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rintaco · 2 years

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𝐘𝐎𝐔, 𝐌𝐄, 𝐇𝐈𝐌: (𝐈)

suna x reader (fem)

angst. slight fluff. 4.1k words

chapter one. (why do you come, when it’s already too late?) summary: suna knows you, and you know him. yet despite all of your feelings for each other, would it be enough to brave the tests of life? or is it just futile efforts leading to fruitless outcomes?

Love wasn’t something that he’d say he prioritised. He’d always been one to think that if he ended up dying alone, then that’s that. That he’ll be fine with it. That it doesn’t really matter. Maybe that’s why he couldn’t see. Maybe that’s why he never recognised it; his own habits, behavior, emotions.

Not until he’s been brought to this point.

Suna’s sitting in his car in the pouring rain, jacket hood pulled over his head, head slumped over the wheel, vehicle parked right outside your apartment complex. He sighs; it’s been a long day.

Suna knew. Suna’s always known.

You’re a good person. Down to your bones. Every fibre of your being screamed good. Everything your parents wanted, you’d adhere to them.

You’d always scored good grades, even back when he first got to know you in high school. Suna found out later on that it was because your mother’s family owned a huge pharmaceutical company, and that your parents were both strict businesspeople. That was why you strove so hard to mirror even a little of such success. Both you and Suna were always taking turns topping classes. That was where all your banter started. Though, you were a peaceful person above all. You’d always play mediator. No matter who was fighting.

Yeah he remembers. Why wouldn’t he?

There was a time when you argued with him. The only bad part was that he couldn’t fucking remember why. But it took a toll. Usually when you two fought it’d be over in a matter of seconds because either of you would give in.

But that situation was different.

It was bad. It got bad to the point where that was the first time he let his best friend go to sleep angry. Sad. Frustrated. It was bad to the point where Suna felt that same way. Couldn’t even fall asleep. It was bad to the point where he saw the circles under your eyes get darker the next day he saw you at school. The guilt had gnawed at him the entire day.

You ignored him when he asked if you could talk. Pushed past his shoulder. Forcefully and all.

He remembers you ignoring him for three days straight. He remembers not wanting to be on bad terms with you anymore. Because fuck, you’re his best friend. And he was just a teenager at age seventeen who didn’t know shit about the world—but if he could be absolutely sure of one thing? It was that the world would suck without you in his life.

It was criminal how someone could have a hold over someone else like you had over him. Didn’t even have a normal appetite for those three days because you ignored his texts. Couldn’t even hit a good spike during training because you chose to greet Atsumu at the court but not him. Made him realise that his girlfriend at the time didn’t mean shit next to you.

Suna straightens up, eyes widening. Now he remembers why you were fighting.

EIGHT YEARS AGO

“So, should I go with her?”

You deadpanned. It was almost funny how unamused you were. “Are you high?”

“No.”

“Then why are you asking a dumb question?”

“Aren’t you the one who’s always calling me a dumbass?”

“Didn’t think you were this dumb, though.”

A pregnant pause filled the room. Your fingers on the controller stopped moving. Suna won that round. But he toggled the off button for his switch. The screen turned blank.

Neither of you spoke for a while.

“Chill out, would you?”

That was the night that Suna learned telling you to ‘chill out’ during a fight was a no-go.

“Whatever, Rin,” you sighed, tossing the controller onto his bed behind you. You were grabbing your bag. All Suna could remember was feeling indignant because what the fuck was up with you? “Why don’t you just ask Rokka to come over? I’m leaving.”

You were pouting. He could hear it in your voice. But he didn’t fucking get it.

(He should’ve. In hindsight, he really should’ve.)

“Dude, what the fuck?”

(That wasn’t the way to go either.)

You were silent. Uncharacteristically silent. Usually if it was an argument that wasn’t too serious you’d be an ass. Just spouting words that made sense to you and then Suna would relegate his loss and then you’d force him to buy you ice cream even if it was twelve fucking a.m. and the both of you had classes the next day.

