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Natasha: That's a nice shirt, Bucky. It looks really good on you. Bucky: Uhm... thanks, I guess. Natasha: But you know what? It'd look better lying on Clint's bedroom floor. Clint: Nat, stop hitting on Bucky on my behalf.

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Thing is, I can not fault them for this misunderstanding. There is, after all, an arm missing. And Bucky is a better explanation than the fact that I just forgot it 😂

(would totally draw this "pairing" btw. Just haven't gotten to it. Reblogger does have good taste.)

((plus, the likes that are comming in now that it's been reblogged are good for my ego))

I read Gardening… by 42donotpanic and haven't been able to get these three out of my mind since.

Do not ask me where Clint's other hand is. I do not know.

This arrangement has been described to me as "people macrame".

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THE DIVORCE SELFIIIIIII

A compilation of various MattFoggy based doodles I have lying around.

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I read Gardening… by 42donotpanic and haven't been able to get these three out of my mind since.

Do not ask me where Clint's other hand is. I do not know.

This arrangement has been described to me as "people macrame".

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Art by Leksø Tiger

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Represention of Autistic Frustration in Laios Dungeon Meshi

Like many other autistic people, I related strongly to Laios Touden while reading Dungeon Meshi. This post isn't going to spend time disputing whether he displays autistic traits or not—while I could do that, I want to focus on why specifically his portrayal struck a chord with me in a way the writing of most other autistic-coded characters has not.

Disclaimer: as the above suggests, this post is strongly informed by my own experiences as an autistic person, as well as the experiences of my neurodivergent friends with whom I have spoken about this subject. I want to clarify that in no way am I asserting my personal experience to be some Universal Autistic Experience. This post is about why Laios' character feels distinct and significant to me in regard to autistic representation, and while I'm at it, I do feel that I have interesting things to say about autistic representation in media generally. This also got a bit long, so I'm sticking it under a read more. Spoilers for up to the end of chapter 88 below.

The thing that stands out most to me in regard to Laios' characterisation is the open anger he displays when someone points out his inability to read other people. This comes up prominently in his interactions with "Shuro" (Toshiro Nakamoto):

The frustration pictured above (Laios continuing to physically tussle with Toshiro, using crude language toward him) becomes even more notable when you remember that this is Laios, who, outside of these interactions, is not easily fazed and often exists as a lighthearted contrast to the rest of the cast. Then we get to Laios' nightmare.

In Falin's words: "Nightmares love emotional wounds. Wounds you hold in your heart. Things that give you stress, or things that were traumatic for you. They aggravate memories like that and cause the dreamer to have terrible dreams." (chapter 42, page 10.) (damn. i'm properly citing for this post and everything.)

Thus, Laios' nightmare establishes an important fact: even if he is unable to recognise social blunders while he's making them, he's at least subconsciously aware that other people operate on a different wavelength to him, and that he's an outsider in many of his social circles (both past and present). His dream-father's disparaging words stress the impact this has had upon his ability to live up to the expectations set out for him, and we also get a panel of kids who smirk at him (presumably former bullies to some degree). Toshiro's appearance only hammers home how much Laios is still both humiliated and angered by his misunderstanding of their relationship.

I've thought a lot about anger as concomitant to the autistic experience. When autistic representation portrays ostracization, it's generally from an angle of the autistic character being upset at how conforming to neurotypical norms doesn't come easily to them; as a result, they express a desire to 'get better' at meeting neurotypical standards, a desire to become more 'normal' (whether the writing implies this is a good thing or not). In contrast, not once does Laios go, "I need to perform better in my social interactions, and try to care less about monsters, because that's what other people find weird." His frustration is directed outward rather than inward, and as a result, it's the people around him who are framed as nonsensical.

The Winged Lion starts delineating Laios' anger, and Laios' reaction is to think to himself, "It can sense all my thoughts, huh?" (chapter 88, page 16.) This is the scene that really resonated with me. I'm not saying I have never felt the desire to conform to neurotypical norms that is borne from insecurity, but primarily, I know that I don't want to work toward becoming 'normal'—I don't want to change myself for people who follow rules I find nonsensical. It's the difference between, "Oh god, why can't I get it," and, "WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT?" (phrasing here courtesy of my friend Miles @dogwoodbite). And for me personally, Dungeon Meshi is the first time I've seen this frustration and the resultant voluntary isolation from other people portrayed in media so candidly. Laios' anger is not downplayed or written to be easily palatable, either.

The culmination of Laios' frustrations in this scene wherein we learn that Laios has fantasised about "a pack of monsters attacking a village" drives home just how alienated he really feels. I need not go into his wish to become a monster himself, redolent of how many autistic people identify/have identified with non-humans to some degree as a result of a percieved disconnect from society (when I was younger, I wanted to be a robot. I still kind of do.)

Obviously, wishing death upon other people is a weighty thing, but the unfiltered nature of this page is what deeply resonated with me. The Winged Lion is laying Laios' deepest and most transgressive desires bare, and they are desires that are a product of lifelong ostracization by others (whether intentional or unintentional). This is the brand of anger I'm familiar with, and that my neurodivergent friends express being familiar with, but that I haven't seen portrayed in writing so explicitly before—in fact, it surprised me because most well-meaning autistic representation I've experienced veers toward infantilisation in trying make the autistic character's struggles easy for neurotypicals to sympathise with.

