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It’s funny to see how everyone was a little bit gay.

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Oh Billaud you little gayboy

[[above: on the left we have Billaud-Varenne, and on the right we have a depiction of the Collège d’Harcourt during the 18th century]]

So I just stumbled across something that pertains to Billaud-Varenne’s sexuality, his sexual history, and his journal with faith and irreligion. 

 I’ve been reading Claude Manceron’s Toward the Brink. Manceron includes several translated excerpts from Billaud-Varenne’s unpublished autobiographical novel, an incomplete rough-draft found among Billaud-Varenne’s papers. In this draft Billaud-Varenne details his upbringing and childhood. Manceron, however, does question how much of Billaud-Varenne’s account “is invention” and “how much is reality”. Either way, Manceron argues, Billaud-Varenne certainly at least “dreamed” that these events took place whether or not they actually did. 

At the age of fifteen Billaud-Varenne’s parents send him to the Collège d’Harcourt in Paris, as was the fashion to receive some amount of education in Paris. Billaud-Varenne recounts an experience he had at the Collège d’Harcourt in the following excerpt from his incomplete autobiographical novel:

“On my second day at the Collège d’Harcourt, the schoolfellow to whom I was closest– for this is a place in which acquaintances are soon struck up– asked if I wanted him to come see me at night, when everyone was asleep. I gladly accepted his offer and awaited him, sitting fully dressed on my bed. He came about eleven.

“Not in bed yet?” he asked.

“No, I was afraid of falling asleep, and besides, we’ll be more comfortable for talking this way.”

“But I’ve come to play with you.”

“What kind of play?”

“Get in bed, my friend, and I’ll teach you.”

Indeed, a few minutes more and I was, unfortunately, only too edified. The ensuing nights saw me repeating the lessons I had learned; I even moved beyond those of my first friend, and other schoolmates soon became the companions of my pleasures, or rather, I joined in their debauches and infamies.”

Young Billaud-Varenne had to make his first communion, though, since he had only six months left in school at this point and it was a requirement that had to be fulfilled before leaving.  “In every letter, my father never failed to asked why I did not make my first communion,” Billaud-Varenne recalls, “and I took great care not to tell him that a wretched sin of habit was the only obstacle”. Young Billaud-Varenne eventually makes up his mind to go through with communion. He charges himself with all his sins, then is told by his director that he had one week to prepare for his general confession. On his preparation Billaud-Varenne recounts:

“Why cudgel one’s brain for hours on end to remember some sin committed last month or a year ago? It is far easier to consult those little manuals that are made to assist one’s memory by presenting tables of every conceivable error. I turned over the pages […] when I came to the one called “against the self”, how I shuddered! […] Upon the instant, the fibers of my brain quailed, a thousand burning darts inflamed my heart. I lost all control, the book fell from my hands.”

Under the umbrella of sins ‘against the self’ there are numerous sexual sins. These sins are against the self in the sense that they’re seen as a violation of one’s own body and a violation of the only sexual purpose God has deemed appropriate– reproduction. What young Bilaud-Varenne likely did with other boys his age in the Collège d’Harcourt would’ve qualified as a sin against the self/body (sodomy). 

After young Billaud-Varenne confesses to his director, his director tells him:

“You have one refuge. Commit yourself into the hands of the Mother of God, invoke her aid, that she may grant unto you her wisdom and chastity.”

Soon after young Billaud-Varenne visits a chapel dedicated to Mary. He ends up becoming quite titillated by a painting of Mary nursing her child. 

“I stared at her enthralled. My soul flittered to my lips, seeking to mingle with the partner it cried out for. Beloved, sinister illusion! I was infatuated with an inanimate object. What impetuous desires that cold and lifeless image inspired in me! It was too much. I could bear no more; nature triumphed over reason and I succumbed.”

Clearly the suggestion here is that young Billaud-Varenne couldn’t help but succumb to self-pleasure. He decides against confessing this sin to his director. Instead he confides in a friend, a boy, who tells him that it’s fine to take communion in sin since it is those who forced them to take communion who “must take the responsibility”.