“Let it go, Rin.” The defeat in your voice wasn’t one he recognised. It was like you telling him I’m tired of talking, can we just drop this? And he didn’t want to.

You were being weird and Suna wanted to get to the bottom of it. But he was stubborn. And impatient. And impulsive. And spiteful.

Yeah, mostly spiteful. Spiteful because he wanted to hear something from you, but you never said the words.

In that moment, just before you started walking toward the door, he scoffed. He’d already dialled his (then) girlfriend’s number, and she’d picked up within seconds. Like always. For him.

“Hey, baby?”

“Yeah, Rin?” She sounded unusually happy. Probably because Suna didn’t use petnames too often with her back then.

“Think you could come over?” For a split second, he thought he almost saw you turn around. He wonders now what expression was on your face then. But you didn’t turn around. So Suna took it as his cue to be an ass. “Had a fight with someone. Wanna come over? Would be nice to talk to a pretty face for a change today.”

He knew. He knew it was a dick move. Yet he did it anyway. Because he was dumb. Fucking dumb, just like you always pointed out. But you had said them playfully. Yet he knew at that moment he deserved it. He knew his words would hurt you—and that was why he did it.

For some reason, you unintentionally hurt him. And that was him getting back at you, childish as it was.

Suna didn’t even wait for Rokka to respond, he just hung up then and there. He just wanted you to hear what he said. He just wanted to hurt you. In that one single moment. That single second. But the moment you actually turned around, whatever softness you had toward him before had vanished.

You were angry. And he’d never seen you angry. Not at him. Your ire was never directed at him. Until then. And then he realised what he’d done.

He hurt you. He hurt his best friend. On purpose. Just because of something he didn’t yet realise. If the roles were reversed, he knew you wouldn’t have done the same to him. You were better than him. You always were.

“Fuck you, Suna Rintarou.” You spat that in his face. And then slammed his bedroom door shut.

[ PRESENT ]

Even now he can remember your eyes when you spat those words at him. Since then he made himself promise that he would never do anything that’d upset you that much again. He drew a line he’d force himself never to cross. It stumped him back then, why he would do such a thing for anyone.

Doesn’t come as a surprise to himself now. He knows why. He could lose anyone—but not you. It took him way too long to realise, to admit to himself, but he’s run out of excuses. He had six whole damn months to do this, but look at him now. It’s so fucking corny that he’s laughing at himself.

Because now he’s at the precipice.

If he doesn’t do something, he just might lose you for good. The first step is for him to get out the fucking door so why can’t he bring himself to? A part of him wants to think it’s wrong of him and that he shouldn’t go through with this, but another part of him is telling him that what’s wrong is not saying a thing at all.

His green eyes flick up; your apartment’s on the eighth floor. The lights are on. You’re awake. He chuckles to himself. It’s 2am and you’re awake. 2am. Just like that night eight years prior. Except you’re both all grown up now. And that you have a big day tomorrow.

He can’t help but wonder— are you nervous? Excited? A part of him doesn’t want to admit that he wishes you’re feeling regretful.

On a normal day, he’d shake that small part of him away. But not tonight. He won’t do that tonight. He can’t.

He remembers Osamu’s words from earlier: if you don’t do it now you’ll regret it forever. He remembers Kita’s too: that’s what I’ve been trying to figure out myself too—why haven’t you done it sooner? Hell, even Atsumu’s words made sense.

Might wanna hurry up before you really lose her, you dumb fuck. As entertaining as it it, don’t really wanna see you being a loser your whole life.

A ghost of a smile graces Suna’s lips. He really is a dumb fuck. He came all the way here, what the fuck else is he waiting for? Atsumu’s right. He doesn’t ever want to lose you. In any sense of the word.

So there he is, on a Tuesday night, at 2am in the morning, getting out of his car into the pouring rain and running to your apartment. There he is, shooting his first shot with you since the ten years that he’s known you. There he is, fucking shivering in your apartment lobby, getting into the lift—hair matted wet against his face and wearing his heart on his sleeve.

