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009 | freedom

19-D until Olympics.

“So… we’re, uh, together here,” Mark said, breaking the silence. His eyes flickered around the room, avoiding Haechan’s gaze. “This is… weird, right?”

Haechan let out a nervous laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. “Yeah, definitely weird. I didn’t exactly plan on waking up to find out I have a boyfriend I’ve never met before.”

They shifted uncomfortably, the reality of their situation settling over them like a heavy fog. The previous night had been a whirlwind of confusion, trying to understand their new roles and navigate the intricacies of their identities in this universe.

“I guess we need to figure out how to act around everyone else,” Haechan suggested, glancing at the photos on the wall depicting moments from this universe’s life—moments he hadn’t experienced but now had to pretend to know.

Mark nodded, his expression thoughtful but strained. “Yeah, probably. We should, um, act normal. Pretend like nothing’s changed, even though everything has.”

Their conversation was punctuated by awkward pauses, each grappling with the strange new dynamic between them. They were supposed to be partners here, but in reality, they were strangers, each unsure of how to proceed.

“So, what’s the plan?” Haechan asked, breaking the silence that had stretched between them, his voice laced with underlying tension.

Mark hesitated, unsure of how to navigate this unfamiliar territory. “Maybe we should skip classes today. We need time to adjust, and I don’t think I can focus on anything right now.”

Haechan nodded in agreement. “Yeah, sounds good. I wouldn’t even know where to start with classes in this world.”

They decided to take the day off, choosing instead to explore the campus. Every step felt like walking through a dream, each interaction a carefully orchestrated performance as they attempted to learn more about their new lives. They spoke to people they didn’t know but had to pretend to recognize, piecing together fragments of their new identities from overheard conversations and casual interactions.

Despite their awkwardness, they began to form a tentative alliance, united by their shared predicament. The strangeness of their situation made it difficult to connect, but they knew they had to rely on each other to navigate this new world.

“I guess we should try to learn as much as we can about who we’re supposed to be here,” Mark suggested, his voice thoughtful but edged with uncertainty.

“Yeah, like a crash course in living someone else’s life,” Haechan replied, a hint of humor softening his tone.

They spent the morning walking through the quad, watching as students streamed past, absorbed in their own worlds. The sky was a brilliant blue, a stark contrast to the storm of confusion that raged within them. Each moment felt like a stolen glance into a life they didn’t own.

Haechan noticed Mark’s occasional glances at his surroundings, the way his eyes lingered on the small details of the world around them. It was as if Mark were seeing everything for the first time, each sight and sound a new discovery. It made Haechan wonder just how different Mark’s world had been—how limited his experiences were compared to this.

Haechan himself felt strangely exposed, aware of how different his upbringing had been. Years of training had instilled in him a sense of discipline and focus that left little room for spontaneity or socializing. He had always lived a life of structure, every moment accounted for, every action measured. This world, with its freedom and unpredictability, was foreign to him.

They continued their exploration, the campus unfolding before them like a map they were struggling to decipher. Haechan found himself scrutinizing the faces they passed, trying to memorize names and stories, piecing together a narrative that made sense.

The afternoon passed in a blur as they adjusted to their new environment. Just as they began to feel slightly comfortable, a knock on the door interrupted their musings. Haechan opened it to find Jaemin, grinning broadly.

“Hey, you two! Are you coming to the party tonight?” Jaemin asked, excitement radiating from him. “It’s going to be epic, and you guys can’t miss it!”

Haechan exchanged a quick, awkward glance with Mark. Attending a party felt daunting given their situation, but it was an opportunity to learn more about their lives here.

“Yeah, sure,” Haechan replied, trying to sound natural, his voice steady even as anxiety twisted in his gut. “We’ll be there.”

Jaemin clapped him on the back. “Awesome! It starts around nine. See you then!”

As the evening approached, Haechan felt a growing sense of apprehension. Parties were common in Universe A, but the thought of pretending to be someone else in a social setting was nerve-wracking. He watched Mark as they got ready, noticing the tension in his movements, the way his hands trembled slightly as he adjusted his clothes.

“You okay?” Haechan asked, attempting to sound casual but failing to mask the concern in his voice.

Mark hesitated, then nodded. “Yeah, just… trying to get used to all this. It’s weird.”

Haechan managed a small smile, trying to inject some levity into the situation. “Tell me about it. But maybe the party will help. We can learn more about the people here.”

Mark offered a weak smile in return, the expression not quite reaching his eyes. “Yeah, maybe.”

When they arrived at Jaemin’s apartment, the party was already in full swing. Music pulsed through the air, and laughter filled the rooms. Mark looked around with wide eyes, taking in the scene with a mix of awe and nervousness. It was overwhelming, this sudden immersion into a life that felt so vibrant and alive.

“Let’s grab a drink,” Mark suggested, making his way to the makeshift bar in the kitchen, his voice barely audible over the music.

Haechan followed, watching as Mark poured himself a drink, then another, as if trying to relax in the unfamiliar setting. The atmosphere was intoxicating, a sharp contrast to the sterile confines of the hospital he was used to in Universe B. It was a world he’d only glimpsed through screens and stories, a reality that had seemed so distant.

As the night wore on, Mark’s inhibitions seemed to dissolve with each drink. He laughed loudly, dancing with abandon, and talked animatedly with people he had only just met. The alcohol fueled his desire to embrace this new world fully, to live a life he’d only dreamed of.

Haechan, on the other hand, remained reserved, his disciplined nature making it difficult to let go and enjoy the moment. He watched Mark with growing unease, feeling the tension between them start to build. Every laugh, every wild gesture, was a reminder of how different they were, how out of sync.

Years of training had prohibited Haechan from enjoying a normal social life. His schedule had been filled with rehearsals, practices, and performances, leaving little room for parties or the carefree laughter of youth. He had always been focused on achieving perfection, on meeting expectations, and now, in this world where he was supposed to be free, he felt more confined than ever.

“Mark, maybe you should slow down,” Haechan suggested gently, trying not to sound too controlling, but the edge of worry in his voice was unmistakable.

Mark waved him off, a wide grin on his face, eyes bright with a reckless glee. “Come on, Haechan! We’re supposed to be having fun. Just let me enjoy this, okay?”

Haechan’s frustration bubbled inside as he watched Mark continue to drink and party. In Universe B, Haechan was used to discipline and focus, and seeing Mark so reckless was unsettling. It was as if Mark were trying to make up for lost time, each moment a desperate grasp at the freedom he’d never known.

Their friends began to notice the tension. Jaemin approached them, concern etched across his features. “Hey, is everything okay with you guys? You seem a little… off tonight.”

Haechan forced a smile, trying to brush off the concern. “Yeah, we’re fine. Just a long day,” he replied, but the words felt hollow, a thin veneer over the truth.

But the truth was harder to hide. Mark’s antics were drawing attention, and the awkwardness between them was palpable. As Mark stumbled over to them, his words slurred, Haechan felt his patience snap.

“Mark, seriously, you need to stop,” Haechan said, his voice sharper than he intended, frustration bleeding through despite his efforts to remain calm.

Mark blinked at him, a mixture of confusion and defiance in his eyes. “Why are you being like this? I just want to live a little.”

Haechan’s frustration flared, fueled by the differences between them and the weight of their new reality. “Living a little doesn’t mean losing control.”

The argument simmered between them, a silent acknowledgment of how out of sync they were in this world. Jaemin watched them, his concern deepening as he sensed the discord between his friends.

As the night deepened, Mark’s drunkenness became more pronounced. He leaned against the wall, laughing at nothing in particular, eyes glazed over with a mixture of happiness and melancholy. It was a bittersweet sight, this glimpse into a life unfettered by illness, and yet so fragile.

“Mark, you’re really drunk,” Haechan said, trying to steer him away from the crowd and toward a quieter corner, his voice filled with a mix of concern and irritation.

Mark giggled, his movements unsteady. “I know. Isn’t it great? I’ve never been this free before.”

Haechan sighed, frustration and concern battling within him. “We need to get you home.”

“No! I’m not done yet,” Mark protested, pulling away and stumbling back toward the party, where the music thumped louder, a chaotic heartbeat that matched his own.

Haechan hesitated, torn between the urge to let Mark have his moment and the responsibility of keeping him safe. As he watched Mark trip over his own feet and fall into a chair, the decision was made for him.

“Alright, that’s enough,” Haechan said firmly, moving to help Mark up. “We’re leaving.”

Mark pouted, but he didn’t resist as Haechan guided him through the crowded room. Their friends watched them go, confused and concerned by the uncharacteristic tension. It was a silent departure, marked by the unspoken understanding that something had shifted between them.

Once outside, the cool night air hit them like a splash of water. Mark swayed on his feet, leaning heavily on Haechan as they made their way back to the dorm.

“Why are you so serious all the time?” Mark mumbled, his words slurring together, each syllable a struggle. “Life’s too short for that.”

Haechan sighed, struggling to hold back his annoyance. “I know, but we’re in this together, and we need to be careful. People are going to notice if we act too different.”

Mark was silent for a moment, then muttered, “I just wanted to know what it felt like.”

Haechan’s heart softened as he realized the depth of Mark’s desire to experience life beyond the confines of illness. “I get it. But there’s a time and a place, Mark.”

The walk back to the dorm was quiet, punctuated only by the distant sounds of the city at night. Haechan supported Mark as they made their way across campus, careful to avoid the few other students who were still out and about. The cool night air seemed to have a sobering effect on Mark, though he remained unsteady on his feet.

Once they reached the dorm room, Haechan guided Mark inside, helping him sit on the bed. Mark let out a heavy sigh, running a hand through his hair as he tried to focus his bleary eyes.

“Thanks,” Mark muttered, his voice thick with exhaustion and alcohol. “For getting me out of there.”

Haechan gave a small nod, sitting down on the edge of his own bed across the room, maintaining a deliberate distance. “No problem. Just wanted to make sure you didn’t do anything you’d regret.”

Mark chuckled softly, the sound tinged with bitterness. “Regret. Yeah, got plenty of that already.”

Haechan glanced at him, unsure of how to respond. Despite the vulnerability Mark was showing, Haechan felt a strong pull to remain detached. He was disciplined, used to focusing on what was necessary and logical, and he struggled with the emotional weight of Mark’s situation.

“Do you want to talk about it?” Haechan asked, keeping his tone neutral, offering the option without pushing.

Mark was silent for a moment, staring at his hands. Then he began to speak, his voice low and raw. “I’ve been sick for a long time. Cancer. It’s… it’s been a part of my life for years now.”

Haechan listened, nodding slightly but maintaining his emotional distance. “That sounds really tough,” he said, his voice calm but lacking the warmth that might invite deeper connection.

Mark nodded, his gaze distant as he continued. “I used to be so full of dreams, you know? Had all these plans for my life. But then… everything just stopped. The hospital became my world.”

Haechan watched him, feeling a flicker of sympathy but unsure how to express it. “I’m sorry you had to go through that,” he offered, still keeping his emotions in check.

Mark continued, seemingly needing to unburden himself. “It was like being in a cage, watching the world move on without me. I missed out on so much… so many things I’ll never get to do.”

Haechan nodded again, recognizing the depth of Mark’s pain but struggling to let down his own barriers. His disciplined nature kept him from fully engaging with the emotional intensity of Mark’s story.

“And now… now I’m here,” Mark said, gesturing vaguely around the room. “In this life where I can walk and breathe without pain, where I’m not constantly reminded of how fragile everything is.”

Mark looked at Haechan, his eyes filled with a mixture of hope and desperation. “I just wanted to feel alive, even if it was just for a night.”

Haechan nodded, understanding the desire but unsure how to respond. “I get it,” he said simply, acknowledging Mark’s experience without opening himself up too much.

The room fell into silence, the weight of what had been shared hanging between them. Haechan felt a mix of respect and discomfort, aware of the challenges Mark had faced but still holding himself at arm’s length.

“Thanks for listening,” Mark said eventually, his voice quieter now, more sober.

“Sure,” Haechan replied, his tone still reserved. “We’re in this together, so… it’s fine.”

