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To the one I love:

Affection has found me once again, sometimes when I’m passing by, I’ll look through the window, and see you there, with your loved ones, exploiting joy among those you care about. The door is surely unlocked, but your heart is closed, as I take a deep breath, and move about my day.

I may never be able to tell you how I feel, because I know that I don’t make you happier than anyone else, and each time I fail, the window grows foggier, as the winter will soon fade you away.

Some stories, are best left untold.

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Hello everybody! Man, I haven’t used this thing in ages! How are you all? If I never get to see you outside of tumblr, shoot me a message and let’s catch up!

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More Valentines day Joy for y’all,. If I had This Holiday my way, This would be it. 

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Late Night Thought

Not Getting Any Younger, And neither is my family, I always wished for my grandparents to be able to see their great grandson. Or my mother to have a grandchild. But what about what I want? Do I even know what that is? Some people say being picky is a good thing, other say it leads to loneliness. I can definitely confirm the latter. But then you’d start to think..If you really have any right to be picky, you might as well assume you are only entitled to one soulmate, especially when the one person you thought was right, only wants to be your friend...Destiny is like Santa Clause. You can believe in it, but you’ll never prove whether it exists. You can hope for it, or you can go get it. But unlike the valiant warrior who searches for the holy grail, you won’t always succeed, but other journeys await. Happy Valentines day you lonely scums. Come and stay a while, have some coffee.

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Perhaps in my last post, I had forgotten what video games truly were. A magical escape from the outside world. From the days of Tennis for two...all the way to today’s competitive games like Overwatch....We can compete in them all we want. But there’s always a time and place for that. If you’re anything like me...You just want to get away. What good are games that follow your painfully all the way from the things you already can’t stand? I played a match of aweosmenauts today....I was put up against another penny fox player...who went literally 1 kill to 10 deaths. His team screamed at him, I knew he had a bad game...but that doesn’t mean he was the sole reason they lost. So I told them that...I said...It’s not his fault..Then my team joined in and said it was. It’s like...Big deal...I have players who feed and throw games all the time..Sure it’s annoying...but as long as they try, it’s all that matters. They don’t boot up the game to please you..Their world doesn’t revolve around you..and I almost forgot what matters most to me...Well..that...and I wanna share stuff again. but I’ve decided that this blog will be transitioning from nauts..to me in general, and how I’m feeling. (watches as everybody unsubbs) anyway if you’re down, stick around. I’ll post exclusive artwork WIPs, and maybe I won’t abandon the place who knows xD I’m also trying to Do the same with my twitter...but...I’ll keep my personal life away from twitter since tumble so graciously uses the term “Blog”

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Not that this blog has been thriving much recently...I haven’t posted in months....But I am officially stating the complete discontinuation of this blog...other than its existence, until i decide to delete it. I began this blog with the crazy and false accusation that I could have something interesting to bring to the small awesomenauts community. Turns out I only let myself down...I’m not stopping this blog because I don’t have the drive to make more posts...otherwise I would just post to it when I could....But I’ve learned far too much about myself in the past few months. And the biggest thing that hit me like a brick to the head...is how much of a crybaby and a failure I am at awesomeness..and furthermore..the world around me. The very things I once stood up to...toxcity..rage...I was wrong to stand up against it...and some of the people around me that matter to me most...have informed me of how necessary it is...If negativity is necessary..it clearly must be true...at work I get called a shithead...a crybaby...hit with objects..words...and I come home to the same thing every night I turn this game on.  I thought it was just a global occurrence that needed to be stood up against...but its not...its just myself. And my first step to achieving peace is to acknowledge that the nail in this blogs coffin is hammered in. feel free to come back and look at whenever you like.

~Sandy

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Entry For a *hiccup* contest. *burp*

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Drawings things relieves stress. Baby awesomenauts is now little awesomenauts :)

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Quite possible one of the most adorable awesomenauts artworks I’ve seen. ♥

My friend Spyro :3c drew it 

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Just gonna write off every attempt at “cutiefying” everything automatically makes it baby form. Like Spyro here. I still have much to do....Just thought I’d post my progress... *UPDATED*

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Enjoy! It’s more like angel corn nibs cuz no horn. hehe. I’ll make the scenery later. Enjoy???

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Made a little stream out of this. Going to bed now....I’ll take another stab at it when I get the chance. 

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I told some of my friends I was working on a new drawing. This is all I have so far, The model is based off of the baby awesomenauts you already saw. There is still much more to do...Stay Tuned! 

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No more hopes and dreams.

Hello my friends. I don't come to you with a GIF, or even a picture to capture a visual representation of my own feelings. Just a passage with an explanation of the emotional horror I've began to experience since the release of ALWB. It's been hard to work up the nerve to say anything...to speak without sounding like a sore loser....for those many of you who follow up with the brand... you know that it's a branding of competitive awesomenauts challenges that are competed in by the community. Generally consisting of tournaments. If not not completely consisting of them. During one of my usual twitch streams some months ago I was approached by the man himself, complimenting my work as an artist and showed interest in having me as one of his graphics designers for the ALWB. After applying I was given the task, along with another individual. I was very excited to share my creativity with everyone...and have it used in a manner I could be proud of, and benefit a game I really loved. I struggled a bit to satisfy the needs of the team. Like most designers I made multiple attempts within myself to get many aspects correct. I ended up being very proud of of my space background and my pretty pink planet I made with my own hands. I Made 2 layers of stars for this space background. This is so the producers could animate them and make them twinkle! If you check out one of the past broadcasts of the ALWB channel, you can see my background, along with the constellations of penny and Leon, and my little planet! I was proud of what I did, and the compliments the team gave me. Sadly, my other tasks didn't fare quite as well. Many instances of miscommunication left me making logos and graphics with characters that were irrelevant to the cause...such as Leon as a team logo that didn't use him. Ultimately my struggles lead to a dismissal from the the graphics team, where my emotional state got the better of me, where ultimately I left the discord group. After of which my experience with ALWB became a living hell. I tuned into the reveal of the competition on Ronimo's streamisho. Where everyone was thanked for their contribution..but myself. I felt completely erased and it seemed as if I had contributed nothing, including time and effort, where my background and assets were still appearing everywhere. I removed everyone from my steam buddy list who was involved with the ALWB. And I feel like everyone hates me. Members of the group refer to me as a quitter. Or a ditcher. I assure you all...I left the group, as a result of my termination. I have chosen not to compete in ALWB and hope that everyone at least understands my perspective, even if you may not agree with it. It's mere pain and agony to me now....

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Trog drew me a picture fidget in MS Paint! but you would have no Idea he used Ms Paint xD It’s so cute! And I’m allowed to post it here because it’s clearly awesomenauts related.

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Penny Collab! 

See the rest of it on Steam!

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=732350830

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