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michael saying he relates to clara is so funny he's so final girl coded to me. sometimes an eldest daughter is a guy. he's having yellow wallpaper experiences hellbound heart experiences. did anyone see that shit why is everyone pretending they didn't see that shit. william punts a baby across the hurricane high football field and michael is like W. TH. LOOK!!!! and the town hits him with the Crazy Old Maurice... He Was In Here Last Night, Raving. rip to him he would have loved phineas and ferb.

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analysis of fucked up hurt comfort below the cut because i talked about this last night. cw for abuse, manipulation, dissociation, and restraint of a mentally ill person.

pleasy peasy?: William's way of dealing with Michael's meltdowns is not helpful. In part because like. He cannot distinguish between Mike having a schizoaffective attack and Mike having a justified crashout. He treats them exactly the same and while sometimes it helps the former it almost never helps the latter.* What he's doing honestly is like. I'd liken it to restraining an autistic person. He's not even shutting down the explosion he's holding Michael in place and telling him to stop until the fear response flips from fight to freeze. And there are like. Two paths this takes. One is Michael exhausts himself, the emotions are never addressed, and he perceives William as comforting because he has no one else and he's just so tired. The other is Michael can still remember the underlying cause of the meltdown but also understands in a sort of primal way that William won't hear it and that if he keeps pushing William will probably snap. So he dissociates. I think about Jennette McCurdy talking about how she would mentally go to Disneyland. Sometimes William is too much, including and maybe especially when Michael is having a meltdown, and Michael's needs aren't being met and he just ejects himself. He lets his body deal with whatever is happening and he mentally walks away.

pleasy peasy?: I think sometimes William just fucking goes at him over nothing and he turns off. Like. Grabs his own consciousness and hurls it as far away as possible. Sometimes they'll be arguing, maybe Michael even started it, and he just hits capacity and is like either we have a major heart attack here and now or we go away for a bit. Very parallel to [movie Michael] like. These are boys who are being pushed to their limit mentally and their brains are fighting to keep them functional.

* I think William's methods actually help with the psychotic episodes. He's good at grounding Michael without feeding the delusion. The issue is when Michael isn't psychotic, and is in fact rightly pointing out real shit William did, William can also treat it like a delusion, and it's demeaning and unhelpful and has shades of gaslighting. Sometimes this is an honest mistake and sometimes it's intentional.

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fucked up hurt/comfort. the person who stabbed you tends to your wound. the person who killed your loved one helps you grieve.

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they say you can't pour from an empty cup but i've been doing it my whole life and aside from all of these mysterious ailments it's working out great for me

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Yeah, the doctors ran some blood work and discovered I was actually the Thing all along. No, I don't know if my insurance will cover it

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stephen king has such rock solid trust in his own ability to write. he's oozing a very specific white male confidence that usually leads to some truly boring art. the sad thing is he's really fucking good at it and i think if he didn't have whatever worm in his brain that tells him that he can capture the voice of an abused ten year old or a sixty year old woman or a teenage girl being molested by her father or the only black kid in a white school, we would miss out on a lot of good shit. like every part of me believes he shouldn't say that and there have been books/short stories/recurrent themes of his that make me groan, but nobody else has handed me middle aged lesbians in maine quite like this. the raft and the monkey suck so much ass but stand by me is in fact that good. it (the book) is in fact that good. the mist is that good. he wrote an entire novel from the perspective of a mother who killed her husband to protect the kids and i don't think a single alarm went off in my head screaming 'man writes woman' the way it does with, say, steve perry. i do not think that half the horror authors i've read could do carrie. people adapting carrie can't even do carrie. anyways sometimes he misses but i think king has the ability to really step out of his own head when writing perspective and it's something i admire. zero panopticon pure vibes.

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lets play throw each other down the concrete staircase

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starter... call.

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uhhh shoot me an ask and i'll do a five minute sketch of your character.

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bisexual bomb under the cut cw for internalised homophobia and calling henry straight.

i tap the sign like moses and the tablets i am not swallowing the idea of outwardly fruity theatre kid william with the limp wrist who does serial killing because he's gay. i'm not buying that from scott donates to trump cawthon. he can be queer but i'm not spending pride month uncritically spouting the same take the fandom's had for a decade and someday we are gonna talk about fnaf, fandom, and misogyny. someday.

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i just can’t get behind father figure henry like. the lobotomy. the lack of communication. the locking in a burning building. the idea of marrying these two concepts is so unhinged (complimentary?) like if we must have father figure henry i wanna see people incorporating the fact that henry just did not talk to michael about the simulator, would have had him committed if he found out, and did not ask whether or not he wanted to burn to death but did it for him. like yes that’s the man i consider my son. i would fuck up his prefrontal cortex if he asked me what i’m up to. i would lie to get him locked up in an asylum. i am going to shut him up in an office and light the building on fire then tell him i assumed he wanted that. i care about him and he is my front line against killer robots and i am not letting him in on the plan <3

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i'd like to thank apollo for this clarity of sight.

i think henry hates or at the very least has complicated negative feelings towards michael but instead of focusing on the lobotomy i'd like to cite my two other reasons for the court.

he looks like the fucking hatman. every time henry looks at him he sees his sleep paralysis demon. he's like oh that's approximately the last thing my daughter saw and white knuckles his clipboard. this is involuntary and he probably knows it's wrong but he can't help it and can we blame him. if i saw the facetwin of my child's murderer my hands would move before my brain could catch up i'd lay them out flat then have to apologise.

michael committed fratricide in henry's prized fursuit, rendering it unusable for all the grey matter that got splattered around the inside of the mouth. absolutely traumatising. his fursona forced to pop that child's head like une watermelon. in front of god and everyone. literally the killer like he has very tangible proof that michael is serial killer coded before you factor the body and the blood.

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so many fnaf thoughts in my head send asks.

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i warned you all i would become a fucking insufferable person the second a springtrap was nice to me. getting killed twice by matt lillard into a game springtrap who came into parts and services with me and kept hitting the workbench rewired my brain chemistry.