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i gotta yeet to a club meeting but i’ll be back later !  feel free to keep liking the starter call while i’m out or hmu in the ims / disco to plot !

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LILY  DIGITS  FUMBLE ,  FUMBLE      ‘ gainst  cascading  locks.  o  youth ,  your  glory  has  been  splayed  !  nimble  hand  would  cover  eye  as  brows  would  knit !  in  their  blatant  shame.  nary  but  a  gust  of  wind  would  be  all  it  takes  to  reduce  doll  to  NERVES.   good  eye  glued  to  their  feet ,  they  speak  without  direct  acknowledgement.

“   SORRY  Y’AD  T’  SEE  THAT  ...    ”       defeat  dusts  voice ,  powdered  pity  +  ugly  conscience.  a  moment ,  two  moments ,  for  gaze  to  break  from  ground.  nervous  chuckle  accompanies ,  sight  darting !  ‘ round  their  surroundings.     “   it  ain’t  all  that  pretty ,  huh ?    ”

 SC.       //        @nebulaeics​​.

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if  you  think  i’m  not  going  to  make  both  a  gf  and  ut  /  dr  verse  for  them  , you’re  sorely  mistaken  !

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Class of 2013 | Mitski

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quick  starter  call ?

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—  sentence starters  :  the umbrella academy,  episode 01.02,  run boy run.

i have a question.

knowledge is an admirable goal, but you know the rules.

i want to time travel.

one is like sliding along the ice, the other is akin to descending blindly into the depths of the freezing water and reappearing as an acorn.

fear isn’t the issue.

i forbid you to talk about this anymore.

not ready, my ass.

i survived on scraps. canned food, cockroaches, anything i could find.

you know that rumor that twinkies have an endless shelf life? well, it’s total bullshit.

you do whatever it takes to survive, or you die.

you got anything stronger?

you think i’m crazy.

exactly what don’t you understand?

gee, wish i’d thought of that.

you think i didn’t try everything to get back to my family?

this was a mistake. you’re too young, too naive to understand.

i haven’t seen you in a long time, and i don’t want to lose you again. that’s all.

we’ll talk in the morning again. okay? i promise.

dammit. i’m sick of this cost-cutting bullshit.

no point keeping it bottled up, or it’ll just give you heartburn, and i gotta listen to you complain about that, too.

they can shove their protocol up their asses.

you get what you pay for.

i think these idiots all shot each other.

i’ll take it if you’ll give it.

i’m sorry, not to be rude, ‘cause you seem super sweet, but do i have to go through all this again?

what, are we gonna keep things professional?

you used to like that.

you show up and act like you can be a part of this, and you can’t, not anymore.

i’m good at this. you know i can help you.

i’ve had the same routine for the last four years. now that i’m back down here, i’m not quite sure what to do with myself.

i didn’t think it was possible to miss a person this much.

when you left, it seemed like all you wanted to do was forget this place ever existed, so…

i think there’s a reason why you never left.

you know you talk in your sleep?

shut your piehole.

just a lot of memories coming up. all those good times. well, not so much good times as really awful, terrible, depressing times.

no! you listen to me, asshole.

i’ve come a long way for this, through some shit your pea brain couldn’t even comprehend, so just give me the information i need and i’ll be on my merry way.

what you do out there is a fantasy.

guess what? recess is over. it’s grown-up time.

oh, thank god. i was worried sick about you.

i- i guess i didn’t know how to process what you were saying. and i still can’t, to be honest.

maybe it wasn’t real after all. it felt real.

look, i used to see someone. a therapist. i could give you her information.

what? this is my nicest outfit.

what’s our cover story?

what a disturbing glimpse into that thing you call a brain.

this isn’t twenty questions, old man.

you know what? you’re probably better off here.

you know, if i wanted advice, no offense, it wouldn’t be from you.

so you know what it’s like to love someone like this? like when you’re apart from her, you can’t breathe? like you would - you would die, and i mean actually die, to know she’s okay and happy.

you separate yourself from everyone and everything. you always have.

you’re an adult now. you don’t get to blame your problems on anyone but yourself.

in about sixty seconds, two security guards are gonna burst through that door, and they’re gonna see a whole lotta blood, and they’re gonna wonder ‘what the hell happened?’ and we’re gonna tell them that you beat the shit out of us.

you’re gonna do great in prison. trust me, i’ve been there.

yeah, can i get that twenty bucks like, now, or what?

god, the longest i’ve been with someone was… i don’t know, three weeks. and that’s only because i was so tired of looking for a place to sleep.

easier to learn music when you’re young. you know, like a second language.

i could smell it was you.

you could have killed me.

if i wanted you dead, you’d be dead.

i shouldn’t have to prove my innocence to you or anyone else in this family.

you can relax. i have never been a prodigy at anything.

monet didn’t really start painting until his forties. he did alright for himself.

family. it’s never easy, right?

this is always where you used to come when you were upset.

i said some pretty unkind things to her.

i hoped it might cheer you up.

oh my god, look how little we were.

things have been disappearing lately. these are too important to lose.

there’s nothing you can do. there’s nothing any of you can do.

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                  there's  a  sound ,  it's  haunting  my  dreams  like  children  laughing  in  the  distance                                                                and  i  don't  know  what  it  means

                                                                             pr.  template.

