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do maternal instinct doms like girls who hide in corners

wheres my love for the girls who shrink up and hide when theyre anxious or sad

sometimes u just need a woman to find you in your little corner and say its ok dear i've got you

show you that you dont need to hide anymore

bring you out and into the light and tend to all those needs youve kept so dutifully down pat for so long

a woman telling you that it's ok pet, she has you now

what if you cant ask and beg and plead for attention

what if you cant share all your sorrows and have someone help heal you

what if your mouth has been forced shut and you cant show a need to anyone

at least- not yet

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im sorry i moaned when you slapped me

can you do it again

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"Thoughts on women?" Yeah pretty much constantly

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hey guys if you know a tattooed butch with piercings who needs disgusting nasty sloppy strap head, let me know. i’m just doing a science experiment of course

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when people joke about autism but they don't have to spend every evening debating if they were too much or too little that day

when people joke about autism but they ve never been so burnt out their education got set back an entire year

when people joke about autism but they cạn go to clubs and bars and concerts without having a panic attack and leaving before you make real memories

when people joke about autism but they don't get being 19 at age 9 and being 9 at age 19

when people joke about autism but they've never cried so hard they can't breathe because they know life is stuck this way forever

when people joke about autism but they don't get how one person mis-interpreting your intentions makes you spin out about how everyone sees you

when people joke about autism but suddenly its not funny when my parents restrained me as a kid during meltdowns so i wouldn't hurt myself and them

when people joke about autism but they've never felt all your new friends slip away as you finally start to be yourself around them

when people joke about autism but they didn't grow up getting called a 'neek' and a 'teachers pet' just because i never got the memo that trying to study would jeporadize any chance at being taken seriously by my peers

when people joke about autism but they've never had to deal with raging friends after you cancel plans because they don't understand that being around you while you're so burnt out would change how they see you forever

when people joke about autism but they don't get how much of an alien i feel amongst people my age. i'm either alone and myself or working tirelessly to convince people i'm one of them

when people joke about autism but they don't get how empty you feel when a hyperfixation leaves you and you realise you really are just whatever thing you're obsessed with

when people joke about autism but they aren't so hyper-aware of every feeling in their body that sometimes they think too much about breathing and find themselves blue in the lips

when people joke about autism but they don't understand how it feels to spiral out of control thinking everyone hates you because your rejection-sensitivity took one face they made or one word they said and ran

when people joke about autism but they don't get the crisis i had as a kid after coming out of a meltdown, hating myself and not understanding what happened because i swear i'm a good kid

when people joke about autism but they've never been glued to their bed because they can't do what they need to in the order their brain will allow them

when people joke about autism but they can sleep easy because they aren't hearing their hearbeat or the rustle against the sheets as you breathe

when people joke about autism but they never feel like their life is already wasted with a mind like this, knowing theres so much you just can't do, feeling like you're missing your one shot at a human existence

when people joke about autism but they don't get how i can't wear anything with a high neck because it feels like my throat will close up and i might die

when people joke about autism but they don't get that i could spend all night writing these and still not scratch the surface

when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never starved themselves for hours on end because the thought of putting food in their mouth makes them feel sick

When someone jokes about being autistic but they've never had to stop doing things they love because they mentally can't cope with how overwhelming it is

when someone jokes about being autistic but they ve never experienced what it's like for everyone to perceive you as some genius or a 3 year old

when someone jokes about being autistic but they're not 7 times more likely to die by suicide.

when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never experienced what it's like to be in burnout and loose basic skills like forming a full sentence

whien someone jokes about being autistic but they don't have to accept the fact that they'll be a social outcast for the rest of their lives

when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never experienced what it's like to be so happy yet so suicidal because no matter how good life is it's always going to be overwhelming for them and the only escape is death

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i mean this in the nicest way possible: shy girls are some of the freakiest, most sultry, vixens you will ever meet. just the nastiest, dirtiest thoughts happening behind those glasses and the most luscious body under that cardigan

THIS IS A POST FROM A LESBIAN NSFT BLOG. CISHET MEN AND MINORS DNI.

