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since everyone is "glorifying" daddy issues, and it has became an aesthetich, I'll tell you what this shit is really about. I was 16 when we first met, he was 30, we had short interactions, he was hot, rude but nice to me, and older. He was my type so I started flirting with him, because he already did. Fast forward I was 17 he was 31 we were together, I lied, my parents did not know, he was not a bad person, just older. At first he was sweet and caring, we just got along soooo well, he was everything I was looking for. Then everything has changed, he became controlling, jealous af, after all he became toxic, he knew how to push me away and pull me back for his game, ha wanted me but he did not love me. I started drinking more and more to fill the void he left, when he was still laying beside me, it was hell. I changed and changed for him, hoping to be the perfect girlfriend for him and supporting all his shit. I started drinking pretty heavily when we were on bas terms, because I could not stand being sober and not being enough. I became an alcoholic(or something like that) at the end of our relationship because I coudn't stand the fact that it's over. I loved him, lied for him, I did everything I could just to make him happy, he never hit me, he never used me sexually, he just manipulated me until I broke. We broke up five months ago. We still talk. He slept here last night. I'm drunk again.

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Ill won't stop drawing him lol

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Redraw of that one photo of howdie

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My Howdie drawing from last week

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Jan.02/2016

class: dream

This person was in my dream again. Afterwards we went to a movie theater that was really advertising this movie called “Code: Black”.

I found this bag that looked like mine but it really belonged to some guy named Brian Wu. His dad got mad that his son forgot his bag.

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play-time xD

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Look at my bedman （´・ω・｀） (I have mixed feelings about him)

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SNOW DAY

well now it’s more like brown shit ‘cause I woke up so late

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STILL SNOWING

Okay it’s a big fucking deal here and my camera isn’t doing justice it’s pretty DEEP

It’s really fun watching people attempting to go up and down that hill lol

Even tho I’ll probably slip once I attempt to go outside orz

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa artwork by captainhowdie