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it's always crazy to see like. teenagers/people your age in old fandoms... like i was a sherlock fan from 2017-2020. so, in my head, all sherlock fans talk and act like they're in 2017-2020. cause that's all i know. so seeing those like "sherlock mentality" edits or wtv is like. woah.

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SEVEN YEARS?? SEVEN YEARS???? and that's only how long ive had THIS BLOG.... LET ALONE MY PREVIOUS BLOG

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what is it called when you're dating someone and neither of you want to leave but also staying is just a constant fight to keep your heads above water

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🔥🔥☄️Clive Rosfield🔥🔥☄️

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- is it yours, mister? - kinda matches the ink i got... so yeah, probably mine

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have i mentioned i live in japan? don't think ive ever mentioned that here

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Jecht in FFBE

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'What I wouldn't give to be in church this Sunday" ,,Ethel Cain - Sun Bleached Flies

FINAL FANTASY X (2000)

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Final Fantasy X (2001) — developed by Square Enix.

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Final Fantasy X (PlayStation, 2001) Zanarkand

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under the cut: a long rant about all of my relationship problems atm

my relationship is low key on the rocks and like to look at this objectively we are both definitely the problem 💀

my bf cares but is like not great at showing it and also recently has just low key forgot i exist and leaves me on delivered/read for like 24+ hours bc he's been with his friends a lot and taking trips

and then i in turn ignore him for even longer and/or become super passive aggressive which like isn't healthy or whatever but like i feel like the only alternative would just to like. take it. 😭

this isn't helped by the fact we only see each other Maybe once a week in class (despite living in the same damn building and eating dinner in the same small cafeteria every day) so most, if not all, of our communication is through text.

ive tried to talk to him about like the whole ignoring me thing in the past and it did help for the most part it's just this month in particular has been so bad. and i don't wanna bring up more things bc then i feel like im being annoying (this comes after a whole fiasco like less than two months ago when i thought he was cheating... a whole other story)

and also because of a bunch of things i haven't seen him outside of class for two weeks and will continue to not see him outside of class until probably the end of finals (like at the end of july 💀) and two weeks after that i fucking go back to america for a month

oh yeah and our one year anniversary is on july 31st. like one week after finals. and we meet up in chicago at the end of august.

so to sum it up: im having relationship problems that would probably benefit a lot by literally just seeing each other and talking to each other but since neither of us have any time i will continue to see him once a week during class until i basically leave for america for a month where then we will have a 3 day trip together.

this is all to say we're so fucked.

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disliking your father for personality traits you have yourself but keep firmly repressed

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watching nicob's playthru of rgg6 and (warning for major major spoilers for rgg6) i just got to the part where we learn what onomichi's secret is and MY GOD out of all the rgg games ive seen (rgg0-rgg6) this is like by FAR, with the exception of maybe rgg0, the best written rgg game.

so far, this plot not only Makes Sense, but is so so clever in its writing. it's clear that the writers really really wanted to highlight the theme of son-father relationships (haruto + yuta, jimmy + big lo, hirose+kurusu, nagumo+hirose) and sacrifice (kiryu going to jail bc he thinks its for the best and instead causes all of the events of this game and then eventually stopping yuta from making the same mistake of sacrificing himself).

also the Political Intrigue is crazy. like when (again, major spoilers) kurusu admitted that daidoji never told him to hide the secret, but to destroy the ship, but kurusu made hirose kill everyone to keep the secret just to keep his leverage over daidoji. or how the secret was less about the ship and more about how post-WW2 funds were grossly misused and that japan had violated the peace treaty with the US.

and then, after a full life of following kurusu's every order, the moment hirose falters, kurusu just kills him, with no remorse. a large contrast with how hirose is unable to kill nagumo. it shows that hirose viewed nagumo like his son. while kurusu viewed hirose as his tool.

god this game is so good