It’s like he’s possessed by something he can’t explain—his feet takes him to your door, the familiar mahogany wood a welcoming sight. Anything he could relate to you would be anything good.

Even the way he knocks on your door feels foreign because he can’t remember the last time he did something that felt this right.

And when you open the door and see him outside in this state, your eyes widen. But they welcome him, still. They always do. Because that’s how you feel too, don’t you?

Yeah, you will always feel for Suna Rintarou. Just like how he will always feel for you.

EIGHT YEARS AGO.

Three days after you flipped out at Suna for being an ass, you started hating yourself for not being able to sleep well.

It was stupid. He was stupid. Such an asshole. Who the fuck dates a girl for a year and then ask their best friend if they should uproot their lives just to follow their girlfriend to a whole other continent?

Volleyball. Scholarship. Family. He had so much to stay in Japan for. So why the fuck was he even seriously considering it? Did they mean nothing to him?

…did you?

Maybe you should’ve just said something. But either way, it’d paint you in a bad light, wouldn’t it?

Your eyes caught sight of the digital clock on your nightstand. 2am. You’d been having a horrible time trying to sleep these past few days. Your phone was vibrating on your study desk. You didn’t want to pick it up. It could only be Suna, and you were still mad at him for what he said.

Insulting you to your face wasn’t something you’d stand for. Even if he thought Rokka was prettier than you, the least he could do was keep it to himself.

You really shouldn’t have wasted your tears over him that night. It wasn’t worth it. He probably started making out with Rokka the minute she came anyway, thoughts of his best friend hurriedly pushed aside. You thought it was pathetic how you could be thinking that and still be tearing up.

The knock on your window seemed to make them stop though. Your brows furrowed; half afraid of what was there. Logical reasoning told you it was Suna himself, but the dumb part of you thought it might be a ghost. The moment you opened your curtains, Suna may as well have been a ghost. He was wearing all white and face pale as a sheet. And for a moment there, you forgot that you swore to yourself you wouldn’t talk to him.

“What are you doing here in the middle of the night?” You were half-whispering half-screaming at him. As much as you wanted to make his ears bleed, you’d rather not wake your parents up. That was a whole other kind of hell to deal with.

Suna only offered a sheepish smile, the boyish gaze slipping through the gaps in his bangs. He climbed in slowly, sidestepping the clothes you’d tossed on the floor of your room. He’d been in here so many times you didn’t doubt he knew every inch of your room as well as you did.

“Someone wouldn’t pick up my calls.”

You shut the window, glad that you couldn’t see his expression right then. A sigh escaped your lips as you drew the curtains shut, deciding to interrogate him on how exactly he managed to climb up three storeys to your window.

“Someone is mad at you,” you replied, opting to ignore him standing there completely and just climbed under your covers again. They were perfectly comfortable and he was the culprit that got you out of them in the first place. He could stand in the middle of your room all night for all you cared.

He didn’t, though. He sat gently down at the side of your bed, careful not to get any part of you. Suna wasn’t looking directly at you, gaze fixed instead on what you thought may have been the most interesting piece of wall ever if he was staring at it that intently.

“I’m sorry.”

It wasn’t shocking that he was. As much as Suna seemed to be aloof most of the time and as much as he goofed around, he had always been perceptive. You’d always known that. What stunned you was the fact that he outright said it. He didn’t. Not usually.

The Suna you knew liked to go through an entire round of bullshit before he’d say anything close to an apology. The Suna you knew always hid behind tough words to convey his feelings. The Suna you knew was dumb, and an ass, and would rather die than ever admit he was wrong.

Yet here he was. Apologising as if it was something he said often.

It wasn’t until he turned to look at you slightly that you realised you’d been silent all along and burning a hole in his face. And if he’d come close enough, you thought that maybe you could confirm if those really were tears threatening to spill from the edges of his eyes.

A smirk lit his expression up. “I know I’m hot but quit staring,” he teased.

You thought he was but like hell were you admitting it. It was one of the traits you shared with him.