Mark nodded, seeming to accept Haechan’s detached support. “Yeah. Together.”

As Mark lay back on the bed, finally succumbing to sleep, Haechan remained seated for a while, reflecting on everything he had learned. The distance between them remained, a reminder of how different they were and the challenges they faced in this new world.

They were two strangers thrown together by fate, navigating a world that was both familiar and alien. And for now, that would have to be enough.

After ensuring Mark was safely tucked into bed, Haechan quietly left the room. He needed space to think, to clear his mind of the tangled mess of emotions that had built up over the course of the night. The air in the dorm felt stifling, heavy with the weight of everything unsaid between him and Mark.

The night was cool and quiet as Haechan stepped outside, the campus bathed in the soft glow of streetlights. He felt a familiar itch in his muscles, a restless energy that had no outlet in this new world. Back home, he’d often run late at night, pushing himself until his legs ached and his mind was blessedly clear. It was a ritual, a way to keep the doubts and fears at bay. But now, in this unfamiliar body, the ritual felt almost impossible.

His thoughts drifted to the Olympics in Beijing, looming on the horizon like a specter. The pressure was immense, a constant reminder of what he was supposed to be working towards. Every day that passed without training was a day lost, a day closer to failure. The stakes were incredibly high—not just for his career, but for his identity as an athlete.

Without the usual tools at his disposal—no phone to check in with coaches, no familiar routines—Haechan felt adrift. The idea of running through campus was appealing, a way to reclaim some semblance of normalcy. But as he took the first tentative steps, his muscles protested, sluggish and unfamiliar. It was as if his body had forgotten how to move, how to respond to the demands he placed upon it.

Frustration bubbled within him, sharp and bitter. He pushed harder, forcing his legs to move faster, willing them to remember the rhythm and power they once had. But it was no use. His breath came in ragged gasps, his heart pounding in his chest like a drumbeat out of sync. It felt wrong, all wrong, and the realization hit him like a blow.

He slowed to a stop, bent over with his hands on his knees, gasping for air. Anger and despair warred within him, a toxic mix that left him trembling. How was he supposed to compete in the Olympics like this? How could he face his coaches, his teammates, with nothing to show for all those years of work?

Haechan sank to the ground, the cold earth seeping through his clothes. He buried his face in his hands, feeling the hot sting of tears he refused to shed. The weight of his situation pressed down on him, heavy and relentless. He was trapped in a life that wasn’t his own, with a body that wouldn’t listen, and a future that seemed to slip further from his grasp with each passing day.

The dreams he’d held onto for so long—the podium, the medals, the moment of triumph—seemed impossibly distant, as if belonging to another person entirely. How could he reconcile who he was meant to be with the reality of who he was now?

In the stillness of the night, Haechan felt the full force of his isolation. He was alone, truly alone, in a world that didn’t know him, didn’t understand what he was fighting for. And that loneliness cut deeper than any failure ever could.

He stayed there for a long time, letting the night envelop him, his thoughts a jumbled mess of fear and longing. The Olympic dream was still there, a flicker of hope amid the darkness, but it felt fragile, as if it could be extinguished at any moment.

Eventually, Haechan forced himself to stand, but the strength he usually felt after a run was absent. He was left with nothing but a hollow ache in his chest and the knowledge that the path to the Olympics, to his old life, seemed farther away than ever. There was no comfort in the night air, no clarity in his thoughts. Just an overwhelming sense of loss and a future as uncertain as the world he now found himself in.

As he made his way back to the dorm, the weight of reality pressed heavily on him. There were no answers, no reassurances. Only the chilling thought that the life he had known, the life he had worked so hard to build, might never be his again.

With each step, the realization settled deeper in his bones: he was adrift, without a map, without a compass, in a life that wasn’t his own. And as he lay back down, listening to Mark’s even breathing in the dark, he knew that sleep would bring no solace, only the inescapable truth of his predicament.

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008 | fever dream

19-D until Olympics.

Mark awoke slowly, the dull throb of an early morning headache pressing against his temples. He blinked, trying to adjust his eyes to the pale hospital room, the sterile white ceiling above a stark reminder of where he was. For a moment, a sliver of hope flickered within him—perhaps it had all been a strange dream, a figment of his imagination that would dissolve in the morning light. But as his senses came into focus, the reality of his situation settled over him like a heavy shroud.

The steady beep of a heart monitor filled the room, each pulse a relentless affirmation that this was real. Mark shifted slightly, feeling the IV tube tug against his arm, the cool sheets rough against his skin. He sighed, an unfamiliar weariness settling into his bones. The door creaked open, and a nurse entered with a soft, practiced step, her presence both comforting and disconcerting in its familiarity. She wore a crisp uniform and a badge that read “Irene,” and her eyes crinkled with warmth as she approached the bed.

“Good morning, Mark,” Irene greeted, her voice gentle and encouraging. “How are you feeling today?”

Mark hesitated, searching for the right words. He knew he needed information, but he also needed to avoid arousing suspicion. “Morning,” he replied, attempting to infuse his voice with normalcy. “I’m... adjusting, I guess. Everything feels a bit fuzzy.”

Irene nodded, her expression understanding as she checked the monitors. “That’s to be expected. It’s been a tough road, but you’ve been making great progress.”

Mark nodded, absorbing her words while trying to piece together what he could. He watched her carefully, noting the way she moved with a sense of purpose, her hands deftly adjusting the IV drip.

“So, about this treatment,” Mark began cautiously, hoping to draw out more details without sounding too lost. “It’s a lot to keep track of. Could you remind me what we’re focusing on right now?”

Irene paused, her gaze meeting his with a flicker of empathy. “You’re currently on a regimen called Hyper-CVAD,” she explained, choosing her words with care. “It’s an aggressive treatment plan, but we’ve seen positive results.”

Hyper-CVAD. Mark rolled the unfamiliar term over in his mind, trying to attach some meaning to it. The words felt heavy, laden with the gravity of Mark B’s reality—a reality filled with battles he had never fought, struggles he had never faced. “And how long have I been on this treatment?” Mark asked, his curiosity genuine.

Irene’s eyes softened as she considered his question. “You started several months ago. It’s been intense, but your body’s responding well. Some days are harder than others, but you’ve shown incredible resilience.” Mark nodded again, feeling a mix of admiration and anxiety. The idea of enduring such a regimen was daunting, and he couldn’t help but wonder about the strength it had required from this person to get this far.

He shifted slightly, trying to ignore the discomfort in his muscles, the ache that seemed to settle into every joint. “I suppose it’s normal to have some memory gaps,” he ventured, hoping to cover any missteps in his questioning. “Absolutely,” Irene reassured him, her voice steady. “It’s not uncommon to feel disoriented, especially with the medication. But you’re in good hands, Mark. We’re all here to support you.”

Mark offered a grateful smile, appreciating her kindness. “Thank you, Irene. I really appreciate everything you and the team do.”

Irene returned his smile, a hint of pride in her expression. “We’re all rooting for you. You’ve got a lot of people on your side.”

As she continued to check his vitals and make notes on her clipboard, Mark took the opportunity to study the room. He noticed the small, personal touches that marked the space as someone’s temporary home—a few photographs taped to the wall, a colorful blanket draped over the chair, a pile of books stacked neatly on the bedside table.

“Those books,” Mark said, nodding towards the stack, “are they mine?”

Irene followed his gaze, her eyes lighting up with recognition. “Yes, they are. You’ve always been an avid reader, haven’t you?”

Mark smiled, the statement resonating with a part of himself that felt familiar. “I guess so. It’s good to know some things haven’t changed.”

Irene chuckled softly, finishing her tasks before giving him a reassuring pat on the arm. “You’ll get through this, Mark. One step at a time.”

With that, she left the room, leaving Mark alone with his thoughts and the steady rhythm of the machines. He took a deep breath, trying to process everything he had learned. The pieces were starting to come together, slowly forming a picture of the life he now inhabited—a life marked by courage and resilience in the face of uncertainty. Mark lay back against the pillows, staring at the ceiling as he considered his next steps. He needed to understand more, to gather enough information to navigate this world without losing himself in the process. Each conversation, each interaction, would be crucial in piecing together the puzzle of his current existence.

Despite Irene’s comforting words, the enormity of living in a world not his own weighed heavily on him.

As the morning sun climbed higher in the sky, its warmth filtering through the blinds, Mark felt a wave of exhaustion sweep over him. His body, unaccustomed to the ongoing treatment, demanded rest. He surrendered to the weariness, allowing his eyes to close and his mind to drift.

In the depths of his nap, a dream unfolded. Mark found himself standing at the edge of an athletic track, the sun high and bright, casting long shadows across the field. The air was crisp, carrying the faint scent of grass and chalk. It was a familiar setting, one that stirred something deep within him. There, in the distance, he saw Haechan—lean, focused, and determined—running laps with the effortless grace of an athlete in his element. Each stride was powerful and sure, a testament to the countless hours of training and dedication. Mark watched as Haechan pushed himself, his movements fluid and precise. He could almost hear the rhythmic pounding of feet against the track, the heartbeat of determination and ambition.

The scene tugged at Mark’s heart, filling him with a poignant longing. It was a world where Haechan thrived, where challenges were met head-on, and dreams were chased with relentless vigor. The dream felt so real, so achingly close, yet impossibly distant. In his mind, Mark reached out, trying to call out to Haechan, to connect across the vast chasm that separated them. But no words came, only a deep yearning that echoed through his soul.

He felt a surge of nostalgia for the life he’d left behind—the shared laughter, the unspoken understanding, the certainty of knowing exactly where he belonged. The memory of Haechan, of his unwavering support and their shared aspirations, wrapped around Mark like a comforting embrace.

As Haechan completed another lap, he slowed, glancing up as if sensing Mark’s presence. Their eyes met, and in that fleeting moment, Mark felt a rush of emotions—hope, sadness, love—all intertwined in the bittersweet recognition of what had been lost. The dream began to fade, the vibrant colors of the track and field dissolving into the soft, muted tones of the hospital room. Mark awoke with a start, his heart heavy with longing and the vivid memory of Haechan’s determined face etched into his mind.

He lay still for a moment, the weight of reality pressing down on him like a tangible force. The dream lingered in the edges of his consciousness, a reminder of the world he desperately missed and the person he yearned to return to.

Mark took a deep breath, steadying himself against the wash of emotions. The room around him was unchanged, yet everything felt different, colored by the dream’s lingering shadow.

A knock on the door drew Mark’s attention, and he looked up to see a doctor entering, clipboard in hand. The doctor, a middle-aged man with kind eyes and a reassuring presence, offered a gentle smile that failed to reach Mark’s heart.

“Good morning, Mark. I’m Dr. Park. How are you feeling today?”

Mark nodded, mustering a polite smile that felt hollow. “I’m doing okay, just trying to get my bearings.”

Dr. Park sat in the chair beside the bed, flipping through the notes on his clipboard. “I understand you’ve been having some memory gaps. That’s not uncommon given everything you’ve been through. If you have any questions or concerns, please feel free to share.” Mark took a moment to gather his thoughts, feeling the weight of his situation pressing down like a vise. “I was wondering about my progress and what the next steps are. Irene mentioned the treatment plan, but I’d like to understand more.”

Dr. Park nodded, a hint of sympathy in his eyes. “Of course. You’re currently undergoing Hyper-CVAD chemotherapy, which is an intensive regimen designed to target the leukemia aggressively. We’ve seen some positive responses, but it’s crucial to monitor your condition closely.”

Mark absorbed the information, feeling a heavy sense of inevitability rather than determination. “And how long will this treatment continue?”

“We’ll assess your progress regularly. The duration can vary depending on how your body responds. Right now, we’re focusing on the next few cycles, ensuring you’re stable and showing improvement.”

The words “stable” and “improvement” felt like empty promises in the sterile confines of the hospital room. Mark nodded, but inside, he felt a growing chasm of despair. The path ahead was not just challenging; it was suffocating, with no light at the end of the tunnel.

“Thank you, Dr. Park,” Mark said, his voice barely a whisper.

