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life is weird but at least I made cool shirts at the library

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produces one agonized scream before doing three little circles and curling up cozy to nap

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I love having friends who reject diet culture. I love going out when everyone buys food and drinks that they enjoy. I love people who will pipe up and suggest we stop for a snack or grab a meal. I love ordering what I want and no one making comments other than how good it looks (and maybe asking to steal a bite off my plate). I love revelling in how full we are after a good meal and taking a break to appreciate how fortunate we are. I love sharing snack from our bags with one another. I love enjoying the pleasure of food and drinks and good company.

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This too shall pass but like holy fuck

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you mattress.

I chair.

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you may think it’s no big deal but every sweet interaction is actually the most important thing in the world. sooo. take that

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you rock !!

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Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

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anyway I’m pretty sure my numberless scale is bullying me by saying I smell and should fuck myself

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i fucking love isolation!!! give it up for isolation!!!!!! [sound of a single person clapping reverberating off the walls]

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seen coming home

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you??? YOU??? godDAMN IT’S YOU!!!! look at you!!! doing so wonderfully despite it all!!! i believe that!!!!

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can i come over and pour sunlight into the darkest parts of u