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Well-

I came here to write it out, and now that I’m here I don’t even know how to start.

Today I don’t like me. If you know me, or are anything like me, you understand this. I have days where I’m irritable, frustrated, impatient, and maybe even... pouty. I like to throw fits usually. I complain and make my life seem more difficult than it is. So this is me ~NOT doing that.

So instead of ranting, I will just say I am grateful for the life I have created. I have manifested some amazing (and interesting) things to fruition, and I can and will continue to do that.

BUT for now I’m pouty and just want to be pet & told I’m pretty and I don’t want to be practice-vegan I JUST WANT PIZZA---

/Because of all of ^that, I must take care. I need to step back & really look at my problems.

1. I have NO energy.

Fix: YOU CAN’T GO VEGAN COLD TURKEY(ha.) Up the protein and the vitamins. Check on Hoshimotos (bc that’s what I have been suspecting/ these hippies think I have). DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Stop complaining- just do it.

2. I’m lonely.

Sort of Answer: I’m always fucking lonely. (I was a twin & I believe losing a twin in utero does something to ya- look it up-)  I’m not actually lonely, I’m bored with myself & I need to snap the fuck out of it. I have everything I need in life, the fact that my “problems” are I’m bored/lonely is bull. I’m fuckin’ spoil’t- (Thanks me & every one that’s loved/supported me)

3. What happened to my drive??? Where did it drive off to???

Good question, I have no idea: Stress, moving, PTSD, life, yaddah yaddah. It didn’t really go anywhere, I just get too lazy to use it. I’m scared to fail so I bitch out. (really need to stop that) That being said, I have some ideas & I will be providing you with hints & info as I go. There will be passion & radical self love & funnies & art & all the weird shit I love- feel free to participate. 

If you’re reading this still I love ya && I appreciate your existence-

thanks for keeping up.

-sk

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For my lovely ladies (and gentlemen)---

You are amazing and you deserve the best.

You are more than what you’ve been through.

You are stronger than your problems.

You are light and hope and free to love yourself.

From me to you:

http://foreverconscious.com/15-self-care-questions-ask-feeling-low

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If I’ve never told you this before, I have this strange obsession with Post Secrets. I collect the books, I leave my own secrets, and I check nearly every Sunday for the new ones added. 

Check it out for yourself, and read how it started.

"Sometimes when we think we are keeping a secret, that secret is actually keeping us. -Frank"

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This is by far one of my favorite podcasts. I can’t even explain to you every reason, just trust me. 

If you’re worried about the way the world is for all of us right now-- this is something that could give you hope for a change. Maybe not now, or even soon, but eventually. 

We only need a revolution.

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Now Playing: https://open.spotify.com/track/5eeMft4YZx0Xdf9yJPNZJY

It’s crazy how fast we change.

For the better, and for the worse.

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I have felt like this more often than not. And it’s actually a really funning thing because that’s what lead me to the word sonder in the first place. The word didn’t exist, but the feeling did. So John Koenig wrote a book, The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows, to define these illusive feelings that we try to withhold for some reason or another. Being able to relate & define some of my emotions has helped me in realizing that I need to be able to communicate. I have to be able to share how I feel, and not feel guilty. I have to be able to feel my emotions, and not try to rationalize them, but understand them. 

Even if they don’t make sense or you don’t want to feel them, your feelings are the most natural part about you. It’s always a good idea to take a second to feel, think, then react. 

Trust me, I’ve learned the hard way-

On that note: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkoML0_FiV4

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Hiking “The M” & Drinking Horse on December 1, 2017.

This was my first hike and Mary kicked my ass. The M is half mile of pure hell. I felt like throwing myself off on several occasions, but the view at the end was so worth all of my tantrums on the way up.

My phone froze and died @ Drinking Horse, so I was forced to completely fall in love with the sunset without proof that it existed. It was during the phases before a full moon & she was STUNNING. We arrived at the top just in time to see the sun fall on one side and the moon to rise in another and nothing compares to that yet. 

If there’s such thing as soul searching, this is it.

