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because i liked a girl

for the @loussyficfest

Pairing: Fem Louis / Fem Harry

Rate: Explicit

Word Count: 32,5K

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hello everyone, i've been gone for a while and i know i owe you the last chapter of the ft fic. for those interested, i will be finishing it before the year ends.

as for the video edits, i didn't have anymore inspiration to do them but, with all the music that came out recently, i will pick it up again and start posting during the weekend. i won't be able to have the same consistency with the posts as i did before.

thank you for your support! manifesting that emmy win for ft, jonny and matt 🤞

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rubyjames x honeymoon fades by sabrina carpenter.

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rubyjames x us. by gracie abrams ft taylor swift.

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fellow travelers x i love you, i'm sorry by gracie abrams.

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kate bridgerton x lacy by olivia rodrigo.

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fellow travelers x hopeless romantics by james tw.

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rubyjames x best mistake by ariana grande.

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you have no idea how much i need kanthony to stay with us until the very last season of the series. seeing them happy is like a breath of fresh air to me.

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thinking about lucy and all the things she kept to herself to get their family going, even after losing his son. honestly ep7 along with the final one did her so much justice because we as viewers don't only get the bitter part (which was absolutely understandable) in ep6 or the naiveness from the beginning, we see her vulnerability as she watches tapes of her baby boy with her daughter who's close to giving birth. we see her as a mother but, more importantly, as a powerful women that despite all the tragedy she went through is still holding onto her life (mostly because of her daughter and the unborn grandkid) but i like to think she eventually gets to fall in love again or enjoying her single time and re-discovering herself without the male pov she's been taught to live by.

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your fellow travelers videos are simply so amazing and are giving me life, thank you very much for sharing them! I'd like to request two songs for Hawk/Tim if you don't mind - Too Sweet by Hozier (I think it's fitting given how Hawk is always saying how sweet Tim) and also Hopeless Romantics by James TW, which is very angsty but so good 😭 thank you again! <3

thank you for your words! they are literally my safe place and it's lovely to see people reacting to my videos as well. i've already made an edit with too sweet if you want to check it out, i posted it around the time the song came out. as for the other song i will be posting it soon! :)

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fellow travelers x i miss you, i'm sorry by gracie abrams.

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fellow travelers x opposite by sabrina carpenter.

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“make it easy for me,” tim pleads.

and the thing about it is that hawk knows he has done nothing for tim in the past but make things hard. he told him to lie and cheat and steal, he told him how deep the corruption of washington went and when tim dared to ask for more, hawk shut him out. the tim he picked up off the shower floor felt so far from his skippy and hawk knows tim was infected long before the AIDS got to him. loving hawkins fuller is terminal.

all tim had ever wanted was to make things in the world better and hawk never had any interest in that. not even his wife or children, not even the love of his life.

tim wants to fight, and hawk has no chance but to let him be the soldier he did not raise him to be.

he looks at him with wet eyes that brim from pain, be it from the sickness or the situation. he has that flame in him once again, the same one hawk smothered in the past to prevent him from taking washington head on. hawk doesnt think hes been more sorry in his life than in the moment he laid the paperweight next to tim’s sleeping form.

hawk once thought he was doing that to save tims life. now he wonders if his lying is so good he could convince even himself of falsehoods.

hawk can’t take back the years tim promises he doesnt regret. every decision they made (or hawk made for tim, sorry, sorry, sorry) has led them to now. the words hawk wants to say pile up in his throat, about lucy and about his job and about how much he wants to kiss tim again.

he doesn’t say anything like that. he asks tim not to write, meaning don’t forget i love you, don’t go a second longer without knowing i loved you the moment i saw you, don’t look back for me, don’t stop fighting. don’t wonder about where ive gone, don’t waste a minute of your time thinking about me. don’t look back. i love you, please dont let me say it.

tim smiles and says, “i won’t.” and then he’s gone.

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rubyjames x dark paradise by lana del rey.

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rubyjames x so american by olivia rodrigo.

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i'm never getting over the fact that james drew ruby from memory!!! man was a goner since he walked through that door to bribe her.