Ultimately, Billaud-Varenne ends up rejecting faith when he grows older. It can’t be known whether or not his sexual history had anything to do with that, but it seems possible it was at least a small component. Billaud-Varenne argues that “religion is the work of priests” and that:

“to achieve their ends they took the name of the God they served. Credulity and superstition came hard on the heels of ignorance and it was easy for them to dazzle gross and stupid people with a stern frown, a superficial morality, and, above all, a great deal of magic and charlatanism. In short, their wealth increased, their power became boundless, kings themselves were little better than their slaves and held authority from them alone. At last, after centuries of darkness, a new dawn came to enlighten the world. Man acquired knowledge and learned how to think […] Then, ashamed of being their dupes for so long, we changed from fanaticism to irreligion and, after believing too much, ended by believing nothing.”

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What I mean when I do not control the hyperfixation.

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VERAIN MENRIONED THE OOGSPLY DOOPLE‼️‼️‼️‼️

The rose of the versailles so peak i had to draw my guy in their style🫶🏻🫶🏻

I kind of like this ngl

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They were twinning so bad the difference is that Charlotte got the job done❤️❤️🥰🥰

can u share some lore on ur oc charlotte 🙏

meg igazából akarom látni ahogy fr*ncia férfiak legrosszabb rémálmává válik

Why ofcourse I can!

Her complete lore is far from done bc I want to be very very on point eith everything but I'll share some stuff I have!

Quick art! Lore under cut;P

Originally hungarian! Escaped from home with her uncle and traveled across europe from 16-18 learning and yearning. ENLIGHTENED GIRLY WOW(starting to write constantly her mind is FULL of SOUP and ENLIGHTENMENT and Marat yes I have made her an absolute Marat fangirl what did you honestly expect???)

Settled off in France at 18, moving in with a friend she made who I just call Dorine for now because I couldnt find a fitting family name.

Lives in Paris with her homie Dorine and goes THIS PLACE IS PURE SHIITTEEEEE man the king needs to GOOOOO

Starts releasing works under an anonymous name (du)Voyanté (which is a rought translation that came from her og family name Harsányi. Harsány meaning loud or rousing which in french would translate to bruyant which she changed to voyante, meaning clairvoyant bc she poetic liek that)

Actually starts gaining a bit of recognition when the people start to uproar ans goes HELLYEAH I CAN LIKE ATTEND THE NSTIONAL CONVENTION AND STUwwwwaait I'm a woman:(...

Exchanges letters with her fellow revolutionaries(MARAT ESPECISLY SHE CANNOT SHUT HER PIEHOLE WHEN WRITINF HIM)STILL under Voyanté bc for fucks sake she has kept this on for too long SHE CANNOT STOP WHAT IF THEY EXPOSE HER AWH FUCKNSHE CANR NO-

pretty paranoid, very brave about it

She revealed her identity to Marat first bc her ass knew that he supports women YAASSS WEERKK

Anyways her works contain very hard ridiculing of the royal couple and everyone in thr courst that she can reach she is flllaaammming them I'm talking cabaret two ladies but replacing the two ladies with count Fersen and Louis XVI and mc is Antoinette type shit. She does write very seriously too, releasing several pamphlets beside her philosophical works, mainly focusing on echonomical philospohy bc ough revolution guys SHE DOES LIKE OTHER PHILOSOPHY DOE DO NOT GET ME WRONG SHE A YAPPER

Veeeery unsure of how she actually reveales herself to the public, but I know its messy and she absolutely causes a scene

But its chill she daps up most of the mountain she is mostly okay with everyone, even if she doesnt befriend people shes still(mostly) neutral.

Her views are very radical, standing closest to the jacobins BUT she never wanted to be a part of any of these groups, instead just saying her guys I have my own stuff you have yours we may be similar but I'm not into gangbangs

Now is a big figure in thr revolution Yippie!!

Gets worse

Ouh noooo the revolution is uhmmm well it aint pretty anymore... ouf...

Her now closest friend Marat DIES LIKE OW which takes a very big toll on her mental health thats not very good in the first place

Oopsie thermidoraaaAAAAAHHAAAAHHHHHH

Robespierre is paranoid, shes paranoid TWIINSIES

eight of thermidor she stands with the jacobins oh man lucky you you die with saint-just by your side asshole

With the power of friendship she gets arrested and shoots herself in the face goodnight kids sweet dreams

Overall a very funny gal. Very social, very blunt. If you dont like her, you never will. She can be very charming but good lord is she not the ideal woman to meet the parents.

