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"I Got Lost" by Marfa Tymchenko, 1997

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Russia invading Ukraine is one of the most morally clear-cut conflicts, period. A former empire, much larger than its neighbour/prior colony, invades it due to longstanding revanchist fantasies of reclaiming its lost imperial glory. The smaller country has to fight back to ensure its survival, especially since its aggressor has repeatedly stated its intent to wipe it out even if it submits. Someone who supports Russian irredentism and imperialist warmongering is either someone profoundly ideologically poisoned, evil, or both.

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my Eternal note to Self

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"It is the person you imagine yourself to be that suffers, not you. Dissolve it in awareness. It is merely a bundle of memories and habits." (Nisargadatta Maharaj)

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Kolomyjka, by Teodor Axentowicz

The kolomyjka is a Hutsul music genre that combines a fast pace folk dance and goofy-rhymed verses. It originated in the eastern Galician town of Kolomyia (Hutsulshchyna). It was historically popular among the Poles and Ukrainians, and is also known in northeastern Slovenia (as the kalamajka).

Kolomyjkas are still danced in Ukraine, as a tradition on certain holidays, during festivities, or simply for fun. In Ukraine’s rural west, they are popular dances for weddings. In North America, the kolomyjka is primarily a social dance. Participants form a circle, joining hands. The dance begins with the participants turning the circle, usually counter clockwise, then clockwise. Further into the dance, soloists will perform in the centre of the circle.

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My Weekend, Orest Bachmaha, 1987

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-Anaïs Nin, 1939

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The smallest bra size they sell in stores is still 3x too big for me, it just rides up all day and the cups just hold 66.6% air, it’s the dumbest thing ever, literal most useless objects I own and I hate how it looks, but I am obligated to wear them because for some reason we in society have deemed the artificial half-sphere shape of a bra cup under clothing “professional” while the slope of natural breasts, even with no nippleage, is considered “unprofessional.”

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who are you when you are not watching tv or movies? when you aren't playing video games or reading a book or fanfiction or listening to music or whatever other kind of media that you engage with? who are you when your mind isn't in another world or story, when you are forced to sit with yourself and the only experience you have is your own sensorial life? can you define yourself outside of what you consume? who is that person? do you like them? can you bear it? can you bear it?

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1. Tapestry by Stefania Shabatura that depicts Cassandra and says: "Wake up, Troy! Death is coming for you", line from a poem by Ukrainian poet and writer Lesia Ukrainka.

2. Tapestry by Stefania Shabatura that depicts Lesia Ukrainka and quotes another Ukrainka's poem: "Either death or victory. These two roads will stand before us".

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I'm so interested in subtly disengaging from imagined pressures to be productive, especially in the body where the smallest movements can put you in an activated "on-call" state. We learned orthopedic techniques for thoracic outlet syndrome in last night's class and I realized how many of us across all lifestyles have our arms in front of us most of the time, even though our arms have the strongest structural integrity when they are at our sides. The shoulder joint cavity is actually quite shallow, and the head of the humerus is less likely to dislocate when the arm isn't reaching in front of you. And while my teacher was talking, I realized that my arms were in front of me, as if prepared to do work, but there wasn't work to be done, and the subtle shift of putting my hands at my side is like clocking out

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Eider ducks sound as though you’ve just told them a very interesting fact or juicy gossip.

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"I'm too special to be just a woman" has got to be the most annoying form of female nonbinarism they've come up with.

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lately

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it’s really sad to see how feminism has become a joke in academia. using a feminist approach in your work is rarely taken seriously. a feminist lens is perceived either as trivializing of the work at hand, or as an intentional misunderstanding of it, because you are viewed as some kind of bitter, childish feminist that cannot comprehend the works true meaning through the blinders of your whiny man-hating. perhaps this isn’t the case at all universities, but in my experience as a student i have found that a feminist lens is often seen as a cheap or easy way out of more “productive” analysis. the lens of queer theory, a supposedly a more productive angle, is seen as inherently more intellectual and complex. and yet, i find this approach often complicates (or “queers”) things to an unnecessary extent, often to the point that the analysis seemingly renders the work meaningless—whereas feminism is much more useful for actually drawing conclusions.

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are you cat pretty, fox pretty, deer pretty, bunny pretty, jellyfish pretty. are you gonna get rid of your hip dips or your strawberry legs or your baby cheeks or your vuvuzela arms. what’s your seasonal color, have you had a personal color analysis. what’s your kibbe body type. what’s your aesthetic, what kind of vibe are you tryna give. have you tried the butt pencil test. have you tried the charcoal face mask. what about the charcoal toothpaste. have you tried sleeping with mouth tape on to get a better jawline. are you saving up for veneers or a BBL or a boob job. are you beer tanning this summer. have you optimized your shower routine. did you know that not making facial expressions keeps you from getting wrinkles. do you wanna learn how to be “That Girl.” do you wanna get the fox eye surgery or buccal fat removal. are you a girl boss or a bimbo. have you tried the hair identifier spray. are you gonna hide your double lip line. are you gonna get that liquid nose job. is your face card serving. does your pinky overlap your thumb when you wrap them around your wrist. how big is your nose gap. what’s your canthal tilt. did you know you can treat smile lines.

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one of my favourite idioms my ukrainian grandma tells me is more like a short story that goes like "two old women (баби) spent 7 years in prison talking. when they got released they sat down on a bench in front of the prison and continued talking"