As Dr. Park left the room, Mark felt an overwhelming sense of abandonment. The words “you’re not alone” echoed mockingly in his mind, hollow and meaningless against the backdrop of machines that beeped and clicked in their ceaseless vigil. The dream of Haechan, so vivid and real, now felt like a cruel trick of the mind, a fleeting glimpse of happiness that was forever out of his grasp. He had tried to call out, to reach across the chasm that separated them, but no words had come. Only silence and an aching emptiness remained. Mark placed the book back on the table, feeling the weight of his solitude press down on him. The room, though filled with the hum of activity outside, felt like a void, a vacuum where hope could not penetrate.

He lay back against the pillows, closing his eyes against the harsh light filtering through the blinds. Exhaustion seeped into his bones, not just from the treatments but from the relentless reality that he would never return to the life he knew. The vibrant world outside was an illusion, a distant memory that faded with each passing day. In the quiet, Mark allowed himself to grieve for everything he had lost. The laughter, the unspoken understanding, the shared dreams with Haechan—all were fragments of a life that felt like it belonged to someone else. A life he would never reclaim.

As the day wore on, Mark surrendered to the weariness that wrapped around him like a shroud, pulling him into a restless sleep. The dream of the track and Haechan's determined face lingered in his mind, a haunting reminder of what once was. But even in dreams, there was no escape, only the harsh reminder of his own frailty.

When he awoke, it was to the same sterile room, the same relentless beeping of machines, the same oppressive sense of confinement. Mark realized with a sinking heart that he was trapped, and there was no way back to the life he had lost. The realization settled over him, cold and inexorable—a future devoid of hope, a world where the life he had known was forever out of reach.

The isolation was absolute, the despair unending. Mark lay still, eyes fixed on the ceiling, knowing that he was alone in a world that would never again feel like his own.

In that moment, the dream felt less like a connection and more like a cruel reminder of a reality that would never be his again. The vibrant world he longed for remained beyond reach, a tantalizing illusion that faded with the dawn.

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the switch.

now for the fun part, just for clarification: haechan a is now haechan b and mark a is now mark b :) enjoyyyy!!

(20-D until Beijing)

haechan (A)

Haechan awoke with a jolt, disoriented and breathless. The pounding of his feet against the ground echoed through his body as he sprinted down a track he didn’t recognize. The world was a blur of colors and sounds, the air rushing past him as confusion flooded his mind. Just moments ago, he had been in his bed, wrapped in the familiar comfort of sleep. Now, he found himself in the middle of a run he hadn’t started, his heart pounding in his chest in a frantic rhythm that mirrored the chaos in his mind.

Another athletic looking boy approached him, his face visibly preoccupied, "Yo, Haechan, why'd you stop out of the blue?"

He stumbled to a stop, gasping for breath, eyes wide with bewilderment as he surveyed his surroundings. The track stretched out before him, the morning sun casting long shadows across the field. The city skyline loomed in the distance, unfamiliar and intimidating. “What the…?” Haechan muttered to himself, bending over to catch his breath. His limbs felt foreign, heavy, and less responsive than he was used to. Panic bubbled within him as he realized he wasn’t in his own body. The strength and agility he had always taken for granted were gone, replaced by a sense of unfamiliarity and disconnection.

He reached up to wipe away the sweat trickling down his forehead, pausing as he caught sight of his hands. They were different—more muscular, tanned, and calloused. These weren’t his hands. A sinking feeling settled in his stomach as the truth began to dawn on him. He was in a different body, in a different world. Somehow, he had been switched into living a life that wasn’t his own

The realization hit him like a tidal wave, a crushing weight that pressed down on his chest. Panic surged through him as he fumbled for his flip phone, hoping to find some connection to his own life, to Mark, to anything familiar. But as he scrolled through the device, his heart sank further. The contacts were unfamiliar, the messages written in a tone and style that didn’t match his own. There was no way to reach Mark, no way to explain the surreal and terrifying reality he had been thrust into. Haechan’s mind raced with questions and fears. How had this happened? How could he get back to his own life, to the person he loved?

He sat down on the grass beside the track, head in his hands as he tried to steady his racing thoughts. The weight of his situation pressed down on him, a suffocating force that threatened to overwhelm him. Haechan had always embraced the chaos and spontaneity of life, but this was different. This was a nightmare, a reality he couldn’t escape from. The sense of helplessness was crushing, a constant reminder of how far he was from everything he knew and loved. The world around him felt surreal, as if he were trapped in a dream that refused to end. The city skyline loomed in the distance, a constant reminder of the unfamiliarity that surrounded him. Each breath felt like a struggle, the air heavy with the weight of uncertainty and fear.

Desperation clawed at him as he tried to think of a solution, a way to contact Mark and explain what had happened. But the reality was inescapable—he was alone, cut off from everything he had known, thrust into a life that wasn’t his own. Tears pricked at the corners of his eyes as he realized the depth of his isolation. There was no way to reach Mark, no way to explain the impossible situation he found himself in. The thought of being trapped in this world, unable to return to his own life, was terrifying. As the sun rose higher in the sky, the track around him began to fill with other athletes, their focused expressions a stark contrast to the turmoil churning inside him. Haechan watched them move with ease and confidence, a painful reminder of the life he had been torn from.

He tried to stand, his legs wobbling beneath him as he attempted to regain some semblance of control. But each step felt like a struggle, his body refusing to obey his commands. The realization was a gut-wrenching blow, a reminder of the strength and skill he had lost. Every muscle protested as he forced himself to move, the pain a constant companion as he stumbled along the track. The world felt heavy and oppressive, each step a reminder of how far he had fallen.

There was no comfort in this new reality, no solace to be found in the unfamiliar faces that surrounded him. Every moment was a struggle, every breath a reminder of the life he had been ripped from. Exhaustion weighed on him like a leaden shroud, the weight of his circumstances pressing down with an unrelenting force. The hope that had once burned brightly within him flickered and dimmed, smothered by the enormity of his situation.

Haechan felt the sting of tears on his cheeks as he continued to walk, the pain and fear overwhelming in their intensity. He wanted to scream, to rail against the unfairness of it all, but he knew it would do no good. The world around him felt alien, a landscape filled with obstacles and challenges that seemed insurmountable. He felt as though he were drowning in a sea of despair, the surface ever out of reach. The thought of Mark, of the life they had shared, was a constant presence in his mind, a reminder of everything he had lost. But the distance between them was an unbridgeable chasm, a void that seemed to grow wider with each passing moment.

The track stretched out before him, a daunting expanse of uncertainty and possibility. Each step felt heavy, burdened by the weight of his circumstances, but he forced himself to keep moving, driven by a need to understand what had happened. As he walked, the tears flowed freely, a physical manifestation of the turmoil and pain that churned inside him. He was lost in a world he didn’t recognize, and there was no clear path forward, no way to find his way back to the life he had known, Haechan was caught in a cycle of despair and confusion, each moment stretching out into an eternity of uncertainty and fear. He didn’t know how he had ended up here, or how he could find his way back, and the lack of answers was a constant source of torment.

As the day wore on, the weight of his circumstances pressed down on him, a relentless force that left him feeling adrift and alone. He was trapped in a world that wasn’t his own, unable to find his way back to the life he had been torn from.

mark (A)

Mark awoke to the soft beeping of machines and the sterile scent of antiseptic, sensations that were foreign and unsettling. He blinked against the harsh fluorescent lights overhead, his mind struggling to grasp the unfamiliar surroundings. The walls were a stark white, and the air was filled with the quiet hum of medical equipment. He was in a hospital room. Panic surged through him as he tried to sit up, only to be met with resistance from his weakened body. His limbs felt heavy and unresponsive, a far cry from the energy and strength he was accustomed to. It was as though he had been thrust into someone else’s life, a reality that was both terrifying and incomprehensible.

“Good morning, Mark,” a nurse said as she entered the room, offering him a gentle smile. “How are you feeling today?”

Mark blinked, confusion clouding his mind. Her voice was soothing, but the situation was anything but. He wasn’t supposed to be here, trapped in a body that felt foreign and frail. His mind raced with questions, memories of a different life flooding in—a life filled with freedom and possibility.

“I…I don’t understand,” Mark stammered, his voice barely above a whisper. “Where am I?”

“You’re in the hospital,” the nurse replied, adjusting the monitors beside his bed. “You’ve been recovering from a serious illness.”

Her words felt like a punch to the gut, a harsh reminder of the reality he was facing. This wasn’t his life. He was supposed to be out there, living, not confined to a bed, surrounded by machines that monitored his every breath.

Desperation gnawed at him as he looked around the room, searching for something—anything—that would anchor him to reality. But everything was unfamiliar, from the sterile sheets to the IV drip that tethered him to this new existence. Mark felt a wave of despair wash over him, a cold, unrelenting force that left him feeling hollow and alone. The vibrant world he had known was now an unreachable distance, replaced by the suffocating confines of this hospital room.

His mind raced with questions he couldn’t answer. How had this happened? Why was he here, in this frail body, trapped in a life that wasn’t his own? The lack of answers was a constant source of torment, a relentless echo that reverberated through his thoughts. Every movement felt like a monumental effort, his muscles rebelling against even the slightest shift. The weakness and fatigue were a constant reminder of the limitations he faced, a cruel contrast to the vitality he had always taken for granted.

As the nurse continued her rounds, checking his vitals and making notes on her clipboard, Mark felt a growing sense of helplessness. He was trapped in a body that wasn’t his, living a life that felt like a prison. The sense of isolation was overwhelming, a suffocating presence that loomed over him.

The thought of being stuck here, unable to return to his own life, was terrifying. Mark had always been someone who thrived on independence and action, but now he was forced to confront a reality where he was dependent on others for even the most basic needs. Tears pricked at the corners of his eyes as he grappled with the enormity of his situation. He felt like a shadow of his former self, trapped in a reality that was both alien and unforgiving. The vibrant life he had known was a distant memory, replaced by the stark confines of this new existence.

Mark closed his eyes, willing himself to wake up from this nightmare. But the reality was inescapable—he was here, in this hospital room, in a body that wasn’t his own. The sense of despair was crushing, a constant reminder of how far he was from everything he knew and loved. The hours stretched on, each moment an eternity of uncertainty and fear. Mark’s mind was a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions, each one more overwhelming than the last. The vibrant world outside felt like a cruel taunt, a reminder of everything he had lost.

As the day wore on, the weight of his circumstances pressed down on him, a relentless force that left him feeling adrift and alone. He was trapped in a world that wasn’t his own, unable to find his way back to the life he had been torn from. The bustling activity of the hospital was a stark contrast to the turmoil churning inside him. Nurses and doctors moved about with practiced efficiency, their voices a background hum that did little to comfort him. He felt invisible, lost in a sea of white coats and sterile walls. Mark’s thoughts drifted to Haechan, wondering if his friend was facing similar struggles in this strange new reality. The thought of being separated from the people he cared about was a constant source of pain, a reminder of how isolated he had become.

The future felt uncertain, a daunting expanse of unknowns that stretched out before him. Mark felt trapped in a reality he couldn’t escape from, unable to find solace or comfort in the unfamiliar world he had been thrust into. As night fell and the hospital lights dimmed, Mark lay awake, staring at the ceiling. The darkness was a canvas for his fears, amplifying the doubts and insecurities that plagued him. He felt like he was drowning in a sea of despair, the surface ever out of reach. As the first light of dawn crept through the window, Mark lay in bed, exhausted and defeated. The night had been a long and lonely one, filled with fears and doubts that refused to be silenced. He was trapped in a world that wasn’t his own, unable to find his way back to the life he had been torn from.

