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kaitlyn-owens.

𝒂  𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒌  𝒐𝒓  𝒔𝒐  in  the  show  and  kaitlyn  was  already  feeling  …  homesick  ,  yes  .  she  was  feeling  wretchedly  homesick  .  and  in  an  effort  to  cheer  herself  up  ,  she  made  her  way  to  the  kitchen  –  but  not  before  applying  bright  -  coloured  make  -  up  on  (  it  was  bright  orange  and  electric  blue  eyeshadow  today  )  and  dressing  up  in  almost  outlandish  outfits  of  pink  bellbottoms  and  a  beaming  green  shirt  ,  paired  with  six  -  inch  heels  –  and  stopped  abruptly  at  the  smell  of  something  burning  ?  scrunching  up  her  nose  ,  she  turned  around  the  corner  with  a  growing  smile  upon  her  lips  . ❛   oh  ,  you  silly  little  boy  . ❜ kaitlyn  shook  her  head  as  she  walked  over  to  him  ,  patting  his  cheeks  rather  condescendingly  as  a  little  laugh  fell  from  her  lips  . ❛   don’t  even  worry  about  it  ,  at  least  you  didn’t  burn  the  kitchen  down  .  i’m  still  very  ,  very  proud  of  you  . ❜ the  owens  girl  said  before  dramatically  engulfing  the  other  in  an  embrace  .

 his  eyes  can’t  help  but  notice  everything  about  her  when  she  walks  in.    not  in  a  bad  way  at  all    !    just  takes  notice  to  her  make  up    ,    outfit    ––    wide  smile  on  his  face.    maybe  he  should  make  taking  a  hint  from  her.    has  to  stop  being  so  serious  about  anything  going  on  in  the  mansion.    not  that  he  was  here  to  have  fun    ,    but  it  really  wasn’t  the  worst  thing  in  the  world    ,    was  it    ?    eyebrows  furrow  and  smile  slightly  drops  from  his  face.    but  he  doesn’t  let  it  bother  him    !    he  did  try  his  best    ,    even  if  his  best  sucked.    knew  that  she  didn’t  mean  any  harm  by  it    ,    regardless.    ❛    are  you  actually  proud  of  me    ,    or  are  you  just  trying  to  make  me  feel  better    ?    ❜    wraps  his  arms  around  her  regardless    ,    the  smile  returning  to  his  face.    ❛    regardless    ,    thank  you.    i’m  proud  of  myself  too  even  if  they’re  disgusting.    the  kitchen  is  still  here  and  this  batch  might  actually  not  burn.    so.    we’re  making  progress    !    ❜    chuckles  softly.    ❛    you  look  beautiful    ,    by  the  way.    i  like  all  the  colors.    ❜

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alexscripts.​

alex had been reading a book when the unmistakable smell of something burning disrupted him . he followed the horrid air with urgency , the trail leading him to the kitchen . that’s when he spotted sami attempting to cook - oh no . he would be having harsh words with whoever allowed him to use the kitchen . it was a miracle that the house was still standing in one piece . “ get away from the kitchen before you burn it down . ” alex didn’t have many friends , but sami was far too kind & easy to get along with to not form some sort of attachment to . “ sami , are you out of your mind ? you don’t know how to cook . ” alex picked up one of the burnt cookies off the tray & took a bite , it was so crisp it made a dramatic noise as he chewed it . his nose scrunched up in disgust at the charcoal taste attacking his tastebuds , shaking his head in disapproval . it was just as alex had expected , a complete disaster . “ stick to what you know . ” he moved to check out the second batch , desiring to help him . after all , he was destined to be his right - hand man . “ there’s a why you’re in front of the camera , & I’m behind it . ”

 you’d  think  that  he  would  know  better  by  now    ,    but  sami  couldn’t  quite  keep  himself  away  from  trying  to  actually  make  some  type  of  edible  goods.    just  wanted  to  do  something  nice    ,    was  that  so  hard    ?    lets  out  a  laugh  when  alex  enters  the  room    ,    eyes  nearly  lighting  up  at  the  sight.    always  went  through  people  in  his  life  pretty  quickly    ,    but  not  alex.    had  gotten  attached  pretty  quickly.    ❛    no    ,    no.    it’s  okay    !    nothing  is  burning  down.    i  just  overcooked  them  a  little.    there  wasn’t  even  a  fire    ,    i  swear.    ❜    not  this  time    ,    at  least.    ❛    well    ?!    how  am  i    supposed  to  know  how  to  cook  if  i  don’t  try  to  get  better  at  cooking    ?    i  have  to  practice.    so.    i’m  practicing.    trial  and  error.    burnt  gross  cookies  and  these  ones  that  are  in  the  oven  that  are  going  to  be  delicious.    swear.    ❜    rolling  his  eyes  as  he  watches  the  other  try  the  burnt  cookies.    ❛    i  told  you  not  to  eat  them.    ❜    eyes  are  back  on  the  oven    ,    determined  to  make  sure  these  ones  are  good.    ❛    first  of  all.    stop  being  mean  to  me.    second    ,    when  these  ones  come  out  good    ,    you  better  apologize.    ya  big  jerk.    ❜

