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Day 12 - Drunken / Sloppy Kiss

Every game of "Spin the Bottle" will eventually end like this. Everyone else just leaves.

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[Masterpost]

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Anyway

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Every single odd number has an “e” in it.

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tite

Masarap 🥰

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It was supposed to be a pretend crush tlga. Like you know, nag iingay ako sa socmed on purpose para makita ni (Redeacted) kasi may suspicion pako na they still maintain contact with my ex and inuupdate nya sya sa buhay ko ganun?? Medyo di kona kasi trust si (Redacted) eh. Pagkalat/pagchismis ba naman mga rs problems namin nung ex ko nung kami pa. It's probably because they hate my ex from the start pero kasi those thoughts I ranted to them were personal eh. For them to just pagchismisan sa iba mga sinasabi ko sa kanya just hurts me and my trust for them. Kaya di na ako masyadong nagkkwento sa kanya like I used to eh.

Pero ayun, I can feel that this pretend happy crush is nagiging totoo na? Happy crush lang naman eh. No big deal. Idgaf din kung malaman nya kasi by that point siguro nawala na ung gantong feelings ko sa kanya. PERO SANA MAWALA NA TO KASI MUKHA SYANG STRAIGHT TLGA. I don't mean to assume sexualities because that's wrong pero I'm not fucking dumb. It's obvious na straight siya eh. Sadyang pinapadelulu lang ako ng mga friends ko na bi or pan sya.

UN LANG TUMBLR. SEE YOU NEXT RANT.

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Tumblr tlga takbuhan ko pag need ko magrant

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Yeah, this wasn't the right course for me. Why did I even choose this one? Fuck, I want a one year break. I want to shift to another course. The problem is I don't even know what course to take. I have no clear direction in my life, no idea how I go on my life. I don't know shit except for the fact that I want to die. All my life, all I've done was just going with the flow. Great plan, genius. Now, I don't where the fuck I am. I don't know what I should do, don't know where I should go, don't know who to rely on, don't know why the fuck am I here, I KNOW NOTHING.

I want a restart in life.

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I'd say I'm self deprecating right now but Cambridge Dictionary defines the term as "trying to make yourself, your abilities, or your achievements seem less important" and I have none, so what am I even doing right now...?

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I should be reviewing for my quiz tomorrow and cramming my requirements, but no, I'm scrolling on every social media I have in my phone.

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Don't mind me. I'm just in my sadboi hours bullshit.

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My face when the laptop and I are having a staring contest again because I don't know what to fucking put in my fucking script for our report.

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Me in the shower

I turn on the shower expecting cold water to hit me. My dumbass already flinching in advance fo the upcoming cold water.

Nothing comes out. My body relaxes, leaving me wondering if the shower is really on.

"Wait, wha—" a wave of cold water hits my face as I instinctively jump and internally scream from the sudden cold on my body.

EVERY. FUCKING. TIME. AND I NEVER LEARN. EVER.

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Don't like when people think he's a heartless asshole 💔