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shes so cute though

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reminding you he exists

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Here's a little side snippet into Felix's career as a music producer under Plumbob Universal Music. His recent work has caught the attention of Chase Dreamer (my save's version of JB 🤪) and for about a month they've been in the early stages of Chase's newest album. Through Chase, Felix has also been able to conenct with co-producer and Chase's best friend, Tyler Cohan. I don't think it's clocking to the Dreamers how fire this next album is going to be.

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Dylan's got to be the easiest infant to ever have. Baby boy's just happy to be here.

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Rhythm Hub: Tune into the Heartbeat of New Orleans! In a city where music flows like the Mississippi, Rhythm Hub is your ultimate destination. 🥁🎷🎸🎹🎺

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Slice of life montage! It's just a waiting game until Margo gives birth now.

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the gang got to play for an actual crowd for the first time and it went great! aside from madelines bf not showing up to watch </3

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RL Story

TW: Panic attacks

I was back at home. 😞I got a call from the nursery to practice with my son the adjustment periode. That's why, we got home. From October he should start going to daycare. Now it was the beginning of August, and since many kids were at home during the summer months, the nursery teacher had time to practice with my son in peace and also get to know him better.

I realized now it’s getting serious for me and my little one. 💙 I was just not ready to part with my Baby!! 😭

He was still so small (19 months) and somehow I felt, that it will be a struggle for him to separate from me so early. But I had no choice, in October I start working again, because my parental leave ended. Anyway, now it was like that and I decided to go through with it.

Nevertheless, I did not feel good with this decision, which was not immediately clear to me. The last few days I spent mostly in bed, I was totally withdrawn. In addition, I had to struggle with my depression. I was just sad, unhappy and unable to care about anything. Last night I got so sick, that Nico had to take me to the ER. I didn’t know what was wrong with me?? I just felt extremely nauseous and it didn’t stop!! I had all sorts of disease symptoms that I knew. I swear, it felt like I was going through a bad withdrawal. But the worst was my fear! I couldn’t breathe anymore and thought I was going to DIE! 😥😞

The doctor didn’t take long to diagnose me after he examined me. It was immediately clear to him!

I had a panic attack.🤦‍♀️😩"Noo, please not again", I thought! 😰These fucking panic attacks are killing me! I hate it sm!!!

But N. was there for me, he helped me. ❤️He is the only one who can do it, this I learned then. I never expected him to be so patient with me and also the way he helped me, totally surprised me. I mean, especially after that crazy fight with my Dad! But N. showed me that he would really do anything for me, to make me feel good. No matter how broken I am, our son belongs to both of us. I think he felt responsible for my condition. He thought that this argument with my Dad and that one thing he said about me and our son, was the trigger for my panic attack and depression. He even apologized to my Dad without me asking. I didn't know, my Mom told me days later.

Anyway, I was sure that Nico or that quarrel with him, had nothing to do with this panic attack. Also the reunion with Daniel had nothing to do with it!! I am just generally afraid of death, sickness & pain. And I was afraid of the big change that is coming. Tbh, I just knew there would be trouble with Lucas. I always knew, he was a little...... "different", very sensitive. As a mother, you just know such things. But you will see soon. 💙(his fav color is blue, that’s why I always use the blue heart emoji when it's about him.🥰)

Besides, I also knew that N. would soon leave us again. I felt so overwhelmed. What if I can’t work because our son needs me? What if it doesn’t work in daycare for him?? He is the youngest child there, and I don’t think the kindergarten teachers need to change diapers? 😞How am I supposed to get him diaper-free in 2 months? But my biggest worry was the noise and the food. He will not eat there! I know my son, he is an extremely picky eater!! And he hates noise, so it’s going to be hard for him. He will be very lonely there, that has broken my heart. That’s why, I will have to change EVERYTHING.

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Damian 🧡 Luna

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summer fun! ☀

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it's sunday morning and there's something in the air... (♪)

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Ash, the second son of Damian and Luna. Werewolf

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It's Lemmy's birthday!

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lovebirds ♡✧˚ ༘ ⋆｡♡˚

nsfw under the cut ♡