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wish they had these in america i would keep business running

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Is it wrong that I want a butch to take my hand and kiss it when they greet me.

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indeed.com search history "pet for mysteriously wealthy older woman" "unethical science test subject full time" "vampire thrall with room and board"

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their polyamorous swag

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that noise that my carabiner makes when i walk is actually a mating call

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sex is cool and all but can we please play games together? have similar interests? cuddle in the warm while it’s raining? adopt a bunch of little cats? go on dates to botanical gardens? draw together? make each other laugh? watch movies until we’re too tired to keep our eyes open? kiss at 1am in the dark of a kitchen? sleep wrapped up in each others arms? share clothes? put furniture together? hold hands on long walks even if it’s hot? remind each other that we’re loved and valued as individuals? make each other flourish? support our goals and aspirations? lift one another up? bake yummy treats and feed each other while giggling? kiss while smiling? laugh until our stomachs hurt? make cherished memories? meet each others loves ones?

cishet men and minors dni

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women are genuinely the greatest thing ever created, you’d be crazy not to adore them with your whole being

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I’ve always been anxious about drawing attention in public (I cannot stand up for myself for the life of me) and thus have dressed plainly, sweat pants or jeans and hoodies or t shirts, almost all black clothing to avoid attention — though I have recently started adding accessories and getting a little more ‘risky’ and alt with my clothing. Rarely painted my nails, never had them professionally done. I got called a freak for literally a black ACDC t shirt, a black with a little bit of white jacket, black head covering (just the ‘undercap’ part so most people don’t even question it tbh most think it’s medical) and black jeans 😔 no accessories. I don’t even know man. Made it worse to go in public. I feel like a freak in fem clothes, like I don’t know how to act? Like a spider playing human. So if I’m being called freak in my normal… how am I gonna get called going out of my normal?

I don’t even like being fem in front of my family, they all expect me to be masc now, and I hate the idea of the comments I might get if I dressed fem (+ they think I’m a trans male because that’s how I ID’d years ago cause that’s what felt right, and now it’s to complex to explain the truth bc they’re all lowkey transphobic and they would never understand my gender now. I’m bio female but like I don’t mind any pronouns, prefer a male name, prefer female compliments, consider going back on HRT, still bind and pack sometimes. etc it’s an amalgamation of things but ultimately I ID as female.) so I can’t handle it. And there’s no one to reassure me except my bestie but they live in Brazil!! There’s not much help a person can be for my anxiety on the phone 😔 I’m so reliant on other people for confidence

Need a women to encourage me to be more feminine because I’ve never felt safe to growing up or even now.

Want a woman to tell me it’s okay, that she can handle any comments that come my way for me. Want her to tell me how pretty I look and how cute she thinks I am. How she finds me attractive in dresses and skirts. Want her to teach me how to do make up. Want her to sit beside me when I get my nails done for the first time and talk me through it (im autistic and cannot handle new things well especially alone, I’m really scared to go get gel nails or whatever) want her to help me do my hair in pretty so I can do my hair cute for her when I’m not wearing my veil. Want her to replace my masc wardrobe with feminine stuff and I wanna feel safe to dress that way.

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Need a women to encourage me to be more feminine because I’ve never felt safe to growing up or even now.

Want a woman to tell me it’s okay, that she can handle any comments that come my way for me. Want her to tell me how pretty I look and how cute she thinks I am. How she finds me attractive in dresses and skirts. Want her to teach me how to do make up. Want her to sit beside me when I get my nails done for the first time and talk me through it (im autistic and cannot handle new things well especially alone, I’m really scared to go get gel nails or whatever) want her to help me do my hair in pretty so I can do my hair cute for her when I’m not wearing my veil. Want her to replace my masc wardrobe with feminine stuff and I wanna feel safe to dress that way.

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