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Just June casually dropping some of the best SilverV art to date like I'm not frothing at the mouth for both Johnny and their V.

we have a city to burn etc

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Me with @junebug-the-blind

Me when my coworker casually brings up Cyberpunk 2077 and I have to try and be casual about it and pretend I am not mentally ill about a fictional terrorist

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MICHAEL!!! first looks at Mike for season 5. I will now be insufferable for the next foreseeable future about Michael.

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yeehawed him...

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Lenore Dove's Biggest Flaw is That She's Dumb

There are a lot of reasons I dislike Lenore Dove in SOTR. One is that she's redundant and destroys any chance of character development for Haymitch, another is that she is such a blank slate character she couldnt be more boring, and another is that she's the epitome of a manic pixie dream girl, forever trying to be Lucy Grey without anything that made Lucy Grey an intriguing or likeable character.

But my biggest gripe with Lenore Dove (and sotr Haymitch to some extent) is how pathologically stupid she is. Like, Haymitch can harp on about how smart she is all he wants, he's blinded by infatuation, but this girl is dumb as a post. If I was going to try and stir up rebellion under a fascist regime I sure as hell wouldn't make sure everyone and their mother knew that it was me doing it. Subtlety- especially in the circumstances of District 12- is important when you're committing treason. You don't want to do or say anything that could link you to the crime, and you sure as hell don't want it to be an open secret. You want to seem like the quietest, most beaten down, most assimilated good little district worker if you're going to rebel successfully and stay under the radar. Yeah, Lenore is covey, they're performers by trade but Clerk Carmine and Tam Amber very obviously understand the need to at least pretend to have assimilated to the capitol regime. But no, Lenore Dove has to be different, she has to feel special, she wants to be the one to single handedly save District 12 from the capitol. She commits symbolic acts of protest (burning the flag, graffiti) while twirling around in fancy dresses and singing songs, being so fucking pretentious the whole time- and then she gets jailed for these crimes over and over again, which probably has the complete opposite effect to what she thinks it will. District 12 mothers probably point her out 'dont be like that Lenore girl, you'll get yourself and the rest of us killed'. 'keep your mouth shut, do you wanna end up like Lenore Dove?'. Lenore Dove thinks she's riling up the citizens of twelve, too stupid to realize that her idea of rebellion is so removed from the collective consciousness of the district as to seem alien. The citizens of twelve are at a point where rebellious activities or organising have to be quiet, subtle, easily explained away, and a group effort, and they understand this. Things like sharing food that the capitol doesn't want them sharing, or trying to create solidarity between the seam and merchant class. IF there were actual plans for rebellion in District 12 at the time, the absolute last person anyone would ever tell would be Lenore Dove because she wouldn't be able to keep her mouth shut. She'd blab to anyone and everyone trying to 'get more people to join their cause' until the wrong person overheard and they all got executed. Or she'd be mad their plans were covert, grassroots and focused on community building and gaining quiet social support rather than banding together to burn down the peacekeeeper building (which would ultimately do nothing in the long run but increase the military presence in the district and piss off the capitol, putting an even bigger target on their back). Lenore Dove loves the idea of rebellion, but she's too idealistic, naive, narcissistic, and too much of a know it all to comprehend what real rebellion entails, and understand that she isn't invincible or infallible. It's clear from the book she thinks she's untouchable, even when she's behind bars and very much at the capitol's mercy. She never once seems even slightly concerned about her family or her boyfriend, while every other character- even Haymitch, who also isn't winning brainiac awards in sotr- knows that the capitol never punishes just the individual, and that when you condemn yourself you condemn your loved ones too. Lenore Dove sees rebellion as the pretty, honourable idea in songs and stories rather than the very risky, gritty, unpleasant, and dangerous organising and action it actually is.

