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So like before varsity the only times my chronic pain got really bad was when I was on my period, ovulating or when I was doing endurance sports like cross country. Then I went to varsity out of town and the chronic pain started to develop into more areas of my body and got triggered much easier.

I had already experienced allodynia from high school, particularly when I would rest against the back of the wooden chairs in school or stand up and press my thighs into the seats slightly. In varsity everything became an allodynia trigger. People couldn't touch my shoulders or hands or hug me around my shoulders or ribs. A feather light touch became a beating with a wooden cane. Don't ask me how I know what that feels like but I'm sure you can guess yourself anyway.

By my fourth year in varsity I was in so much pain constantly, which I ascribed to the possibility of endometriosis and me being underweight, which did contribute don't get me wrong but I don't think that was the full reason.

When I moved back home after varsity I had figured out how to manage my pain, what the triggers are, how to avoid them, what to take for what kind of pain, when to just take a hot bath and sleep it off. My parents never saw my chronic pain. They didn't know how much I was hurting constantly. They'd never seen me in a flare up.

So Monday I'm at my sickest with a really bad flu, and I'm at my highest level of pain, except it's not just a specific area, it's from my scalp down to my toes. Because flu causes inflammation of all the soft tissues for some reason, and given the fact that I'm already almost always inflamed to some degree and I have allodynia, it's feeling like a never ending tank is rolling over my body.

I was servicing my car with my dad, because it had to be done, but I'm sitting down every 5 minutes or less because I'm in so much pain I can't breathe unless I'm sitting down. My dad gets annoyed because he wants to finish servicing my car so I grit my teeth and push through.

Later, I go to the kitchen to get rye crackerbread to eat something before I can take my meds, and he's in the kitchen with a friend and I'm limping because holy shit why won't my body stop attacking itself already, and he goes "why are you limping like that?" so I go "because everything and I mean EVERYTHING hurts so bad" and he, probably for the first time in my life, sees me in a flare.

I'm walking like a grandma with Parkinsons for reference, and I can make that reference because my grandma with Parkinsons walked like that before she passed. He's never seen me in this much pain and he's known me for almost 26 years. And I've been in pain almost all of it.

That's the first time I unmasked my pain around him in my life. I think I scared him shitless. I recently heard a story where he wouldn't let people hold me as a newborn because he was scared they'd cause me pain. I think if I'd known that much earlier in my life he would have known how much pain I was in from the start.

I think if he'd known that he, his father and by virtue of genetics both his children are hypermobile, and that growing pains are not a common experience to the degree all of us experienced it, he wouldn't have thought my early childhood pain issues were normal and would have tried to help me instead of trying to make me toughen up. I think he would have let himself rest through his own flares.

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[forgetting I have mental illness, physical conditions, mental illness about the physical conditions and physical conditions because of the mental illness] why do I feel so Bad

[forgetting I am mentally ill] why do I feel so Bad

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Me: please let me sleep

The part of my brain that stores words I’ve heard but don’t know the exact meaning of: Daguerreotype

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I feel like I could make a don't make me tap the sign meme about this but people have GOT to stop trying to trick people into consuming shit they aren't consuming for whichever reason. Obvious reasons are giving a diabetic non-diet soda when they asked for diet can make them really sick or kill them. Giving someone with celiac gluten when they asked for gluten free can make then really sick and repeated exposure can kill them.

Giving someone with a food allergy food that contains that allergen when they asked if you added or handled the allergen at all during cooking and you said no but you lied can make them really sick or kill them. Giving people with idiopathic gi issues any trigger food when they asked you not to can make them really sick and depending on the issue, eventually kill them.

Notice that some of the circumstances I listed have eventually kill on some of them, where you wouldn't expect death as a consequence. You know why? Because your gi system directly impacts every system in your body. Even if the immediate consequence of consuming a trigger food or drink is cramping and the shits, which I know some of you insensitive fuckers think is not a big deal, if it happens frequently it affects absorption and digestion of nutrients, it causes lining irritation and later ulcers which can become bleeding ulcers which can become gi shit leaking into the abdomen which can lead to sepsis which often leads to death.

If you get the shits or constipation a lot because you can't avoid trigger foods because people are shits about it often enough, you can get this freaky thing I can't remember the name of that makes your anus branch out, and pockets of shit to collect in the branches, causing sores, infections and becoming a breeding ground for parasites which if left untreated can, surprise surprise, kill you. Constipation alone can cause parasitic infections just by virtue of your feces being in your guts too long.

ALL of that said, the danger to a person's health when they're given trigger foods without knowing shouldn't even matter. Your motivation for not giving people trigger foods without their knowledge shouldn't be that you could possibly cause them harm. It should first and foremost be because you want them to have autonomy over what they put in their body, regardless of their reasoning. Safety reasons are important, but they come much more naturally if your first motivation is always "is this person saying they don't want x? Cool I won't give them x".

