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I feel like I am a couple days away from a full-blown episode and I really don’t want to do that right now.

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I'm going to *remembers suicide is often not a desire for death itself but rather an attempt to radically change one's life because the current state of being has become unbearable but the person can't think of any way to change it other than death* kill myself

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oh i am ABSOLUTELY messed up but it did make me funny

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The bloody tissue from my arm is so pretty.

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i hate that kind of sadness where your chest physically hurts

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i like to laugh and joke but always remember that i am damned

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Sylvia Plath

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The shame that comes from caving in to your hunger before the allotted time slot you allow yourself to eat.

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My BMI is now ~16.

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What fucking deity do I have to make a deal with to get my lower intestine working again

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I’m scared

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My fucking stomach

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In the emergency room

In so much pain

All over

I feel sick

I’m alone

Nothing is working

I feel like this is going to happen again

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shout out to everyone who participated in the january-february mass depressive episode

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My cold is getting worse, my digestion hasn’t worked in six days, I’m in pain everywhere, and I’m alone.