“Fuck off, Rin.” You were pouting. But unlike the other day, you felt better. Warmer inside. Like everything was fine again. You weren’t letting that comment slide easily—if he thought everything was okay just because of a damn apology he had another thing coming.

All you wanted was a peaceful night again without thoughts of Suna’s hurtful words disturbing it. As much as your logic screamed at you that he didn’t mean it, a nagging feeling at the back of your head kept thinking he did. And you didn’t know why his opinion mattered so much. Not back then. Before you could even think of opening your mouth and giving him a piece of your mind, you felt a hand on your cheek.

Opening your eyes, you found Suna’s clear green eyes inches away from your face. He had moved to squatting next to your bed, face level with yours. He wasn’t staring at anything in particular—you could see he was deep in thought—but his gaze happened to rest on your lips, and you were doing everything you could not to tremble.

“I didn’t mean any of it, y’know?” His voice was low and hoarse. His thumb was tracing circles on your cheek. “I was frustrated, and ended up saying something I didn’t mean.”

You understood. You were frustrated that day too. You didn’t really understand why you were. You just were.

If Suna didn’t sound sincere, you would’ve swatted his hand away, but he was your best friend—you knew he was genuine. Suna would never put on an act like this. He was being real.

“I hate you for that, Suna Rintarou.” You closed your eyes; you didn’t think you could handle staring at his perfect face any longer than you already were. He was too close. His fingers were too warm. His lips felt too far.

He chuckled. “How ‘bout I make it up to you, hm?” His thumb was still tracing circles. Your eyes were closed but you felt like you could feel him actually staring at you this time. You didn’t dare to open your eyes. You didn’t want to be wrong.

“Then you’ll probably spend your entire life trying to make it up to me.”

“You proposing to me already? Way too early, babe.”

You get up and hit him on the shoulder for his joke. Plus, you had to turn around. You’d rather not let him see your flustered expression. Was this really what you felt for him?

“Don’t ‘babe’ me. Shut up before Rokka flies over here and slaps the shit out of me for trying to steal her boyfriend.”

Suna was laughing, and you could feel the mattress sink under his weight as he sat beside your sleeping body. He leaned down, and this time, his lips were way too close. You could feel his hot breath fanning against your ear.

“Don’t worry your pretty little head, I broke up with her a couple days ago.”

“What?”

You felt like a terrible person for feeling a little hopeful about the fact that he was single again. Rokka hadn’t always been extremely nice to you, but that poor girl probably felt hurt too. After all, all you could recall about her was her swooning publicly over Suna all the time.

“Yeah, it just wasn’t working out.” There was something in the tone of his voice that made you feel like you shouldn’t pry further. And normally you’d ignore that, but this time you listened.

“And now you come crying to me or something?”

Suna scoffed. “Nah, I just really missed my best friend and wanted to tell her how pretty she is.”

Any normal person would think that anyone saying that was just trying their luck, but luckily you knew him better than that. He wasn’t lying, but with the amount of things he was saying now that he doesn’t usually say, he’d gotten your heart beating out of your chest.

“Shut—”

“I’ll never do that to you again,” he blurted out before you could finish your sentence. “I promise.”

You didn’t know what that was referring to, but you accepted it anyway. You missed your best friend too, after all.

“You better.”

“I promise,” he repeated.

He kept it.

[ PRESENT ]

“Rin? What’re you doing here?”

Seeing Suna out of breath and showing up at your apartment at 2am brings back memories. Except the previous time he wasn’t soaked from the rain. And this time, you aren’t fighting.

So why’s he here at 2am? You can’t think of anything that could be going wrong.

“Don’t go through with it.”

Your heart drops. It’s not what you expected him to say. You don’t understand a thing. “What?”

Suna swallows the lump in his throat. He sees the way you’re looking at him like he’s a madman. And you should. He’s saying things he shouldn’t be. “Don’t marry him.”

