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that one post that’s like i like seeing my mutual in my notifications bc that means they aren’t mad at me etc etc idk

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clip my nail

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not to be like cray but expensive doll looking for is so Too many choices but also not enough choices and like i keep tdhinking about the prospect of turning doll into a human version of one ofmy ocs but unfortunately like the vast majority of them(oc) have unique facial features thta would not really be applicable to the babyface huge eye pouty lip Extremely small upturned nose mold that like a lot of bjd head sculpts happen to be and it’s AAAAARGSHHSHGSG but also i guess i don’t . like i should stop stressing about making a PERFECT REPLICA OF an OC IN DOLL FORM BC THTA JUST IS NOT GONNA HAPPEN unless ….. but what if ….. i need someone to slap me in the face and stop me from looking at expensive doll the moment i gain a. small bit of mone y LIKE BITCH YOU SHOULD BE SAVING WTF ARE U DOINDGGGG but doll . but doll. doll what if really big expensive doll.

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suck

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idc what you’re into what i care about is coffee smoking coffee smoke in the morning i’m doing that . nice day. my screen time whent up 30 percent this past week thqts so embarrassing

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first couple hours i’m like i love my job hehe :D and then i’m 4 hours in with no break and wishing evil shadow skull would come murderer me

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not even gonna petty triggered ramble about work i’m just gonna think of all the tobacco and out of city motel room i can enjoy after Paycheck happens

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one of my favorite hobbies is picking up new game engines and fiddling with them a little bit Enough to make myself go Oh yeah i’m an expert genius game person the world is my oyster and then getting stuck and being too scared of interaction of any sort to ask a dedicated forum for help and then getting frustrated and telling myself i’m too stupid dumb idiot to learn new things (untrue always) and then repeating I have done this like several times with several engines like please. or if i do learn how to do stuff i get burnt out before i can actually make that much art needed for the actaul thing. test room hell. honestly i don’t know why i put so much pressure on myself to Do everything awesome perfect bc in reality when games are good (not always) it’s usually like 1728747383 people working on it and dividing the art and the coding and storying and whatever else into manageable groups or whatever So really i should give myself more niceness. courtesy. i would be down to switch brains slash skills with a programmer who can’t slash doesn’t want to draw for a week or two just so we can Get some work done. what i should’ve done is cloned myself when i was younger and fed it an alternate skill set so there could be two of me but i would most likely end up in some sort of incestuous narcissistic self love affair . i say all of this like people can’t have multiple skill sets i think it’s just a cope to further procrastinate learning a new thing. much like the idea of having a bdsm esque dynamic with a coder in which i keep them in a little cage under my desk and they code for me and i do them art or vice versa. please stop typing immediately

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done being crazy time to start my Beautiful Day

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i should be sent to the psych ward tbh or perhaps the dyke ward

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Ciel - 1/6 Scale by Cerberus Project

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Do not bully the maids.

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honestdly id love to get into the mindset of Its Just Stuff but unfortunately i remembered i sold my monchhichis on mercari and gotten irrationally sad about it since Waking up. and like i’ll think about all the stuff i sold some of which had a lot of sentimental value and where is that money i got from that now. certainly not HERE probably went to like fast food or drugs or rent because everything sucks i just hope all the stuff i’ve sold has gone to a good home and is loved and not like in a landfill somewhere Sigh

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genuine autistic rage at this lps neck plug

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i honest to fuck *go to go outside to avoid whatever that was

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fantasizes about drawing replies to asks instead of actually doing it i’ve had a couple thta have been just sitting there and i feel like half lazy fuck and also half i should probably only do it when i’m feeling it so i don’t end up evil but also maybe i’ll never feel like it and Shut up bitch

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there should be an app like grindr but for meeting someone who will go somewhere and play pokemon cards and drink alcohol and smoke cigarettes with me i think that would be a fun time