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#rkwonderland19 and*roma’s meiqi as the queen of hearts from alice in wonderland.

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rkchungha‌:

[ message to hottie 👅 ]

➤ yeah …. they took me in at the end of the month and told me i wasn’t up to par for them ➤ a bunch of elitists tbh ➤ it’s okay kt was kinda crappy anyways! i didn’t make a lot of friends ➤ lunch (and kisses)? please? ➤ ah yes let me get heated and besmirch katie lee in a public setting. lovely ➤ fuck DELETED! ➤ i want to kiss you DELETED! ➤ wow i miss you DELETED! ➤ you’re honestly precious when you go full arsonist 💞💞💞 ➤ when your girl is willing to commit a felony >>>>

[ txt mssg → chuu~ngha 😚]

✉️️ → im actually going to throw a fit ✉️️ → can i sue them? im texting my lawyer rn ✉️️ → honestly katie lee has no fucking taste these days ✉️️ → its like she debuted eclipse and now shes like everyone else sucks ✉️️ → we can get a private booth in the back and then you can besmirch her all you want ok ❤️ ✉️️ → id do anything for you ✉️️ → even if its illegal

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@rkchungha

[ message to hottie 👅 ]

➤ sooooo ➤ i am no longer a kt employed person ➤ minor set back but uh yeah ➤ i have a bunch of free time now want to grab lunch tomorrow babe?

txt mssg → chuu~ngha 😚]

✉️️ → excuse me what? ✉️️ → katie lee... that witch... ✉️️ → what happened?! ✉️️ → also yes!!! lunch!!! ❤️❤️ can’t wait to see u ✉️️ → i have to go practice but tell me all about it tomorrow okay? ✉️️ → me getting ready to burn down katie lee’s house ✉️️ → [ attached.png ] pretend its a candle not my lipstick ✉️️ → no one trusts me with dangerous things 🤧🤧🤧🔥

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⭐️ — clarity.

@soljirk​

sunmi’s confrontation reminds meiqi of another much-needed conversation (remind is a generous word, because meiqi would not have given it a second thought if it weren’t for the example their leader had set by approaching her). it did jarr her when she watched each sn project episode once back home, but not enough to address it until prompted in the slightest. 

meiqi finds solji in the middle of practice, asking to chat with her in the corner of the room, away from the rest of their members.

“did you watch the sn project episodes?” she hopes she’s not the only one to do it, because what they experienced and what was shown are very different. “in my first session with the coach… i said i was glad to not be rooming with you.”

she saw a few comments about the moment, almost all reacting negatively to what she said. meiqi hadn’t meant it maliciously, but if complete strangers could have taken it the wrong way, then there’s no guarantee that solji didn’t. “i didn’t mean it like that. it was supposed to be a joke but… truthfully, we haven’t taken the time to get to know each other too well, so i would have felt uncomfortable sharing the room with you. i don’t have the same feelings as i did back then anymore. i know i was wrong for saying that, so i hope you can forgive me for being rude.”

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rkmiya‌:

( ... )

“it’s not whether i’m right or wrong,” sunmi says, keeping her eye contact trained on the younger. “it’s whether you believe it. you have strengths i don’t. vice versa. you compare us because we’re both dancers but you also forget i have years on you. so it’s not the same. even then you can keep up with me. that only says more on your talents than my own. it took me five and a half years of training time, 23 years of constant dancing lessons to be right here where we are both standing together at this moment. you got here in a quarter of the training time and like an eighth of the years dedicated to dancing and you can match my level. whoever says you’re lacking is probably someone who either doesn’t know what they’re talking about or is some jackass who has never been a trainee in their life.”

meiqi hadn’t a clue about this. it’s not like she had paid any attention in particular to trainees (and certainly not back when sunmi had probably been signed! that was years ago, when meiqi was even more interested in herself and only herself; at least now she makes the attempt to stay updated on trainees, but only because she is one). “wow, you’re just good at everything, huh?” 

