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I’m going to start posting poetry from various stages over the past 4 years again. I’d like to apologise for the public menty b when I was in active addiction. I was dating a piece of shit, then dated another piece of shit, then had my heart trampled and now I’m IP working on my betterment. the influence I’ve had in my life has been inherently destructive and I hope the shit I was going through, which I will likely not elaborate on, somewhat explains the unhinged posts back in 2020. trying to come across less like I’m in active psychosis like I was at the time. that being said I have a whole lot of poetry that’s gone unsaid, a lot of it is kind of unhinged (life has been a rollercoaster and frankly I’m wondering how tf I get off of it) and idk who the right audience for this shit is but I’m going to try coming back to a blog I care about deeply. Im sorry again, I hope you guys the stuff I’ll have coming out, if there’s even anyone who still follows me hahaha.

- much love and adoration from your local traumatised rat

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M. A. Thompson - I Won’t Write My Poem ‘Till I’m In My Right Mind X

Mary Oliver X

Richard Siken - road music

George Sand (Amantine Lucile Aurore Dupin) in her letter to Gustave Flaubert X

Ada Limón - The Carrying X

Nikki Giovanni - Mirrors X

“I just want to be kind in a world that isn’t”

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.ascending blind.

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PPP [Pt. 2]

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i promise that my promises mean something

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I tried to crawl away from loving you

because I am a fruitless tree, freezing winter winds and acid baths wrapped in canvas

my skin rough and scaled

and loving me comes with consequences

you are a lamb

and each night by starlight you stumble gently beside me

I take you behind the shed

I kiss your broken bones

and put a bullet through your skull

such tenderness

such trust

such compelling wreckage

seeing you lay there lifeless

waiting to be resurrected by daylight

and think quietly to myself about the pain you put yourself through

to keep me docile

but there’s nothing docile about a headshot

brain matter and wet grass squished between my toes

but I never leave your side

I sit cross legged beside the carnage and watch

a dog guarding your corpse

If anyone comes near you I will rip flesh and blood from their stomach

leaving a gaping hole with no means to fill

I know I did this to you myself

but I would have split myself open and given myself to you if only you had asked

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.skin crawling for me to take a slice.

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Ty Retailer Catalog (1994)

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050120

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btw angels, my inbox/dms are properly open again and I’ll be making more content so if u wanted to chat or if u had a question feel free to interact !! my hiatus is basically over at this point haha !! my content might be a little different as it’s been 2 years since I stopped running this blog and have since both grown spiraled into drug addiction but you’ll still be getting that spicy trauma content u all signed up for

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