Lenore Dove is not a rebel. She's an idiotic girl who thinks she's the smartest person in the room and believes everyone around her is too stupid or cowardly to recognise that the system needs to change, when in reality the citizens of twelve recognise the need for change, and they also recognise that Lenore Dove is stupid to a level that puts them all at risk. Stupid people are dangerous, and Lenore Dove being ostracised as much as possible by the district is clear evidence of them recognising this. Honestly, it probably a good thing she died when she did, before she could drag her family down with her. You can't convince me she wasn't going to die anyway- at some point she would have been executed, probably along with Clerk Carmine and Tam Amber because they enabled her.

Also, who above the age of three eats random candy they found on the ground? Death by gumdrops was an absolutely ridiculous way to kill off a character, but I actually find it fitting because its reflective of Lenore's unfathomable idiocy. She should've listened to her uncles instead of thinking she knew better. She should have learned the district's customs and methods of survival instead of feeling superior to everyone just because she was covey. She should have realized she wasn't invincible. She should have tried to develop a shred of actual empathy for her fellow citizens instead of committing to a holier than thou mindset where anyone who wasn't 'rebelling' the same as her was an enemy or some pitiful, brainwashed swine. Maybe then she could have actually had an impact. Maybe then she could have survived the story, or at least had her death be something other than an incredible relief. Maybe I'd have actually cared about her if she wasn't the worst combination of insufferable and stupid and didn't put everyone around her constantly at risk.

Tldr: Stupid people are dangerous and Lenore Dove is the worst kind of stupid. It was a relief when she died, and I wish she'd died sooner.

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Here are mine!! I'm too lazy to make my own post 🫶🏻

My hair is darker and my face is fuller and round. But the second is my tranquil rook sister wisdom.

@wickedviago

@lostiel

@junebug-the-blind

AHH thank you @lemonina00 and @litchigaming for the tags!! i will take any opportunity i can to spread my rook propaganda >:)

use this picrew to create create yourself and your oc!

saint and rook🤺

i'm gonna go ahead and tag my lovelies @redeadimdepressed @sacredashes @flyhalf16 @starlightchaser and @theoozeboy bc i love y'all's ocs and need to see them (if you want ofc! 🫶🏼)

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Hello, lovely!!! I just wanted to tell you that I think you're perfect and that I love you very much. You mean the world to me and I hope you have a wonderful day. 🥰💖💞

maddie i would die for u do u understand

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blog goals: making someone feel a little less sad

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How to show emotions

Part VIII

How to show helplessness

slightly open mouth

downturned mouth

eyes slightly more open

being hesitant in their movements

shrugging shoulders

wringing their hands

crossed arms to protect themself

buckling of the legs, becoming instable

speaking softly and shaky

How to show optimism

openly smiling

relaxed face

bright, attentice eyes

steady and natural eye contact

open and upright posture

energetic and animated movements

speaking in an upbeat and positive tone

walking with a spring in their step

walking confidently

How to show anticipation

bright and open eyes

looking around

sweaty palms

trembling hands

heart racing

fidgeting with their entire body

crossing and uncrossing one's legs

having restless legs, rocking them

drumming with their fingers

bouncing on one's toes

shifting from one foot to the other

pacing around

fussing with clothes

How to show amusement

eyes twinkling with mirth

chuckling

bursting out in laughter

eye contact to share their amusement

being open and relaxed

a genuine smile

raised eyebrows

crinkling around the eyes

tilting of the head

slapping their thigh

playfully nudging other characters

How to show respectfulness

standing tall with good posture

maintain steady, appropriate eye contact

avoiding direct staring to not make them feel uncomfortable

speaking in a calm and measured tone

showing attentiveness by listening actively

using polite language and manners, not interrupting or talking over anyone

no crossing of arms and relaxed hands

More: How to write emotions Masterpost

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Hi! I'm not sure if you've answered this question or not or if I missed it in your pinned post. I've been dying to mod Cyberpunk for forever, and have finally decided to give it a try. I am very intimidated by the whole ordeal because I know cyberpunk has so many spec requirements (I play on console) and was wondering if you had recommendations? I'm looking to buy a PC to start my modding and visual photography journey but don't know where to start. I've scoured reddit for recommendations but keep getting mixed signals.