Gonna go full white girl here for a moment

If I ask if a food is spicy at all, and you reply “No, not at all! You can barely feel it!” then that is a contradiction. It is spicy. It may not be very spicy, or even moderately spicy, but it’s still spicy. Please just tell me that straight-out.

I know there’s a good chance you’re mocking me in your head when I say that I cannot handle spices at all, and that even the mildest of sauces, that you insist are barely there, are going to hurt, because I’m mocking me too. I know I’ve got a child’s palate when it comes to spicy food. I know it’s almost laughable, how badly I react to even table pepper in more than the most minuscule of doses.

But if I ask “is this spicy,” and you answer “not at all,” and then proceed to tell me that it’s mild, then I will still consider it too spicy.

If I ask “is this spicy at all” and you say “no” while knowing that it is, just a tiny bit, because you can’t imagine anyone reacting, then please don’t be offended when I take one bite and then throw it out, because I asked for a reason.

It’s a dumb thing to talk about, but… yeah. Just do your cannot-handle-spices friends a favor and be honest when they ask. Mild is still a level of spice.

(This goes doubly for strangers, because if they have a digestive problem like, IDK, ulcers or something, then spicy food can irritate the stomach lining further and cause extreme pain. Some people claim that capsaicin can be used to treat ulcers, but you know… just play it safe, yeah?)

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my favorite "bad" dream is being back in high school. bc at first it sucks but invariably i realize "no wait, I already finished with this bullshit."

and then i instigate a riot

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AND REMEMBER! SUNSCREEN IS ONLY EFFECTIVE IF YOU PUT ON A THICK ENOUGH LAYER AND IT'S ONLY EFFECTIVE FOR A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME YOU NEED TO REAPPLY HOURLY!!! the time differs between sunscreen and how much you apply depends on the consistency, if it's liquid in a spray bottle it's six pumps per area. If it's a cream it's a tablespoon for every like, foot of skin. Read the instructions and set reminders to reapply. You can apply through mesh you don't gotta take it off, just be prepared for the mesh to stick to you if you use a thicker formula.

PSA gays: if you're wearing a mesh/lace shirt to a pride fest, sunscreen your whole chest/back before putting it on. I can't live to see another diva fall prey to sunburns with bizarrely specific patterns.

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It's understandable but annoying when you have two articles ready to be published and the client is like "no wait until next week" you make complete sense but my brain is finished with this task it wants to take the last few steps and submit! Please lemme move it off my desk! Please! (it's marketing for two public holidays for an npo skills development center they want to publish it the weeks of those holidays).

It's also annoying when you've had perfect teeth your entire 25 years of life and then suddenly, itty bitty baby start of a cavity causes sensitivity and you gotta cover it with dental resin. Understandable, no one can avoid dental decay or damage forever and it's incredibly likely that I chipped off the little bit of enamel by clenching my jaw, but I had perfect fucking teeth up until now. They couldn't even see the hole it was that small, but it was definitely there because I had Le sensitivity and pain on hot, cold and hard food or drink, so something had to be done because sensodyne AND fluoride sugar free gum was not working.

It's ALSO annoying but understandable when you were appointed as journalist of one town but because you're the only available journalist who can write in Afrikaans and has any semblance of experience you gotta take over the news for the sister town when the only other available Afrikaans journalist gets another job, and then your favorite coworker and desk neighbor resigned too because she's moving away with her boyfriend and baby daddy. All understandable, but now my entire work routine has been completely disrupted.

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Bruh I'm so fucking tired today. I know for a fact that I did take my adhd meds AND my heart medication this morning, because my mom scolded me yesterday for not taking my heart medication in the morning and I was thinking about that while taking it. For all intents and purposes I SHOULD be doing great! My heart is beating a regular rhythm and I'm getting enough oxygen everywhere in my body, my brain is producing and using the correct amount of dopamine, I even had a good night's rest. Why am I so eepy?

I know why I didn't have my tranqs all weekend so I slept like shit all weekend and it's catching up to me now, I'm just frustrated because it's deadline day and I haven't submitted a single article. Like yeah I submitted 13 yesterday, new fucking record that's like so many, but I still have shit I want in this week that I need to write.

I was hoping venting about it would get my brain to go but apparently not I just spent 3 whole minutes staring at my screen. Anyway don't skip your meds kids. If you run out get them ASAP do not wait a couple of days. I had to, I don't currently have a car my car was stolen, recovered and is now in for repairs, so I had to wait until someone could take me to the pharmacy. But generally skipping chronic medication or taking it incorrectly has a knock on effect and you will feel like shit.