She ofcourse has picked her poisons, drinking constantly and getting addicted to smoking her dads pipe that she stole from him while being a scandalous FREAK

Got a shitton of rumors after her life, got called the cordeliers whore probably and yes she had her fair share of fooling around with men(and women hihi winks) shes overall very respectful and well mannered...(sometimes)

She's not up for courting, she will spit on you if you're a dick

Feel free to ask about her or any details regarding her!!!

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OU EXPLAINED THST SO WELL IM FRITHING AND THR KOUTH

Yesss I have thoughht about angle and allat but the same though arose in me that even if the possibility that the angle is not right ocurrs she would still get a bullet exploding in her head so good lord I'm not letting her go so easily

can u share some lore on ur oc charlotte 🙏

meg igazából akarom látni ahogy fr*ncia férfiak legrosszabb rémálmává válik

Why ofcourse I can!

Her complete lore is far from done bc I want to be very very on point eith everything but I'll share some stuff I have!

Quick art! Lore under cut;P

Originally hungarian! Escaped from home with her uncle and traveled across europe from 16-18 learning and yearning. ENLIGHTENED GIRLY WOW(starting to write constantly her mind is FULL of SOUP and ENLIGHTENMENT and Marat yes I have made her an absolute Marat fangirl what did you honestly expect???)

Settled off in France at 18, moving in with a friend she made who I just call Dorine for now because I couldnt find a fitting family name.

Lives in Paris with her homie Dorine and goes THIS PLACE IS PURE SHIITTEEEEE man the king needs to GOOOOO

Starts releasing works under an anonymous name (du)Voyanté (which is a rought translation that came from her og family name Harsányi. Harsány meaning loud or rousing which in french would translate to bruyant which she changed to voyante, meaning clairvoyant bc she poetic liek that)

Actually starts gaining a bit of recognition when the people start to uproar ans goes HELLYEAH I CAN LIKE ATTEND THE NSTIONAL CONVENTION AND STUwwwwaait I'm a woman:(...

Exchanges letters with her fellow revolutionaries(MARAT ESPECISLY SHE CANNOT SHUT HER PIEHOLE WHEN WRITINF HIM)STILL under Voyanté bc for fucks sake she has kept this on for too long SHE CANNOT STOP WHAT IF THEY EXPOSE HER AWH FUCKNSHE CANR NO-

pretty paranoid, very brave about it

She revealed her identity to Marat first bc her ass knew that he supports women YAASSS WEERKK

Anyways her works contain very hard ridiculing of the royal couple and everyone in thr courst that she can reach she is flllaaammming them I'm talking cabaret two ladies but replacing the two ladies with count Fersen and Louis XVI and mc is Antoinette type shit. She does write very seriously too, releasing several pamphlets beside her philosophical works, mainly focusing on echonomical philospohy bc ough revolution guys SHE DOES LIKE OTHER PHILOSOPHY DOE DO NOT GET ME WRONG SHE A YAPPER

Veeeery unsure of how she actually reveales herself to the public, but I know its messy and she absolutely causes a scene

But its chill she daps up most of the mountain she is mostly okay with everyone, even if she doesnt befriend people shes still(mostly) neutral.

Her views are very radical, standing closest to the jacobins BUT she never wanted to be a part of any of these groups, instead just saying her guys I have my own stuff you have yours we may be similar but I'm not into gangbangs

Now is a big figure in thr revolution Yippie!!

Gets worse

Ouh noooo the revolution is uhmmm well it aint pretty anymore... ouf...

Her now closest friend Marat DIES LIKE OW which takes a very big toll on her mental health thats not very good in the first place

Oopsie thermidoraaaAAAAAHHAAAAHHHHHH

Robespierre is paranoid, shes paranoid TWIINSIES

eight of thermidor she stands with the jacobins oh man lucky you you die with saint-just by your side asshole

With the power of friendship she gets arrested and shoots herself in the face goodnight kids sweet dreams

Overall a very funny gal. Very social, very blunt. If you dont like her, you never will. She can be very charming but good lord is she not the ideal woman to meet the parents.

