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“i love, but never am loved.”

— give me a reason

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I know one day I’ll probably look back on my old posts here and think ‘wow I was being dramatic’ but for now everything is very real. My world feels like its falling apart and I’m so very sad and scared. I don’t even know why but also I do. 

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I hate that I am so trigger sensitive. Literally everything triggers me and I am too embarrassed to even list them down to anyone.

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I'm tired... I want to fade into nothingness and not have to exist for a little while. I want to die but I don't want to hurt anyone. I just want to sleep for a few months.

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to the people who get paid to care for me

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Do you ever feel lonely but don’t want to talk to anybody?

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Is it even possible to feel so lonely that it physically hurts? Like your losing your fucking mind?

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Yes, yes I do

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I know I've said it a thousand times but I'm so lonely that it hurts. The kinda of alone that weights on your chest and makes you wanna cry even though you have no energy to cry anymore so you just lay in bed and wonder how can your life mean so little to everyone and even to yourself

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A lot of times I get this irresistible urge to end my life. The only thing that stops me is getting it wrong.

— someday that’s not going to be enough

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I’m a background character in everyone’s life. I’m not important to anyone. I don’t even matter.

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somedays, the urge to end it all is stronger

today is one of those days

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