she means for it to be a joke, but with the current conversation, it comes out as bitter more than anything else. meiqi doesn’t try to remedy it. “i actually auditioned for nova before. i auditioned once after the hongdae show.” she recalls the mess that she had come up with after panicking out of what she had practiced. thinking back on it, she thinks that audition was similar to her experience on the sn project. maybe she’s always been like that. “i didn’t make it the first time, but nova gave me a second chance. that’s not better off. in baseball, they say three strikes and you’re out. my third strike was not measuring up to you. or, it should have been, but i’m the lucky bitch who gets four strikes instead. the one who people hate because it’s so unfair.”

it used to be so easy to toss caution to the wind, to do whatever she pleased without worrying about what other people thought about her. meiqi wishes she could go back to that time, not too long ago, but she also knows that this is her life now. this is pre-debut, and once she’s officially taken the stage for the first time as a member of and*roma, it’ll only escalate from there.

sunmi has a point. meiqi had made it her mission in the second and third month of the project to prove to hyun bin that she wasn’t going to fold over and conform to his idea of her skills. that should be a long-term goal, not a one-off. meiqi only realizes this as sunmi continues to explain her reasoning behind her thoughts.

honestly, meiqi doesn’t want to interrupt sunmi for the sole reason that her ego really needs these compliments. the fact that an older, more experienced trainee could see something so good in meiqi makes her toes curl. “are you... do you really believe all of that?”

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rkyngsun‌:

a starter for @rkmeiqi

ever since the project yongsun had purposely kept her distance from the ones that had made it, not because she was bitter– she just didn’t want to dampen the mood. the happiness that they were feeling– the exception of course had been the encounter with solji and wendy a couple weeks prior. they had seen her when she was still trying to get over her own elimination, now she was over it– so when she spotted meiqi, she wondered how things were going.

“meiqi ah,” she said with a raised voice, hoping it would reach her over the crowd that was in the cafeteria. meiqi was someone she had gotten close with during the project, someone that she hadn’t gotten to get to know prior.

she missed the other– she missed many things, yongsun wished she was preparing to debut with everyone but she wasn’t and that was the reality she had to live with.

out of all the nova trainees, meiqi has to admit that she’s gotten closest to yongsun in the past three months. their chemistry is indescribable, and definitely far from reproducible. she gets along with her members, but there’s no one like yongsun. that’s something that she’s reminded of everyday when she sees how close everyone is.

of course meiqi had been overjoyed with the promise of debut, so much that she hadn’t taken the time to check in on yongsun past the initial announcement that the latter would not be a part of the debuting girl group. it crosses her mind here and there, fleeting thoughts and what-ifs that are explored thoroughly. but it’s increasingly difficult to find the other girl with their separated training and meiqi’s commitments to her girlfriend (is that what she and chungha are now? it has a nice ring to it) in her free time. there’s always the cafeteria, but meiqi can never see her friend (not that she’s actively looking anyways), and so she occupies her time by bothering kun as he eats.

today is different, however, and meiqi spins around when she hears the familiar voice. something flashes in her eyes - guilt, she thinks it is, for so many reasons. for debuting when yongsun isn’t, for not even approaching her in the weeks following their official release from the sn project dungeon. meiqi smiles, but it doesn’t quite reach her eyes, even once she’s in front of yongsun, wrapping her arms around the trainee’s waist. “hi, yongshine. how have you been?”

☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ│ a new approach

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⭐️ —  AND*ROMA JUNE EVALUATION, 2018  — ⭐️ now playing: deja vu by sonamoo and pepe by clc and*roma

the day of their individual performances comes all too fast. it’s not like meiqi isn’t prepared, though. she’s recruited the aid of the other and*roma members to help her perfect the lyrics—pronunciation, memorization, and the likes. it’s easy since they had moved into a dorm together, so she can find them whenever she stumbles and needs a little extra help. and that’s quite often, just because she wants to make sure she’s perfect. the amount of lines she will have relies on this performance.

thus, meiqi thinks she’s got it all under control when she steps in front of the coaches at the end of the month to show her hard work. thinks is the keyword. everything is fine, until it’s not.

it’s a familiar feeling that hits her. her palms are sweaty with just one look at the coaches, and it feels like her throat is closing up. it’s like an allergic reaction, but worse, because it’s not just a physical feeling but something inside her head. a crushing weight threatens her ego and confidence; her brain screams at her, pounding against her skull, frantically trying to recall the lyrics to the songs.

there’s no use, is there?

