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Logos arknights you are on my brain 24/7

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Heads up this might be a little rambley (its the ADHD trust)

CW: Mentions of SH, abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, suicide.

I do not support sending hate to ANYONE involved.

Luma and I met through a mutual server when we were fifteen/sixteen and sixteen/seventeen. After we became good friends they invited me to their server which revolved around self shipping. Not long after that Luma and I began a relationship. Which will explain all the pet names in the screenshots.

In the selfship server we had a bot called the 'Lumine wishing simulator' bot which mimicked the wishing/gambling aspect of genshin impact. At this point I was a mod of the server and we had been dating for a while.

I tended to have the channel with the bot in it on mute because it got pretty high traffic and I didn't like the constant notifications. After a while me nad one of my friends who the server commonly referred to as 'father' began a harmless game. We created a challenge where we attempted to gain the most of a particular character in the server. Usually when we would roll characters Luma had 'claimed' we were guilt tripped into handing them the characters to avoid them potentially harming themselves.

Something that they were very comfortable telling a group of sixteen to twenty five year olds.

The following incident occured after a group of people decided it would a fun idea for one person to collect the most of character X. Another person would collect the most of character Y ect. Luma found about this and was displeased.

What resulted after was what they treated to send one of their closest friends a video of them TAKING THEIR OWN LIFE and SELF HARMING because they had more characters then Luma did. All of these screenshots will remain anonymous along with my identity to protect the individuals. Originally I had never intended on writing a callout post which is why my name is blacked out too. I'm the purple for clarification.

I had noticed one of my friends acting strangly so I dmed him and asked him what was wrong. This is following conversation that came out of that.

I was to put it plainly - horrified. I went to Luma and immediately questioned them on their behavior.

After which I created a small group chat containing Luma and the other individual to talk things out. Be aware that this entire time, my parents - who are incredibly strict when it comes to device usage - were threatening to lock up/break my computer because I was spending too much time on it. This ordeal is very common in my house.

Regardless, Luma apologized for their behavior and we moved on.

Luma also confessed to having feelings for someone else (who was Olivia) while we were dating, they never told me this but they did tell someone else who sent me this.

Which is wild. They never told me this and I never knew until the other person told me.

The following posts are all from after Luma decided to end things off with me where they were painting me in a bad light.

Pretty self-explanatory.

Here's one of them being pretty self deprecating in the server. As well being jealous of a character I roleplayed as when I was in my Hazbin Hotel phase. Being jealous of other people I understand, but this was a fictional character. You were getting worked up over a few pixels on a screen.

Along with this they got so so so jealous over my best friend. One short conversaton can be seen here. Me and my best friend joke like this all the time this sort of joking is very normal between us.

The tag in question:

It was a harmless roleplay blog starring a character I liked. And then they send me this sort of ask?

Some more of them being jealous over characters.

While we were dating they send me a texts of a journal entry and basically forced me to read and talk about it. I was incredibly tired and uncomfortable of this but I decided Luma was more important and so I did end up reading them and replying to it. They insisted I read it multiple times.

They also got so mad I posted something about supporting one of my other friends' selfships. I don't see anything wrong with showing my love for my friend's selfships but apparently that was the wrong thing to do in the first place.

After we broke up, they forcibly removed me from the server, which I was originally confused about. I thought we had broken up on ok terms. And I was still willing to be their friend. I rejoined the server, but after I was kicked again I went to Luma's dms and we spoke.

This was the last time me and Luma spoke with one and other. They attempted to paint me in a bad light by framing me as the 'bad guy' and a bad girlfriend. I admit, maybe I wasn't the best partner. But we had been dating for a month. And they had practically dumped me with all their problems, I had become exhausted but I continued pushing, praying that maybe things would change and that we could be a happy couple.

They really didn't.

And to end things off, the previously mentioned friend reached out to Luma to talk to them about the Lumine Wishing Simulator incident along with gatekeeping specific F/Os. And here is what came out of that.

Overall. Luma was a horrible partner, they made me doubt my own feelings and ruined my experience with dating people. I'm just glad we never met in person.

I truly hope that anyone who still supports them despite them doing these horrible things to step back and realize that Luma is not a good person.

Tagging: @ddeardolly @kozuwhore

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I'll just start disappearing for a few months again ok now happy pride month

I should rlly start posting my ocs here too and hello again, i should start organizing my theme and it SUXKS.

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i would get jumped for posting oc x cc here sorry, but hey i'll try to word by each mitsukis one by one

I should rlly start posting my ocs here too and hello again, i should start organizing my theme and it SUXKS.

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I should rlly start posting my ocs here too and hello again, i should start organizing my theme and it SUXKS.

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🧱🧱🧱🧱🧱🧱🧱🧱

I am goibg to forget you /j

naw who r u

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oh my gawd hai new oomf

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wym that it's been a long time since i posted in this damn app

FINE I'LL START WRITING AGAIN BJT ONLY FOR DIFFERENT FANDOMS

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can't believe this damn blog is now one year old but my lasy words before i disappeae again (i am also open for having new mutuals....... ;-;) i love roland

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AND of course, my reqs and asks are still open idc if any of you interact since we can have a silly convo 👍👍👍

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i am active ob twt btw lol

here is my user : PINKELFIE

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i promise to continue working but 👍👍👍 i lied amyways

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hi

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Folks talking about Game Devs dropping Unity or how it won't hurt small indie devs with under 200,000. Are missing the point.

Some of these Unity games can't change to another engine because they have years of code piled on top of each other at this point. aka POKEMON GO. They'd basically have to rebuild the game from scratch.

Not to mention Unity is mostly used by phone app games or Indie's that are lucky enough to get picked up by console. Indie games on Mobile easily pass 200,000 downloads. Temple Run 1 and 2 are in Unity, Crossy Road, Angry birds 1 and 2, and Hearthstone. All of these past 200,000 downloads years ago but aren't bringing in money now except hearthstone.

The Developers will do what happened to the first Angry birds app. They'll take it down, build it in a new engine for "HD", and add a shit ton of micro transactions. We are about to lose countless original versions of the OG pre lootbox mobile games.

We are also about to lose some of the biggest Indie games of the last decade. Among Us, Plague Inc., 7 Days to die, the original Slenderman game and it's sequel, I am Bread, Ori and the Blind Forest, Dream Daddy, Overcooked 1 & 2, Pathfinder online, Cup Head, Bendy and the Ink Machine, Oxygen Not Included, Bloons Tower Defense 6, Beat Saber, Subnautica, The Stanley Parable, Untitled Goose Game, Power Washing Simulator, Fall Guys, Inscryption, Phasmophobia

And the big one FUCKING HOLLOW KNIGHT. Silk song has already been pushed back out of this year specifically because it's being made by a team of like 3 people. It is so close to being finished and now they are being told they have to start over from scratch basically. Hollow Knight got over 200,000 downloads from being on playstation and was eventually put on Playstations subscription service. Every cent they made from hollow knight has gone back into making silk song. Which might now be delayed by multiple years and oh they are going to have to use some of that funds to pay unity now. Or find a way to get out of a contract with playstation. Because folks will keep downloading Hollow Knight for free and Unity will send the Hollow Knight team the bill.

oh and there's one more teeny tiny game made in Unity that you guys might not want to suddenly disappear. One with almost 3 years of monthly code updates, one with 139 million downloads to date, and 4.8 million monthly users.

Genshin. Guys Genshin Impact is made completely in Unity and that's not a game that can have it's code just copy and pasted to another engine.

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might be one of my dumbest drawings yet

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Astrology and alchemy gfs 💓

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