I've watched you slowly create your digital portfolio for Valerie over the last couple years and have just been in utter awe of your work. I've looked up to you for a while and want to follow in your footsteps.

Thank you for your time! ☺️💖

Hey there! Thank you so much for the sweet words!

You didn't miss anything, so no worries! I don't think I've ever shared my PC specs in one place. Currently I have:

Motherboard: MSI MAG Z790 Tomahawk MAX

Processor: i7-14700K (with a Cooler Master liquid cooler, I forget the exact model)

RAM: Corsair Vengeance DDR5 64GB

GPU: Geforce RTX 3070 Ti

SSD: Samsung 860 EVO 2TB

NZXT H710i ATX tower case (I think this exact model is discontinued, but I'm a fan of NZXT cases in general--They're very roomy, have good airflow, and have good cable management features)

I've built and maintained my own PCs for about a decade now, and I remember when I first made the switch from console to PC, a lot of the conventional advice I got from more seasoned PC gamers was "Build your own rig, it's cheaper, and it's not that hard." I wasn't fully convinced, though, and I did just get a pre-built gaming PC from some random company on Amazon. If you have the money and you're really intimidated at the idea of building your own, there's nothing wrong with going this route.

Once I had my pre-built, I started with upgrading individual components one at a time. Installing a new GPU, for instance, is pretty easy and fool-proof. Installing a new CPU is a little trickier, especially with all the conflicting advice on how much thermal paste to use (I've always done the grain of rice/pea-sized method and my temperatures on multiple CPUs have always been fine). Installing a new power supply unit can be overwhelming when it comes to making sure you've plugged everything in correctly. Installing a new motherboard is not too far off from building a whole new thing.

And building/maintaining a PC is pretty easy once you get past the initial intimidation. There are so many video tutorials on YouTube to explain the basics--I think I referred to Linus Tech Tip videos back in the day (which might be cringe to suggest now, idk), but you search "how to build a gaming PC" and you'll get a ton of good results back. Also, PCPartPicker is a very helpful website in crosschecking all your desired components to make sure they'll play nicely with each other.

The other big piece of advice I'd offer on building a PC is not to drive yourself crazy reading too many reviews on components. Don't go in totally blind--Still look at Reddit, Amazon reviews, NewEgg, etc. to get an idea of the product and potential issues, but be discerning. Like if you check Amazon reviews and see a common issue mentioned in multiple reviews, take note of that, but if you see one or two complaints about something random, it's probably a fluke. Either a one-off manufacturing error or (more likely, honestly) user error.

You'll probably also see a lot of debates about Intel/NVIDIA vs AMD when it comes to processors and graphics cards--I started with Intel and NVIDIA so I've really just stuck with them out of familiarity, but I think the conventional wisdom these days is that AMD processors will give you more bang for your buck when it comes to gaming.

If you do go the NVIDIA route, I've personally always found it worth the extra money to go with a Ti model of their cards--I feel like it gives me at least another year or two without starting to really feel the GPU bottleneck. I was able to play Mass Effect Andromeda on mostly high settings with my 780 Ti in 2017, and I actually started playing Cyberpunk on my 1080 Ti in 2021--I think most of my settings were on high without any notable performance issues.

Now you probably couldn't get away with that post-Phantom Liberty/update 2.0 since the game did get a lot more demanding with those updates. However, my biggest piece of advice to anyone who wants to get into PC gaming with a heavy emphasis on virtual photography is that you do not need the absolute top-of-the-line hardware to take good shots. For Cyberpunk, I think shooting for a build that lands somewhere along the lines of the minimum-to-recommended ray-tracing requirements will do you just fine.

I don't remember all my current game settings off the top of my head, but I can tell you that I have never bothered with path-tracing, my ray-tracing settings range from medium to high, and I don't natively run the game at 4K. I do hotsample to 4K when I do VP, and I do notice a difference between a 1080 and a 4K shot, but I personally don't feel like being able to constantly run it at 4K is necessary for me right now since I still only have a 1080p monitor. If I'm going to be shooting in Dogtown, which is very demanding, I'll also cap my FPS to 30 for a little extra stability.

