roadrat420

[roadrat420]

literally me (mha self insert)

[roadrat420]

things my friends have said

me: "why are you different.."

my boyfriend: "certified racist moment."

me: " NO ITS GRANITE I THOUGHT IT WAS DIRT!!"

I was playing Minecraft. I'm gonna blow my boyfriend up.

[roadrat420]

im keeping this

the suffering never ends

[roadrat420]

i love when people like old art of mine so i can sit and stare at my computer like:

hmm yes, its all coming together

[roadrat420]

ART FIGHT HAS BEGUN!!!

I'm super exited!!! I hope everyone has fun and good luck!

remember I'm team crystal! (come find me, all my tags are the same)

https://artfight.net/~roadrat420

HAVE FUN!!!

[roadrat420]

ART FIGHT!!

[roadrat420]

NUGGET

I love her so much!!!

[roadrat420]

maybe I am meant to hurt.

If I cannot go to heaven, please don't send me to hell. I have tried my best so please do not punish me for the things I could not control. I am scared. No. not scared. But it is a bad feeling. A feeling undeserving of a name. It makes me hurt. It makes me want to run away and hide. But still I sit and wait like a dog abandoned by its owner, hoping just a sliver that one day you will soon return because people have spoken of you coming back.

Still through this hope there is grief. I grieve for the life I never got to live. For the time that was stolen from me because I was waiting. I suffered for so long. People say “your suffering made you stronger.” my suffering made me nothing. I suffered and made myself stronger. Not for you. Not for others. For myself. Because if i didn't do it this world would eat me like maggot on rotten flesh.

 My tears mean nothing and yet I still cry like I'm trying to refill the ocean. Those tears will never be seen by prying eyes who try to strip away what privacy I have. I cried and cried out for him yet God was silent. So I hid my tears from him and you. If he is so all seeing why did he not see my suffering. Why did he not see the pain and stop it when he had the chance? “It's all in God's plan.” Was it his plan to put me through pain that could send kings to their graves? You made it impure. I am forever dirty. Because hands could not keep to themselves and mirrors show the blood you bore from my core I feel nothing but self hate and pity for the child who was locked away. For if i did not grow fast my mind would have been lost and my body would have been buried.

Shame takes control and I hurt. This body means nothing to me anymore but I obsess over the weight and looks because others see it and are disgusted by what they see. Take this body away but leave my mind so I may continue to spread the word of my hurt for others to heal. Avoidance is not healing. Listen to the words and learn from their meaning. Perception is reality. Perceive how you like.

[roadrat420]

most active I've been on tumblr in weeks and all I'm doing is crying over my friend shipping me with anime characters...

[roadrat420]

IM ACTUALLY CRYING RN

one of my friends said that they would ship me with Aizawa from MHA???? honestly I'm flattered but also...WHAT???? YOU ship ME? I'm waiting on some cheesy fan art or something now lmao (so glad she doesn't have tumblr)

[roadrat420]

I'm so happy there's other people out there who love junkrat as much as i do. i promise I'm not insane. he's just so silly.

[roadrat420]

this is Grim

"I'm sorry, mama" such a bad, bad man...

[roadrat420]

Nyxs' 3rd form

kinda obsessed with drawing different forms of Nyx. he's a god, he can look however he wants.

[roadrat420]

yes it is important

[roadrat420]

crona and bane in front of a Pokémon center

[roadrat420]

meet maple!!

another one of my Pokémon ocs'

[roadrat420]

nyx form 2