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Jurdan Secret Pregnancy

Summary: One year into their marriage Jude had started to feel sick. She had gone to the mortal world visiting Vivi and Heather. They convinced her to take a test to be sure. Only one problem for Jude, she is now a queen on the run with an hotheaded husband on her trails.

One year after the end of Queen Of Nothing

Chapter 4

[Jude’s POV]

One thing that will always be unfortunate for Cardan, is his ignorance. As young he was an ignorant, arrogant cocky bully, whom tried to find pleasure in others pain, never succeding, only drifting further away from reality, from the real him. 

That also meant that he at no point in his life was aware of the things going on around him; the spies, the lies and the deaths, all in order for his family to stay in power. He never fully explored all the ways of the secret tunnels, or he forgot that they lead to this room too.

Making sure that Cardan was gone, and the guards posted outside not being on their way into the room to catch me red-handed, I went up on the bed and knocked around of the wooden walls, until my fist finally made contact with a hollow place. Removing the dark plank in my way. I made sure to check the room one last time for anything suspicious, before slipping into the tiny hole in the wall as smoothly and quietly as now possible with a bump making up for the extra struggle and weight.

The tunnels were exactly like I had remembered them, dark and filthy. Spiderswebs hanging from the low ceiling and covering the walls in a glistering white. I continued to crawl the tunnels, the way to my destination was imprinted in my mind. The way their rewoked memories, memories of before I had ran away from Cardan, before I had ran away from the reality of this pregnancy. But it didn’t matter now, it didn’t matter if I wanted Cardan, it didn’t matter that I wanted to stay here, where I had power, instead of running away of  what I risked everything on. But I did, I was running away from everything I gained and builed.

I turned the last turn and reached an dead end.

Moving my right hand to support my stomach, and my left han up to push the painting open. It didn’t budge, trying again, this time harder, it opened with a sudden screech and I feel right through and onto the floor with a loud thud. I lifted my head to look around the room only to be meet with three pairs of startlede eyes piercing into mine.

Fuck.

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Jurdan Secret Pregnancy

Summary: One year into their marriage Jude had started to feel sick. She had gone to the mortal world visiting Vivi and Heather. They convinced her to take a test to be sure. Only one problem for Jude, she is now a queen on the run with an hotheaded husband on her trails.

One year after the end of Queen Of Nothing

Chapter 3

[Jude’s POV]

I had been sitting on my couch watching some crappy reality show when it knocked on the door. Not thinking too much of it and being heavily pregnant I didn’t get up to open the door. But when it kept knocking on the door, I hauled myself upwards and out to the worn-down door opening it.

“Hello wife.”

The last one I ever would have expected to see here was Cardan, in all honestly over the last few weeks I have wished for nothing more than for him to find me, but now when it is happening, I cannot process it properly. It is like going into shock.

I immediately shut the door in his face, but before it closed entirely Cardan put his foot in between the door and himself, effectively keeping it open.

He pulls me outside and the door shuts close behind me. I try to wrist myself away from him, but he just tightens his grip on my waist. He lifts me up in bridal style carrying me down the stairs and the entire way out to the leaf covered ground.

“PUT ME DOWN CARDAN!” I scream at him, trashing around but being careful not to let the bump touch anything.

He looks down at me with a sceptical eye, before looking down on my swollen stomach. He almost drops me there, and I was convinced that if he hadn’t been carrying me, he would have dropped to his knees.

“Cardan, put me down.”

He just looks me in the eyes and narrowing his so slight wrinkles appear around his beautiful black eyes. “I don’t care what you want anymore Jude, you are coming with me and that is the end of the story. You hear me?” Fuck he can be scary when he is serious, and he rarely ever is.

 ***

 When we had arrived at the palace Cardan had put me down to the ground, dragging me towards our bedroom chambers in a bruising grip.

For once the palace was dead as the night, and it was highlight daytime.

“Get in there” Cardan said throwing the doors open and dragging me towards me glorious bed.