She ofcourse has picked her poisons, drinking constantly and getting addicted to smoking her dads pipe that she stole from him while being a scandalous FREAK

Got a shitton of rumors after her life, got called the cordeliers whore probably and yes she had her fair share of fooling around with men(and women hihi winks) shes overall very respectful and well mannered...(sometimes)

She's not up for courting, she will spit on you if you're a dick

Feel free to ask about her or any details regarding her!!!

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Yepp sure sure I was thinking of what Robespierre attempted to do but then I though ehy not one of the eyes yk more theatrical so she shoots herself through the right eye, basically taking herseld out quick and efficient

can u share some lore on ur oc charlotte 🙏

meg igazából akarom látni ahogy fr*ncia férfiak legrosszabb rémálmává válik

Why ofcourse I can!

Her complete lore is far from done bc I want to be very very on point eith everything but I'll share some stuff I have!

Quick art! Lore under cut;P

Originally hungarian! Escaped from home with her uncle and traveled across europe from 16-18 learning and yearning. ENLIGHTENED GIRLY WOW(starting to write constantly her mind is FULL of SOUP and ENLIGHTENMENT and Marat yes I have made her an absolute Marat fangirl what did you honestly expect???)

Settled off in France at 18, moving in with a friend she made who I just call Dorine for now because I couldnt find a fitting family name.

Lives in Paris with her homie Dorine and goes THIS PLACE IS PURE SHIITTEEEEE man the king needs to GOOOOO

Starts releasing works under an anonymous name (du)Voyanté (which is a rought translation that came from her og family name Harsányi. Harsány meaning loud or rousing which in french would translate to bruyant which she changed to voyante, meaning clairvoyant bc she poetic liek that)

Actually starts gaining a bit of recognition when the people start to uproar ans goes HELLYEAH I CAN LIKE ATTEND THE NSTIONAL CONVENTION AND STUwwwwaait I'm a woman:(...

Exchanges letters with her fellow revolutionaries(MARAT ESPECISLY SHE CANNOT SHUT HER PIEHOLE WHEN WRITINF HIM)STILL under Voyanté bc for fucks sake she has kept this on for too long SHE CANNOT STOP WHAT IF THEY EXPOSE HER AWH FUCKNSHE CANR NO-

pretty paranoid, very brave about it

She revealed her identity to Marat first bc her ass knew that he supports women YAASSS WEERKK

Anyways her works contain very hard ridiculing of the royal couple and everyone in thr courst that she can reach she is flllaaammming them I'm talking cabaret two ladies but replacing the two ladies with count Fersen and Louis XVI and mc is Antoinette type shit. She does write very seriously too, releasing several pamphlets beside her philosophical works, mainly focusing on echonomical philospohy bc ough revolution guys SHE DOES LIKE OTHER PHILOSOPHY DOE DO NOT GET ME WRONG SHE A YAPPER

Veeeery unsure of how she actually reveales herself to the public, but I know its messy and she absolutely causes a scene

But its chill she daps up most of the mountain she is mostly okay with everyone, even if she doesnt befriend people shes still(mostly) neutral.

Her views are very radical, standing closest to the jacobins BUT she never wanted to be a part of any of these groups, instead just saying her guys I have my own stuff you have yours we may be similar but I'm not into gangbangs

Now is a big figure in thr revolution Yippie!!

Gets worse

Ouh noooo the revolution is uhmmm well it aint pretty anymore... ouf...

Her now closest friend Marat DIES LIKE OW which takes a very big toll on her mental health thats not very good in the first place

Oopsie thermidoraaaAAAAAHHAAAAHHHHHH

Robespierre is paranoid, shes paranoid TWIINSIES

eight of thermidor she stands with the jacobins oh man lucky you you die with saint-just by your side asshole

With the power of friendship she gets arrested and shoots herself in the face goodnight kids sweet dreams

Overall a very funny gal. Very social, very blunt. If you dont like her, you never will. She can be very charming but good lord is she not the ideal woman to meet the parents.

She ofcourse has picked her poisons, drinking constantly and getting addicted to smoking her dads pipe that she stole from him while being a scandalous FREAK

Got a shitton of rumors after her life, got called the cordeliers whore probably and yes she had her fair share of fooling around with men(and women hihi winks) shes overall very respectful and well mannered...(sometimes)

She's not up for courting, she will spit on you if you're a dick

Feel free to ask about her or any details regarding her!!!

