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1.12.18

sweaty palms

a headache

almost a breakdown x4

causes: PTM, tuitions, Monday test 

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Education System: I’ve created educated children ready to go into the world.

Me: You fucked up perfectly good children is what you did. Look at them. They’ve got anxiety

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My reasons for doing things:

1) Spite

2) The Aesthetic

That's it.

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12 Feb 2018

So we were in a train.. idk, someone in the train, who was sitting with us, said, “this is the place sholay was made, before making the part you watch on the TV.”

(in hindi: ek sholey yaha bhi bani thi)

[this dream felt like a déjà vu and I think I thought of checking it in the dream journal when I was half asleep.]

So there was one more part of Sholay.. intresting, I thought and I seemed to believe what he said (cuz I know, in real life, that is a lie lmao). It was 1911, we were sitting in, like a box of train, not exactly a train. It was empty from inside, it was open, had no gates or doors. My mum (I didn.t see her tho) and one more man mentioned above (I didn’t see him either) were sitting with me on the floor near the open door.

I had my face turned around, on the right side (idk what was I looking at), I saw a lady with a small boy, sitting on the broken space of the window, his mother was holding him from the lower waist so that ‘he wont fall’. Because of this I had concluded that she was illiterate.

On my front left hand was maybe a three person family.. I don’t remember it, its blurred.

I was so mad at mom for taking me to this trip, I’ve never been this mad at her before. When the train (more like a box), was running, I saw greenish-yellow fields everywhere and then I heard a train (like the one’s we see now) passing. In a strange way, it relieved me from smth.

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24/9/2017

 I’ve been obsessed with this tumblr aesthetic stuff. So today I dreamt something weird. In my dream, I noticed that my mother is worried for some reason. When I asked her why, dad said, “see, now that winters are approaching, they bring some internal force to us. Which is why we all have some abnormal amount of electric current inside us.”

That, of course, didn’t make any sense. When I was in my room, my mother came to me with some UV light (which was,idk, pink?). she said nothing but told me that there should be enough light in my room.

Nothing made sense in this dream. “Electric current” didn’t make any sense either.

One thing was common, from last 2 days, I’ve been getting some different vibes. The same vibes I got from this dream.

Hopefully, I’ll write about my dreams everyday in this blog, hoping that they make any sense at some point of my life.