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Hate

I hate that when i look at your angelic face, a million of butterflies terrorize my stomach.

I hate that you are perfect in my eyes.

I hate that you are so sexy to me that i feel like a hungry wolf.

I hate that only a smile, a giggle or moan of you can make the world stop.

I hate that only beeing with you is not enough- i need you to become officially my wife.

I hate how talented you are and not understand it yourself

I hate that you arent pregnant by me already

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Suffer

Yes i suffer.

I suffer like crazy. Every second without you feels like drowning in an icecold ocean of pain.

Emptyness- eats his way through me like Mold.

Missing you chokes every Air out of my Lungs.

Everything is colorless - grey like concrete.

It`s surreal to realize that the paint-set of my Life is dependent and bounded to a blonde, blue eyed Angel.

True Love can be a painful Bitch. A Monster that disembowels you.

Why me? Why do I have to walk through this nightmare?

No time for self-pitty now.

I call myself a person with Knight-Values. But i broke them.

Not in a heavy way - I never cheated etc. My mistakes were small but notorious. The drop that hollows the stone.

One good thing about me is- i rarely ever do the same Mistake twice.

I dont break my word. Trust and Honesty run through my veins.

So i will go on- i wont quit. I have no choice anyway- without the missing half of my Soul I`m a Zombie anyway.

I need to feel completed again Angel, please bring back the colors into my Life.

I love you 4 Life

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Did you know?

Did you know you can love someone truly so unconditionally you`d happily take a bullet for?

Did you know you can love someone so much that your whole world circles around her?

Did you know you can love someone so deep that all your egos and bad habbits fade?

Did you know you can love someone so strongly that you take her flaws, bad sides like it would be nothing?

Did you know you can love someone so extremely much that you feel lonely and empty whenever she isnt around?

In case you did not know.... now you know.

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Blue Eyed Angel

Blue Eyed Angel. So lucious and sweet- so smart and so deep.

Her eyes are the mirror of her soul- empty or whole.

Sometimes so blue you want to jump in for a swim, sometimes icy and grey it alters your skin.

She can warm you up or make you frozen....whatever she has chosen.

A true Angel with black wings, a thunderstorm of feelings mixed within- who makes you feel alive - or kills you with a grin.

Worship this goddess - worship her hard!

This blue eyed angel is my missing part