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Tonight consists of reading experimentals and (the best) walnut brownies

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Back in a boat!!!!!! After the longest 2 weeks of my life!!

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The pain of being at the river but not on the river.

I haven't rowed in over a week and have resorted to running, which means I'm getting pretty desperate. Hopefully I'll get paid soon and then I can join the club here for the summer.

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Me in the pair earlier this semester (damn I miss sweep rowing!!)

I finished my season today at ACRA. Being the lucky person I am, I ended up with the flu midway through last week and it peaked yesterday, making racing an absolute shitshow. It definitely wasn't how I wanted to end things which is pretty dissapointing, but I guess that's just how it goes sometimes ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ At least I don't have to set a 4:30am alarm for awhile!

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Had the most beautiful row this morning!!!!

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ACRA henley!! I won my race in the women's 1x!! Could've done significantly better, but I'll take it.

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Wanted to pop in and say I got an A in organic but don't have any study content since the semester is over so enjoy this pic of me not flipping in a single the other morning

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Not a bad way to start the day

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Eating something not from a vending machine in the chem building for the first time in a week. I've been awake for nearly 70 hours (what the fuck. don't do that) and just finished my last final. For how long and hard I've studied you'd think I'd feel more accomplished, or at least relieved, but instead I'm just deeply unsatisfied with how I did this semester.

I have one week of nothingness before I'm back in the research lab for the summer. Having Nothing To Do makes me wildly uncomfortable, so I'm going to shift my obsessive behaviors towards reading papers and rowing. I've been in a pair all semester and now, at the end of the racing season, I'm switching to a single (yikes). Taking bets on how many meters I'll go before capsizing.

sidenote- yes i'm aware my desktop is pure chaos

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Current situation. Absolutely dying. Physics and organic finals tomorrow then linear algebra Friday. Feeling like a total failure and not really wanting to exist right now

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How? Is it?? Almost finals week??????

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Hiding in the team truck with my coach's dog so I can have a quiet place to study at the regatta. Sometimes you just have to make do lmao

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Well, here we are again. I was up all of last night studying for a linear algebra exam I had this morning, and now I'm staying up all of tonight to study for the physics and orgo exams I have tomorrow. Another semester has gone by without me figuring out how to manage my time responsibly. Maybe next semester (probably not).

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This morning's study view. Sometimes I forget how great the library is

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Studying (attempting to, at least) outside today. Being stressed=not accomplishing anything=being even more stressed. Fantastic.

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Goooood morning. Currently studying for my last orgo exam before the final (i have FOUR exams next week?? then finals week????). I registered for fall classes- I'll be taking inorganic chemistry, physical chemistry, physics, differential and difference equations, and chemical literature. Should be a fun time. Also!! I found out yesterday that I am for sure going to get paid for research this summer which is a big weight off my shoulders. I didn't like the idea of doing it for credit and having to still work a job at the same time to be making money.

Classes are stressful. I need perfect grades in linear algebra to come out with an A thanks to my laziness at the beginning of the semester. Rowing is about to pick up tremendously right around finals thanks to SIRA. Fun time. Except not.

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Been a little extra stressed recently. Finals are quickly approaching and I have very little time to repair to damage I did at the beginning of the semester, shoutout to me for always starting off poorly and giving myself absolutely no room for error at the end.

Rowing has been a nice reprieve from academic stress, but this past week it's just made things worse. I'm a shitty bow seat and to make it all even better, the launch fell on my hand last week and crushed a couple of my fingers. They're swollen, bruised, and can't bend or extend very far. It's! Great! I spent an hour of steady state this morning using my inside hand for everything and just letting my left hand be dead weight on the oar handle because trying to grab anything hurts so bad. There were two points in particular during the row that upset me a ton (irrationally, but whatever) bowing to the point where I was in tears while I rowed. I'm just so frustrated with so much surrounding rowing right now, plus I'm facing the reality of not getting all As this semester (something I desperately need), so absolutely anything is setting me off.