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milosuns.

“ YOU ARE LUCKY I decided to leave my room right now… it was honestly fate. needed to come here and save your ass “, he jokes as he points at him, laughing a little. “ same goes back at you sami… you know you’ve always been one of my favorite guests and the audience agrees “, he playfully brags, raising a brow. “ what have you been up to, man?? ”, he questions, offering him another smile as he approaches to check what was going on in that oven now. “ it’s normal, the very first times… ask me how many cookies i burnt too when i was just learning this whole thing ”, he chuckles. “ maybe you want to get those off there now so they don’t suffer the same fate ”, he points at the oven. 

 nods  his  head    ,    thankful  that  he  had  some  help.    ❛    very  lucky    !    ❜    lets  out  a  soft  chuckle    ,    nodding  his  head.    maybe  have  been  a  joke  but  he  did  feel  thankful  to  have  a  chance  at  not  ruining  the  rest  of  the  cookie  dough  he  made.    didn’t  realize  that  this  was  what  he’d  be  doing  on  a  tv  show  for  celebrity  scandals    !    ❛    really    ?    i’m  honored.    you’re  just  very  genuine.    makes  being  interviewed  fun.    ❜    always  felt  like  he  was  talking  to  a  friend  and  not  to  someone  that  didn’t  even  care  about  him  or  his  career.    ❛    oh    ,    you  know.    normal  stuff.    ❜    gestures  around  them    ,    silently  acknowledging  the  situation  that  they  were  in.    ❛    but  really  ,  not  much    !    just  did  a  few  big  fashion  shows  for  fashion  week    ,    that  was  exciting.    what  about  you    ?    ❜    asks  softly.    ❛    it’s  just  so  hard    ,    i  don’t  get  it.    ❜    takes  the  cookies  out  as  instructed.    ❛    what  do  you  think    ?    i  can’t  tell.    i’m  so  bad  at  telling  if  they’re  done  and  then  they  just  burn.    ❜

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sousice.

jovi  stumbles  into  the  kitchen  squinting  and  grumbling   ,   eyes  hidden  by  a  pair  of  shades  and  hair  a  riot  where  it  falls  over  his  forehead   .   someone’s  up  cooking   .   by  the  smell  of  the  air  something  sweet  and  warm  and  good  ——  not  some  spinach and  avocado-ass  protein  shake  management’s  always  tying  to  pry  off   ,   either   .   half  listening   ,   he  grabs  a  cookie  and  crams  it  between  his  lips   .   “ fffu— ! ”   one  bite  and  it  crumbles  to  ash  on  a  dry  tongue  and  he  chokes  on  the  dust   .   jovi  grasps  blindly  at  the  sink  to  shove  his  face  under  the  faucet   .   takes  water  in  gulps  to  wash  it  all  down   .   “ fuck   ,   dude  , ”   he  grumbles  as  he  wipes  his  mouth  with  the  back  of  his  hand   ,   upright  now   .   “ yeah  no  shit  you’re  no  baker   .   how  long  you’d  cook  them  for  ? ”   his  eyes  fall  to  the  oven   .   shiny  and  gleaming  in  the  fancy  kitchen    .  he  squeaks   ,   alarmed   ,   “ how  long  have  those  been  in ? ”   

 ❛    i  told  you  not  to    !    ❜    can’t  help  but  to  let  out  a  laugh  at  the  reaction.    knew  they  weren’t  the  worst  things  in  the  world    ,    just  burnt    !    but  it  was  still  comedic  to  see  his  reaction.    ❛    i  personally  think  you’re  being  just  a  little  dramatic.    they’re  fine    ,    they’re  just    –––    overcooked.   like  . . .  a lot.   the  cookie  dough  tastes  good    ,    i  swear    !    ❜    lets  out  a  laugh    ,    keeping  a  close  eye  on  the  batch  he  was  determined  not  to  fuck  up.    ❛    fourteen  minutes.    which  is  apparently  way  too  long.  these  ones  have  been  in  for  five.    i  set  the  time  for  eight  minutes.    is  that  long  enough    ?    i  don’t  know.    i’m  not  good  at  this  shit.    my  mom  was  never  really  able  to  teach  me  how  to  cook.    she’s  tried    !    i’m  surprised  i  managed  to  get  this  far.    if  these  come  out  good    ,    it’ll  be  a  goddamn  miracle.    ❜

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noemis.

    𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭  𝐨𝐟  𝐡𝐞𝐫  felt like this should’ve been expected . not that he ever gave her an inkling to the fact that he had morally ambiguous intentions . but rather , noemi was more self-aware than she seemed . she knew that she was too trusting . being that she was a sought after public figure , she should probably be a lot more cautious about who she lets into her life . for pete’s sake , if sami of all people could turn out to be a wolf in sheep’s clothing then she really needed to watch her back . she nods to indicate he’s free to say whatever he wants to her . but the rest of her body language indicates that she’s not super excited to be talking right now : lips pressed together in a tight line , arms hugging her middle to close herself off to him , and eyes never staying focused on his face for too long . her gaze keeps darting away from him to the scenery around them as if she wants to be anywhere but here . she can’t help but scoff lightly at his words . “i want to believe you sami , i do . but now i don’t know what’s fact from fiction . i mean , how am i supposed to tell the difference between you being genuine and you just saying what you think i want to hear ? because you were pretty convincing the first time around and it turns out all of that was a lie so …” she’s more hurt than angry and it shows .

 wasn’t  that  he  didn’t  have  remorse  for  the  situation  he  had  created.    he  did.    but  on   other  other  hand    ,    he  would  never  act  like  he  regretted  it.    he  did  what  he  had  to  do  to  get  noticed    ,    get  himself  where  he  was.    but  she  had  been  different.    they  were  better  as  friends    ,    but  their  friendship  wasn’t  fake  to  him.    was  unfortunate  that  she  had  so  clearly  seemed  to  fall  in  line  with  the  other  relationships  that  really  hadn’t  meant  much  to  him.    ❛    look.    what  reason  do  i  have  to  lie  now    ?    everything  is  out  in  the  open.    i  wouldn’t  lie  to  you  just  to  make  you  feel  better.    that’s  not  me.    ❜    and  it  was  true.    at  this  point    ,    he  wasn’t  going  to  pretend  he  didn’t  do  what  he  did.    and  on  the  same  hand    ,    he  wasn’t  going  to  let  noemi  think  that  it  was  nothing  to  him.    ❛    i  did  a  lot  of  things  to  advance  my  career.    to  make  sure  i  could  support  my  mom    ––      ❜    it’s  not  meant  to  be  a  sympathy  card    ,    it’s  just  the  truth.    she  was  the  reasoning  behind  all  of  his  decisions.    ❛    it  was  convincing  because  we  had  a  real  friendship.    because  we  were  better  as  friends.    i  didn’t  lie  about  anything.    yes    ,    there  were  cases  where  i  did.    pretended  to  have  feelings.    but  we  didn’t  have  that.    right    ?    so  then  what  is  there  to  lie  about    ?    being  around  you  was  never  fake.    ❜

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lennoxpng.​

𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐈 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐄 kind of friend that lennox’s mother wouldn’t approve of, furthermore, the kind of friend she would actively dislike and discourage him from seeing. whenever the pair were together; chaos ensued. drugs, alcohol, mischief, sex with random strangers – you name it. lennox brought sami down, sami brought lennox down, it was a lethal combination. “name one person that’s famous that isn’t a serial dater? if you’ve got the facilities…” he trailed off, as far as he was concerned people were ripping into sami for being human. when you had hundreds of people throwing themselves at you it wouldn’t be long before you finally gave in. “vodka soda has water in it, if my youth as a bartender has taught me anything.” 

 for  a  boy  so  sweet  and  kind  some  people  were  surprised  that  sami  could  easily  be  a  bad  influence  depending  on  who  he  was  around.    as  quick  as  he  would  influence  someone  to  make  a  good  choice    ,    he  would  turn  around  and  enable  bad  habits.    just  depended.    and  with  lennox    ?    it  was  always  bad.    but  it  was  an  intoxicating  friendship.    lennox  was  someone  that  sami  just  couldn’t  seem  to  detach  himself  from.    his  partner  in  crime.    wouldn’t  stop  being  his  friend  for  anything.    ❛    so  what  you’re  saying  is  that  you  think  i’m  hot  and  that  faking  people  into  thinking  i  actually  wanted  to  be  with  them  was  the  right  thing  to  do    ?    ❜    tone  is  serious    ,    though  he’s  not  actually  making  that  assumption  at  all.    ❛    no.    you  just  get  a  plain    ,    boring  water  and  you  get  to  watch  me  have  drinks.    i’m  officially  your  good  influence  friend.    ❜    as  if    !