no, meiqi scolds herself. it’s different this time. i’ll make sure it will be different, better, than before.

and then she notices him for the first time. hyun bin sits amongst the coaches. that’s when she realizes it is different: it’s worse.

unlike three months ago, meiqi’s mistakes will be right in front of hyun bin instead of him watching a video. and even if her initial reaction is to panic, that quickly dissolves into something else.

the ceo’s presence is… oddly calming. she can feel her heart slowing and she doesn’t know why. meiqi should be even more nervous to have the eyes of the ceo only on her, but instead she’s filled with a certain determination. she wants to show him that she deserves to be here.

meiqi wills herself to relax, to take a moment to recollect herself. there’s no elimination this time, which is reassuring enough. there’s no expectation to be perfect at rapping when she’s anything but a rapper. she can see it on hyun bin’s face (or maybe it’s her imagination). maybe it’s the fact that he doesn’t seem to expect much from meiqi, and that’s what drives her to prove him wrong, like yongsun had told her to do in the sn project.

yongsun, who isn’t debuting, whose place in the lineup meiqi may have stolen.

she can’t blow this before she even starts. it would be unfair to yongsun and all the other trainees that aren’t given the chance to debut.

inhaling and exhaling deeply before she starts, meiqi tells the coaches she’s ready, and then she starts with their pre-debut song.

her rap goes as smoothly as it can with her experience. she recalls the lyrics (it helps that there’s a lot of english and she had practiced so much, and the petty side of her wanting to prove hyun bin wrong is a benefit), gets through it with only a few slip-ups in pronunciation, but it’s miles better than the sn project. in fact, her perceived success with deja vu gives her confidence going into her performance of pepe.

there’s a specific part in the second song that meiqi particularly likes, hopes that she can impress nova enough to earn it. she practiced the second verse extra carefully, trying to make it her own instead of following the guide exactly. that’s what really matters, owning the part so that it doesn’t sound right with anyone except her.

meiqi smiles upon finishing her performances, bowing proudly at the coaches and hyun bin. she remembers running out of the room in tears three months ago, and she knows that there’s no need for that this time. meiqi may not be perfect, but she knows she’s still good enough. she’s not a main singer or a main rapper, so the fact that she can do this much and still feel good about what she has shown, that’s enough for her.

(she hopes its enough for nova too.)

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⭐️ —  and*roma june evaluation, 2019  — ⭐️ part one: preparation

meiqi doesn’t expect them to start so soon after the sn project is over. she thought everyone would return to regular training for a few months, but hyun bin surprises her when she realizes nova already has two songs prepared for the girl group to acquaint themselves with. it’s a pleasant surprise, of course, but it all happens so fast. she has maybe a week to catch up with everything she had missed for three months, and then they’re even separated from the other nova trainees to work towards debut (and quite frankly, there are a lot of new faces that she wants to get to know). the only redeeming quality, besides the fact that she’s going to debut, is that they get right to work with their music, but there’s nothing other than that.

the company shows them two songs: one that will act as a pre-debut release, and the other that will be their official debut. deja vu is the first, and pepe is the second.

deja vu has a heavier, hip hop-centered beat that exudes a raw and fierce energy. it's everything meiqi could have ever asked for, save for the love-stricken lyrics. meiqi feels like hyun bin has heard her prayers, or maybe he's read her mind (she hopes it's the former, because some of the things she's thought about her ceo may as well get her kicked out of the company if he knew of them). meanwhile, pepe had a softer, almost-there-but-not-quite cute vibe that’s a stark contrast to the lyrics that besmirch men. it’s as if someone mixed black and white together but instead of the two coming together as gray, they’re interwoven together at their original values.

if she’s being completely honest, and trust that she’s just as surprised as anyone else when she says this, meiqi prefers pepe.

hear her out. while she was absolutely against cutesy concepts initially, there’s something about this one that speaks to her. maybe it’s because the lyrics are so different to the stereotypical girl group; instead of fawning over a boy, they point out the faults in one. it feels more empowering than deja vu does, more original and relatable for her, because deja vu is tough in the vibe but explores the inexperience of a first crush.