You don’t know how to feel. A part of you has always loved Suna. A part of you loves him in a way you can’t explain. But can you really throw everything aside just for him? Just because he decides to show up twelve hours before your wedding and tells you not to go through with it?

“Are you high?”

This time, Suna isn’t going to answer wrong.

“I’ve never been this sane in the longest fucking time,” he tells you, taking one of your hands in his.

It tears your heart in two to even be having this conversation. “What are you talking about, Rin?”

He holds your hand tighter. “I love you.”

It’s weird. Weird to finally hear it. Weird to think that all along your feelings were the same. Weird to be feeling conflicted when at one point of time you thought you’d give anything to hear him say those words.

But a lot’s changed in eight years.

“I’m sorry it took me this long to say it, but—”

“And I’m sorry but… I can’t.”

There. You said it. You yank your hand away from his, and you have no guts to look him in the eyes. It was hard enough for you to say no to him. You can’t afford to sway now.

For a few seconds, the both of you just stand there in silence. It feels like hours though. Suna’s taken aback by the lack of feedback. He doesn’t understand it either. He knows you feel the same. So why won’t you?

“I know it’s selfish of me,” he says. He knows. “And I know it’s last minute—” he uses his fingers to tip your chin up to look at him. “But do you even love him?”

“That’s not fair.” You try to pull your hand away but he draws nearer to you.

Suna rests his forehead against yours. “It’s an arranged marriage,” he reminds you, eyes closed. “It’s purely for business, isn’t it? If you don’t want to go through with it, I’m sure your parents wouldn’t object.”

You want to tell him you didn’t have much of a choice. You want to tell him how much he overestimates your parents’ characters. You want to tell him that you’d put it off long enough. You want to scream at him for not confessing sooner.

So you steel your resolve.

“And what makes you think I don’t want this?”

“Do you?” Suna challenges.

You pull away to look him in the eyes. “Why wouldn’t I? He’s a great guy. He’s a gentleman, even if we aren’t all that close. He treats me well, and our parents get along great.”

“Do you love him?” Suna asks again.

You’re too tired to fight your feelings, so you resort to pushing him away. Your hand extends to push him away from your door, and you look at him one last time, the hand on the door handle trembling slightly. You want to tell him that you’ll see him tomorrow, but with what just went down, would he even still attend the wedding?

So you opt for another goodbye.

“Take care, Rin,” you whisper as you shut the door, your body crumbling to the ground as you sob your feelings out, hoping that Suna doesn’t hear a thing before he leaves.

A few minutes later, you hear the ding of the elevator and suppose that that’s Suna leaving. You hear his feet dragging against the floor, and you feel like the worst human being ever.

“Are you okay?”

The sudden voice startles you, but you look up to find a familiar face. Your soon-to-be husband. Despite only having known him for a short time, whatever you told Suna is true. He’s a decent man, you could tell.

“I couldn’t sleep and overheard you guys fighting.”

You force a smile. “Yeah, it’s nothing.”

You attempt to get up, only to find that he’s settling down beside you against the door. He looks at you through his black tresses and offers you a small smile.

“It’s not nothing if you’re crying like that,” he tells you. He feels warm. And you’re thankful you have him. You’re thankful that out of everyone, at least you didn’t get anyone creepy or insufferable. “You can tell me about it.”

He may not be Suna, but he understands you well, to a certain degree. The smile that appears on your face this time is a real one. “Thanks, S—”

“It’s been six months. Am I still that much of a stranger to you?” He cuts you off.

You giggle. You haven’t called him by his first name before, but it’s cute to see that it’s been bothering him. You don’t know if your mind’s going to change overnight, but you’re still grateful to have him here beside you.

Slowly, you rest your head in the crook of his neck. He smells clean, fresh. He always does. A small smile breaks through his usually stern expression after hearing your next words.

“Thanks, Kiyoomi.”

#queuing.#srb.

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rintaco · 2 years

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𝐘𝐎𝐔, 𝐌𝐄, 𝐇𝐈𝐌: (𝐈)

suna x reader (fem)

angst. slight fluff. 4.1k words

Not until he’s been brought to this point.

