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I think it's def normal from an ED perspective. I have a different experience where if I can't finish smth but already calculated it I get excited at eating less than what I calculated, but does stress me not knowing exactly how much I've eaten when I throw the leftovers. Does mean when I go back over my calories in at the end of the day I'll see the number like "XYZ" and in my head I'm like "Ooh but it's actually less than that".

Feels so weird typing that out

guys is this normal ed behaviour or me specific ed behaviour? do you have to finish your food if it's carefully calculated because you already tracked the calories even if you're not hungry anymore and have no desire to finish it? Because I have to finish it, I can't throw it away, I calculate all my food in it's pre cooked form so there's no way to tell how many calories are in the cooked version which also means I can't save it for the next day. Not eating it would be the logical solution but the calories are already logged in my app!!!!

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53.8kg now and, again, I've eaten today

Weight now 53.85kg even though I've eaten today so that's crazy lowkey

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Weight now 53.85kg even though I've eaten today so that's crazy lowkey

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Still at the same weight despite continuing to restrict but ?? maintenance is better than gain ig

Currently at my LW (54.05kg). Aiming to break 53kg for Tuesday when I have my next weigh-in.

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fresh future ed goal for me- have at least a few people ask if i've eaten that day, regularly

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Currently at my LW (54.05kg). Aiming to break 53kg for Tuesday when I have my next weigh-in.

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— I Guess the Old You is a Ghost (#589: June 25, 2014)

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Artwork by: Gusfink🖤

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“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

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today i revealed my weight to a boy in my class and he proceeded to tell me how light i was and literally CURLED me and did push ups with me on top of him. not to mention the other people who started gathering around me literally to just TOUCH MY HANDS because of how "bone-y" they are. im so fucking proud of my progress.

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my bad

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50 reasons to lose weight ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

so your s/o can pick you up effortlessly

free piggy back rides from your friends

so you don't have to worry about being too heavy when you sit in someone's lap

so people will lend you their clothes (and they'll be too big on you)

when people buy you clothes, they'll get the smallest size (and worry that a size S might be too big)

someone from a k-beauty youtube video said "losing weight makes you 10x prettier"

to fit into petite and aesthetic clothes (eg brandy melville)

so you don't have the gross feeling of your skin touching (thighs rubbing together, stomach rolls, etc)

to look effortlessly beautiful doing anything

you'll sweat less

to look good in tight clothes

to be able to wear revealing outfits and still look cute

you'll look cute and small in oversized clothes, instead of looking bigger

so you can wear a bikini

to feel more confident

people will treat you better

if you stick to it and work hard to lose the weight, then you'll be better than everyone who has failed to do so. you're willpower and self-control will be admired and envied by your peers

people will pay more attention to you

people will worry and care about you more

for the skinny/pretty privilege

to make people jealous of you

to prove that you can

to look good wearing anything, even if it isn't a good outfit

so you won't be anxious about being weighed at the doctor's

to look prettier in pictures

so you can go clothes shopping without being insecure

no more dressing room breakdowns

so your s/o can fit their fingers around your wrists and their hands around your thighs (or so you can do it yourself)

for the thigh gap (duh)

to be small enough to use your s/o as a bed

so your s/o can easily lift you with one hand

so your sh scars (if you have any) look more "aesthetic" (idrk how to explain it, but scars always look prettier on thinner limbs

to be desirable

you'll have a higher chance of people stopping you on the street for photographs/modeling scouts/etc

to be more attractive

you'll use less products (body wash, lotion) if there's less of you (so you'll end up saving money too!)

people will take you more seriously

you'll be able to move through crowds easier

to boost your self-esteem, feel better about yourself, and be happier

you can purchase the smallest size when shopping online and you won't have to worry about it being too small

to be able to shop at cute online shops that only carry smaller sizes (brandy, yesstyle, other asian stores)

to look good while eating, instead of like a fat, greedy pig...

to finally be in control

so you don't feel jealous/sad when you see other people's bodies/thinspo, because THEY'LL be envying YOU

to have your pics/bodychecks put in a thinspo compilation

to finally feel pretty

to take up less space

to be able to wear low rise bottoms

so you can talk about your weight and not feel ashamed

if you actually stick to it and restrict, your appetite/stomach will be a lot smaller once you reach your ugw, so you'll naturally eat less!!

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I love getting the highest grades in class.

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Remember your goals. Remember why you're working hard, remember why you try.