[sacko-lacko]

can u share some lore on ur oc charlotte 🙏

meg igazából akarom látni ahogy fr*ncia férfiak legrosszabb rémálmává válik

Why ofcourse I can!

Her complete lore is far from done bc I want to be very very on point eith everything but I'll share some stuff I have!

Quick art! Lore under cut;P

Originally hungarian! Escaped from home with her uncle and traveled across europe from 16-18 learning and yearning. ENLIGHTENED GIRLY WOW(starting to write constantly her mind is FULL of SOUP and ENLIGHTENMENT and Marat yes I have made her an absolute Marat fangirl what did you honestly expect???)

Settled off in France at 18, moving in with a friend she made who I just call Dorine for now because I couldnt find a fitting family name.

Lives in Paris with her homie Dorine and goes THIS PLACE IS PURE SHIITTEEEEE man the king needs to GOOOOO

Starts releasing works under an anonymous name (du)Voyanté (which is a rought translation that came from her og family name Harsányi. Harsány meaning loud or rousing which in french would translate to bruyant which she changed to voyante, meaning clairvoyant bc she poetic liek that)

Actually starts gaining a bit of recognition when the people start to uproar ans goes HELLYEAH I CAN LIKE ATTEND THE NSTIONAL CONVENTION AND STUwwwwaait I'm a woman:(...

Exchanges letters with her fellow revolutionaries(MARAT ESPECISLY SHE CANNOT SHUT HER PIEHOLE WHEN WRITINF HIM)STILL under Voyanté bc for fucks sake she has kept this on for too long SHE CANNOT STOP WHAT IF THEY EXPOSE HER AWH FUCKNSHE CANR NO-

pretty paranoid, very brave about it

She revealed her identity to Marat first bc her ass knew that he supports women YAASSS WEERKK

Anyways her works contain very hard ridiculing of the royal couple and everyone in thr courst that she can reach she is flllaaammming them I'm talking cabaret two ladies but replacing the two ladies with count Fersen and Louis XVI and mc is Antoinette type shit. She does write very seriously too, releasing several pamphlets beside her philosophical works, mainly focusing on echonomical philospohy bc ough revolution guys SHE DOES LIKE OTHER PHILOSOPHY DOE DO NOT GET ME WRONG SHE A YAPPER

Veeeery unsure of how she actually reveales herself to the public, but I know its messy and she absolutely causes a scene

But its chill she daps up most of the mountain she is mostly okay with everyone, even if she doesnt befriend people shes still(mostly) neutral.

Her views are very radical, standing closest to the jacobins BUT she never wanted to be a part of any of these groups, instead just saying her guys I have my own stuff you have yours we may be similar but I'm not into gangbangs

Now is a big figure in thr revolution Yippie!!

Gets worse

Ouh noooo the revolution is uhmmm well it aint pretty anymore... ouf...

Her now closest friend Marat DIES LIKE OW which takes a very big toll on her mental health thats not very good in the first place

Oopsie thermidoraaaAAAAAHHAAAAHHHHHH

Robespierre is paranoid, shes paranoid TWIINSIES

eight of thermidor she stands with the jacobins oh man lucky you you die with saint-just by your side asshole

With the power of friendship she gets arrested and shoots herself in the face goodnight kids sweet dreams

Overall a very funny gal. Very social, very blunt. If you dont like her, you never will. She can be very charming but good lord is she not the ideal woman to meet the parents.

She ofcourse has picked her poisons, drinking constantly and getting addicted to smoking her dads pipe that she stole from him while being a scandalous FREAK

Got a shitton of rumors after her life, got called the cordeliers whore probably and yes she had her fair share of fooling around with men(and women hihi winks) shes overall very respectful and well mannered...(sometimes)

She's not up for courting, she will spit on you if you're a dick

Feel free to ask about her or any details regarding her!!!

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at the insane stage of character obsession where i start getting the urge to post pngs of them every five seconds like im showing ppl a picture of my stupid ass boyfriend that nobody likes but me

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no actually voltaire as an american is terrifying

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Oh, please, no.

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Oh Jean-Paul Marat... I'm yearning for your presence...

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Giggled at this for five minutes straight MAXIME PLEASE I LOVE YOU

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ARTTRADE WITH @octavian0000 THE COUPLE EVER

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