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soniia.

          doesn’t  enjoy  not  being  at  the  center  of  his  attention  ,  rose  -  tinted  lips  curled  into  a  pout  when  his  eyes  finally  set  on  her  ,  the  moment  so  brief  it  makes  her  blood  boil  .  ‘  oh  ,  i  wouldn’t  want  that  .  .  .  you  might  just  move  on  to  someone  cuter  than  me  if  you  get  too  conceited  !  ‘  though  there’s  a  playful  tinge  to  her  tone  ,  the  mere  idea  brings  about  a  sense  of  discomfort  ;  one  she’s  not  willing  to  ever  get  used  to  ———  will  blame  it  on  her  own  selfishness  ,  an  ego  that  gets  bruised  too  easily  .  ‘  right  ??  i  made  a  good  batch  only  once  ,  you  know  ??  and  no  one  was  there  to  witness  it  !!  ‘

 shakes  his  head    ,    but  takes  a  second  to  think  about  how  to  respond.    always  thinking  twice  about  what  he  said  to  her.    didn’t  want  to  come  off  as  clingy  but  boy  was  he    !    ❛    i  don’t  think  that’s  possible    ,    and  it’s  not  just  because  there  isn’t  anyone  cuter  than  you.    ❜    clearly  didn’t  think  too  hard  before  the  words  just  poured  out    !    ❛    besides    ,    you’re  way  out  of  my  league  anyway.    ❜    he  really  did  need  to  keep  his  mouth  shut.    ❛    i’m  determined  to  make  one  good  batch  and  at  least  you’ll  be  here  to  witness  it  and  that’s  enough  for  me.    ❜

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hi friends i was hoping to finish drafts tonight by my i’m having a hard time w/ my eyes currently ( they like 2 get blurry sometimes its fun ) so unless that clears up soon i’ll finish them ( + get to ims )  tomorrow !! 

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wilxow.

a  shake  of  her  dark  locks  followed  yet  another  compliment  of  his  ,  that  high  pitched  squeal  of  his  name  she  use  to  always  giggle  out  trailing  at  the  end  as  well  .  something  about  sami  felt  easy  ,  always  ,  and  she  was  like  a  giddy  school  girl  whenever  he  was  around  .  “  so  cute  .  ”  she  repeated  ,  eyes  wide  as  well  as  her  smile  as  she  listened  to  him  speak  .  willow  wasn’t  sure  how  she  could’ve  been  nervous  before  ,  the  two  of  them  seeming  to  fall  right  back  into  place  .  of  course  she  had  some  hurt  and  things  that  would  need  to  be  discussed  ,  but  that  could  wait  .  for  now  ,  she’d  bask  in  the  glow  of  S A M I  .  “  m’thinking  the  same  .  the  damage  has  been  done  ,  and  i  honestly  don’t  know  how  to  fix  anything  anymore  ,  so  i’m  here  .  ”  it  took  everything  in  the  girl  not  to  reach  over  and  run  her  fingers  through  his  buzzed  hair  ,  but  she  tried  .  she  knew  if  she  did  that  ,  she’d  want  to  run  her  fingers  elsewhere  ,  everywhere  .  “  only  you  could  have  a  life  crisis  and  manage  to  look  good  .  i  envy  you  ,  hun’  .  ”  pearly  whites  dug  into  her plump  bottom  lip  ,  face  nuzzling  ever  so  slightly  closer  to  his  touch  .  “  i  use  to  think  the  same  ,  but  –  ”  she  sighed  ,  shaking  her  head  to  step  away  from  him  .  she  didn’t  want  to  overwhelm  him  with  her  own  emotions  ,  so  instead  ,  she  wandered  over  to  sit  down  on  the  nearby  couch  ,  patting  the  spot  next  to  her  .  “  they  figured  out  everything  .  leaked  my  whole  life  ,  basically  told  the  world  ‘  here’s  a  mistake  that  should’ve  never  made  it  ’  .  and  then  they  leaked  things  about  remy  ,  so  it’s  all  out  there  .  ” 

