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i want a perfect body. god im disgusting

i wish i could be perfect. pretty. i wish i was skinnier. i want to be a pretty boy. but i cant, because thats not who i am. god im so useless

a nobody is what all ill ever be

unloveable mutt < 3

-j.w

(idc i probably wont read it)

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i wish i could be perfect. pretty. i wish i was skinnier. i want to be a pretty boy. but i cant, because thats not who i am. god im so useless

a nobody is what all ill ever be

unloveable mutt < 3

-j.w

(idc i probably wont read it)

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the rage you feel constantly since they get to live perfectly fine and happily after completely destroying you as a person and traumatizing you.

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wanting people to be proud of us but never truly believing they are even when they outright say it

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hallucinations are getting worse

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wow this song is good(was it all real or am i just making it up)

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i could see it in your eyes that you wanna get out

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i wonder what we look like in your eyes

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thought we were getting better, guess not. hm?

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im scared to do it. what if it changes everything.

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CW eating issues

tried gettin small amount and was confident i could finish it til he came in and slammed a second bowl down :/

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iimissyou

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still haven't.

love how i gave myself thirty minutes to rest then to start cleaning and i still haven't.

how pathetic.

-blurry

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please PLEASE PLEASE

I KNOW EVERYTHING I TOUCH HAS BITE MARKS

HAS SCRATCHES

PLEASE

MUZZLE ME, HIT ME. JUST DONT LOCK ME UP

I DONT WANT TO BE CAGED

PLEASE

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PLEASE DONT MAKE ME GO BACK

PLEASE

TRHEYURE GONNA HIT ME AGAINPLEASE

I DONT WANT TO BE IN THE QUIET ROOM

I'LL BE A GOOD DOG

I PROMISE

PLEASE

PLEASE

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plreease i dont want to be like this

i dont want to have to fight to regulate myself. my emotions

i want to be here. i really do. i love it. please

i dont wan to be ill

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debating asking to be admitted.