The weight of his circumstances was a constant presence, a relentless force that left him feeling adrift and alone. Mark didn’t know how he had ended up here, or how he could find his way back, and the lack of answers was a constant source of torment. He felt like a shadow of his former self, trapped in a reality that was both alien and unforgiving. The vibrant life he had known was a distant memory, replaced by the stark confines of this new existence. The sense of despair was crushing, a constant reminder of how far he was from everything he knew and loved.

haechan (b)

Haechan awoke to the blaring sound of an alarm, his heart pounding as confusion and disorientation enveloped him. The room was dimly lit by the early morning light filtering through the curtains. He squinted, trying to make sense of the unfamiliar surroundings. Posters lined the walls, clothes were scattered haphazardly, and the distinct, slightly musty smell of a college dorm room filled the air. He sat up abruptly, feeling a strange heaviness in his limbs that was both unfamiliar and unsettling. Panic surged through him as he glanced around, his eyes landing on another person in the room—a young man he didn’t recognize, sprawled out in the bed beside him, also stirring awake.

“What the hell?” Haechan muttered to himself, his voice trembling with disbelief. He looked down at his hands, flexing them slowly. They were different—paler, thinner, with none of the strength he was accustomed to. This wasn’t his body. Fear gripped him as he struggled to piece together the fragments of his memory. He had been preparing for the Olympics, training tirelessly, his mind singularly focused on the upcoming competition in Paris. But now he found himself in an unfamiliar room, in a body that felt weak and foreign.

The young man beside him—Mark B in Mark A’s body—blinked sleepily, then shot upright, a look of shock on his face mirroring Haechan’s own.

“Who are you?” Haechan demanded, his voice cracking with panic and urgency.

“I’m Mark,” the young man replied, equally bewildered. “...I think.”

Haechan’s mind raced, each thought more terrifying than the last. The Olympics were only days away, and now he was trapped in a body that wasn’t his own, with no way to reach his coach or his team. The realization hit him like a punch to the gut—a crushing weight of despair and helplessness that left him gasping for air. He tried to stand, his legs wobbling beneath him as he attempted to regain some semblance of control. But each step felt like a struggle, his body refusing to obey his commands. The realization was a gut-wrenching blow, a reminder of the strength and skill he had lost.

“What’s happening?” Haechan asked, desperation lacing his voice. “This can’t be real. I can’t be here.”

Mark looked at him, a mix of sympathy and confusion in his eyes. “I don’t know either. I woke up like this too.”

The sense of helplessness was suffocating, a constant weight that pressed down on him. Haechan’s thoughts drifted to the Olympics, the dream he had chased for years now seemingly slipping through his fingers. The fear of missing the competition was overwhelming, a cruel twist of fate that threatened to unravel everything he had worked for. He felt a wave of despair wash over him, a cold, unrelenting force that left him feeling hollow and alone. The vibrant world of athletics he had known was now an unreachable distance, replaced by the suffocating confines of this dorm room and a body that felt alien.

His mind raced with questions he couldn’t answer. How had this happened? Why was he here, in this frail body, trapped in a life that wasn’t his own? The lack of answers was a constant source of torment, a relentless echo that reverberated through his thoughts.

He turned to Mark, his expression a mix of fear and determination. “We need to figure out what’s going on. I have to get back… I can’t miss the Olympics.”

The words hung heavy in the air, a reminder of the urgency and importance of their situation. For Haechan, the Olympics were more than just a competition—they were the culmination of years of hard work, sacrifice, and dedication. The thought of missing it was unbearable, a nightmare he couldn’t wake from. The weight of his circumstances pressed down on him, a relentless force that left him feeling adrift and alone. He was trapped in a world that wasn’t his own, unable to find his way back to the life he had been torn from.

Every moment was a battle against the despair that threatened to consume him, a struggle to hold on to the hope that he might one day find a way back to his own body and his own life. But the path forward was shrouded in uncertainty, a daunting expanse of unknowns that left him feeling lost and alone. As the morning light crept through the window, Haechan sat on the edge of the bed, his mind a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions. The vibrant world he had known felt like a distant memory, replaced by the stark reality of his new existence. He felt like a shadow of his former self, trapped in a reality that was both alien and unforgiving. The vibrant life he had known was a distant memory, replaced by the stark confines of this new existence. The sense of despair was crushing, a constant reminder of how far he was from everything he knew and loved.

The bustling activity of the dorm was a stark contrast to the turmoil churning inside him. Students moved about with the carefree ease of youth, their laughter and conversations a background hum that did little to comfort him. He felt invisible, lost in a sea of strangers and unfamiliar faces. Haechan’s thoughts drifted to his team, wondering if they were facing similar struggles in this strange new reality. The thought of being separated from the people he cared about was a constant source of pain, a reminder of how isolated he had become.

The future felt uncertain, a daunting expanse of unknowns that stretched out before him. Haechan felt trapped in a reality he couldn’t escape from, unable to find solace or comfort in the unfamiliar world he had been thrust into. As the day wore on, the weight of his circumstances pressed down on him, a relentless force that left him feeling adrift and alone. He was trapped in a world that wasn’t his own, unable to find his way back to the life he had been torn from. The sense of helplessness was suffocating, a constant weight that pressed down on him. He longed for the freedom he had once known, the ability to move through the world with confidence and purpose. But the reality of his situation was inescapable, a stark reminder of how far he had fallen.

Haechan felt a growing sense of desperation as he struggled to find a way out of this nightmare. He was trapped in a body that wasn’t his, living a life that felt like a prison. The vibrant world he had known was now a distant memory, replaced by the stark confines of this new existence.

mark (b)

Mark awoke to the sound of an alarm clock blaring beside him, a jarring contrast to the silence of the hospital room he had known for so long. His eyes fluttered open to the sight of sunlight streaming through the blinds of a small, cluttered dorm room. Posters adorned the walls, and text books and clothes were scattered haphazardly around the room. For a moment, he lay still, blinking in confusion as he tried to make sense of the unfamiliar surroundings. The air was filled with the faint scent of cologne and the distant sound of traffic from outside the window. It was a far cry from the sterile smell of antiseptic and the quiet hum of machines that had accompanied his mornings for as long as he could remember.

He sat up slowly, a feeling of energy and vitality coursing through his body—sensations he hadn’t felt in years. The familiar heaviness and fatigue were gone, replaced by a newfound strength and ease of movement that made him feel almost invincible. Mark looked down at his hands, flexing his fingers with a sense of wonder. They were strong and capable, and as he ran a hand through his hair, he realized it was different—thicker, with a slight curl he wasn’t used to. The realization hit him like a gentle wave, both thrilling and bewildering: he was in a different body.

Beside him, another person stirred awake, blinking sleepily at him—Haechan B in Haechan A’s body. Recognition flickered in Mark’s mind, but it was distant, clouded by the whirlwind of emotions swirling inside him.

Mark felt a strange mix of emotions swirling within him. There was confusion, certainly—an underlying uncertainty about how he had ended up here, in this new body and new world. But there was also a growing sense of excitement, a realization of the possibilities that lay before him. For the first time in years, he felt free from the confines of illness, able to move and breathe without the constant shadow of fatigue and pain. The realization was both exhilarating and terrifying, a reminder of how much he had missed while being confined to a hospital bed.

He got out of bed, stretching his limbs with a sense of wonder as he moved around the room, taking in the details of this new life. Everything felt vibrant and alive, a world of possibilities unfurling before him. Despite the confusion and uncertainty, Mark felt a flicker of hope igniting within him. This was a chance to live the life he had dreamed of, to experience the world in a way he had thought was lost to him forever.

Yet amidst the excitement, there was a lingering sense of bewilderment—a question of how he had ended up here, in a body that wasn’t his own. The thought was unsettling, a reminder that this new reality was as precarious as it was thrilling. He glanced at Haechan, who was still trying to make sense of the situation, his face a mask of worry and disbelief. Mark felt a pang of sympathy for him, understanding the turmoil and fear that came with waking up in a world that felt alien and unfamiliar.

“I know this is strange,” Mark said, trying to reassure him. “But maybe we can figure this out together.”

Haechan nodded, though his expression was still one of confusion and anxiety. “I have to get back… I have so much at stake.”

Mark nodded, understanding the weight of his words. They were both caught in a situation that defied logic, thrust into lives that weren’t their own. But for Mark, this was a chance he never expected—a chance to explore a world unburdened by illness, to live a life he had only dreamed of. As the morning light filtered through the blinds, Mark felt a sense of wonder and anticipation build within him. The path ahead was uncertain, fraught with challenges and unknowns, but for the first time in a long time, he felt truly alive. The world outside the window beckoned to him, a vibrant tapestry of sights and sounds that promised adventure and discovery. Mark couldn’t help but smile as he took it all in, the possibilities stretching out before him like a horizon he had never dared to imagine.

Yet, beneath the excitement, there was a nagging sense of unease—a reminder that this new reality was as fragile as it was thrilling. He didn’t know how long this would last, or what it meant for his own body back in the hospital, but for now, he was determined to make the most of every moment.

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006 | trying hard (mark B)

In Universe B, the walls of Mark’s hospital room felt like they were closing in, the sterile environment a constant reminder of his confinement. The cheerful visits from friends and family were fleeting moments of joy, quickly overshadowed by the grim reality of his condition. The life he once knew seemed like a distant memory, a past that felt increasingly out of reach. As the weeks dragged on, Mark’s health fluctuated, small victories overshadowed by setbacks that left him feeling powerless. The physical limitations imposed by his illness were frustrating, but it was the emotional toll that cut the deepest. Each day was a battle against the encroaching darkness, a struggle to find meaning in a life confined to a hospital bed.

Mark lay awake at night, the hum of machines a constant backdrop to his racing thoughts. He thought of all the things he longed to do—explore the world, experience life beyond the hospital walls, chase the dreams he once held dear. But those dreams felt impossibly distant, like stars twinkling in a sky he could never reach.

One afternoon, during a routine check-up, Dr. Na sat by his bedside, her expression gentle yet concerned. “Mark, we need to talk about your progress.”

Mark met her gaze, a knot of anxiety forming in his stomach. “What is it, Dr. Na? Is something wrong?”

She sighed, choosing her words carefully. “You’re stable, but we’re not seeing the improvements we hoped for. It might be time to consider some alternative treatments.”

The news was a blow, a harsh reminder of the fragility of his situation. Mark nodded, though his mind was already spiraling, caught in a web of fear and uncertainty. The thought of more treatments, more uncertainty, was overwhelming, a weight he didn’t know how to carry. After Dr. Na left, Mark sat in silence, staring out the window at the world beyond. The vibrant life outside felt like a cruel taunt, a reminder of everything he was missing. Despite the love and support that surrounded him, the isolation was suffocating, a loneliness that cut deeper than any physical pain.

In the quiet of his room, Mark allowed himself to grieve for the life he once had, the future he might never see. He felt a tear slip down his cheek, a rare moment of vulnerability breaking through his stoic facade. It was a release, a small acknowledgment of the fears that plagued him, and for a moment, he allowed himself to feel the depth of his emotions. The monotony of his days blurred together, each one a mirror image of the last, the routine a relentless cycle that left little room for hope. Mark found himself counting the hours, the minutes, waiting for something—anything—to break the monotony, to offer a glimpse of the life he longed for.

Despite the love and support of his friends and family, Mark couldn’t shake the feeling of isolation that clung to him like a shadow. The world outside his window continued to spin, vibrant and alive, while he remained trapped in a liminal space, caught between hope and despair. The nights were the hardest, the darkness a canvas for his fears and insecurities. Mark lay awake, staring at the ceiling, the quiet hum of machines a constant reminder of his fragility. He longed for the freedom he once had, the ability to explore the world and chase his dreams, but the reality of his condition was an inescapable barrier. In those moments of solitude, Mark allowed himself to dream of a future beyond the hospital walls—a future where he could reclaim his life and pursue the passions that once defined him. It was a fragile hope, but it was enough to keep him moving forward, one day at a time.

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005 | trying hard (mark A)

In Universe A, Mark’s academic journey had become a labyrinth of deadlines and expectations, each day a relentless pursuit of excellence. His passion for engineering was unwavering, but the pressure to succeed was overwhelming, leaving him teetering on the edge of burnout. The demands of his coursework left little time for anything else, and the strain on his relationship with Haechan was palpable. Mark’s life had become a balancing act, a delicate dance between his ambitions and the realities of his limitations. The late nights and early mornings took their toll, each day a battle to maintain the facade of competence and control. Yet beneath the surface, Mark felt like he was drowning, caught in a tide of responsibilities that threatened to pull him under.

