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i think a lot of green and blues relationship i tend to make sound super negative but in reality its definitely just like. complicated. the issue is that blue doesnt know How to feel her feelings at all, and harbors a lot of anger because of it. but she doesn't act on that anger like, ever. green on the other hand is aware that blues repressing those feelings but i dont think she knows enough to know exactly what blues repressing. and considering blue doesnt talk about her feelings green has no idea what buttons shes pressing in the first place because blue hides that information. blue has issues of self sacrificing to a fault but that causes people to hurt her feelings more because she doesn't give them the chance to know where her boundaries are, and greens so unabashedly herself that she sort of ends up trampling all over them. but green is also equally nice to blue, beinf one of the more empathetic sticks she sticks her head out more often to help blue than the others, and i think for that blue also feels more conflicted and encouraged to suck everything up because she genuinely appreciates greens help and thinks shes doing yhe right thing by bottling it up.

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greens sweetness is what makes her prank and influencer arc feel so crazy to me im just like. i just dont know what she couldve been thinking other than a desperation for positive attention and validation and im likr oh my god how are you THAT desperate. i just have to assume its from everyonr reacting so negatively to her winning all the time

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literally the best part about green is that despite the fact that shes a little crazy shes also so fuckinf sweet. it makes up for it

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greens so cute i need to cry and scream im always talking about how she has something wrong with her but shes sooooo lovely 😭 (insane)

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Just Blood

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It's difficult for me to take USAmerican high budget movies and serialized shows very seriously because of the weird standardization in the acting. I can't put a finger on it directly, it's just a way men all express anger or concern with almost identical mouth and eyebrow movements. Women all have the same head tilt and eyes wide plus mouth open "humorous shocked reaction" expression. Everyone has a different way to speak, but their voices follow the same stages, flatness here, rising pitch there.

It's not like I'm some kind of super empath feeling out every human interaction for sincerity, it's more like the more I watch high budget films from the USA with heavy producer involvement, the less performances stick out as unique to the actors. And I'm being really specific because I don't experience the same feeling with movies just a tiny step outside this bubble of conformity, or whatever it is. It doesnt come up much in films out of Ireland or Australia or the UK, or at all from anything subtitled. Like if you watched Supernatural a long time, eventually you start to notice how everyone delivers their lines with the same intonation, a macho growl that gets comical after awhile, but spread across a wider range. Standardized expressions of anger, sorrow, humor, love.

The instant you're outside that, the range of affect is shocking. Zero budget movies have bad acting, but also real sincerity. Shows without the need for mass marketability or especially end seasons when everyone knows its over, commonly have some of the most unique and true to life performances. And everyone is so used to the modern conformity of acting sees that stuff, the sincerity, and thinks it's just funny.

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[ ufo on th ] kite dragon thing

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On a call with my boyfriend rn and he showed me his ava fanart from when he was 10 and it was orange x green ship art. Win for society

YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS YOUR BOYFRIEND AT 10 YEARS OLD KNEW WHAT THE FUCK WAS UP

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the grouping of the sticks in a DID way seems to be working Really well for me

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Let's follow mama!!

(Picture from Pinterest)

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Chihuahua shrek walk

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↑ My comic for "Make a Terrible Comic Day".

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like the thing is literally everything i say sounds insane and i was surrounded by insane people all the fucking time but its literally because my parents were qanon libertarian political nuts i feel the need to reiterate it every time but ive had so many people in passing acting like im making shit up but this is just what happens when your parents believe in shit like pizzagate and made up white people spiritualism. because the only people EVER willing to EVER interact with them were OTHER EQUALLY CRAZY PEOPLE

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😔 he kinned cronus and also eridan. and korekiyo shinguuji.

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oversharing about my ex <3

to make a broad scope of how long my relationship with him lasted, i dated him off and on/polyamorously from ages 11 to 17~ish and we stayed friends until i was 18 which he then broke up with me because we had nothing in common anymore and i still liked homestuck. and from 17 to 19 i was under the impression i was his abuser due to him saying that everywhere online and my parents believing it, and i spent those years convinced i was literally evil which was paired with my step moms delusions about me being the antichrist and planning to kill her. and then either when i was 20 or 21 i messaged my ex best friend and his ex girlfriend an apology for being insane as a teenager because it was something that weighed really heavily on me and i wanted to be clear that i was doing my best to improve myself (there are genuine things i did wrong, a lot of panic attacks and freakouts about my ex leaving me for her, which he did and was also cheating on both of us with eachother, but i did a lot of freaky danganronpa kin stuff during that time) and she was like no omg i get it after living with him for a couple years i feel like he fucked me up so fucking bad. and shared information with me that he was stalking me form 18~20 while dating her and would regularly use her accounts to stalk my profiles and would take her out with him to find me in public. and this was after i was put through multiple different therapies due to being delusional about him and my parents belief that i was making everything up about seeing him in public all the time. one of the last times i saw him was a few months before i moved away with my current partner where he chased me in a walmart and i hid in my moms car (she acted like i was fucking nuts and got mad at me for vanishing) (ironically, this was the day i also started testosterone. so. conflicting feelings about that date) and i havent heard/seen of him since. apparently hes married now to some guy he met like a year ago and is in a ddlg relationship. when i put it into perspective like that i feel less insane about still being fucked up about it

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ive been slowly trying to unlearn a lot of the things that my ex (YEESH I WROTE BOYFRIEND SHOUT OUT TO EMOTIONAL AMNESIA HOLY FUCK) made me think i'm not allowed to like because it was "his" thing. red pandas were one of the first things. for me it doesn't feel like he's the one who taught me that, in my brain the feeling initially feels like "thats a generic/basic one/everyone likes that one, so i need to find one thats more accurate to me" which plagues me very badly. another small random thing like that is "ice" as a power ??? ?? ???? KDNSGUJDSMFHDS CCAN YOU TELL WE STARTED DATING WHEN WE WERE 11 AND REGULARLY LARPING SUPERHEROS. i used to really like glaceon and vaporeon but he liked those more so they had to be his, which made me like flareon which i was like eughh i dont really like pokemon in general (isnt allowed to like the ones he likes) but also it feels inauthentic bc im doing it as a 24 year old when i started repressing that stuff really young. annoying