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So, that's what happened right ?

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kripke should send soldier boy to superhell and have misha’s character die on a nail. mix it up a little

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Dean’s weird worship stuff with his dad also articulates a thing I’ve always had a difficult time coming to terms with or describing, albeit in a blunt and overly simplistic manner. which is that, like, kids of abusive parents don’t always have straightforward “I hope you die, fuck off, don’t talk to me ever again” responses to their parents. Like I’m being very careful to not make generalisations here because people respond to and cope with abuse in a lot of ways, and if you feel that way about your own parents then I’m not dismissing that at all, but like. idk there’s this weird sadness and tragedy you sometimes feel towards your own parent over the fact that they had a shitty life and are obviously deeply unhappy people. It doesn’t excuse their behaviour obviously, but it makes you at least understand where they’re coming from (and it’s even comforting in a weird way! Like oh my dad isn’t being an asshole because I’m just that shitty and I deserve it, my dad is an angry and unhappy person and he’s being an asshole by taking it out on me). You don’t want them to die or suffer, you don’t want them to even be punished necessarily for the abuse they put you through. You want them to become happier and healthier people, you just don’t want them in your life anymore.

And with Dean obviously this is complicated by the fact that he is deeply entrenched in his father’s life, and the only way to escape would be to cut himself off from his brother and father (much the way Sam did for a few years at Stanford), but because Dean has no long term relationships outside of his family, that means being completely alone, which is obviously terrifying for him. So he has to do this balancing act where he wants to leave the situation he’s trapped in, but he also wants to hold onto the security of what’s familiar, even if the thing he’s most familiar with is neglect and abuse. So he runs all these rationalisations in his head - my dad isn’t that bad, other kids have it worse, I need to just man up and deal with it, my dad is actually a good guy, etc. And like maybe some of that is even “true” in the abstract. Dean admits openly to having some really happy memories of his father, and I think during the times when John was in a good mood, they got along decently well. And because Dean has so few happy memories and good relationships in general (which is, hilariously, his father’s doing), that seriously fucks with his ability to place his complicated feelings about his father and his own abuse in context with what he wants out of life and how he deserves to be treated by other people.

So like imo I don’t think Dean would ever get to a place where he genuinely hates and reviles his father and wants him to suffer. Acknowledging that John was an asshole and he was abusive and venting about that by voicing his own resentment and anger towards John is cathartic and healing, but long term I think Dean will always have this weird complicated fondness he feels for his father despite everything. There’s sadness in the realisation that his dad was an unhappy person with a shitty life who died relatively young, and Dean can mourn the tragedy in that, but he can also dispose of the rationalisations he built up in his mind that held him back from reckoning with the fact that he still didn’t deserve to be treated that way by his father.

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Happy birthday Dean! May you spend your day being lazy in bed with your husband

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falling from grace etc (detail)

full version here and here

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my baddest bitch and my bestest friend forever and ever and ever

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The tenth thing that happens is that things keep happening, and they always have been, for a very long time. Dean’s only just realizing it, but that’s sort of how his life works—maybe life in general.

from thee latest sobsicles baby

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dean winchester | mirrorball

i’m still a believer, but i don’t know why // i’ve never been a natural, all i do is try try try

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or, dean + his performance of self (through a queer lens) — bonus thumbnail under the cut!

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supernatural actor men getting married and. I can't believe but we. well we. we got a. we got a gif for it

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man, was everyone on the set of supernatural horny for eachother??

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[Image ID: The Destiel confession meme edited so that Dean answers 'The actors of Garth and Benny from Supernatural are getting married' to Cas' 'I love you'. /End ID]

i CANNOT believe this is real

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So the cajun vampire sidepiece WAS gay after all

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👁️👁️👁️

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We as a society moved on from this far too quickly

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AO3 Top Relationships Bracket- Round 2 Side 1

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