 ❛    you’re  cute.    ❜    could  he  help  himself    ?    not  really.    was  just  like  everything  was  back  to  normal  even  though  they  were  far  from  ever  being  normal  again.    what  even  was  normal  for  them  at  this  point    !    knew  that  they  needed  to  talk    ,    but  they  needed  to  get  past  this  phase  first.    the  missing  each  other  phase.    the  phase  where  he  wanted  nothing  but  to  keep  her  wrapped  in  his  arms.    get  down  to  the  idea  that  they  were  here  and  they  needed  to  talk  about  things.    their  relationship    ,    their  secrets.    would  take  as  long  as  they  could  until  they  had  to  settle  down  and  actually  talk.    ❛    i  don’t  either.    figured  this  would  be  my  best  shot    ,    you  know  what  i  mean    ?    and  it  means  being  here  with  you    ,    so.    maybe  it’s  not  all  bad.    ❜    flashes  a  toothy  smile  at  her  before  a  hand  runs  smoothy  over  his  head.    ❛    suppose  it’s  not  so  bad.    i  kinda  missed  it  as  soon  as  it  was  gone.    ❜    the  small  talk  felt  normal    ,    comfortable.    like  there  weren’t  cameras  watching  them  have  this  conversation.  watches  her  step  back  and  almost  wants  to  close  the  space    ,    but  keeps  his  distance.    slowly  follows  her  to  the  couch  and  claims  the  spot  next  to  her.    holds  himself  back  from  wanting  to  initiate  any  type  of  touch.    ❛    shouldn’t  make  anyone  think  any  differently  of  you.    ❜    speaks  softly    ,    thinking  briefly  about  remy.    about  how  she  was  having  a  baby  with  him.    was  he  actually  jealous    ?    wasn’t  really  something  that  happened  a  lot.    ❛    how  are  you  doing  with  everything    ?    the  whole    .  .  .    baby  situation.    are  you  okay    ?    ❜

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cnnrderic.

with how big the mansion was, it is rather easy to avoid others. one just has to choose the correct routes and eric found them on his first day there.   but there is only one kitchen and everyone needs to eat so he is bound to run into others no matter how much he tries to avoid social interactions.   he’s not much of a loner, not really, but there’s a difference between spending time with people he likes and pretending to like the ones he’s forced to stay with so his pr staff is happy.   and of course he runs into somebody and that person is cooking. wow, talk about trying too hard. 

the first thing he notices is the nasty burnt smell permitting the air, it’s making his throat itch so he clears it, before beelining to the fridge and opening it to search for any easily accessible food.   there’re a few yogurts so he grabs the biggest one.   ‘why bake if you’re not good at it?’ he asks the one thing that comes to his mind, even though his staff would probably berate him for not even trying to pretend like everyone can burn cookies and it’s ok.   ‘You just wasted perfectly good ingredients…’

 generally  speaking    ,    sami  was  a  friendly  person.    would  talk  to  anyone    ,    didn’t  really  let  anyone  bother  him.    it  was  hard  to  when  he  was  so  optimistic  about  everything    !    that  said    ,    eric’s  words  don’t  get  to  him  at  all.    only  makes  him  chuckle  softly.    ❛    trial  and  error    ,    mate.    it’s  how  people  get  better  at  things    ,    right    ?    how  am  i  supposed  to  be  better  at  baking  if  i  just  fold  my  hands  and  let  myself  be  bad  at  it    ?    ❜    he  had  to  stop  himself  because  he  really  could  go  on  and  on  about  the  importance  of  practice.    he’s  convinced  that  persistence  really  is  key    !  looks  back  into  the  oven  through  the  door    ,    so  far  so  good.    ❛    wasted    ?    i  still  have  a  whole  bowl  of  cookie  dough  that  i  probably  won’t  burn.    they  taste  good    ,    they’re  just  burnt.    have  you  made  cookies  before    ?    they’re  hard  to  get  perfect.  ❜    shakes  his  head  softly    ,    taking  a  look  at  the  burnt  cookies  that  he  had  left  on  a  plate.    ❛    do  share  your  tips  to  perfect  cookie  making  if  you  think  it’s  so  bad  that  i  messed  up  the  first  batch.    ❜