The weight of expectations was a constant presence, a relentless pressure that left him questioning his every decision. Mark found himself second-guessing his abilities, each setback a blow to his confidence. The once-clear path to success was now shrouded in uncertainty, the future a daunting expanse that stretched out before him. One evening, after a marathon study session, Mark sat alone in the library, the quiet hum of the building a stark contrast to the chaos in his mind. His laptop screen glowed in the dim light, a spreadsheet of data staring back at him, each cell a reminder of the expectations he struggled to meet.

Mark rubbed his eyes, exhaustion pulling at the edges of his consciousness. The room seemed to close in around him, the walls pressing down with the weight of everything he had yet to accomplish. The once-familiar environment now felt suffocating, the shelves of books a reminder of the knowledge he couldn’t seem to grasp.

Haechan found him there, concern etched across his features as he approached. “Mark, you’ve been here all night. You need to take a break.”

Mark shook his head, frustration lacing his voice. “I can’t, Haechan. There’s too much to do, and not enough time."

Haechan sat beside him, his presence a calming force amidst the chaos. “You can’t keep pushing yourself like this. You’re going to burn out.”

Mark sighed, running a hand through his hair. “I know, but I don’t know how to stop. I feel like I’m constantly falling short, like I’m not good enough.”

Haechan took his hand, squeezing gently. “You are more than enough, Mark. You’re brilliant, and you’re going to do amazing things. But you can’t do it all alone.”

Mark nodded, though the reassurance did little to quell the storm inside him. The pressure to excel, to live up to the potential everyone saw in him, was a burden he didn’t know how to shed. The weight of his ambitions was a constant companion, a reminder of the expectations he felt obligated to meet.

In the quiet of the library, surrounded by the stories of others, Mark realized he needed to find a way to reconcile his ambitions with the reality of his limitations. It was a daunting task, but he knew he couldn’t do it alone. The support of Haechan and their shared dreams were a lifeline, a reminder of the strength that lay in their connection. The nights were the hardest, the darkness amplifying his fears and insecurities. Mark lay awake, staring at the ceiling, the silence a canvas for his doubts. He longed for the certainty he once felt, the confidence that had driven him to pursue his dreams, but the path ahead was shrouded in shadows.

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004 | diverging paths. (haechan B)

The track had become a battlefield—a place where Haechan waged war against the limits of his own body. Each day was a grueling test of endurance and willpower, a relentless push toward the elusive goal of Olympic glory. But the pressure of his ambitions, compounded by the expectations of his coach and peers, weighed heavily on him, threatening to crush his spirit, once a sanctuary where Haechan found solace, had transformed into a crucible of doubt and self-criticism. Every misstep, every moment of fatigue was a reminder of his perceived inadequacies. The dream of the Olympics loomed like a distant mirage, tantalizing yet unreachable, a goal that seemed to slip further from his grasp with each passing day.

Haechan’s exhaustion was no longer just physical; it seeped into his bones, dulling the fire that once drove him. He found himself questioning everything—his abilities, his dreams, his worth. The relentless pursuit of perfection left him feeling like a shell of the athlete he once was, each day a struggle to maintain the facade of confidence. The morning sun rose on yet another training session, casting long shadows across the track. Haechan stood at the starting line, heart pounding with a mix of anticipation and dread. His muscles ached from the relentless grind, the weariness a constant companion that threatened to undermine his resolve.

One morning, during a particularly brutal training session, Haechan’s body gave out. He collapsed on the track, muscles refusing to obey, vision swimming as the world tilted around him. The heat of the sun beat down mercilessly, and for a moment, he lay there, breathless and defeated.

Coach Kim rushed over, concern etched across his features. “Haechan, are you okay? Talk to me.”

Haechan struggled to sit up, his heart pounding with a mix of shame and frustration. “I’m fine, Coach. Just…just pushed a little too hard.”

Coach Kim helped him to his feet, his grip firm and steady. “You’ve been pushing yourself too hard for a while now. You need to take a break, Haechan, or you’re going to burn out.”

The words stung, a harsh reminder of his limitations. Taking a break felt like admitting defeat, a concession he wasn’t ready to make. But the truth was undeniable—his body and mind were nearing their breaking point. That evening, alone in his room, Haechan stared at the medals and trophies that adorned his shelves. Each one was a testament to his dedication and sacrifice, a symbol of the dreams he had fought so hard to achieve. Yet now, they felt like hollow reminders of a future that seemed increasingly out of reach.

He picked up his notebook, flipping through the pages filled with training logs and goals. The words blurred before his eyes, the promises he had made to himself ringing empty in the silence. Haechan felt a tear slip down his cheek, the weight of his struggles finally breaking through his stoic facade. The fear of failure was a relentless specter, haunting his every waking moment. Despite the accolades and praise, Haechan couldn’t shake the feeling that he was falling short, that he was somehow unworthy of the dream he pursued. The pressure to succeed was a crushing weight, a burden he didn’t know how to bear.

As night fell, Haechan lay awake, the darkness a backdrop to his swirling thoughts. Every doubt, every fear was magnified in the silence, an echo of the insecurities that plagued him. The future felt uncertain, a horizon shrouded in shadows, and Haechan was terrified of what lay ahead.

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003 | diverging paths. (haechan A)

The weeks following the exam weighed heavily on Haechan, who found himself caught in a downward spiral of anxiety and self-doubt. His usually vibrant personality dimmed under the burden of his academic struggles, and his carefree demeanor masked the turmoil roiling inside him. The university, once a place of possibility, now felt like a maze with no way out. Haechan’s days blurred together, a monotonous routine of lectures and study sessions that left him exhausted and unfulfilled. The lively campus buzzed around him, but he felt disconnected, as if moving through life in a haze. The vibrant laughter of his peers only highlighted his own sense of inadequacy, a reminder that he was falling behind in a race he couldn’t win.

Despite Mark’s unwavering support, a pervasive sense of inadequacy gnawed at Haechan, a constant reminder of his perceived failures. Haechan felt like he was running on a treadmill—always moving, yet never getting closer to his goals. Every failed attempt to grasp his studies left him feeling more lost, the pressure to succeed a suffocating weight on his shoulders. His once-passionate pursuit of engineering had turned into an uphill battle, each class a reminder of his shortcomings. Concepts that once intrigued him now seemed insurmountable, and the gap between his and Mark’s abilities felt like an ever-expanding chasm. Haechan’s mind was a tumultuous storm of insecurity, self-doubt whispering insidiously in his ear that he wasn’t good enough. One evening, after a particularly frustrating study session, Haechan sat on the couch, staring blankly at the wall. His text books lay open around him, untouched for the past hour. The notes he’d painstakingly written now appeared as meaningless scribbles, a testament to his growing frustration and despair. The sense of failure was palpable, an oppressive force that threatened to crush his spirit.

He could hear Mark in the kitchen, making tea, a familiar ritual that usually calmed his nerves. Yet tonight, the soothing routine felt hollow, unable to penetrate the fog of disappointment that clouded his thoughts. Haechan’s mind was a cacophony of self-recrimination, each failure replaying in an endless loop that sapped his motivation. When Mark returned with two steaming mugs, Haechan let out a long sigh. “I don’t know if I can do this, Mark. It feels like no matter how hard I try, I’m always falling short.”

Mark set the mugs down, sitting beside Haechan and wrapping an arm around his shoulders. “It’s okay to feel that way. But you’re not alone. We’ll figure it out together.”

Haechan nodded, but the reassurance did little to quell the storm inside him. The pressure to succeed—to match Mark’s brilliance—was a burden he didn’t know how to bear. The thought of letting Mark down was terrifying, a fear that haunted his every waking moment. Their relationship, once a source of unwavering support, began to strain under the weight of Haechan’s insecurities. Late-night arguments erupted over trivial matters, their voices rising in frustration and misunderstanding. Despite their love for each other, the gap between them seemed to widen, leaving Haechan feeling more isolated than ever.

In the quiet moments before sleep claimed him, Haechan would lie awake, staring at the ceiling and replaying the day’s events. Every misstep, every struggle was magnified in the darkness, a relentless reminder of his perceived inadequacies. The future felt like an overwhelming expanse of uncertainty, a horizon he couldn’t reach. The once-joyous anticipation of sharing his life with Mark was overshadowed by the fear of being left behind, of not being enough. Haechan’s heart ached with the weight of his dreams and doubts, each day a battle to maintain the facade of confidence he so desperately wanted to believe in.

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002 | routine (B)

Haechan

The morning air was crisp and invigorating, a gentle breeze rustling the leaves of the trees lining the track. The sun was just beginning to peek over the horizon, casting a warm glow across the field. Haechan stood at the starting line, stretching his muscles, feeling the familiar tingle of anticipation build within him. This was his sanctuary. The track was a place where the rest of the world faded away, leaving only the rhythm of his breath and the pounding of his heart. Here, he could lose himself in the pursuit of perfection, pushing his body to its limits and beyond.

Coach Kim, a veteran in the field of athletics, watched him with a keen eye. His presence was a constant source of motivation, his belief in Haechan’s potential unwavering. “Alright, Haechan,” he called out, clipboard in hand. “Let’s see what you’ve got today. Warm up, and then we’ll start with some speed intervals.”

Haechan nodded, slipping into a series of stretches and dynamic movements designed to prime his body for the exertion ahead. Each movement was precise, a carefully honed routine that prepared him for the challenges to come. The familiarity of the ritual was comforting, a reminder of how far he’d come.With the warm-up complete, Haechan took his position on the track, his mind sharpening to a singular focus. Today’s session was crucial, another step on the path to the Beijing Olympics. The pressure was immense, but it was a pressure he welcomed—an opportunity to test his mettle and prove his dedication.

“Ready?” Coach Kim asked, raising the stopwatch

Haechan crouched at the starting line, eyes fixed on the lane ahead. Every muscle in his body was taut with anticipation, ready to explode into motion.

“Go!”

He launched himself forward, legs pumping with the power of a finely tuned machine. The world blurred around him, reduced to a tunnel of focus and speed. Each stride was a testament to the hours of training and discipline, the relentless pursuit of excellence that drove him. The wind whipped past him, urging him to run faster, harder. He embraced the burn in his muscles, the fire in his lungs—it was the price of progress, the measure of his determination. Coach Kim’s voice echoed in the background, shouting encouragement and reminders to maintain form. Haechan absorbed it all, letting it fuel his efforts, driving him to greater heights.

The first interval passed in a blur, and Haechan slowed to a jog, chest heaving as he gulped down air. The rest was brief, a momentary pause before the next push. Even in those seconds, his mind remained focused, calculating how to shave precious milliseconds off his time.

“Again,” Coach Kim instructed, stopwatch ready. “Keep it tight and explosive. You’re doing great.”

Haechan nodded, wiping sweat from his brow, and returned to the starting line. The second interval began, and once more he launched himself down the track, muscles screaming in protest but heart filled with resolve. Each lap was a battle—a war waged against the clock, against the limits of his own body. But Haechan welcomed it, embraced it, for it was in these moments of struggle that he found clarity and purpose. Here, on the track, he was more than just an athlete; he was a warrior, fighting for his dreams with every stride.

As the session wore on, fatigue set in, a heavy blanket threatening to slow him down. But Haechan refused to yield. He dug deep, drawing on reserves of strength he’d built over years of dedication and sacrifice. He knew what was at stake, knew that every moment mattered in the grand scheme of his aspirations.

“Come on, Haechan, last push!” Coach Kim’s voice was a lifeline, pulling him through the haze of exhaustion. “Finish strong!”

With one final burst of speed, Haechan sprinted the last stretch, pouring everything he had into those final moments. The finish line approached, a blur of white tape that marked the end of this particular trial.

And then it was over. He stumbled to a halt, bending double as he fought to catch his breath. The exertion had left him drained, but there was a satisfaction in it, a deep-seated sense of accomplishment that made every drop of sweat worth it.