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this is mothman / @authree / all my other blogs yeet but just as a forewarning for anyone i’m following / may follow me back : there will likely be topics of eye gore / horror, and i’m willing to tag it / use icons that don’t have the edited effect if you’d prefer !

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turns  out  i’m  going  to  totally  revamp  doll’s  character ,  but !  that  may  also  mean  that  they’re  going  to  be  more  than  just  a  vent  muse ,  so  eyes  emoji  at  that

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HAND ,  LILY  DIGITS    dig  into  pockets  of  leather.  bridge  of  nose  would  crinkle !  as  tongue  peeks  from  rosebud  lips.  youth’s  gaze  LIGHT  UP  as  they  find  what  they  were  searching  for ,  looking  up  at  the  other.  ragged  palms  unearth  AN  ASSORTMENT  of  candies ,  all  individually  wrapped  &  packaged .

“  want  one ?  i’ve  a  few  extra ,  so  you  can  ‘ ave  yer  pick.  there’s  strawb’rry ,  chocolate ,  milk ,  &  caramel.    ”

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princess of the circus, defying death walking on a rope

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consider this a lyrical starter call !

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ALSO UHHH I KNOW NOT ALL OF YOU ARE FAMILIAR W DOLL / THEIR LORE N BACKSTORY SO HERE’S A QUICK FEW THINGS ABT DOLL  ( n my portrayal of them )

doll is a genderfluid 17 - 18 year old

doll’s left eye is scarred , having been burned as a child and then kicked into the streets

they are part of the noah’s ark circus , a circus with their first tier found family

doll is a tightrope walker for the circus

doll is the youngest member of the noah’s ark’s first tier

doll more commonly goes by “freckles”, since their identity as doll is separated from their identity as freckles

…..this is bc the first tier of the circus was saved by a baron , who forces the circus to kidnap children 

doll absolutely hates the “missions” for the baron and has a very difficult time forcing themself to kidnap and / or kill on missions

they suffer from PTSD due to the abuse they endured as a child, and how the baron has treated them for a majority of their life

doll loves potatoes

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support the author  /  feel free to change things  (  such as pronouns  )  as needed !

“ these are the empty pews ” “ it’s much too late to repent ” “ this is your unmarked grave ” “ what else is there to live for besides your one true love ? ” “ you never thought i needed protection ” “ did i ever even have a choice ? ” “ he told me i was an obligation ” “ you make me forget what it feels like to miss someone i was never allowed to call mine ” “ are you my antidote or my poison ? ” “ this story may be cliche  ,  but it’s ours ” “ is there really any way it can end other than in bloodshed ? ” “ i’ll lick your wounds and then you’ll do the same for me ” “ if you start to keep score  ,  can you still call it love ? ” “ brace for impact ” “ this girl right here is a fucking goner ” “ with you there is no faking it ” “ this boy  ,  he’ll be the death of me ” “ i was too young to realize you were the one that should have known better ” “ i never did have an ear for music ” “ when night falls  ,  my monster tells me he loves me ” “ you always did crave the taste of your own lies ” “ this love leaves bloodstains ” “ i’m so fucking sorry ” “ it was exhausting for both of us ” “ you are the bruises and teeth marks i find all over my body without remembering how they got there in the first place ” “ this isn’t a haunting  ;  it’s a hunting ” “ it’s probably a good thing that god forgives sinners like me ” “ i can’t tell the difference between you and the dead of winter ” “ at least winter makes way for spring ” “ i can’t decide who it is i’m more frightened of ” “ i would do just about anything to make her disappear ” “ if you’re looking for your perfect victim  ,  then you might as well set down your lanterns ” “ you won’t be able to find her here ” “ i’m the fairy tale everyone forgot about because the lesson wasn’t pure or hopeful enough ” “ i don’t excuse her and you shouldn’t either ” “ couldn’t you at least try to hide it ? ” “ i never knew you could grieve a breathing man ” “ nothing but a coffin in my ribcage ” “ you remind me of the way flowers bloom so furiously in spring ” “ are you breaking her like you broke me  ,  or am i just that special ? ” “ nothing makes sense with or without you ” “ my body didn’t know what it was like to survive without you ” “ you took things i didn’t know you could take ” “ it seems you never learn  ,  either ” “ either take everything i have or drop it all and walk away ” “ darling  ,  you are worthy ” “ you can do this  ,  you know ” “ let your heart take its time ” “ there’s someone else seeping in through the fractures you left ” “ if you’re never going to leave me  ,  then this is me leaving you ” “ find a new partner in crime ” “ someone i used to know told me that love was forever ” “ don’t try to waste your time again ” “ i’m sorry i didn’t know how to stop the pretending ” “ they didn’t deserve this ” “ some people are never worth your words ” “ come  ,  take back your hatred ” “ you can have my forgiveness but you can’t have me ”

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winks .. ;)

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oof alright so 

i’ve  been quiet here lately n that’s likely gonna continue for quite a while longer . finals are coming up so i’m not gonna be as active  (  if at all  )  on my rp accs  

this  will  affect  :

@authree  ( ford : you’re  here )

@grillzb  ( grillby )

@orphaec  ( multi )

@rsewept  ( doll / freckles )

y’all can still hmu via disco (  dippin dots#8097  ) or my personal @pinestars  (  which i’ve been p active on lately  )  so long as we’re mutuals !  ♡  ♡  ♡