schizoetic - Tumblr blog

[schizoetic]

You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

[schizoetic]

Self love is not always easy. It can be challenging and not fun at the time, but your future self will thank you!

Chibird store | Positive pin club | Instagram

[schizoetic]

I don't always believe my every thought anymore but sometimes I still wonder if there was any truth to my delusions even if there was just a little bit. Absolutely everything that crossed my mind couldn't have been false. When it comes to what I think I always take it with a grain of salt.

[schizoetic]

Psychosis memory #60: talking to myself in a corner resulting in people being scared of me. I didn't see the big deal though. I just wanted to hear how my thoughts sounded.

[schizoetic]

My experience with antipsychotics has been beyond life changing. I've done an unexpected 180. These days they feel like "nothing" pills in the sense I'm not noticing big alterations anymore. But I am still super cautious of not allowing symptoms to surface again. My mind plays some horrifying tricks on me and one of my biggest priorities is remembering this. I never used to want any sort of help but now receiving it is vital to me.

[schizoetic]

Psychosis memory #59: nurses telling me I'll regret how I was while in psychosis

[schizoetic]

One of the biggest hurdles I had to get over after psychosis was the idea that my time was wasted the entire time I was psychotic.

[schizoetic]

They say I'm not my illness

But where do I stop and it begin?

Who am I without it and who would I have been if I never got sick?

They try to erase it from my mind... but like a tree and its leaves there is no separation.

[schizoetic]

I wonder how much of my life I black out but I've accepted it.

shoutout to everyone with forget disorders (adhd, DID/osdd, ptsd/c-ptsd, asd, dementia/alzeheimers, schizophrenia, other psychotic disorders, major depressive, chronically ill/phys disabled people with brain fog, people with long-Covid, natural memory degradation, and etc.)

[schizoetic]

Psychosis memory #59: trashing my apartment to show the entire world just how displeased I was with its evil ways. I thought everyone was watching me

[schizoetic]

Now that I've taken antipsychotics for a while everyday I'm enjoying being able to communicate and do the things I used to love. It is a relief to get back to me.

[schizoetic]

@thirteen-31 for film vibes

[schizoetic]

Accurate. Psychosis is dreaming with stigma and it shouldn't be this way

if you *really* want to try and understand psychosis, I always offer the experience of dreaming.

Almost everyone on the planet dreams, and I find it to be a perfect comparison for psychosis... Anything can happen in a dream and you don't question it. This is your reality. If you're suddenly an astronaut, you don't typically question it. If there's suddenly a dragon, you don't typically question it. A monster can crawl out of the bushes or a stranger can appear in your house. Anyone can be someone they're not. Danger can come from anywhere. A pleasant dream can easily become a nightmare.

The only difference is that you wake up in the morning and it's over. And most people don't judge you for it. When you "wake up" from psychosis, there's often shame and people judge you.

[schizoetic]

Delusions mold with facts seamlessly

a delusion does not mean a person should ever be dismissed, brushed off or disregarded.

delusions are beliefs that are extremely hard to shake regardless of how self aware we are.

a delusional person is not quirky, not rambling nothingness for the sake of attention, they are serious.

from believing youre dead or dying (cotard's) to believing your halucinations were real, these things are terifying for us. theyre real for us.

just because you know its not true doesnt mean we're making it up. we deserve to be heard, listened to and helped just like you and your issues.

delusional is not and should never be nor should it ever have been an insult. its a serious issue. take it seriously.

[schizoetic]

Me everytime I relapse and my illness reintroduces itself

[schizoetic]

It hurts for people to laugh at you when you have symptoms of a mental illness. But it feels good to laugh at yourself. I hope you understand what I mean when I say this

[schizoetic]

Psychosis memory #58: being unable to show emotion