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lennoxpng.​

𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐄 would outright admit it like sami, but he was glad he was there too. someone here got him, someone understood the unbearable condition lennox was afflicted with – consciousness ( medicated by alcohol and something more sinister ). “ouch, sami,” he scoffed, feigning offense. “you’re saying you’re happy my little dark secret got revealed so i had to come here? happy i’m a failed heroin addict?” he raised his eyebrows, clearly teasing him. “wait – can you say that again, just right into that camera over there–” he pointed to the camera closest to them, elbowing sami as he did. “you can make that up to me by enabling my addictive tendencies with a double vodka soda.”

  wasn’t  like  sami  was  proud  of  himself  for  fueling  the  fire  that  was  lennox’s  bad  habits    ,    but  he  couldn’t  really  help  it.    it  was  just  how  they  were  together.      ❛    no.    no    ,    that’s  not  what  i’m  saying.    i  was  trying  to  be  nice    ,    you  absolute  asshole.    ❜    laugh  comes  out  after  his  words.      ❛    not  like  i’m  not  here  because  my  secrets  got  aired  out    ,    too.    you’re  a  failed  heroin  addict  and  i’m  a  heartless  serial  dater.    we  make  such  a  good  team    !    ❜    another  laugh    ,    shaking  his  head.    it  wasn’t  funny    ,    but  maybe  it  was  just  a  little  bit  funny.    hand  extends    ,    flips  the  camera  off  and  then  moves  his  hand  so  he’s  flipping  lennox  off    ,    a  wide  smile  on  his  face.      ❛    no.    you  get  a  fucking  water.    ❜

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milosuns.

MILO HAS BEEN AVOIDING the world ever since he set foot in this house. not like he could even look at people in the eyes anymore. but he figured getting out of his room to grab some snack after the first few days here would do no harm. plus: maybe he’d find a familiar face around ?? who knew… but the thrill and mainly nervousness of not knowing what awaited as he left his four walls invaded him. as soon as he enters the kitchen, there’s an ever present smell of burnt cookies in the room. he chuckles as he notices who is responsible of it. “ no worries, man… in my case, i can’t act or model but i do know how to bake “, he jokes as he approaches him. “ long time no see “, he remarks, a small smile curves his lips as he tries to be polite with the first person he encounters around on his time here, at least it was just sami. “ you need some help with that ?? “

 despite  everything  going  on    ,    sami  wasn’t  in  any  place  to  judge  anyone.    he  had  fucked  up  as  bad  as  anyone  else  who  was  there  trying  to  redeem  themselves    ,    so  who  was  he  to  judge  anyone    ?    ❛    ah    ,    so  you  were  my  missing  piece  this  whole  time.    it  makes  sense  now.    ❜    lets  out  a  soft  chuckle  at  the  familiar  voice  that  was  now  in  the  kitchen  with  him.    ❛    it’s  nice  to  see  you    ,    milo    ,    as  always.   even  with  the  given  circumstances.    ❜    smiles  genuinely  at  the  other    ,    recalling  the  times  he  had  spent  on  the  others  show.    nods  his  head    ,    finally  taking  his  eyes  away  from  the  oven.    still  had  a  few  minutes  left  on  the  timer.    ❛    yeah.    if  you  don’t  mind.    i  literally  don’t  understand  cookies.    how  do  they  burn  so  easily    ?    i  swear  it’s  karma.    i  just  can’t  bake  a  good  cookie.    i  followed  the  recipe  and  the  burnt  ones  would  be  good  if  they  weren’t    ––    ya  know    ,    burnt.    ❜

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wilxow.

all  the  nerves  that  were  bundled  inside  of  her  tiny  frame  instantly  vanished  when  her  honey  hues  met  his  darker  ones  . just  having  him  nearby  ,  seeing  that  goofy  grin  of  his  was  enough  to  rid  her  of  her  worries  for  just  a  sweet  moment  .  following  his  lead  ,  the  girl  instantly  melts  against  him  .  her  face  nuzzles  against  his  neck  ,  the  overwhelming  aroma  of  him  that  use  to  linger  in  her  apartment  no  longer  there  .  but  here  he  was  .  and  there  she  was  .  completely  wrapped  up  in  him  .  his  words  made  her  blush  like  always  ,  and  once  they  parted  she  squished  her  own  cheeks  between  her  hands  in  attempt  to  hide  the  crimson  shade  heating  them  up  .  “ missed  you  .  so  much  .  ”  she  mumbled  in  between  a  light  giggle  ,  lashes  fluttering  closed  as  she  took  in  his  voice  .  “  should’ve  known  that  you  would’ve  jumped  at  the  chance  to  be  somewhere  where  you’d  always  have  people  to  pester  –  ”  she  peered  up  at  him  ,  “  the  circumstances  are  shitty  ,  but  besides  that  ,  m’happy  you’re  here  .  happy  we’re  both  here  . “  knowing  what  was  exposed  of  him  ,  part  of  willow  wondered  if  she  fell  into  that  category  .  if  she  was  someone  he  placed  himself  with  just  for the  added  attention  ,  but  deep  down  she  knew  that  couldn’t  be  the  case  .  if  it  was  ,  give  the  boy  his  oscar  .  “  you  look  really  good  .  the  haircut  is  nice  .  ”  