Suna’s sitting in his car in the pouring rain, jacket hood pulled over his head, head slumped over the wheel, vehicle parked right outside your apartment complex. He sighs; it’s been a long day.

Suna knew. Suna’s always known.

You’re a good person. Down to your bones. Every fibre of your being screamed good. Everything your parents wanted, you’d adhere to them.

Yeah he remembers. Why wouldn’t he?

But that situation was different.

You ignored him when he asked if you could talk. Pushed past his shoulder. Forcefully and all.

Suna straightens up, eyes widening. Now he remembers why you were fighting.

EIGHT YEARS AGO

“So, should I go with her?”

You deadpanned. It was almost funny how unamused you were. “Are you high?”

“No.”

“Then why are you asking a dumb question?”

“Aren’t you the one who’s always calling me a dumbass?”

“Didn’t think you were this dumb, though.”

A pregnant pause filled the room. Your fingers on the controller stopped moving. Suna won that round. But he toggled the off button for his switch. The screen turned blank.

Neither of you spoke for a while.

“Chill out, would you?”

That was the night that Suna learned telling you to ‘chill out’ during a fight was a no-go.

You were pouting. He could hear it in your voice. But he didn’t fucking get it.

(He should’ve. In hindsight, he really should’ve.)

“Dude, what the fuck?”

(That wasn’t the way to go either.)

“Let it go, Rin.” The defeat in your voice wasn’t one he recognised. It was like you telling him I’m tired of talking, can we just drop this? And he didn’t want to.

You were being weird and Suna wanted to get to the bottom of it. But he was stubborn. And impatient. And impulsive. And spiteful.

Yeah, mostly spiteful. Spiteful because he wanted to hear something from you, but you never said the words.

In that moment, just before you started walking toward the door, he scoffed. He’d already dialled his (then) girlfriend’s number, and she’d picked up within seconds. Like always. For him.

“Hey, baby?”

“Yeah, Rin?” She sounded unusually happy. Probably because Suna didn’t use petnames too often with her back then.

For some reason, you unintentionally hurt him. And that was him getting back at you, childish as it was.

You were angry. And he’d never seen you angry. Not at him. Your ire was never directed at him. Until then. And then he realised what he’d done.

“Fuck you, Suna Rintarou.” You spat that in his face. And then slammed his bedroom door shut.

[ PRESENT ]

Because now he’s at the precipice.

He can’t help but wonder— are you nervous? Excited? A part of him doesn’t want to admit that he wishes you’re feeling regretful.

On a normal day, he’d shake that small part of him away. But not tonight. He won’t do that tonight. He can’t.

Might wanna hurry up before you really lose her, you dumb fuck. As entertaining as it it, don’t really wanna see you being a loser your whole life.

It’s like he’s possessed by something he can’t explain—his feet takes him to your door, the familiar mahogany wood a welcoming sight. Anything he could relate to you would be anything good.

Even the way he knocks on your door feels foreign because he can’t remember the last time he did something that felt this right.

And when you open the door and see him outside in this state, your eyes widen. But they welcome him, still. They always do. Because that’s how you feel too, don’t you?

Yeah, you will always feel for Suna Rintarou. Just like how he will always feel for you.

EIGHT YEARS AGO.

Three days after you flipped out at Suna for being an ass, you started hating yourself for not being able to sleep well.

Volleyball. Scholarship. Family. He had so much to stay in Japan for. So why the fuck was he even seriously considering it? Did they mean nothing to him?

…did you?

Maybe you should’ve just said something. But either way, it’d paint you in a bad light, wouldn’t it?

Insulting you to your face wasn’t something you’d stand for. Even if he thought Rokka was prettier than you, the least he could do was keep it to himself.

“Someone wouldn’t pick up my calls.”

“I’m sorry.”

Yet here he was. Apologising as if it was something he said often.

A smirk lit his expression up. “I know I’m hot but quit staring,” he teased.