that’s not to say she doesn’t like the other song. she is pleasantly surprised to find that she’s content with both songs and can’t wait to see the dances for them. in her head, she’s already come up with a mini routine for each track, a natural response she has to music despite knowing that she probably will have no input in the choreography (a girl can still dream, though). but for now, she must learn the lyrics—all of them, for both songs. she imagines that includes the raps, and though the fear and humiliation of the rap-focused week during the sn project still lingers, meiqi thinks it’s at least a little less daunting now that she’s guaranteed a debut within the year. besides, all she needs to do is memorize the lyrics and deliver them to the best of her abilities. there’s no expectation for her to deliver them well, with a whole unique flow and swag. hyun bin would never jeopardize his group and make her a rapper.

he has more sense than that. right?

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⭐️ — welcome to my playground.

@kunrk​

the first thing meiqi had done upon being released from the prison-esque sn project was check her phone. she had a slew of messages from friends and phone calls from family back in china, along with a sudden influx of social media notifications (not that she hadn’t always had many followers and likes, but there was even more now). out of everything, two chats seemed to catch her attention most. the one with chungha, for obvious reasons, and one from her cousin’s friend whom she has known since a young age. it’s the contents of his message that take her by surprise: he’s been signed.

so it only makes sense that, on her first day back in the regular nova facilities, that she goes searching the building for the one and only qian kun. her fake boyfriend.

she finds him at lunch, sitting at a table with a few other trainees. meiqi sees him before he sees her, and so she bounds up to him and wraps her arms around him from behind, nuzzling her nose against his hair. “kun-kun, oh kun-kun! i can’t believe you’re really here!”

meiqi slides into the seat beside him. “when i first saw the text, i thought you were kidding. honestly, are you my sasaeng now? following me everywhere?”

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rkwendy‌:

( ... )

“I can get behind your idea… in maybe a few more years,” she admits with a laugh. “I’ll just probably be the resident buzz-kill if we do it now, so I have to do some learning before we can do that.” Wendy turns pensive as she thinks of what kind of concept she’d like. “Sadly, Eclipse’s night side beat me to the concept I had in mind,” she says with a pout. “I actually wanted something that screamed sophisticated but also creepy and badass. And the song was rather bordering on rock, which is what I tend to prefer.” 

ninety-nine percent is enough to ease meiqi’s faux anxieties. she puts a hand on her chest and makes a show of inhaling and exhaling deeply to exaggerate her relief. but she loses it when she sees wendy’s reaction to almost slapping meiqi in the face. she doubles over in a fit of laughter—it’s not even that funny. maybe she’s sleep deprived. she’s definitely tired from a long three months. “yet? wendy, when are you going to take over!” she lowers her voice, glances around to make sure no one is eavesdropping. “please don’t wait until hyun bin retires... i feel like even when he’s 80 he’ll be hovering around like a hawk.”

admittedly, wendy is one of the people meiqi had in mind when she thought that not all of the group would be able to pull off something blatantly sexy. her face (and personality) is just too cute for it. meiqi coos and reaches over to pinch the other girl’s cheek affectionately. “i’ll train you, my little sexy protégé. i mean, ceo-nim.”

eclipse’s concept (the non-cute one, obviously) is pretty amazing. meiqi loves the dance for chase me. just like the song, it’s full of energy and confidence. “that would have been so cool,” she agrees with a nod. meiqi sings a snippet of the chorus, doing her best to follow the dance from her memory of the few times she watched it. “you know, speaking of not fitting concepts, yerim never seemed like the type to pull off creepy and badass, but she’s done chase me just fine. i think you could also adapt well to anything.”

meiqi always saw her close friend as cute and innocent, a perfect fit for eclipse’s debut and day-concept. she sighs wistfully, clasping her hands in front of her in a prayer. “oh, i hope we don’t get a shitty song and a shitty dance and a shitty concept. i didn’t trust hyun bin at the start of sn project, but he regained some of that when he announced that he was going to debut two groups... i’m still weary.” because unlike wendy, meiqi knows for a fact that she cannot adapt to lollipops and rainbows.