“You. You sit your ass down right here and don’t you dare move a fucking inch! Understood?” He took my head between his warm hands, cupping my cheeks looking at me with loving eyes. He can make me go soft with just the tiniest emotion from him. He was my everything. He still is.

He always will be.

“I don’t need to listen to you.” At that point he was fuming, and I could almost see smoke coming out of his ear, and in rage he grabs my waist and pulls me towards him, careful not to crush the baby.

“Listen wife, I don’t care what you want because no matter what you say you are queen and you are my wife, and you need a goddamn lesson because you have been a bad little girl, but I will not give it to you now considered your current condition.” He roars out, almost like he still was a deadly black snake.

Who knows, it might even be his spirit animal.

With that he walked out of the door, closing and locking it behind him.

That was when I realized that he had planned to do.

He was going to hold me a prisoner in my own home.

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Jurdan Secret Pregnancy

Summary: One year into their marriage Jude had started to feel sick. She had gone to the mortal world visiting Vivi and Heather. They convinced her to take a test to be sure. Only one problem for Jude, she is now a queen on the run with an hotheaded husband on her trails.

One year after the end of Queen Of Nothing

Chapter 2

[Cardan’s pov]

I stepped out of the golden horse pulled carat. Breathing in the honey sweet air, I could not be happier to be home again. Home to my Jude. The trip was boring, long meetings with the living council was not nearly as entertaining as when my sweet Jude was with me there. Walking into the palace I was meet by the servants and guards, but something was off. I was almost like I could smell the nervousness in the air.

I looked at them but no one - not a single person - meet my eye, strange. Opening the door into me and my wife’s chambers, expecting to see Jude watching her sword like a baby, but meet with nothing. Looking around the palace, the library, the kitchen, the garden, the shadow court’s spots. She were with none of those places.

It was at that moment that the nagging feeling inside me started to grow and I became sudden worried for my dear wife. I went out and went to the nearest guard I saw - which happened to be Fand - and asked “where is the Queen?”

Nervous sweating was almost started to become visible around her ears, “My King, the Queen is... she is in the mortal world, she ran off four weeks ago and have not been seen ever since.”

Rage. I was burning up with rage and vicious anger. It was boiling inside me. I turned around and walked back to my chambers, sitting on the bed and popping my head in my hands.

Why did you do that sweet Jude? Was it all an act, a mere theatric for you? Wad this your punishment for all of the horrendous things I have done?

Stop. Stop being so weak and vulnerable, take yourself together. You are the High King of Elfhame for gods sake. Now go find your wife Cardan, I told myself. I have to find Jude.

***

Knocking on the fragile door, it was soon opened by a tired Vivienne , still rubbing the sleep out of her cat eyes.

“Cardan! What are you-”

“Where is she, where is my wife?”

She avoided my burning glances at her. “Come in and sit, I will tell you everything you need to know.”

Sitting awkwardly in the beige coloured sofa, trying to adjust my sitting without moving to much became a hard task. Looking at Vivienne, giving her an angry glance telling her with my eyes to start talking soon or you wont ever talk again.

“I haven’t seen Jude in about three four weeks, but I do know where she is staying for the time being.”

Opening my mouth, only to be cut off before even starting to talk.

“She is pregnant, I think that is why she left.”

What.

Jude is pregnant, like with a baby, a child, a fetus in her uterus? Oh god I might faint. My wife is pregnant, she is pregnant with my baby. Our baby. I am going to be a dad!

Then the thought hit me, she left. She left me, because she is pregnant, that thought angered me, it made me even more angry than her leaving in it self.

Keeping calm I ask her that one vital question.

“Where is she?”

***

Walking outside an worn-down neighborhood, I look up at the grey numbers finally finding apartment number 67. Inside the hallway up, it is disgusting. Besides it being the mortal world it was disgusting because the stank, the dirt, the design, the everything.

Finding the door that was supposedly the right one, I lift my hand knocking on it twice.

Waiting a few seconds and it did not open so I tried again.

