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new low! physically and mentally!! the 2 i gained yesterday came off with an extra 0.4 so i’m happily i guess i’m technically on day 16 ?? i might have skipped a day or two in there. 8 down in two weeks is pretty good but i’m hoping for better when these numbers start to get lower. i can’t wait for this diet to be over cause i hate changing the limits all the time. my sweet spot for loss is between 500-600 depending on how good my metabolism is working so let’s see what happens then. i think on the last day of my diet i’m gonna do a fast for as long as i possible can- AT LEAST five days

officially lost exactly 5lbs and today is liquids only so i should be down again tomorrow!! i should have planned this better cause i have no clue what i’m gonna be having today and i don’t have money to go to the shops and get stuff. boo hoo.

i think i’m just gonna drink a shit ton of water and diet coke, make myself some soup broth, and maybe put some frozen cherries in my water too. i wish i didn’t smash the blender but oh well 🙃

also a shit load of cofeee and a bunch of different types of tea to keep my tongue from getting bored

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lost 2lbs overnight which i knew was real. gained jt back this morning cause i binged last night (purged tho) and i also haven’t had a BM in a few days. getting to the part of the Get Worse Diet that’s around my comfort numbers so hopefully it’ll be better.

officially lost exactly 5lbs and today is liquids only so i should be down again tomorrow!! i should have planned this better cause i have no clue what i’m gonna be having today and i don’t have money to go to the shops and get stuff. boo hoo.

i think i’m just gonna drink a shit ton of water and diet coke, make myself some soup broth, and maybe put some frozen cherries in my water too. i wish i didn’t smash the blender but oh well 🙃

also a shit load of cofeee and a bunch of different types of tea to keep my tongue from getting bored

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captains log: didn’t get to weigh myself cause i did go to his house but i only had max 200 cals the whole time i was there (a tiny bit of chicken this morning and some chickpeas he made as a snack) we’ll see what tomorrow says. burned off enough calories w sex that i’m sure in a deficit. he was also a mega shit about my weight and diet but at at the same time i think he wants to enable me just so i do lose weight which is a Real Ouchie Bro. he said both my roommates are Skinny but i have some “meat on my bones” which made me wanna throw up but when i told him not to say stuff like that he got all offended cause it was supposed to be a good thing. men should parish.

officially lost exactly 5lbs and today is liquids only so i should be down again tomorrow!! i should have planned this better cause i have no clue what i’m gonna be having today and i don’t have money to go to the shops and get stuff. boo hoo.

i think i’m just gonna drink a shit ton of water and diet coke, make myself some soup broth, and maybe put some frozen cherries in my water too. i wish i didn’t smash the blender but oh well 🙃

also a shit load of cofeee and a bunch of different types of tea to keep my tongue from getting bored

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EDs are so funny cause it’s all “oh i just wanna be skinny and pretty and dainty and sweet and girly oh golly gee i sure can’t wait to be beautiful” but in private it’s “i hope i can shit my brains out before tomorrow so the number goes down” like that’s so babygirl of us

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so that did NOT happen because liquid fasts are stupid and i ended up getting high with my friend and eating a bun and dipping it in some broth which WOULD have been fine but i also. cluelessly, ate a few scoops of ice cream and a pb&j. so i gained a FULL POUND over night. idk if it’s shit weight it’s weight never the less.

i totally have a throat infection right now and i’m in so much pain so i’ve been taking cepacol (9cals) and rinsing with salt/baking soda water which is helping like CRAZY. but that also means i had to cancel with my ~bf so i am extremely upset about that. i’ve been on the couch all day watching every batman related piece of media in the entire world and also venom cause he’s so baby girl.

officially lost exactly 5lbs and today is liquids only so i should be down again tomorrow!! i should have planned this better cause i have no clue what i’m gonna be having today and i don’t have money to go to the shops and get stuff. boo hoo.

i think i’m just gonna drink a shit ton of water and diet coke, make myself some soup broth, and maybe put some frozen cherries in my water too. i wish i didn’t smash the blender but oh well 🙃

also a shit load of cofeee and a bunch of different types of tea to keep my tongue from getting bored

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Arm fat is a bitch.