You And I | Meiqi

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rkmiya‌:

( ... )

after a pause, sunmi chose to press on. she didn’t want to give meiqi a chance to start denying what was obvious. she didn’t have the time (nor the patience) for stupidity. “i hope you didn’t take his comment,” sunmi started, referencing to hyun bin when she says ‘his’. “it was only to make it more dramatic. i hope you don’t honestly believe that i or anyone thinks that i’m better than you or vice versa. it was mostly for ratings and i genuinely respect you as a dancer. i’m hoping my respect and admiration for you is more obvious when i was so excited for you to join huidong oppa and i’s busking weekends.” but what would she do if meiqi did think they have to compete? that she constantly has to prove herself.

“we’re in a group together now. parts of a machine. for the machine to work….we have to work together not against each other. so i need you as my partner in dancing. equal; that’s what partners are.”

as expected of a leader, sunmi already has meqi figured out. it's evident in the way she leaves no room for the inevitable denial of the facts. even the way she handles the situation with an air of maturity, everything about her screams leader material.

it's kind of intimidating, and this is coming from a girl who, in high school, stood up to the assholes that would humiliate others, all the while having only a moderate grasp of the language. but in front of sunmi, she's reduced to a... well, there's no other way to say it other than that she's reduced to a p.

the thing is, meiqi knows that hyun bin's comments were (probably) scripted, or at least well thought out in order to give the show a dramatic flair (she's learned that their ceo has a metaphorical b for the wow-factor, as evidenced from the minute he had announced the sn project's premise). however, that didn't matter. once it was in her head, it wasn't just about what hyun bin thought. it was the truth, at least according to the comments she had read online after being freed.

"people do," she blurts out. truly, this was a bigger issue to meiqi than just between the two of them. maybe it started out that way, or maybe meiqi was just blowing things way out of proportion now. she fiddles with her phone unconsciously. "people know that i can't sing or rap. dance is all i can do, but even then, i'm lacking in comparison to you."

"you're right, though. i was being stupid. it's not your fault." meiqi doesn't say the rest of what's on her mind (it's not your fault that you're better than me and i don't like that. it's my fault for overestimating myself). because even if they are partners, parts of a well oiled machine, whatever analogy sunmi wants to use, meiqi knows that one half of a pair is always in better shape than the other. she's just so used to being the better one, that she doesn't know how to cope with knowing that this time she's not.

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rkchungha‌:

( ... )

meiqi is so cute. chungha’s eyes catch the tint of rouge on her cheeks before she could attempt to hide it. “oh!~ is someone blushing?” she teases, trying to guide meiqi to lay down some so she could see it. chungha laughs. “how cute!” she doesn’t even mind that her shirt is smeared with bb cream with meiqi trying to cover her face. she doesn’t even question meiqi removing her shirt, leaving her shivering a bit when the contrasting coolness of the room hits her warm bust. (she had since removed her bra for the day – which is probably the first thing done the second she gets home every day.)

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the confirmation of their date has a smile tugging at the corners of meiqi's lips. it's still a vague plan, void of details and anything even resembling a plan, really, but the fact that chungha actually wants to spend time with her despite the emotional trauma meiqi has just put her through—she doesn't deserve kim chungha in her life, with her never ending affection and her constant support and her perfect smile that threatens to both stop meiqi's heart and send it palpitating at the same time. she just has that effect.

"how would i know? i'm not a fucking nerd!" she protests, because she isn't! she's never even touched a comic book, save for that one time she had to buy her cousin a birthday gift and she emptied out a whole shelf at the local nerd shop. meiqi just likes the movies (and the beautiful actors who fill their superhero suits so perfectly). "but, i see your joker and harley, and raise you... wanda and vision." a tragic relationship, really. why wanda would opt to bed a machine when meiqi is right here, she doesn't know. "does marvel even have a clown? like an actual one, not drax."

but i'm the real clown, she thinks to herself as she swats half-heartedly at chungha's arm. how dare she make fun of such a rare occurrence! and an embarrassing one, at that! meiqi has never once blushed because of her roommate. not when they were two strangers locking lips in a cafe line-up to get free food; not the first time she had chungha pinned beneath her, hair splayed out on the mattress and pink lips swollen; not the first time she had uttered those three words that, only months ago, seemed so weightless but now carried meanings meiqi doesn't even understand.

what is so different now? she keeps asking herself that, thinks back to before she had left and compares it to how she feels now, with chungha whispering lovingly against her skin and hovering shirtless above meiqi and pampering her with desperate kisses and—oh.