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Please continue to support Sesame Street and all the other PBS programming via donations to ensure everyone, kids and adults alike, continue to have access to educational viewing.

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atp the only way we’re going to get out of this ai shit while people’s brains are still semi intact is to start bribing influencers and tiktokers into saying chatgpt is cringe and it emits a frequency that blocks your divine energy which can only be channeled back by reading a book and talking to your friends

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I just saw it on tiktok and commented there, figured I'd come on here and say it too. If you see a haha funny tiktok post asking you stuff like "what's the giveaway that this is a cop car?" or your methods to commit crimes do not fucking answer. Do not answer. Social media is not fucking safe y'all. In the video I just saw it was the cop car giveaway prompt and people were actually pointing shit out. Don't. Those are the cops trying to figure out how to be less conspicuous when undercover. Fine if they're working on cases with trafficking rings or whatever, not great if they want to hide the fact that they're cops from the general public.

You can disagree with me on this but I know I'm morally right if I believe that someone stealing to feed themselves or their family is not in the wrong and cops pretending to be regular people to trap desperate people so they can arrest more people to feel good about themselves and make their numbers look good are shitty.

I work really closely with the local police, one of my best contacts is an ex Brigadier (highest ranking after major-general in south africa) of a specialized unit. I fucking know the tricks these people use to make arrests, and I know why they make arrests, and it's 70% of the time not to stop crime but to make their figures look good.

If someone is discussing crime, cops or legal shit on social media and asking questions don't fucking answer. Do not. People have been ARRESTED OR KILLED for very little, and making it easier for cops to entrap people is a scummy thing to do. Don't answer crime or legal questions on social media. Do not. In fact don't even do it in person if you don't know the person you're talking to INTIMATELY.

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firm believe that not everything happens for a reason, sometimes things are just cruel. and they shouldn’t have happened and it’s not supposed to be a lesson because we never deserved such thing.

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Not to get all serious but my car was stolen Wednesday, recovered by the tracking company that same day, impounded, and Thursday when we went to pick it up it was in a terrible state and also it took roughly five hours to get the paperwork done that allowed me to get my car. Had a burger on the way home with my parents, fucking amazing. It was a little tiny budget burger but the pickles were so crunchy and the sauce so yummy it fixed everything. Not my car that's still in the shop but internally it fixed me.

we make fun of americans and their burgers but a good burger at the right moment really will return your will to live, is the thing

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Oh I think I got quite a bit wrong in this! The basics are still true fat is important for providing energy for bodily functions, cushioning to protect organs and temperature regulation, but it does not quite break down into sugar and water. No idea where I got that info but it's wrong.

A quick glance at Google tells me that it breaks down into fatty acids and glycerol, which is as far as I can tell a chemical (carbon and three hydroxyl) that bonds fat molecules (lipids) together. From what I can see here that is a TYPE of sugar, somewhat? Unless the sugary alcohol glycerol is a seperate chemical than the glycerol backbone in lipids. Whichever way it goes, glycerol is used in the body to store and transport water, and artificially adding it to your diet can according to some studies to "enhance and maintain hydration status" (1)

So if I'm interpreting my hasty research correctly, fat turns into fatty acids and a sugary alcohol molecule that holds water, which the body then uses to create ATP. The primary energy-carrying molecule in cells. My claim that fat turns into sugar and water that fuels bodily processes like healing and hydration of muscles and cells (as I was taught it long ago) is probably true-ish, but it leaves out fatty acids and the science is much much more complex than what I've been taught, and I'm starting to learn that making claims about science that I'm not an expert in is irresponsible, even if it's well-meaning.

You still need fat to survive, and it still performs the functions I mentioned among others, but I could be very wrong about the HOW of it. I'm terribly sorry if I spread any harmful misinformation by trying to help people deconstruct anti-fat attitudes, and as always I sincerely invite actual experts in the field to reblog my post with the correct information.

(1) Physiological and performance effects of glycerol hyperhydration and rehydration, Simon van Rosendal et al, DOI 10.1111/j.1753-4887.2009.00254.x I read the abstract not the whole paper I don't have time if the actual paper contradicts me PLEASE let me know so I can amend my post

I keep thinking about how henry cavill had to taper off water for like three days before shooting any shirtless scene in the witcher and how chris evans pretty much did the same thing playing cap, and honestly hearing that full-on broke any sense of attraction I've ever had for that kind of definition on a guy. I'd had no idea that's what it takes, and if that's what it takes then that's not a thing for me. Drink some fucking water, jesus christ

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I can even hear the voice

This was one of the first comic ideas I've had for this fandom. It's been haunting my mind since like September. Anyway.

Doof takes it so normal that theres a regular platypus just walking on the balcony of his 39 floor whenever Perry takes off his hat?