Let's also not neglect the symbolism inherent to Laios' daydream. "A pack of monsters attacking a village". Functionally, monsters are Laios' special interest—he percieves everything first and foremost through his passion for monsters. His daydream of monsters attacking—killing—humans, is fundamentally a daydream of the world he understands (monsters) overthrowing the world that is so illogical to him, that has repeatedly shunned him (other people). I joked to my friends that it's an autistic power fantasy, and it actually sort of is. And in it, his identity is aligned with that of the monsters, while his anger manifests in a palpable dissociation from the rest of humanity. This is one manga page. It's brief. It's also very, very raw to me. I think about it often.

To conclude, I love Laios Dungeon Meshi. This portrayal of open frustration in an autistic character meant a lot to me, and I hope I've sufficiently outlined why. Also, feel free to recommend media with autistic representation in the notes if you've read this far—I would really like to see if there is more of this nature. Thank you for reading. I'm very tired and should probably sleep now.

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ok… imagine a moon knight and daredevil crossover where dd has no issues fighting the invisible jackals because the dude cant see shit anyway. moon knight is like “you can see them??” and matt, not wanting to reveal his blindness but having no idea theyre invisible, is just like “yeah i can see of course i can see”

moon knight then assumes dd is an avatar of an egyptian god. bc what else? so, naturally, moon knight asks “what god do you serve?”

“jesus”

“what??”

“im catholic?”

“what???”

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Six Sentence Sunday

Rules for Writers: Post (approximately) six sentences from something you’re working on. If you aren’t ready to do that, add six sentences to your WIP.

“There’re new scratches on your face.” Frank observed.

Mike stiffened. “Are they bad?”

“Not bad.” But they were there. He remembered how hard he’d had to hit the Devil to put marks like that on his face.

Context: Matt gave "Mike" as his name when they met out of the suit.

I need a name for this fic so bad. Suggestions welcome.

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You can’t see Ed’s airpods but he’s actually listening to Hilary Duff’s Come Clean

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I for real saw my girls, saw "raspberry" in the name of the recipient and thought it was a gift for me 😆 Thought, when did I join this secret santa? Where do I have that specific username? It just fit so well for a minute there!

on the 21st day of candlenights your @fmasecretsanta2020 is here to say: HAPPIEST OF HOLIDAYS to @raspberryrockcandy !!! \eoe/ i had the delight of being their secret santa this year! working on this was a lot of fun and i got to try some new things. 

ANYWHO. =u=/ hope you like, my dude! may the rest of your year be easygoing and warm and as stress-free as possible. take care! 🖤

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fmalore no one but me cares about

One thing that gets portrayed ‘wrong’ often in fullmetal fanworks and discussions is Resembool. Although I do not fault anyone for it, because Resembool is not really a major setting and other people aren’t obsessed autists about fma like me.

But Resembool often gets portrayed as being 3 houses on a hill with nothing else going on. But that’s not the case. It’s stated in the series Resembool has a major wool and textile industry, and they have a train station (!!). They are a major supplier of military uniforms & textiles. That is the reason the ishval faction bombed the place during the war. I think it was omitted in the anime (correct me??), but yes the war also reached Resembool.

That is why Winry’s family has their automail surgery there. They are nearby the loose-your-limbs warzones and accessible by public transport. Their clinic being on the outskirts of town probably makes a peaceful recovery atmosphere to the traumatised amputees before they are well enough to travel home again...

A town does not get a train station without it making economic sense. Nobody is gonna pay for and built a station + rails + staff + maintenance for 3 houses on a hill for 1-10 people. Resembool has industry. At the end of the series they talk about expanding the rail network. They have factories and workers who need to live there. There are big festivals mentioned. When the elrics say they are from Resembool, people have heard of it. There could be a couple thousand people living in Resembool, like >10k maybe more. The protagonists simply live on the rural area outside the town, but close enough that they walked to school by themselves.

Resembool is no grand metropolis. They are behind technologically compared to the main cities. Outside the town center we see people travel by foot or horse carriage on non-paved roads, while in the major cities we see cars. Resembool is rural yes, but it’s a proper Town too, likely growing rapidly until their station/factories got bombed. It’ll likely grown fast again. It’s not just 3 houses 😭

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no energy for tags but this deserves to spread

When you have a very shitty shift

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It's promotional art for the live action movie that came out a bit ago. Amazing, right? Look't his lil smile!!! Don't you wish there was a fic of this moment written by someone who understands more about the process of filming a movie than I do?

random article about it

Every other thought today is about him. I'm dying of oxygen deprivation. Scar is taking up all the space air would go in.

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but the turbans

I want to draw fanart of the Daevabad Trilogy so bad but I'm so ignorant about the clothing styles. Spessifically turbans are causing me issues. There are so, so many types! And they all seem to mean something important! Ad in the fact that this isn't current fashion, but historical fantasy fashion and I'm at a loss.

Anyone know key words I should use to do my research on what different characters might be wearing?