Then a grumpy voice could be heard from behind the ugly wood door, before it opened completely leaving me to the sight of an heavily pregnant Jude with tear stained cheeks.

“Hello wife.”

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Jurdan Secret Pregnancy

Summary: One year into their marriage Jude had started to feel sick. She had gone to the mortal world visiting Vivi and Heather. They convinced her to take a test to be sure. Only one problem for Jude, she is now a queen on the run with an hotheaded husband on her trails.

One year after the end of Queen Of Nothing

Chapter 1

It had started a few months ago, the sickness. I remember waking up one morning confused and with an out-of-place feeling inside me. I had looked at Cardan who had been sleeping soundlessly before the feeling rushed to my throat. I had been out all morning throwing up, before it had just suddenly stopped. I had laid my self back to bed sleeping again to dreamless nights.

That was 14 weeks ago now. I had taken to the mortal world three days ago to celebrate Vivi’s birthday, but as Heather’s family was also attending it was only right to hold the party in their little apartment. I had asked Cardan to come, but he had gotten told the day before that he had to go on a four weeks trip to settle peace with some of the lower courts, who had started posture again. Something about that we hadn’t gotten an heir yet - they had looked beyond little Oak - and that they think that their daughters and sons should sit on our crown.

My and Cardan’s throne.

Our kingdom.

Ours.

It had been this morning, where I once again had awoken with nausea and rushed to the bathroom, emptying the piths of my stomach into the marble white like toilet. Then, at that god awful time Vivi walked in, while I was leaning exhausted over the toilet, not having the strength to walk out and pretending like everything is normal. Like I had been doing for the last about seven weeks. And it was easier pretending like everything is fine when you dont have an overprotective husband, and hundreds of guards and servants never leaving your side.

“Jude, are you-?” She stopped talking almost out of nervousness of how to bring such an matter up with her very stubborn and anything but mother like sister.

“Am I what?” I said out harshly. Already annoyed with her presence.

“Are you pregnant?”

What? That was the only word running through my honey scared mind, at the words that had just left her mouth.

“No I am not” what if I am?

“Are you sure, because I can go down to the pharmacy right now and buy a test for you if you would like?” I am not sure. I am not sure at all.

“Yes, yes I would like that” I say looking down on the floor, trying not to look into Vivi’s eyes. Almost like if I did it would all just become to real for me to handle.

Without saying another word, Vivi was already out the door and on her way to the local pharmacy, buying me - her little sister - pregnancy tests.

It all felt too unreal.

I sat down on the couch, longing after the silent comfort of my husband. My Cardan.

Half an hour went by and Vivi was home with a little white bag in her hand. She handed it to me and I took it.

Not a word came out of my mouth as I turned around walking into the bathroom and closing the wooden door behind me.

A few moments later I was ready to be turning the three laid out sticks on the sink counter. Turning them I came face to face with six pink stribes.

Fuck.

No no no no, this cannot be happening. This cannot be happening. What do I tell Cardan, what do I do with the baby? It would be public for the entire kingdom to know. I cant do this, I just cant.

At that moment all rational thoughts left my head and the only thing I could think of was to go, leave and never come back. Leave Cardan. Leave Faerie. Leave Vivi. Leave the baby.

[Hours later]

It was late, laying on the tiny three man shared couch, listening to the silence of the apartment. Not a sound coming from either of the two rooms shared by Vivi and heather, and then little Oak at last. Always being prepared for anything was sometimes a good idea - at all times - especially when you needed to sneak out without being noticed.

Earlier the evening I had decided to lie, I lied and said the tests were negative, all of them. I know that it is wrong, - at highest moral - but I do not know if I could handle the pressure of family with along mine - as Cardans -  queen duties.

I took my black bag in my left hand, while with my right opening the door and getting ready to walk out and never come back. It might be wrong but I just couldn’t do it, couldn’t do it.

Walking out the door, I look behind taking my very last look into the tiny shared apartment before turning on my heel, closing the door behind me and out meeting my new life.

No matter how much I might miss Cardan already.