Coach Kim approached, a rare smile of approval lighting his features. “Well done, Haechan. You’re on track for something special. Keep this up, and Beijing won’t know what hit it.”

Haechan straightened, a grin spreading across his face despite the fatigue. The praise meant the world coming from Coach Kim, a validation of all the hard work and sacrifices he’d made.

“Thanks, Coach,” he replied, wiping his face with a towel. “I’ll keep pushing.”

The rest of the training session passed in a blur of drills and exercises, each one designed to hone different aspects of his performance. Haechan relished the challenge, thriving under the pressure, finding joy in the pursuit of mastery. By the time the sun had climbed higher in the sky, casting long shadows across the track, Haechan’s muscles ached with a familiar, satisfying soreness. The session had pushed him to his limits, but it had also reinforced his dedication to the path he’d chosen.

As he cooled down with a series of stretches, Haechan felt a sense of peace settle over him. The day had begun with exertion and sweat, but it was exactly where he wanted to be, exactly what he needed to feel alive and fulfilled. The Olympics were his goal, a distant star he chased with every ounce of his being. But the journey was just as important, each day a step closer to the person he wanted to become. The locker room was quiet, the steady drip of a leaky faucet the only sound breaking the silence. Haechan sat on the wooden bench, towel draped around his neck, the lingering ache of a demanding training session still present in his muscles. The air was cool against his skin, a welcome contrast to the heat and intensity of the track.

As the adrenaline of his workout ebbed away, he found himself alone with his thoughts. The solitude of the moment allowed him a rare opportunity to reflect on the path he had chosen—the sacrifices he had made in pursuit of his dreams. Athletics had always been Haechan’s passion, a calling that had demanded his full attention and unwavering dedication. Yet, the pursuit of excellence came at a cost. Friends had drifted away over time, their lives diverging from the rigorous schedule he maintained. Invitations to parties and social gatherings grew fewer, replaced by early morning runs and late-night workouts. Haechan thought about the relationships he had missed, the laughter and camaraderie that once filled his days. There was a time when he had been the life of the party, surrounded by friends and carefree adventures. Now, his world was defined by discipline and routine, every decision measured against the demands of his sport.

Despite the loneliness that sometimes crept in, Haechan knew that his sacrifices were not in vain. Each early morning on the track, each grueling session in the gym brought him closer to his goal—the chance to compete on the world stage at the Beijing Olympics. It was a dream that fueled him, a vision that burned brightly in his mind.

He thought of the future, of the possibilities that lay ahead. The sacrifices he made were a testament to his commitment, a reflection of his unwavering determination to be the best. The loneliness, though challenging, was a temporary companion on a journey toward something greater. Haechan reached into his bag, pulling out a small, well-worn notebook. Inside, he had written down his goals and aspirations, a reminder of the path he had chosen. He flipped through the pages, each line a declaration of his dreams and the steps he needed to take to achieve them. As he read through his words, a sense of fulfillment washed over him. The sacrifices he made were not burdens, but investments in his future. Every challenge he faced, every moment of doubt, was a part of the journey—a journey that had shaped him into the person he was today.

With a deep breath, Haechan closed the notebook.

Mark.

Hundreds of miles away, Mark woke to the muted beeping of machines, the soft hum a constant backdrop to his life in the hospital. Sunlight filtered through the blinds, casting striped patterns on the sterile white walls of his room. He lay still for a moment, listening to the familiar sounds of the ward coming to life—the distant chatter of nurses, the rolling wheels of carts along the linoleum floors, the quiet click of doors opening and closing. His world had narrowed to this room, this bed. It was a space that had become both a refuge and a prison, confining him within its pale walls as the outside world continued to spin without him. Each day was a monotonous cycle of treatments and check-ups, a routine that blurred together into a hazy sameness.

Mark sighed, forcing himself to sit up as a nurse entered the room, her presence bright and efficient. “Good morning, Mark,” she greeted with a smile, adjusting the IV drip beside his bed. “How are you feeling today?”

He shrugged, offering a noncommittal grunt in response. It was the same as every other day, a mix of physical discomfort and emotional fatigue that left him feeling adrift and disconnected. The nurse checked his vitals with practiced efficiency, jotting down numbers on a clipboard before giving him a sympathetic look. “Doctor Na will be in shortly to see you. If you need anything, just let us know, okay?”

Mark nodded, watching her leave before settling back against the pillows. The room was quiet once more, the silence stretching out like a yawning chasm. He stared at the ceiling, tracing the patterns of the tiles with his eyes, trying to find some distraction from the thoughts that swirled relentlessly in his mind. It hadn’t always been this way. There was a time when Mark’s life was filled with dreams and aspirations, a future that seemed bright and full of possibilities. But that was before the diagnosis, before the cancer had invaded his body and his world, dragging him into a reality defined by limitations and uncertainty. Now, each day was a struggle to find meaning in the midst of his confinement, a battle against the creeping tide of despair that threatened to pull him under. He knew the statistics, the prognosis that loomed like a shadow over his thoughts, but it was the loss of control, the loss of normalcy, that weighed most heavily on his heart.

A soft knock at the door interrupted his reverie, and Doctor Na entered, her expression calm and composed. She was a reassuring presence, her demeanor a blend of professionalism and genuine care that made the weight of his situation feel a little less suffocating.

“Good morning, Mark,” she said, pulling up a chair beside his bed. “How are you holding up today?”

Mark managed a faint smile, though it didn’t reach his eyes. “Same as always, I guess.”

Doctor Na nodded, her gaze steady and compassionate. “I know it’s tough, but you’re doing really well. Your latest test results show some improvement, which is encouraging.”

He nodded, trying to muster some semblance of hope from her words. Improvement was good, a step in the right direction, but it was hard to hold onto optimism when the path ahead was shrouded in uncertainty.

They discussed his treatment plan, the adjustments to his medication, and the upcoming tests he would need to undergo. It was a conversation that had become routine, a script they both knew by heart.

“Is there anything you’d like to talk about, any concerns you have?” Doctor Na asked, her tone inviting.

Mark hesitated, struggling to articulate the tangled mess of emotions that churned inside him. “I just… I miss the way things used to be,” he admitted quietly. “I miss being able to do things, to go places. I feel like I’m stuck in this endless loop, and I don’t know how to break out of it.”

Doctor Na nodded, understanding evident in her expression. “It’s completely normal to feel that way, Mark. It’s important to acknowledge those feelings and to find ways to cope with them. Have you considered talking to the hospital counselor? Sometimes it helps to have someone to talk to, someone who can offer a different perspective.”

He nodded again, though he wasn’t sure how much talking could change the reality of his situation. Still, he appreciated her concern, the way she listened without judgment, offering support without pity. After she left, Mark sat in silence for a while, contemplating her words. He knew he needed to find a way to navigate this new reality, to find some semblance of peace amidst the chaos. But it was hard to see the path forward when the future felt so uncertain, so out of reach.

The rest of the day unfolded with a predictable rhythm—meals delivered on trays, nurses coming and going, each check-up a reminder of his frailty. Mark found himself counting the minutes, the hours, waiting for something to break the monotony. He picked up the worn paperback on his bedside table, hoping to lose himself in its pages, but his mind kept drifting, unable to focus on the words. The story was a familiar one, a favorite that had brought him comfort in the past, but now it felt like a hollow echo of a life he couldn’t quite touch.

Frustrated, he set the book aside and reached for his sketchpad, hoping the act of drawing might offer some relief from the weight of his thoughts. Art had always been a refuge for Mark, a way to express what he couldn’t put into words. But as he stared at the blank page, his hand faltered, unable to summon the creativity that once flowed so easily.

The depression was a heavy cloak, smothering the spark of inspiration, the will to create. It was as if the colors of the world had dimmed, leaving only shades of gray that matched the pallor of his skin. With a sigh, Mark closed the sketchpad and lay back against the pillows, eyes closed against the brightness of the room. The fatigue was bone-deep, a constant companion that left him feeling hollow and spent.

He listened to the sounds of the hospital—the distant conversations, the beeping of machines, the rhythmic footsteps of nurses making their rounds. It was a symphony of routine, each note a reminder of the life he once had, the life he longed to return to. In the quiet moments between treatments, Mark’s mind drifted to memories of simpler times—days spent exploring the city, evenings filled with laughter and friends, nights spent dreaming of a future filled with possibilities. Those memories were bittersweet now, tinged with the longing for a freedom that felt impossibly distant.

The night had settled quietly over both worlds, a velvet blanket strewn with stars stretching across the sky. In Universe A, the city was alive with the distant hum of cars and the glow of streetlights, while in Universe B, the hospital ward was hushed and still, the world outside a serene expanse of calm.

In his small apartment in Universe A, Haechan lay sprawled on his bed, the sheets tangled around him. The room was dimly lit by the soft glow of a bedside lamp, casting shadows that danced along the walls. He stared up at the ceiling, his mind a whirl of thoughts and emotions. The day had been long, filled with classes and laughter, study sessions and moments of quiet reflection. But as the night deepened, Haechan found himself wrestling with a familiar restlessness—a longing for something just beyond his grasp. He thought of Mark, of the future they were building together, the dreams they shared and the uncertainties that lay ahead. Despite the love and support they gave each other, Haechan couldn’t shake the nagging doubt that whispered in the back of his mind. Was he truly on the right path? Was he doing enough to keep up with Mark’s brilliance, his potential?

Haechan sighed, rolling onto his side and pulling the pillow closer. The city’s lights twinkled outside his window, a constant reminder of the world’s endless possibilities. Somewhere out there, his future awaited—full of challenges and triumphs, risks and rewards. He just had to find the courage to face it.

Meanwhile, in Universe B, Mark lay in his hospital bed, the sterile room bathed in the gentle light of a single lamp. The machines around him hummed softly, their rhythmic beeping a constant companion in the quiet solitude. The day had been a blur of treatments and conversations, each one a reminder of the precarious balance between hope and despair. Despite Dr. Na’s encouraging words, Mark felt the weight of his reality pressing down on him, a heavy cloak that smothered his dreams.

Yet, as he gazed out the window at the stars, he felt a flicker of something deep within—a spark of longing, a whisper of anticipation. It was as if the universe itself was calling to him, urging him to hold onto hope, to believe in a future that was still unwritten. Mark closed his eyes, letting the calm of the night wash over him. In his mind’s eye, he saw a different life—a life filled with color and light, with moments of joy and laughter, free from the constraints of illness. It was a vision that filled him with a bittersweet ache, a reminder of the possibilities that lay just beyond his reach.

Across the divide between their worlds, Haechan and Mark shared a moment of quiet reflection, each caught in the currents of their own thoughts, yet somehow connected by a thread of shared longing. It was a connection that transcended the boundaries of time and space, a bond that hinted at something more.

As Haechan drifted into sleep, he felt a strange sense of anticipation, a feeling that change was coming—a shift in the winds that would carry him toward new horizons. He couldn’t quite put his finger on it, but the thought filled him with a quiet excitement, a promise of adventures yet to come. In Universe B, Mark felt a similar stirring in his soul, a sense that his journey was far from over. Despite the challenges he faced, there was a part of him that refused to surrender, a part that clung fiercely to the hope of a brighter tomorrow.

Both young men lay in their respective beds, worlds apart yet inexplicably linked by a shared sense of purpose, a shared dream of something greater. It was a connection that would soon become undeniable, a catalyst for change that neither could have anticipated. As the night deepened and the stars wheeled overhead, Haechan and Mark embraced the uncertainty of their paths, each resolved to face whatever challenges lay ahead with courage and determination.

In the quiet darkness, they both found solace in the knowledge that they were not alone, that their stories were part of a larger tapestry woven by fate and destiny. And though they didn’t yet know it, their lives were about to intersect in ways that would forever alter the course of their journeys. As sleep finally claimed them, Haechan and Mark surrendered to the dreams that awaited—dreams of possibilities and potential, of new beginnings and endless horizons. And in that shared dreamscape, they both saw a future filled with hope and promise, a future that was theirs to create.