 there  was  a  part  of  sami  that  felt  like  he  could  c  r  y.    not  in  a  bad  way    !    just  overwhelmed  by  emotions  of  seeing  willow  again.    didn’t  know  what  to  expect  when  they  finally  reconnected    ,    and  it  was  even  more  intense  than  he  thought  it  would  be.  just  holds  her  against  him  for  way  longer  than  a  regular  hug.    doesn’t  want  to  let  go.    had  to  force  himself  to  finally  release  his  grip.      ❛    so  cute.    ❜    muttered  softly  under  his  breath    ,    but  knows  she  could  hear  him.      ❛    pester    ?!    ❜    lets  out  a  soft  laugh    ,    nodding  his  head.      ❛    i  thought  it  was  a  good  opportunity.    to  clear  some  things  up.    and  to  be  around  people.    ❜    for  a  moment    ,    he  wonders  if  he  should  tell  willow  that  she  was  never  part  of  his  scandal.    she  wasn’t  just  for  show.    what  they  had  was  real.    wanted  to  tell  her  so  badly    ,    but  was  worried  he  might  sound  like  he’s  completely  full  of  shit    ,    so  he  doesn’t.    won’t  bring  it  up  unless  she  wants  to  know.    wants  to  know  about  her  instead.    ❛    i’m  happy  that  you’re  here  too.    maybe  not  circumstantially    ,    but    ––    selfishly  i’m  really  glad  that  you’re  here.    ❜    lets  out  a  soft  laugh    ,    running  a  hand  over  his  newly  buzzed  head.     ❛   thanks.    i  shaved  it  before  i  came  because  i  was  having  a  momentary  crisis.    it  grows  back  pretty  quickly.    ❜    chuckles  again    ,    can’t  seem  to  keep  his  hands  away  from  her    ,    reaching  forward  to  tuck  a  piece  of  her  hair  behind  her  ear.      ❛    so.    tell  me  about  what’s  been  going  on    ,    yeah    ?    i’ve  never  been  one  to  trust  tabloids.    ❜

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Zayn Malik for Penshoppe Spring & Summer 2019

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soniia.

          knows  the  scent  of  failure  all  too  well  ,  from  her  own  kitchen  where  her  good  intentions  went  up  in  smoke  on  countless  occasions  ———  otherwise  a  decent  cook  ,  becomes  completely  hopeless  whenever  she  has  to  turn  on  the  oven  .  finds  some  relief  in  knowing  she’s  not  the  only  one  ,  a  laugh  will  move  past  her  lips  instead  of  a  greeting  as  she  leans  against  the  door  frame  ;  lured  in  by  curiosity  ,  but  tempted  to  stay  because  of  the  familiar  face  .   ‘  you  are  so  humble  ,  too  .  ‘  she’ll  tease  ,  smile  not  easing  off  her  features  for  even  a  moment  .  ‘  really  ,  if  you  were  a  good  baker  on  top  of  all  that  ,  you’d  be  too  dangerous  .  ‘

 swears  that  one  day  he’ll  get  better  at  cooking    !    he  liked  it  a  lot    ,    but  he  was  just  terrible  at  it.    watching  the  cookies  like  a  hawk    ,    he  doesn’t  let  her  voice  throw  him  off.    he  will  make  a  successful  batch    !    but  he  wants  to  look  at  her  so  badly.    wants  to  lose  all  of  his  focus  on  the  cookies    &    pour  it  into  her.    ❛    well    ,    i’m  just  being  honest    !    it’s  just  a  fact.    ❜    lets  out  a  soft  laugh    ,    eyes  tearing  away  from  the  oven.    ❛    careful    ,    i’m  gonna  get  a  big  head.    ❜    and  get  attached  all  the  same    ,    but  that  was  already  happening  ,  huh    ?    turns  his  head  back  to  the  oven.    ❛    why  are  cookies  so  difficult    ?    i  just  don’t  get  it.    one  second  they’re  raw    ,    next  second  they’re  burnt.    ❜

