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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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My friend just made me feel weird for asking so now i gotta know.

If you do have a favorite bird please please tell me in the tags, i want to see some Birds!!

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faith  • justice • compassion

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Alicia Vikander as Catherine Parr in Firebrand (Film, 2023).

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Please help Fadi’s family evacuate from Gaza, they’re a new gfm and nowhere close to their goals and need assistance immediately - share, donate, and send to your friends and family!

https://www.gofundme.com/f/yt83p-rebuilding-lives

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reblog for sample size !!

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Hans Makart, The five senses (1872-79) Touching, Hearing, Seeing, Smelling and Tasting

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Gaza's municipality is trying to raise money to fix and restore Gaza's water system. Please support them by boosting and/or donating

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the problem is that mages are tolerated. barely. it’s like you need permission to be alive.

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Shipping fictional characters isn’t representative of your moral values. It’s representative of your particular psychic damage and the themes and motifs that haunt you. Hope this helps.

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from the series “Mornings on the Seine”, by Claude Monet

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SHŌGUN (2024) - Chapter Ten: A Dream of a Dream

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IS THAT WRONG, TO LOVE MY MOTHER?

She is proud and haughty, as although she knows that she was born of such a mother, she nevertheless does not consider herself of inferior degree to the Queen, whom she equals in self-esteem; nor does she believe herself less legitimate than her Majesty, alleging in her own favour that her mother would never cohabit with the King unless by way of marriage, with the authority of the Church, and the intervention of the Primate of England; so that even if deceived, having as a subject acted with good faith, the fact cannot have invalidated her mother’s marriage, nor her own birth, she having been born under that same faith. (Giovanni Michiel, 1557)

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pentiment: andreas’s art through the years

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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it