reedingisfundamental

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just found out chris hansen was legit born the SAME DATE my dad was

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i have a crazy stalker who is in love with me and my mom is microdosing mushrooms. what the fuck is my life

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me when i eat bread bc i haven’t had a reaction in a while

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being in a place where i can cook a frozen pizza whenever i want is… so freeing. i gotta move out

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dogs can be celiac. mainly soft coated WHEATen terriers. life is a joke

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gonna buy a bud light tall boy and pour it out on the day my dad passed. he might’ve been an alcoholic but he was still my dad. my papa

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papa, my one tat for you isn’t enough i need another. i need you to know im sorry for not looking at you while you were dying. i need you to know im sorry.

papa i miss you. papa im sorry. papa i should’ve held your hand. but you were so cold.

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dearest dad, you’d be so proud of brendan. maybe not me. probably not me. not me. college dropout. i miss you and im sorry.

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almost my dads death-anniversary. i miss you bryan. i miss you so much. i wish you got better instead of getting worse. i wish you where there for me instead of being a shell of yourself. i wish i didn’t watch you die. i wish i didn’t see you pumped full of morphine. i wish you were still around. i miss you. maybe some part of me thinks you’re in some sort of purgatory. you had so many things you wanted to do… you never saw me graduate. maybe this year i’ll bring my hs diploma to where your ashes are spread. maybe ill watch the live stream with you. maybe ill print my picture and burn it where you are. maybe you’ll know how much i miss you.

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scrolling through my own blog like people read their great great great grandmother’s diary…. getting adds for mental health resources. unrelated charlotte reed needed therapy

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what is 225 days? really? i’m struggling so bad

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ruining my sobriety would be so easy….. it’s so hard to be sober… i’m struggling but idk how to ask for help…. mmm

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having real bad vice cravings. too scared to talk about it. not scared enough to post about it. bbg if you see this im sorry we haven’t spoken but every second of every day im thinking about you know what. and all im letting myself focus on is work

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put duracell batteries in my vibe. BZZZZZT I feel alive.

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if i had a nickel for every doordash driver that had a traditionally female name but actually ended up being a man i’d have enough to just… have a butler

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eating a bag of cheese cubes. i would run over a man for a grilled cheese and tomato soup rn

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woke up in the middle of the night HONGRY as hell. microwaved some chickey nuggies. thought i ate them all. looked back at my plate. mystery nuggie to help me through the turmoil