I’m finding soul everywhere here-

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For those of you who wonder how the hell I know too much about your life---

Nah, really this is a good site I got from a professor in college that I use. You can enter in your birth information & get a specific reading/ natal chart (if you’re real hard-core like me).

PS: I am an Aries- 4/9/94, duh. Very much: fire, independent, hardheaded, feral, particular. --With a dash of anxiety.

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“What’s even IN Montana????”

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Yes, I randomly moved to Montana-

---just to clarify because by the questions lately it seems as if I suck at letting everyone know what’s up.

My best friend Mary (aka Kidd) moved out here a few months ago and offered up a spot in her life. So, I was pretty done with Des Moines for a minute and needed a break. AND here I am.

 I just started my first day at this beautiful place -> https://www.facebook.com/nutshellnaturals/ <- anndddd of course, my “hippie” ass loves it. It has everything I love in one store: organics, food, tea, chocolate, & so much to learn.

 I am applying elsewhere also: bars, art galleries, clothing stores, coffee shops, just trying to decide:

What do I want to do?

I’ve spent most of my life working whatever made me money in the moment. But this place is so beautiful, I want to enjoy ALL of it. I think it’s time I find a way to be creative about it----

Alas, I will keep you updated on my jobs & try to share with you all that I’m learning! 

*Here’s that connecting part... TAKE ADVANTAGE! 

I’m sharing with you health secrets, fun facts because you know I love to, and interesting things that could be beneficial to you!!!!!

Be looking out for things along the lines of:

Recipes (mostly vegan/alt diet bc my friends/Bozeman is full of freaks)

Dealing with being Vegan By Association & how much of a difference it makes

Things about Bozeman (Did you know that cows outnumber us out here????) & all the pictures. 

My struggles, thoughts, questions, or rants-- you know. 

All of the bests: Coffeeshops, trails, bars, people, etc. Anything along the way. 

Past travels-- I.E. New York, Colorado, Iowa, yaddah. All the places from then to now.

A whole lot of self-love. For me. For you. Beyond bubble baths & “treating yourself”; I’m talking ‘How I quit smoking cigarettes’ , ‘My boyfriend is 1,ooo miles away, HOW DO I NOT DIE W/OUT CONSTANT LOVE&AFFECTION’ , & my goals & what I’m doing to achieve them.

Also the best stuff for bubble baths & the things to treat yourself right: (Teas, books, podcasts, quotes, & puppies)

&& ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS feel free to share, ask, try, comment, whatever. That is the point! 

I hope this doesn’t suck for both of us

-sk

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Nah, I know you're down to do something profound Put a stick in the ground to prove you was around No amount of time will ever be considered enough I'm trying to tether it up and live forever through love We're not lucky, but we're fortunate I'm pretty sure of it

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So-

I already suck at this, and you’ll hear me say that a lot. I am behind a few days from my original start date. But, better late than never, right?? 

The reason I have brought you here is because you either give a shit about my life or you need a little extra love and thought, or maybe you’re just a creep & I appreciate you. Either way, I will try to keep you up on my travels, as they unfold. My adventures, thoughts, blabber, & of course all the photos I take too often. I’m hoping this will allow us to not just connect, but communicate. 

You may not agree with what I’m doing, we may not talk anymore, & you don’t have to resume checking if you’re sick of me. But I'm reaching for more. 

So those of you wondering ‘What the fuck is she doing with her life????’

This is it:

I’m living it. I’m seeing things some people never get to. I’m wandering into some beautiful that you may never know. I just want to share with you, because I want you to be able to share with me. I want to connect myself and others in so many ways, and I’m hoping this will be the start of much, much more. 

Think of this as my sort of journal.

-sk

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And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?

Rumi

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The clock of life is wound but once And no man has the power To tell just when the hands will stop On what day-- or what hour. Now is the only time you have So live it with a will Don't wait until tomorrow The hands may then be still.

HERMAN ENDLER 

Encino, California

I found this on a laminated cut out from a newspaper that my deceased grandmother had saved in her writing desk.