In the quiet moments before the world stirred to life, they both felt the pull of that invisible thread, the bond that connected them across time and space.

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001 | routine (A)

The blaring alarm pierced through the haze of Haechan's dreams, prompting him to reach out from beneath the tangled sheets, fumbling for the snooze button. His fingers finally connected with the clock, silencing its incessant beeping. Haechan groaned, burying his face back into the pillow, trying to steal a few more minutes of precious sleep. His room was a testament to his carefree nature—a chaotic jumble of clothes, books, and empty food containers scattered across every available surface. Posters of his favorite bands adorned the walls, some slightly askew, matching the overall disarray. A laundry basket overflowed in the corner, a forgotten relic of chores postponed. The morning light peeked through the gaps in the curtains, casting a warm glow over the mess.

Despite the chaos around him, there was something endearing about it, reflecting Haechan's personality—a whirlwind of energy, spontaneity, and a touch of recklessness. He rolled over onto his back, blinking up at the ceiling, willing himself into motion. With a resigned sigh, he swung his legs over the side of the bed and sat up, rubbing his eyes.

Haechan's flip phone buzzed on the nightstand, vibrating against the wood. He picked it up, squinting at the screen. A text message from Mark popped up, bringing a smile to his face.

Mark: "Rise and shine, sleepyhead. Don’t forget we’ve got that study session tonight."

The message was a reminder of the upcoming exam, but more than that, it was a reminder of Mark’s unwavering support and the bond they shared. Haechan felt a warmth spread through him, dispelling the remnants of sleep. Mark was his anchor, the steady presence that balanced his impulsive nature. Motivated by the thought of seeing Mark later, Haechan dragged himself to his feet, navigating the obstacle course that was his room. He rummaged through the pile of clothes on the floor, pulling out a somewhat clean pair of jeans and a faded T-shirt. As he dressed, he glanced at the clock and felt a jolt of urgency.

He was running late, as usual.

In the cramped bathroom, he splashed water on his face and ran a hand through his tousled hair, attempting to tame the unruly strands. His reflection in the mirror looked back at him with a hint of mischief in his eyes, a reminder that he thrived in the whirlwind of chaos that was his life. Back in the room, Haechan grabbed his backpack, stuffing in a few notebooks and pens. His text books were somewhere under the mess, but there was no time to dig for them now. He’d make do with whatever notes he could scribble during class. His stomach rumbled, reminding him that breakfast was yet another task he hadn’t gotten around to.

He spotted a half-eaten sandwich from the night before sitting on his desk. It was probably stale, but hunger won over caution. He grabbed it, taking a large bite as he slung his backpack over his shoulder. He dashed toward the door, only to freeze mid-step. Something was missing.

His keys. Of course.

A frantic search ensued as he tossed aside piles of clothes and books, muttering to himself as he went. The keys had to be somewhere. Finally, after what felt like an eternity, he spotted them glinting under a pizza box. Haechan let out a triumphant laugh, snatching them up and heading for the door once more.

The hallway of the apartment building was quiet, most of its occupants already gone for the day. Haechan took the stairs two at a time, his mind already racing through the tasks ahead. He had a full day of classes and his usual lunch break with friends before he could finally meet up with Mark for their study session. Outside, the city was alive with the hustle and bustle of morning traffic. Cars honked as they navigated the crowded streets, and people hurried along the sidewalks, each absorbed in their own world. Haechan joined the flow, weaving through the crowd with practiced ease.

As he walked, he couldn’t help but think about how different things were since he and Mark had become a couple. It was like he had found a missing piece, someone who understood him completely despite their differences. Mark was the calm to his storm, the reason to his recklessness. Together, they balanced each other, creating a harmony that Haechan had never thought possible.

But there were moments, like now, when Haechan couldn’t shake the nagging doubt at the back of his mind. He knew Mark had so much potential, a brilliant mind destined for great things. In comparison, Haechan sometimes felt like he was just stumbling through life, barely keeping up.

He shook his head, trying to dispel the thought. Mark had chosen him just as he had chosen Mark, and that was enough. The rest would work itself out one way or another.

The university campus came into view, bustling with students. Haechan checked the time on his flip phone and cursed under his breath. He was definitely going to be late. Again. He picked up his pace, jogging across the quad and heading toward the engineering building. His first class was already underway by the time he arrived. Haechan slipped into the lecture hall as quietly as he could manage, finding a seat near the back. The professor’s voice droned on, explaining complex equations that Haechan barely understood. He pulled out a notebook and tried to focus, but his mind kept wandering.

Instead of following the lecture, Haechan found himself doodling in the margins of his notes. His thoughts drifted to Mark, to their plans for the weekend, to the life they were building together. He imagined them traveling the world, experiencing new adventures, all the while supporting each other through whatever challenges life threw their way. As the lecture continued, Haechan made a valiant effort to pay attention, jotting down snippets of information whenever he could. But it was a losing battle. Engineering was Mark’s world, not his, and no matter how hard he tried, Haechan couldn’t shake the feeling that he didn’t belong.

After class, Haechan joined the throng of students filing out of the building. He felt a tap on his shoulder and turned to see his friend Jaemin grinning at him.

“Late again?” Jaemin teased, falling into step beside him.

“You know me,” Haechan replied with a shrug. “I like to make an entrance.”

Jaemin laughed, a bright sound that cut through the noise of the crowd. “You’re going to have to step up your game, though. Exams are coming up, and even Mark won’t be able to save you if you don’t start paying attention.”

Haechan nodded, though the thought of exams sent a ripple of anxiety through him. He tried to push it aside, focusing instead on the prospect of meeting Mark later. That was something to look forward to, something that made the stress of school seem a little more bearable.

As they walked across the campus, Haechan’s flip phone buzzed again. He pulled it out, smiling at another message from Mark.

Mark: "Lunch later? I’ll bring your favorite."

The offer was a small gesture, but it was enough to brighten Haechan’s mood. He typed back a quick response, agreeing to meet Mark at their usual spot.

The rest of the morning passed in a blur of lectures and hurried notes. Haechan did his best to stay engaged, knowing that he couldn’t rely on Mark to pull him through forever. He had to start taking responsibility for his own success, even if it meant confronting the insecurities that held him back. Finally, the lunch break arrived, and Haechan made his way to the campus café where he and Mark often met. The café was bustling, filled with students chatting and laughing over sandwiches and coffee. Haechan spotted Mark sitting at a corner table, a bag of takeout in front of him.

Mark looked up as Haechan approached, a smile spreading across his face. “Hey, you made it!”

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world,” Haechan replied, sliding into the seat opposite him.

They shared a companionable silence as they unpacked the food, enjoying the momentary respite from the chaos of their schedules. Haechan savored his favorite sandwich, feeling the tension of the morning start to melt away.

“So, how was class?” Mark asked between bites.

“Same old, same old,” Haechan said, trying to sound nonchalant. “You know how it is.”

Mark nodded, but there was a knowing look in his eyes. He reached across the table, covering Haechan’s hand with his own. “You’re doing great, you know. I’m proud of you.” Haechan felt a swell of emotion at the words, a mix of gratitude and longing. Mark’s belief in him was a constant source of strength, even when Haechan doubted himself.

“Thanks, Mark,” Haechan said softly. “I couldn’t do it without you.”

Mark smiled, squeezing his hand. “We’re a team, right?”

“Yeah, we are,” Haechan agreed, feeling the truth of it resonate within him.

Haechan and Mark strolled through the crowded campus, the gentle warmth of the afternoon sun enveloping them as they walked. The sounds of students chatting and laughter echoed around them, filling the air with a sense of life and energy. It was the kind of day that felt almost too good to be true, a perfect blend of chaos and calm that seemed to define their world.

Mark glanced sideways at Haechan, a playful smirk on his lips. “You know, you really should set more than one alarm. Maybe then you’d actually be on time for once.”

Haechan grinned, adjusting the strap of his backpack. “But where’s the fun in that? Besides, you love the thrill of wondering if I’ll make it or not.”

Mark chuckled, shaking his head in mock disapproval. “True, but your charm won’t save you if you keep missing class.”

Their banter flowed easily, a familiar dance they had perfected over the months they’d been together. Haechan’s impulsive nature was like a whirlwind—unpredictable and exhilarating—while Mark’s calm steadiness provided a grounding force that kept them balanced. It was a combination that worked seamlessly, even if it baffled everyone else. As they reached the entrance of their apartment building, Mark’s expression turned more serious, though the warmth in his eyes never dimmed. “Hey, I know you’ve been swamped with everything, but we’ve got that exam next week. We should probably hit the books tonight and get a head start.”

Haechan nodded, appreciating the reminder. Mark had a knack for explaining things in a way that made even the most complicated topics seem manageable. His patience was endless, and Haechan had lost count of how many times Mark had sat with him late into the night, helping him untangle the complexities of engineering.

“You’re a lifesaver, you know that?” Haechan said, his voice filled with gratitude.

Mark shrugged modestly. “Just trying to make sure we both get through this semester in one piece. Plus, you’d do the same for me.”

Inside their cozy apartment, Haechan dropped his backpack onto the couch and flopped down beside it with a dramatic sigh. Mark joined him, handing over a bottle of water and settling into the cushions.

“Long day already?” Mark asked, raising an eyebrow as he took a sip from his own bottle.

Haechan nodded, his expression a mixture of exhaustion and amusement. “You have no idea. If I have to hear about one more algorithm, my brain might just decide to go on strike.”

Mark laughed, nudging him playfully. “Well, don’t worry. I promise our study session won’t involve any brain explosions.”

“Good to know,” Haechan replied, grinning. “Besides, I need all my brain cells for the party Jaemin’s throwing on Friday. You’re coming, right?”

Mark feigned surprise. “A party? With Jaemin? Who would have thought?”

Haechan rolled his eyes, swatting at Mark’s arm. “Come on, it’ll be fun. You know he always throws the best parties.”

“I’m not saying no,” Mark replied with a smile. “But maybe we should get some studying in before we start dancing the night away. You know, just to keep things balanced.”

Haechan made a face, but he knew Mark was right. They had a good thing going, and it was worth putting in the effort to keep their priorities in check.

As the afternoon sunlight streamed through the windows, Haechan felt a wave of contentment wash over him. These moments—simple, everyday moments with Mark—were what he cherished the most. Despite the whirlwind of their lives, they always found their way back to each other, stronger than ever.

“Hey, Mark?” Haechan said, breaking the comfortable silence that had settled over them.

“Yeah?”

“Thanks for being there for me. I know I can be a bit much sometimes, but you always know how to handle it.”

Mark’s expression softened, and he reached out to take Haechan’s hand, intertwining their fingers. “You’re not a lot, Haechan. You’re just you, and that’s what I love. Besides, you keep life interesting.”

Haechan felt a rush of affection, his heart swelling with the kind of happiness that only Mark could bring. It was moments like these that reminded him why they worked so well together, why they were more than just a couple—they were a team. As the afternoon slipped into evening, they prepared for their study session, spreading text books and notes across the coffee table. The atmosphere shifted from relaxed to focused, each of them diving into their respective work with determination.

For Haechan, studying was never easy. His mind often wandered, distracted by the smallest things, but having Mark by his side made all the difference. Mark’s presence was a calming influence, a steady force that kept Haechan’s attention anchored to the task at hand.

“Okay, let’s start with the basics,” Mark suggested, glancing at the array of notes sprawled before them. “What’s the first thing you need to know for this exam?”

Haechan chewed on the end of his pen, his brow furrowed in concentration. “Uh, probably the laws of thermodynamics. I swear they change every time I look at them.”

Mark chuckled, nudging him playfully. “Pretty sure they’ve been the same for a while now. But let’s go over them again, just to be safe.”

As they studied, their conversation drifted, touching on topics both serious and silly. They talked about their future plans, about the classes they were taking, and about the things they hoped to achieve.

For Haechan, the future was a vast unknown, full of possibilities and uncertainties, but with Mark by his side, it felt a little less daunting.

“Do you ever think about what life will be like after graduation?” Haechan asked, a hint of curiosity in his voice.

