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Ki Jab Main Hadd Se Aage

Badh Gaya Tha Aashiqui Mein

Yaani Zindagi Ko Le Raha

Mazaak Hi Mein

Phir Mazak Hi Mein

Mil Gaya Sab Khaak Hi Mein

Chhu Kar Aaya Manzilein Toh

Tanha Tha Main Wapsi Mein

Jaise Phool Tode Honge

Tumne Jholi Bhar Ke

Main Woh Phool Jo Ke

Reh Gaya Tha Shakh Hi Mein

Jaise Khwaab Hi Main

Khwabgah Ankh Hi Mein

Pal Se Pal Mein Kya Hua Tum

Reh Gaye Bas Yaad Hi Mein

Ek Sawaal Machalta Hai

Mere Dil Mein Kabhi

Tujhe Main Bhool Jaaun

Ya Tujhe Main Yaad Karun🌻🌼

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The modern Vampire doesn't suck blood, it sucks Attention.

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The tiny little updates we exchange..🫀

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Whats on your mind?

Her wearing a scrunchie on her wrist and holding my hand while we drive.

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Tum chali toh gayi ho, par abhi bhi kissi se bhi baat karte karte tumhara naam lafzon pe aahi jata hai, "hey jiy..." "Acha listen jiy.."

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This is for no one to read. It's here for me to vent out.

I feel broken like that one time again. I want them to pick me up soo high; I am one selfish person, I want them so much to me. I want to be so much to them, it's these few things i keep telling, but that's all i fucking want.

I am sorry, to be this way to you. The only thing i wanted to be is, by your side, and i failed yet once again. You spoil me, and i love that. Cuz how many people do ik that do me what you can. I am lost. I hate losing. I hate not being yours one bit. I am feel i am repeating all of this, but i need this is. Idk how long is this recovery gonna take, and that scares me. Because i was just fixed when you came in, and now? Idk what now, i wish i had an answer.

Udk but how much that morning messages meant to me, ik they were typed soo many times that the auto correct would automatically add all the Letters and you didn't type each character out for me, but me getting that from you, Was special.

You always told how small things made me happy, ik you also know how the slightest of things make me upset. Papa asked me today kya hua and he never questions that! Maybe maybe how my face lit up seeing you and made it as often how much i love this person, is also now as obvious how things have changed.

First they took away my walk with my favourite walking partner, then they took away her interaction with me, then they took away her calls from me, then they took away her messages from me, and now they are taking her away from me...

Trust me the same once again and i promise to not shatter it ever again.

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ab..ab intezar nahi karenge tera,

naa tere jaana ka dukh,

na tujhe rokhne ki taakat.🫀

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Antar zada nahi bas itna hai, humare lafzo mein, tum aati ho, aur tumhare mein log.

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Each time the world tries to pull you away from me, is how much more i wanna pull you by the waist to myself

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Bus, aadat mat lagne dena.

Martein sharaab se nahi, uske aadat se hain.

Martein hain uske pyaar se nahi, uske nasha se hain.

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It was on my mind just a few days back, to ask them, how they picture it to end for us.

Seems like i got my answer in a not so long time.

It felt good to lose a little for someone daily, to make them get the tiny wins. It took me quite sometime to give open to someone as much. I hate taking pictures of people, but everytime she asked me to take her picture, maybe my most favourite thing to doo for her.

Also no i don't like to express my thoughts out to the world, but how do you know that what you had was real? You carry something of theirs with you, maybe this is the remark that they left on to me.

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They me told to stand by and stay. I am holding on. Because i "hope" it's all worth it.

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Are some people more creative than others? Putting a thought to this, made me think; it's just the thin line between a Doer and a consumer

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You make me understand how it feels to not have something, and that feeling? I think i like that about myself, not for you but makes me know how i am always gonna try to push for what i want and that feeling is still alive