat and the potential i have to be a PRETTY GIRL, to be gorgeous and actually have a nice body

with this chub i’m so much more ugly... i look how i used to when i was younger, and it needs to change

and as per usual... need to find new ways to hide it from my partner and parents

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I love my disorder more than I love you..I'm sorry

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craving junk food?

Take up two bite sized portions of the food you are craving.

Fill up a glass of cold water.

Eat your first bite. Chug the water, then wait 1 or 2 minutes. Then take the second bite. 

This satisfies your craving and tricks your body into thinking it just got full of junk food when it actually got full of water