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It’s been a minute

He’s happy now n I truly want him to be at his most highest level of euphoria, soo I’m not gone lie I’m trying to be happy for him I guess I’ll never know y he left me y he betrayed me y he abandone me when I needed him the most to step up as a man as father

N I’m trying to be okay with these unanswered questions. I heard that people need to learn to heal without venting n maybe that’s what I need I need to be just left alone n find peace with this within myself

He needed to leave me to find his person soo I guess your welcome😂

Girl I’m not mad at u I’m disappointed u see not even a inch of fuckary but it’s okay even if your not sorry I forgive u but I’ll never trust u or take your word as for him as well I hope he is a stronger man for you n your seed we all stuck together now my kid will be the best big sister to your little boy🤭(my guess)💙💙

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Damn now I gotta fuck a new nigga that don’t deserve this wap

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Money on my mind for sure

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I miss our bond together more then anything

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I straight thought we was using this time to work on ourselves

I feel soo stupid

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I’m loosing weight n my ass is getting fatter N the best part is it’s all for me 😔💔☺️

Help me use my pain for gains never skip leg day 🥹

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my sexual fantasy is for someone to look at me and feel that with me they have everything they want

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At then end of the day I’m stuck looking dumb for the rest of my life I might as well get some dick out of it

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Suicide is always on my mind cause people just keep failing me like no Mather what I do people In my life fail so what’s the fucking point 

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Maybe I should just jump

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I’m broken

I’m broken off the fact u feel like U can’t talk to me. That what’s really hurt me the most. All this time we spent all the memories we shared. Meant nothing for u to move on n not even consider our family working towards n fighting for nothing. Just new pussy n conversation beat our love. I took u in like u were my own blood I gave u shelter when u had no where to go. Moving fast was a mistake but I don’t regret it. I would do it over 100 times to get it right. I miss u I wish we can cry together I wish I knew what I did to push u thus far from us . On top of everything I feel like I failed my daughter I couldn’t give her the life she deserved. But Ik I’m not perfect but I wish u stop acting like I’m the only person in the wrong here. The difference between us I cleaned your shit n saw a bigger picture in the future for us something we called our home all our plans now done separately in tears I wish u see n feel my pain right now. Understand how fucked up I am rn cause of u

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Y is this man that disloyal

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What I gotta do yo get some full transparency all I asked of him literally all I asked

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Cheers to another year around the sun 🥂

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I try to be all heartless because I’m hurting from brokenness but i can’t do it some how I bring the energy of love n divergence n it’s always vibed out

Idk I’m just a lover girl

But I’m trying to be a hoe lol 😉😶

Slut me out n invite me to the cook out cause I’m a hungry hoe 😅

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No matter how many new dudes come around I still wish he would just even consider trying again 

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I wish I could have my family back without being completely committed I just miss waking up next to him

N taking walks after dinner 🥲