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lennoxpng.​

𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐇𝐄 to suddenly start playing by the rules, anyway? if sami was taking the risk, he would too, manager and pr people be damned. the two of them were a pair, after all, he couldn’t sit back and fake indifference and he certainly couldn’t watch sami have fun without him. and did he really care if he left this stupid, redundant, pointless show? no, if anything that would be a blessing. his manager was deranged if they truly though doing an unscripted reality show could save his reputation and not make it worse. he longed to be back home, no one constantly watching over his shoulder, playing big brother and making sure he was following the rules and making himself look good and innocent to the viewers at home. “well, go on then, let’s ring in this reality show season with a party, hm?” he looked around, smiling. “there’s a bar ‘round here somewhere, right?” 

 the  whole  point  of  being  here  was  to  fix  his  reputation    ,    but  his  reputation  had  been  tainted  by  his  serial  dating    ––    not  by  his  rebellious  tendencies.    so  why  try  to  fix  what’s  not  broken    ?    if  that  wasn’t  an  issue  before    ,    he  wasn’t  going  to  suddenly  try  to  play  it  safe.    he  could  still  be  himself    &    let  people  to  know  that  he’s  done  using  others  to  get  where  he  needed  to  be.    knew  that  lennox  would  be  right  there  with  him    &    maybe  he  shouldn’t  encourage  it.    maybe  he  should  try  to  be  the  others  good  influence.    but  he  had  too  much  fun  with  him    ,    enjoyed  being  around  him  too  much  to  try  to  change  anything.    ❛      yeah    ,    there  is.    haven’t  been  up  there  yet    ,    though.    ❜    already  knows  where  this  is  goes.    sure  that  it’s  obvious  and  man    ,    was  he  thankful.    needed  to  get  his  mind  off  of  everything    &    he’s  sure  lennox  did  too.    ❛    c’mon.    ❜    pulls  lightly  on  his  arm.    ❛    hey    ,    lennox    ?    i  know  it’s  kinda  fucked    ,    but  i’m  glad  you’re  here.    ❜

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noemis.

    𝐢𝐭  𝐰𝐚𝐬  𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠  to say the least . from her own secret being exposed to the secrets of others , she was surprised by how these revelations had caused such a ripple not only to the outside world but inside the mansion as well . she couldn’t quite describe the stinging betrayal she felt once she found out of sami’s dishonesty . their relationship had been short and sweet . clearly they were much better matched as just friends , and she had grown to really cherish their friendship . but now she was under the impression that it was all a  LIE  . she was only sought after because she , like many others he got with , had notoriety that he could leech off of . not because he liked her , enjoyed spending time with her , or cared about her . with these hurt feelings still fresh , she finds herself being uncharacteristically cold . “’m just peachy , thanks for asking .” she has half the mind to get up from her seat and walk away right there . but she doesn’t have the heart to . “did you need something ? or …”

 everything  had  happened  pretty  quickly.    texts    ,    pictures    ,    resources  that  proved  he  dated  around  just  for  fame.    made  him  look  like  a  horrible  person.    not  that  he  excused  what  he  did    ,    he  wasn’t  going  to  try  to  make  excuses.    but  in  his  head    ,    it  was  for  the  greater  good.    maybe  it  was  shallow.    so  it  was  definitely  shallow.    but  that’s  not  to  say  he  didn’t  care  about  who  he  hated.    he  and  noemi  were  better  as  friends    ,    and  they  both  knew  that.    and  she  was  his  friend.    just  happened  to  have  a  good  reputation    ,    and  it  brought  him  a  lot  of  fame.    now  that  he  thinks  about  it    ,    he’d  probably  hate  himself  too.    knows  how  it  seems.    seems  like  he  didn’t  give  a  fuck  about  her  and  that  wasn’t  true.    ❛    i  just  wanted  to  talk.    ❜    i  miss  you    ,    he  thinks    ,    but  doesn’t  dare  say  it.    ❛    i  know  you’re  mad  at  me.    i  know  what  it  seems  like    ,    noe    ––    but  it  wasn’t    –––      ❜    what  was  he  even  supposed  to  say    ?    why  should  she  even  believe  him    ?    ❛    it  was  at  first.    i’m  not  going  to  lie  to  you.    but  i  care  about  you  and  i  loved  being  around  you.    that  wasn’t  a  lie.    some  of  them  were    ,    but  not  you.  ❜