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⭐ big sis satori ⭐ pretty figure

love love love her /p Miss her so very much big sis satori 🫧

By Magi Arts

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» vent, death

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Just tired

I feel lonely and sad and miserable

I've been hiding for so long I wish I didn't have to fear social interaction every day of my life

I wish I could live normally again

I'm sorry

Please forget I ever existed

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If I died none of you would ever know for I wouldn't tell you and neither would anyone

I will someday. Not soon but someday

I love you I'm sorry for that but if I ever die know I love you

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My dress will take a long while to arrive. But I can wait . I have been for long

In other news happy new year!

Maybe this year I may disappear once and for all.

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heyhye

I finally did it! I bought the dress! my dress

ill keep you updated !

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weirdo kids

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I miss gensokyo! And I may be depressed! But at least I can have fun online

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Two worlds

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This is the Sweeping Reimu, reblog her to sweep up your dash.

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🌸 How will I ever know what season it is without lily white screaming on the top of her lungs and shooting beautiful danmaku patterns randomly outside? 🌸

❄️ Letty whiterock was helpful too, but the cold always made me sick. Sometimes I'd see her in my walks but she never saw me, I don't think so. Now everything's so monotonous, I can't tell the difference between seasons anymore. ❄️

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Here kitty kitty

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I did not sleep the day before yesterday but for an hour.

Went to a con the very next day

At the end, I felt like I was about to pass out. My mother didn't want me to fall asleep just yet, and I got too enthralled looking at what I had bought to ever notice how much I needed rest

The con lasted quite a bit and I walked quite a bit. Unfortunately my Reisen cosplay did not let me have the backpack on my back as the hair would get too tangled.

I tried very hard to be nice to people but my friends must've felt I was a bit of a downer at the end. I'm sorry. I was about to pass out

I hadn't eaten and hadn't slept and it was just terrible. At least I made some friends ♡

They recorded something and I just so happened to be there. Look.

Hooray :)

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Happy halloween yay

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Oh, no

I don't think those are tomato factory lights.

Nor are they a lovely aurora.

I am pretty god damn sure we had something like that happen back in gensokyo once...

Now where have I seen that before... Something about a vampiric youkai in a scarlet mansion...

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» unrelated existentialism (?) and mentions of death

When do you think your name, in regards to you, will be mentioned for the last time? In a hundred years? Fifty? Twenty? Five? One? Does that question even matter?

When will the internet fall? In three thousand years? Two? One? A hundred? Ten years? Will a successor come in, or will humanity have abandoned it entirely? Will humanity die with the internet?

When will the last non human animal born on this earth die? Counting microorganisms. Is earth even a tangible thing? Meteors that fell here are part of earth, if they weren't, no earthly objects would be, well, earthly. How is that part of earth, though?

Where the hell did water come from? Is its origins a tangible idea that our monkey brains can wrap around? Can one even explain where the universe came from? Before big bang, before whatever is before big bang. How did it all begin?

Is time linear? Surely it can't be. If it was linear, it wouldn't exist. But if it isn't linear, how does it exist? It would make more sense for it to exist if it isn't linear, but still. Why do we exist? Why do atoms exist?

How many years have passed until now? Sure, years are marked by earths position, but if we continued counting even before our universe was a thing, how long has this hypothetical lack of a place existed for? Does it even exist? It doesn't make sense, at least not for me, that the universe could've been created from nothing. Why did that nothing exist to begin with? The idea of nothing implies that something exists, too. And nothing can't randomly become something. But why? When did it come to exist? And why did it come to exist?

Why is existing a thing? It doesn't make any sense no matter how many times people talk about the big bang. I can tell i am here. I affect the world in my own little ways and I can see it change. I can feel it change. I can feel my own body, and even if I didn't, I could still be aware that I do exist.

Unless I somehow don't exist. but how would any of what's happening right now be happening? Where would the synapses be formed for these images I see become somewhat tangible? Did we all collectively gaslight ourselves into thinking we're alive? That we're even real? Because it'd make much more sense if absolutely nothing existed. No planets, no space, nothing. But for nothing to exist, there must be something. Somewhere. For it to exist. Or maybe nothingness is truly not understandable to any human being because we attach ourselves too much with concepts we already know. Language. Logic. Sense. Ideas. Images. Words. Vibrations. Noises. Vision. Touch. Atoms.

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enjoying

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Forgot i existed while i was gone? Good that's on purpose

I wasn't gone for long but I couldn't forget you exist as fast.

Not directed at anyone but the reader

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What a peculiar creature /positive