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officially lost exactly 5lbs and today is liquids only so i should be down again tomorrow!! i should have planned this better cause i have no clue what i’m gonna be having today and i don’t have money to go to the shops and get stuff. boo hoo.

i think i’m just gonna drink a shit ton of water and diet coke, make myself some soup broth, and maybe put some frozen cherries in my water too. i wish i didn’t smash the blender but oh well 🙃

also a shit load of cofeee and a bunch of different types of tea to keep my tongue from getting bored

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just made things exclusive with this guy i’m seeing and he’s very supportive of what i’m calling a “diet” and he talks all the time ever before i mentioned said “diet” that he loves my body no matter what i weigh even tho he’s seen pics of when i was thinner. he also cooks a lot and asked what my restrictions are in terms what i will and will try not to eat.

supportive AND enabling. we stan

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i love to watch her walk away

(back th!nsp0, not mine, dm for removal)

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Why do I owe people health?

I just want to be delusional so I don’t kill myself

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+ ginger tea helps beyond belief with bloating

+ soda makes me bloated if i have more than one can, more bloated i feel the less confident i am. use soda sparingly and drink WAY more water. hot water with lemon also helps with bloating

things i learned after losing 40lbs. i was not underweight.

- the marks on the inside of my thighs got lighter cause they stopped rubbing together so hard and i didn’t even have a thigh gap

- brainwashing yourself into thinking this is easy works

- purging made me plateau for a while and did not help with any weight loss at all. i only did it when i couldn’t stand the feeling of being full and was freaking out. it did not help at all. it still doesn’t help. stop throwing up if you don’t have to.

- more people flirted with me. more people asking me for my number.

- strangers were nicer to me. more people stared at me on the street.

- my makeup took less time because i didn’t have to contour my cheeks PERFECTLY every time

- i could actually go out without constantly worrying that every single person on the street thought i was a whale dressed up like an emo

- clothes fit better. i also got a breast reduction around this time too so it was just 100000x better.

- i was more confident than i ever felt before

- my exs family commented on my weight loss. my family commented on my weight loss. my friends commented on my weight loss. it was bliss.

- my ex had a bunch of weights at our house and i got to physically hold the amount of weight i lost and it was SO heavy. 40 lbs is SO heavy. i almost cried out of happiness but also felt a little gross that that much additional weight used to be on my body.

- after seeing the progress and being so good for so long, starving became nothing to me. i went 15 days once and felt like shit around day 10 but it was still so easy.

- when i was eating, keeping below 500 hundred every day was no problem once i learned good meals i can eat. i had it down to a perfect science.

- i took more and cuter selfies because i looked pretty most of the time in general.

- everything was just significantly better. it was so good. it was fucking perfect

i’m going to do it again

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things i learned after losing 40lbs. i was not underweight.

- the marks on the inside of my thighs got lighter cause they stopped rubbing together so hard and i didn’t even have a thigh gap

- brainwashing yourself into thinking this is easy works

- purging made me plateau for a while and did not help with any weight loss at all. i only did it when i couldn’t stand the feeling of being full and was freaking out. it did not help at all. it still doesn’t help. stop throwing up if you don’t have to.

- more people flirted with me. more people asking me for my number.

- strangers were nicer to me. more people stared at me on the street.

- my makeup took less time because i didn’t have to contour my cheeks PERFECTLY every time

- i could actually go out without constantly worrying that every single person on the street thought i was a whale dressed up like an emo

- clothes fit better. i also got a breast reduction around this time too so it was just 100000x better.

- i was more confident than i ever felt before

- my exs family commented on my weight loss. my family commented on my weight loss. my friends commented on my weight loss. it was bliss.

- my ex had a bunch of weights at our house and i got to physically hold the amount of weight i lost and it was SO heavy. 40 lbs is SO heavy. i almost cried out of happiness but also felt a little gross that that much additional weight used to be on my body.

- after seeing the progress and being so good for so long, starving became nothing to me. i went 15 days once and felt like shit around day 10 but it was still so easy.

- when i was eating, keeping below 500 hundred every day was no problem once i learned good meals i can eat. i had it down to a perfect science.

- i took more and cuter selfies because i looked pretty most of the time in general.

- everything was just significantly better. it was so good. it was fucking perfect

i’m going to do it again

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every time the number on the scale is the same or .1 less or something i get a little happy cause i know it’s gonna drop way more the next day. obvs not happier than when it actually drops but it’s kind of proof that the weight of whatever i ate the day before had no affect on the scale and it makes me excited to know it’s gonna be down yesterday

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on day six of the get worse diet and i’m down 3lbs so far and coastingggggg. i know this is the easy part cause the cals are SO high but i’ve been feeling really good and motivated so that’s a good sign. bb sim really hoping to get in the 50s by the end of day 20.

mentally i feel the same now as i did when i lost 40lbs in two and a half months in 2020, it my lw, and kept it of for a year (i hit a three month plateau and had to give up or go to the hospital) and it is the best feeling in the fucking world.