"what?" meiqi scrambles to sit up from underneath chungha's weight, leaning back against the couch's armrest. to anyone else, it might look like she's trying to get as far away from chungha as possible, and for all meiqi knows, she might as well be doing that. she feels like... well, in all honesty, meiqi doesn't know what to do in this situation. a part of her wants to run away; it would be so easy to just roll her suitcase out the door once more. maybe she could stay with yongsun for the time being, or she could ask one of her future group members for a favour.

in truth, meiqi is scared. she remembers a few years ago, her first real relationship with a boy whose name she doesn't even remember anymore, how they had both gotten a little too serious without meaning to. and now look where they are. his existence is nearly wiped from her memory, leaving only negative feelings in its wake. there are a lot of similar stories, ones that she has experienced and ones that she's read about in teen magazines back in high school. she doesn't want that to happen with chungha. not with her best friend.

but that's also such a small part of her. mostly, meiqi just wants to throw her arms around the older girl and shower her with kisses and promise that she would never leave her because she can't imagine a life without chungha. meiqi hasn't even slept with anyone who isn't chungha since a few months after they had met, nor has she even thought of doing so. why would she, when she's perfectly content with what she has right now? her best friend knows her like the back of her hand, what she likes and what she doesn't, what sends her over the edge. she knows how to hold her at night and how to make her feel special and safe. meiqi doesn't think anyone else can do what chungha does to her body and mind — and definitely not her heart.

it would be a lie to say meiqi has never thought about dating chungha. even now, with her debut imminent and demanding her to uphold a certain image, she wonders what it would be like to be able to introduce her best friend as her girlfriend. meiqi isn't self-conscious about who she likes. rather, she's always been open about her sexuality (one too many hong kong tabloids have spread a few rumours about the wongs' second "daughter" anyways). she knows it's different in korea, even worse if she's an idol. maybe she would never be able to kiss chungha in public ever again, but being able to say it behind closed doors? the thought doesn't seem too repulsive.

her heart is racing.

"in love?" meiqi asks, saying the words slowly after minutes have passed. they roll off her tongue so sweetly, and everyone knows meiqi has a knack for sugary treats. she's sitting here half-naked with chungha, after all. "do you really mean that?"

she knows it isn't a joke. the question is more of a buffer than anything else, because meiqi doesn't know what to say. her mind is blank, but it's also reeling a mile a minute.

they say actions will always speak louder than words, so meiqi's next move is driven entirely by the ache in her chest that pulsates when she thinks of saying anything but i've never loved anyone like i love you.

meiqi cups chungha's cheek with one hand, and it feels so right. their bodies slot together in every which way, perfectly, no matter how much time has passed. she leans forward, pressing her lips to chungha's just as they had done so many times before, but there's nothing desperately hungry about it this time. it's careful, a bit nervous if anything, but meiqi hopes her emotions are felt through it anyways. and just in case chungha happens to miss her answer in the way meiqi's lips mould against hers, she pulls back enough that chungha can see the sincerity in her eyes when she confirms, "i don't ever want to leave you. especially not now."

“you’re all i think about.” and it’s true. when she left, while she was gone, when the final debut ranking was announced, chungha was the only other thing on her mind. “you’re all i want to think about. i love you." she kisses her again, and again, and again. meiqi can't stop. her smile grows each time their lips meet, and when chungha's flat on her back this time, meiqi propping herself up with her hands on either side of her roommates head, her voice comes out barely above a whisper. "i'm in love with you too. it's you. it's always been you. i don’t want anyone else but you."

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⭐️ — new face.