(Also, and hopefully this doesn't muddy the waters too much, but I feel like it's worth pointing out that you could have the absolute best of the best hardware and still run into crashes and glitches for random shit that might require advanced troubleshooting--My husband had a better build than I did when he started playing CP77, but he kept running into crashes because of some weird audio driver issue that had to do with his sound system. I just recently upgraded my CPU, RAM, and motherboard, and I was going nuts over the winter because my game somehow became less stable. It turned out the main culprit was Windows 11 has shitty Bluetooth settings.)

But in my opinion, I think getting good shots is less about hardware and more about 1) learning to use the tools available to you (e.g. in-game lighting tools, Reshade, and post-editing in programs like Lightroom or even free apps like Snapsneed) and 2) learning the basics of real-life photography (or visual art in general), particularly when it comes to lighting, color, and composition.

I don't rely on Reshade too much because I try to minimize the amount of menus I have to futz with in-game, but I do think DOF and/or long exposure shaders are excellent for getting cleaner shots. I also like ambient fog shaders to help create more cohesive color in a shot. However, I put most of my focus on lighting and post-editing. I did talk a little bit about my methods for both in this post--It is from 2023 and my style has evolved some since then (like I mention desaturating greens in Lightroom, but I've actually been loving bold green lately and I've been cranking that shit up), but I think it still has some useful advice for anyone starting out.

For a more recent comparison of how much my Lightroom and Photoshop work affects the final product, here is a recent shot I took of Goro.

The left image is the raw shot out of the game--It has some Reshade effects (most notably the IGCS DOF), and I manually set the lighting for this scene. To do this, I set the time in-game to give me a golden hour affect (usually early morning or early evening depending on your location) so the base was very warm and orange, then I dropped the exposure and essentially "rebuilt" the lighting with AMM and CharLi lights to make Goro pop and add some more color, notably green and blue, into the scene.

And the right image is that same shot but after I did some color correcting/enhancement, sharpening, etc. in Lightroom and clip-editing and texture work in Photoshop.

Okay, this was long as hell so I'm gonna end it here, haha. If you have any more questions about anything specific here, feel free to ask! I know it can be really overwhelming and I threw a lot at ya. <333

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im so bad at maintaining online friendships!! im sorry to everyone i’ve had a lovely chat with but havent followed up with!! im a very isolating person and i still consider you my friend i promise !!!

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Hi, hello! This is a friendly reminder that I absolutely 100% do not ship Byler and I will block anyone who asks me stuff about them. I do NOT like Will Byers. I do not like him as a character and I don't like him for Mike Wheeler.

Peace and love. ✌🏻

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Hi, lovely! I miss you and I hope you're having a good day. 🌻

MY BELOVED!!! I LOVE YOU SO DEARLY AND TRULY!!!!🩷🩷 my day has been like a hangover after a catalina wine mixer and it's not even 12 PM, HOWEVER. we go forth! i hope you are having a wonderful and beautiful day, my dear🥰

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I've noticed a theme throughout the game and the theme is "doubles" as in... Two gods, two blighted dragons, two Archdemons, two daggers, fighting two Antaam Reavers during Blood of Arlathan when the gates are closed, two Grey Wardens (that are married to each other) guiding you, two Crows guiding you, two Veil Jumpers guiding you, two Shadow Dragons guiding you, Maevaris & Dorian, deciding between two cities (ultimatum), two companions with a mascot for each, one character embracing one of two emotion, two characters that are mirrors to one another and apparently this: Solas protecting Rook from Blight tentacles twice.

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me looking at the unfinished chapter of my hotd fic while a brain eating ameba called dragon age the veilguard solrook devours my brain

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I’m gonna be honest the Rook/Solas v Inquisitor/Solas ship war is so stupid. Literally do what you want.

There are people on here shipping Solas and Cassandra (I am people).

Literally do what you want. Please! We are better than this!

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