Mark leaned back against the couch, a thoughtful expression on his face. “All the time. I mean, I’ve got a lot of dreams, but I also know things don’t always go as planned. I just hope we can keep doing what we love, whatever that looks like.”

Haechan nodded, appreciating the honesty in Mark’s words. They had talked about the future before, about their hopes and dreams, but there was something comforting about knowing that they were in it together, no matter what.

“I think we’ll be okay,” Haechan said, his tone filled with quiet certainty. “We’ve made it this far, right?”

“Yeah, we have,” Mark agreed, smiling. “And whatever comes next, I’m glad we’re facing it together.”

Their study session continued late into the night, punctuated by laughter and shared stories. The material gradually began to make more sense to Haechan, thanks to Mark’s patient guidance. It was a reminder of why they worked so well together—why they balanced each other in a way that was both effortless and profound.

As the clock ticked past midnight, they decided to call it a night, their eyelids growing heavy with fatigue. Haechan let out a long yawn, stretching his arms over his head as he stood up from the couch.

“Think we covered everything?” he asked, a hint of weariness in his voice.

“I think we did pretty well,” Mark replied, gathering up the scattered papers. “You’re definitely more prepared than you were this morning.”

Haechan laughed, feeling a sense of accomplishment settle over him. It wasn’t just about the studying—it was about knowing that they could tackle anything together as long as they had each other.

“Thanks, Mark. Seriously, I couldn’t have done this without you,” Haechan said, his gratitude genuine.

Mark waved off the thanks with a modest smile. “Anytime. You know I’m always here to help.”

As they tidied up the living room, the atmosphere shifted once more, back to the comfortable familiarity of their shared life. The apartment was a sanctuary, a place where they could be themselves, free from the pressures of the outside world.

Before heading to bed, they paused by the window, looking out at the city lights twinkling in the distance. It was a quiet moment, filled with the unspoken understanding that they were exactly where they were meant to be—together.

“Goodnight, Haechan,” Mark said, pulling him into a gentle embrace.

“Goodnight, Mark,” Haechan replied, resting his head against Mark’s shoulder.

They stood there for a while, wrapped in the warmth of each other’s presence, before finally turning in for the night. As they settled into bed, Haechan felt a sense of peace wash over him, knowing that whatever challenges lay ahead, they would face them side by side.

In the quiet darkness of their room, Haechan closed his eyes, letting the steady rhythm of Mark’s breathing lull him to sleep. It was the end of another day in their beautifully chaotic life—a life filled with love, laughter, and the promise of endless adventures.

 The campus buzzed with energy as Haechan stepped onto the sunlit grounds, the familiar sight of the university sprawling before him. The air was alive with the hum of conversation and laughter, the pathways teeming with students heading to and from classes, each caught up in their own world of academia and social exploits.

A group of students clustered around the central fountain, the sound of water mingling with their voices. Haechan spotted familiar faces among them—his friends, a lively bunch who always seemed to be at the center of the action. As he approached, they greeted him with a chorus of playful jeers.

“Look who finally decided to grace us with his presence!” Jaemin called out, a mischievous grin spreading across his face.

Haechan raised his hands in mock surrender. “Hey, I was only five minutes late this time. That’s progress, right?”

Another friend, Yeri, laughed and shook her head. “At this rate, you’ll make it to class on time by the end of the semester.”

“Miracles do happen,” Haechan quipped, sliding into a spot on the edge of the fountain.

Haechan soaked in the atmosphere, feeling the pulse of university life coursing around him. The campus was a vibrant tapestry of personalities and ambitions, each student a thread woven into the larger narrative of discovery and growth. It was a place where ideas collided and friendships were forged, where dreams took root and flourished. The trees lining the pathways rustled in the gentle breeze, their leaves a vibrant green that signaled the arrival of spring. The air was filled with the scent of blossoming flowers, a fragrant reminder that the semester was in full swing. Everywhere Haechan looked, there was a sense of motion and possibility, a feeling that anything was possible in this microcosm of life.

As they chatted, Haechan’s thoughts drifted back to his classes, the ever-present weight of assignments and exams looming on the horizon. Despite the carefree nature of his interactions, there was a part of him that couldn’t shake the anxiety of academic pressures. Engineering was a challenging path, one that demanded his attention and effort, yet he often found himself struggling to keep up.

Jaemin must have sensed his distraction because he nudged Haechan with his elbow. “Hey, you okay? You’ve got that ‘lost in thought’ look again.”

Haechan blinked, refocusing on his friends. “Yeah, just thinking about all the stuff I have to catch up on. It’s like no matter how hard I try, I’m always two steps behind.”

Jaemin offered him a sympathetic smile. “We’re all in the same boat, you know. College isn’t easy, but that’s what makes it worth it.”

“I guess,” Haechan replied, grateful for their support. “Sometimes it just feels like I’m juggling a million things at once.”

“Well, that’s why we’ve got each other,” Jaemin said, clapping him on the back. “We’ll figure it out together, like always.”

With a deep breath, he turned and made his way toward his next class, as he walked, Haechan took in the sights and sounds of the campus around him. The library stood majestically at the center, its towering columns and expansive windows a beacon of knowledge and inquiry. Students clustered on its steps, engrossed in discussions or lost in their thoughts, each one on their own journey of exploration.

Haechan’s route took him by the athletic fields, where athletes practiced with determination and precision. Their shouts and cheers were a testament to the dedication that fueled their pursuits, a reminder that excellence took many forms across the university.

As he finally arrived at the engineering building, Haechan felt a familiar mix of anticipation and apprehension. 

Inside the lecture hall, students were already settling into their seats, laptops and notebooks open and ready. Haechan found a spot near the middle, pulling out his materials and setting them on the desk. The professor began the lecture, diving into complex theories and equations that demanded focus and attention.

The evening had settled softly around them, a quiet calm enveloping the apartment as Haechan and Mark sat surrounded by open text books and scattered notes. The hum of the city outside was a distant murmur, a comforting backdrop to the focused silence that had accompanied their study session. A few hours had passed since they started, and both felt the weight of their efforts pulling at their concentration.

Haechan stretched, letting out a long sigh as he leaned back against the couch. “I think my brain officially hates me now,” he declared, rubbing his eyes.

Mark laughed, setting his pen down and pushing his notebook aside. “We’ve definitely earned a break,” he agreed, glancing at the clock. It was later than he’d realized, the evening slipping into night without either of them noticing.

“Want some tea?” Mark offered, getting to his feet and heading toward the kitchen.

“Yeah, that sounds perfect,” Haechan replied, watching as Mark busied himself with the kettle. He admired the way Mark moved with purpose, always so focused and capable, and felt a familiar warmth spread through him. Moments like these, shared in the quiet intimacy of their home, were what made everything worthwhile.

As Mark prepared the tea, Haechan’s mind wandered to thoughts of the future. It was a topic they often danced around, both eager and hesitant to confront the realities and uncertainties it held. But tonight, as the air cooled and the stars began to peek through the windows, it felt like the right time to talk about it.

Mark returned with two steaming mugs, handing one to Haechan before settling back onto the couch. They sat in companionable silence for a moment, sipping the hot liquid and enjoying the break from academia.

“So, what’s next for us?” Haechan asked, his voice casual but laced with curiosity. He glanced at Mark, noting the way his eyes flickered with thought as he considered the question.

“Well,” Mark began, pausing as he formulated his response, “I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to do after we graduate. I know it’s still a ways off, but it feels like there’s so much I want to accomplish.”

Haechan listened intently, nodding for Mark to continue. He admired Mark’s ambition, the way he always seemed to have a clear vision of his goals and dreams.

“I really want to make a difference in engineering, you know?” Mark said, his voice growing more animated. “There’s so much potential in technology to change the world, to solve problems and create opportunities. I guess I just want to be a part of that.”

The passion in Mark’s words was infectious, and Haechan felt a swell of pride in his chest. Mark had always been driven, his mind a constant whirl of ideas and innovations. It was one of the things Haechan loved most about him—the way he saw the world, not just as it was, but as it could be.

“That’s amazing,” Haechan said sincerely, reaching out to squeeze Mark’s hand. “I have no doubt you’ll do incredible things.”

Mark smiled, though there was a hint of uncertainty in his eyes. “It’s just… I worry about getting caught up in it all, you know? There’s so much pressure to succeed, to meet expectations. Sometimes it feels overwhelming.”

Haechan nodded, understanding the weight of Mark’s aspirations. He’d seen firsthand how hard Mark worked, the late nights and early mornings dedicated to his studies and projects. Yet, despite the pressure, Mark always seemed to handle it with grace.

“You’re doing great, Mark,” Haechan reassured him, his voice firm. “And whatever happens, I’ll be right here with you, cheering you on.”

Mark’s expression softened, gratitude evident in his gaze. “Thanks, Haechan. I’m really lucky to have you.”

They sat in silence for a moment, the weight of the conversation settling around them. Haechan felt a mix of emotions—pride in Mark’s ambitions, but also a nagging fear that he might get left behind. Mark was destined for greatness, that much was clear, but where did that leave him?

“What about you?” Mark asked, breaking into Haechan’s thoughts. “What do you want for the future?”

Haechan hesitated, unsure of how to articulate the jumble of thoughts and feelings swirling inside him. He’d always been more impulsive, living in the moment rather than planning ahead. But as graduation loomed on the horizon, he knew he couldn’t avoid the question forever.

“I don’t know,” Haechan admitted, his voice quiet. “I guess I just want to find something I’m passionate about, something that makes me feel… fulfilled.”

Mark nodded, his expression understanding. “I think you will. You’ve got so much potential, Haechan. You just need to find what makes you happy.”

Haechan appreciated the encouragement, but the uncertainty lingered. He’d tried different things—engineering, music, even some writing—but nothing seemed to stick. It was like he was constantly searching for something just out of reach, an elusive sense of purpose that he couldn’t quite grasp.

“Sometimes I worry,” Haechan confessed, voicing the fear that had been gnawing at him, “that I won’t find my thing, that I’ll just be stuck drifting while everyone else moves forward.”

Mark frowned, concern etching lines across his brow. “You’re not stuck, Haechan. You’re figuring things out, just like everyone else. And it’s okay to not have all the answers right now.”

The reassurance was comforting, and Haechan felt some of the tension ease from his shoulders. He knew Mark was right, that it was okay to be uncertain and to take his time finding his path. But the fear of being left behind, of not measuring up, was a persistent shadow that he couldn’t quite shake.

“Thanks, Mark,” Haechan said, offering a small smile. “I’m really glad I have you.”

“Same here,” Mark replied, his voice warm with sincerity. “We’ll figure it out together, okay? Whatever happens, we’ve got each other.”

Haechan nodded, feeling a sense of relief at Mark’s words. The future was uncertain, a landscape of possibilities and challenges that stretched out before them, but knowing they had each other made it a little less daunting.

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two worlds apart ; markhyuck

alternative universe au

synopsis | In 2008, South Korea, two worlds exist side by side—each bearing the weight of choices and the echoes of dreams.

In one universe, Mark and Haechan are college students navigating the uncertainty of youth. Amidst their struggle with lack of motivation and a penchant for late-night escapades, they find solace in each other's company, yet they can't shake the feeling that something vital is missing from their lives.

In another universe, Haechan is an athlete with Olympic aspirations, training tirelessly for the Beijing Games. His dedication is unyielding, yet his path is lonely. Mark, in this reality, battles the relentless monotony of life as a cancer patient, his hopes tethered to hospital rooms and whispered prognoses.

One day, their worlds collide in an extraordinary twist of fate. Mark and Haechan awaken to find themselves living the lives of their counterparts, each inhabiting the body of the other. As they grapple with unfamiliar challenges and unexpected possibilities, they must confront their own fears and desires in order to find the missing pieces that bind their destinies.

masterlist

001 routine (A)

002 routine (B)

003 diverging paths (haechan A)

004 diverging paths (haechan B)

005 trying hard (mark A)

006 trying hard (mark B)

007 the switch.

008 fever dream.

009 freedom.