@rkhyojeong

with the sn project over, meiqi finds herself returning to the nova training facilities to unfamiliar faces. she should know everyone, whether they participated in the debut project or not, whether they got eliminated or not, but she finds that there are too many trainees that she’s never even seen before. it makes sense if you think about it, but it’s been established that meiqi doesn’t exactly like to think.

whatever. she’s excited to meet the new kids!

the and*roma girls have a few days to themselves before they begin official training amongst the group only, and meiqi takes this time to acquaint herself with the nova trainees that she doesn’t know. her first victim is a young-looking girl with pretty features—a sure contender for the position of a visual in the future (but, of course, not as beautiful as meng meiqi herself; it’s fine, not everyone can look naturally flawless).

she catches the girl after dance practice. meiqi hands her a water bottle once the trainee has already downed her own. “here, drink some more. you’ve worked hard!” meiqi holds the other girl’s bottle for her in two hands, bouncing on the balls of her feet as she introduces herself. “i’m meiqi! i don’t think i’ve ever seen you around here. how long have you been with nova?”

leaning forward, meiqi glances around them jokingly, and lowers her voice. “wait. blink twice if you’re not actually a trainee and you’re just here to meet the per_se guys. i’m pretty good friends with some of them, so i can hook you up with an autograph and a picture.”

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rkwendy‌:

( ... )

“Lollipops and uniforms aside, what kind of a concept do you think they’ll give us?” There are many possibilities they can come up with, and she’s not sure what to expect from Nova Entertainment at this point. “Or… wait, I have a better question… If you could be in charge of our debut concept and song, how do you think it’ll go?” 

if there was any concept meiqi hated, it was the overly-cute approach. she’s been lucky up until now, in the sense that in the sn project, she had never had to completely embrace such an innocent and childish facade. dreams come true had been the closest she had gotten, but even then it was more elegant and sophisticated than anything, which is a vibe that she had mastered when she was younger and would have to attend business parties with her aunt and uncle. 

a school uniform? that would just be ridiculous considering she’s the youngest in the group and she’s been graduated for over a year. she frowns. “wendy, don’t jinx it!” meiqi can’t do it. she just can’t. she wants something fierce or sexy, something where she doesn’t have to act like she shits rainbows for a living. “i bet if we were given something cute, sunmi would be the first one to go against it, though. so, i think we’re safe.”

meiqi ducks her head to avoid getting hit by wendy’s arms. “hey, are you trying to slap me? i may be the maknae, but i’m not that much younger than you!”

despite her scolding, laughter bubbles from her lips. “you probably already know this, but i’d want something sexy! like sistar’s i like that, or... do you know hello venus’ wiggle wiggle?” meiqi sings a part of the chorus while demonstrating the choreography that goes along with it. she exaggerates the movements where she has to stick her butt out.

she’d definitely want something overboard, but meiqi knows that’ll never be the case. while the group has sexy members, she feels as though not all of them would be comfortable with the type of songs she prefers. “we’ll never get that, unfortunately, but a girl can dream! what about you?”

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rkmiya‌:

( ... )

“hey,” she calls out to the other. the night was winding down. it was better to talk about this now than to let the weirdness linger and seep into the group. it would effect the dynamic. “can we talk?”

the second month, meiqi had felt ashamed. she could never live up to sunmi, whether it was ability-related, popularity amongst the public, or length of training. it had never occurred to her before, but as soon as hyun bin had compared the two of them, pointed out their similar skillsets while explaining how one was clearly better than the other, meiqi could not get the thought out of her head. the only way to deal with it, in her mind, had been to frantically avoid the older trainee—which worked, until it didn’t. until she noticed and confronted her.

but somehow, meiqi weaselled out of it. and then the third month left her feeling guilty because she had been deemed safe while sunmi was the opposite. somedays she thought, “see, i can be better than you!” and others, she would wonder why, when sunmi was miles and miles better than her, why she had been given the red vest. 

once again, it was easy to avoid her, what with tension running high as they learned a total of four performances in one month. even when the final line up was announced, everything was fine because all meiqi could think about was that she had made it and that she could finally go home to her best friend. only later did she realize what that meant—that for the rest of their time as a group, meiqi would only ever be compared to sunmi, and chances are that only one of them would be seen in a positive light (and after reading some of the comments online about herself, she knew she would get the short end of the stick).

so when the older trainee approaches her one night, meiqi internally panics. it’s like a repeat of their conversation during the second month of sn project, but this time, there’s more weight to it because it’s not just about surviving a competition anymore; it’s about coexisting in a group for however many years.

“talk? us?” sunmi is smart. she’s figured it out. meiqi knows it, but still she chooses to act dumb. “about what? did i do something?”