You thought he was but like hell were you admitting it. It was one of the traits you shared with him.

“I didn’t mean any of it, y’know?” His voice was low and hoarse. His thumb was tracing circles on your cheek. “I was frustrated, and ended up saying something I didn’t mean.”

You understood. You were frustrated that day too. You didn’t really understand why you were. You just were.

If Suna didn’t sound sincere, you would’ve swatted his hand away, but he was your best friend—you knew he was genuine. Suna would never put on an act like this. He was being real.

“Then you’ll probably spend your entire life trying to make it up to me.”

“You proposing to me already? Way too early, babe.”

You get up and hit him on the shoulder for his joke. Plus, you had to turn around. You’d rather not let him see your flustered expression. Was this really what you felt for him?

“Don’t ‘babe’ me. Shut up before Rokka flies over here and slaps the shit out of me for trying to steal her boyfriend.”

“Don’t worry your pretty little head, I broke up with her a couple days ago.”

“What?”

“And now you come crying to me or something?”

Suna scoffed. “Nah, I just really missed my best friend and wanted to tell her how pretty she is.”

“Shut—”

“I’ll never do that to you again,” he blurted out before you could finish your sentence. “I promise.”

You didn’t know what that was referring to, but you accepted it anyway. You missed your best friend too, after all.

“You better.”

“I promise,” he repeated.

He kept it.

[ PRESENT ]

“Rin? What’re you doing here?”

Seeing Suna out of breath and showing up at your apartment at 2am brings back memories. Except the previous time he wasn’t soaked from the rain. And this time, you aren’t fighting.

So why’s he here at 2am? You can’t think of anything that could be going wrong.

“Don’t go through with it.”

Your heart drops. It’s not what you expected him to say. You don’t understand a thing. “What?”

Suna swallows the lump in his throat. He sees the way you’re looking at him like he’s a madman. And you should. He’s saying things he shouldn’t be. “Don’t marry him.”

“Are you high?”

This time, Suna isn’t going to answer wrong.

“I’ve never been this sane in the longest fucking time,” he tells you, taking one of your hands in his.

It tears your heart in two to even be having this conversation. “What are you talking about, Rin?”

He holds your hand tighter. “I love you.”

But a lot’s changed in eight years.

“I’m sorry it took me this long to say it, but—”

“And I’m sorry but… I can’t.”

There. You said it. You yank your hand away from his, and you have no guts to look him in the eyes. It was hard enough for you to say no to him. You can’t afford to sway now.

“I know it’s selfish of me,” he says. He knows. “And I know it’s last minute—” he uses his fingers to tip your chin up to look at him. “But do you even love him?”

“That’s not fair.” You try to pull your hand away but he draws nearer to you.

So you steel your resolve.

“And what makes you think I don’t want this?”

“Do you?” Suna challenges.

You pull away to look him in the eyes. “Why wouldn’t I? He’s a great guy. He’s a gentleman, even if we aren’t all that close. He treats me well, and our parents get along great.”

“Do you love him?” Suna asks again.

So you opt for another goodbye.

“Take care, Rin,” you whisper as you shut the door, your body crumbling to the ground as you sob your feelings out, hoping that Suna doesn’t hear a thing before he leaves.

A few minutes later, you hear the ding of the elevator and suppose that that’s Suna leaving. You hear his feet dragging against the floor, and you feel like the worst human being ever.

“Are you okay?”

“I couldn’t sleep and overheard you guys fighting.”

You force a smile. “Yeah, it’s nothing.”

You attempt to get up, only to find that he’s settling down beside you against the door. He looks at you through his black tresses and offers you a small smile.

He may not be Suna, but he understands you well, to a certain degree. The smile that appears on your face this time is a real one. “Thanks, S—”

“It’s been six months. Am I still that much of a stranger to you?” He cuts you off.

Slowly, you rest your head in the crook of his neck. He smells clean, fresh. He always does. A small smile breaks through his usually stern expression after hearing your next words.

“Thanks, Kiyoomi.”

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