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Drawing is still hard, somehow. I have been at it for a week i expected to de Da Vinvic by this time.

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The slow journey continues

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We were alone, but we had each other.

Floating through space, 

thousand million miles away

not a damn thing in sight

not a damn thing to see…

And I don’t have any look to give either

cause I wanna lend all of them to you.

If you could see us…

You and me

in this ballet through the stars

floating through space, forever.

Yet this eternity still felt too short

because time rushes past me when I’m with you.

I sometimes dream of home

and those are the dreams I lay beside you.

I sometimes have nightmares

and those are the dreams you are away.

I know you sometimes thought life was misery.

And you know what?I think that’s the balance,

A god repaying us

giving us a challenge.

Because he knew that if we had each other

and also an easy quiet life

they would be the ones to end up jealous.

I never doubted for a second.

Cruise through the stars 

into the void of neverwas

in a frozen tomb that fought

against the natural laws…

What a horrifying prospect

would have been any other option that didn’t bring me with you.

It burns.

Not with regret, never with regret

if I could regret one thing in my life

I would regret not sharing enough with you.

Enough time

enough smiles

enough laughs.

I have many regrets of that kind.

We drift now

through space and time

space because we move too fast

time cause it never stops

what a fool, time is

to not halt for just for a second

just to admire you for an eternity.

In this journey, 

I’ve seen countless shooting stars

yet you were the only one

that my wish could grant.

You know, I still look out for them.

Look out for them who could grant me a wish

I always wish them for you to wake up

I always wish you could wake up

I wish you could wake up

please wake up. -----------------------------------------------

Lithia, third bloom, finished reading the small scribbled note.

A small research ship. 

Two terrans.

One alive, unconscious.

“I think… I think I’m gonna keep this one.”

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Tw: animal death I saw a dead cat in the street it was one am I was coming back home after an argument with my girlfriend I wanted to get away from her away from her hervything.

I saw a dead cat in the street it was one am I saw them laying under the black sky your fur eclipsed the night itself when I looked back up again it seemed somehow darker too.

I saw a dead cat in the street it was one am I lay with you for fifteen minutes just besides your lost ambitions I cried about them for you now that you could no longer.

I saw a dead cat in the street it was one am I reached home one hour later I will take my anxiety meds after but I wanted first to talk about you.

I saw a dead cat in the street it was one am and wherever you are now I hope they treat you better.

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I do not think birds should be allowed to have feet, you know, as an artistic decision.

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Oh I also cook sometimes. Chicken wings with indian mix of spices, peppers and rice-corn side.

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And who could wait

for the bird to chisel

the mountain of diamond

if eternity is what happens

between being alone

and besides you

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My dear Petal

My dear Petal,

When I met you, you were full of anger and fright eyes made of brimstone, heart forged in fire your hatred so visible, your anger oh, so bright.

You were scared, I always knew. You were scared, you did not realize. But how could you not feel like that?  In an instant, I shattered your worldview view. And to my surprise, you shattered mine.

When our forces collided, you discovered to your dismay our strengths were just no match. The weapons you fired carried hatred. Ours? They were not made like that. Still, you kept on fighting and I will not be the one to judge. I'm sure you had your reasons I'm just sad it came to that. Just wish you could had realized sooner, you just never stood a chance.

I'm sad it took you a little while to realize that this was a battle you shouldn't have fought there is no day I forget to wish to the stars that you had given up a little more fast. Not because of me of course, petal, I have all the time in the world and even a little more than that, I can be as patient as you want, but my dear... I saw your pain... All that time... It breaks my heart. I wish you weren't that stubborn, but I suppose if you were not, you just wouldn't be who you are.

I sometimes cry thinking about it you are not alone, not ever, not in that. Senseless conflict filled with pain and hurt, I wish it had never come to that. I hope it never again comes to that. Wish we could have come to a peaceful understanding sooner, wish we could have walked together under the stars sooner, to have with you even more time.

Then one beautiful day you finally surrendered, you gave up, you submitted to us, submitted to me. And I couldn't be more proud. you trusted me with your life from all the flowers of the universe I was blessed with you to be by my side. You were very brave, no one can take away that  not even you, no matter how much you tried

And you tried and tried then you hated yourself, you hated yourself so much. You called yourself worthless, and I took offense to that. You called yourself weak and a disappointment... Oh my dear, were you blind? You neither are nor were anything like that. You are worth a thousand world, stronger than a million stars, and is my objetive to remind you this reality every day when you wake up

You are brave, my petal braver than even I am, because in the end it is a hundred times easier to be trusted than to trust.

And that's why I'm happy today to finally be able to call you, Serena, First Floret.

With all my love, Camellia, 1st bloom. Hope I can bring as many smiles to your face as you bring to mine. 

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Whups, uhhhh, here 🧯

Not the fire bird fire fire firextinguiser.

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Trying to do a drawini a day for fun, learning from scratch how to art. Here are two mimirs

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I wish

I wish things could have been different

I wish I could have been different

yet that you you could remain the same

we were a match made in heaven

perhaps that's why it came to an end

too good for each other

and also.

too good for ourselves.

I still see in your eyes

universes of colors, so moving

I still see in your smile

so much unbounded potential

as I see in your sorrows

so much boundless depression.

In my dreams I see myself

still resting in your lap

scared

of ever waking up.

In my nightmares I see myself

awake and alone.

I am sorry that of you I asked too little

I am sorry that of you I asked too much

I am sorry that there was failure

not in you

not in me

but in us.

I was like valient knight

white shining armor I charged

my own brightness my downfall

how blindsided I was

that the easiest way

to stab a heart

is from the inside.

We shone oh so bright together

and I'm sure we can keep doing that

there is no need of you orbiting around me

even if thats the company I desire.

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Not Picassoini yet, but the first time I've drawn in my life, and I started with a Wacom One cause it would be silly to start with a Wacom two numbers exist for reasons I think.

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Introductionini

Hi, I'm Sarini, better known for having almost 0 social media pressence. So better known for nothing. Decided to make a tumblr as a way to like, throw my thoughts into a wall of text, and maybe sometimes, make sense of it. What can you expect here: Me, obviously. What about me? I have no idea, whatever comes in my mind if I wanna talk about it and also more importantly, if I haven't given up in this social media thingy by that timini. Oh also, expect my cat. He used to be 50% of my life, but I feel he has become a 75% as of late, although I'm not 100% sure. I would have to consult with the scientistinis. Also if I typo, it was totally on porpuse and you lack the subtext reading of what I wrote to understand it and totally not because I'm not a native speaker.

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Seasons

The flowers that fall

from autums leaves

ask questions

to whoever hears

and through the winds the carry

you can almost hear

Do you miss me?

The scorches trees

of winter sorrow

in front of the future

in front of tomorrow

self reflect

in their last moment

was ir worth it?

The beauty of spring

ever so fleeting

ever so forgetful

wonders if next year will be bountiful

wonders if next year will be better.

Summer arrives

freezing heat consumes it all

there is nothing left in the end

another year has passed

and we only get ever so lonely.