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rkchungha‌:

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chungha hums to herself as she uses her own shirt to help clean her roommate’s face. “if you’re an unhinged clown i must be harley quinn.” her lips part into a cheesy grin. satisfied with the help that she could offer, she presses a kiss to meiqi’s cheek. (kisses, kisses, kisses. she couldn’t get enough of them. ’making up for lost time’ but truthfully she was just addicted to her.) “you’re beautiful, meiqi. even like this.”

"oh my god." the discoloured patch is a stark contrast against chungha's skin, and meiqi immediately panics upon seeing it. she retracts her arms from their place around her roommate's small waist, hands resting instead on her hips only centimetres away from the bruise. her thumb brushes gently over the mark, afraid of applying too much pressure to the injury that meiqi has deemed to be much worse than it really is. she glances up at chungha, concern in her eyes as she caresses her skin once more. "does it hurt?"

chungha's actions are enough to quell meiqi's worries for now, as she finds herself back in the older girl's embrace. in complete honesty, meiqi had forgotten how it felt to be in her arms—the warmth that comes from their bodies pressed together, how soft chungha's skin is and how sweet she smells, how the world could be collapsing around them but meiqi would still feel safe and hopeful as long as they were together.

god, she missed this so much.

"okay, because if you happened to ruin the movie for me, i would never speak to you again," she warns, her eyebrows furrowed sternly. despite the serious facade, meiqi knows that it's not necessarily the case. as much as she loves the marvel movies (and scarlet witch because hot fucking damn), they could never come before kim chungha. "duh, of course it's a date. we haven't gone on a date in so long! it's been, what, so many months? since before you got signed maybe?"

meiqi appreciates how chungha always takes care of her: in bed and in moments like these. she doesn't have to sacrifice her shirt just to clean meiqi's mess of a face (especially when there's a box of tissues on the table a few meters away) but it's such a natural thing to do. meiqi would do it for her too.

"we're gonna watch the avengers together, but you're referencing batman?" her scoff is playful, matched with an eye roll as she lets herself fall into the couch. "you're such a traitor to marvel! i’m telling stan lee sunbaenim."

she’s not generally the type of person to blush, but chungha compliments her with such sincerity that meiqi can’t help but cover her face with her hands. she can feel her cheeks burning, wonders what the fuck is happening because it’s such a foreign reaction. “shut up,” she whines, leaning into chungha’s upper body to further hide her face. what would her best friend say if she saw how rosy her cheeks were? but then she remembers that all of her makeup is smeared against the same cloth that she’s leaning against, and meiqi shoots up. “oh, i ruined your shirt...” she fiddles with the hem, before tugging it upwards over chungha’s head with a giggle. “it’s fine. you don’t need it anyways.”

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rkwendy‌:

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What kind of concept will they be debuting with? Naturally it’s going to be one with insane choreography. After all, that’s Nova’s signature. There are a lot of skilled dancers in the team as well. She sincerely hopes they don’t debut with a cutesy concept. After all, at least half of them are too old to be wearing school uniforms, and the younger half of the team are all old enough to be university students. She chuckles at the thought before a familiar voice interrupts her thoughts. 

meiqi doesn’t seem like the kind of person who, after three months of being locked away and forced to hone her skills, would be eager to return to a similar environment. in fact, she surprises herself, acting completely out of character, when she steps into the practice room with no plans to slack off. she supposes it’s because, now instead of trying to prove herself, she wants to show a better side of her. for her own mental wellbeing, for chungha, for any possible fans she must have gained through the airing of the sn project. and, for her fellow members.

speak of the devil (though wendy is anything but). it seems her same-aged friend is completely absorbed in her own mind, not even noticing the other trainee in the room. meiqi pauses in the middle of half-tempo movements from a choreography that she’s trying to learn, watching the girl amble in from the other side of the room.

she gives wendy a couple seconds to react, to come to her senses, but her group mate is still distracted. finally, meiqi bounds over to her, waving a hand in front of wendy’s face as she calls her name repeatedly until she’s snapped out of whatever trance had consumed her. 

“yah, wendy! wendy! are you okay?” meiqi openly observes wendy, giggling at the other girl. her upper body leans forward, one arm behind her back, as she pretends to knock a fist on wendy’s forehead like one would a door. “what dirty thoughts are going on in that pretty head of yours that’s got you so giddy?”

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