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u ever see someone with extremely fucked up views (or actions) and think wowww if a couple of things in my life went the tiniest bit differently that would have been me

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hello! my fundraising shop is now live! ✨ some listings include:

pink in the night

work song zine

signed copies of IYHM (international friends, this is your chance!)

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100% of the proceeds will be going to Anera (humanitarian aid for Palestine) and Masjid al-Rabia (a BIPOC-led, LGBTQ+ affirming organization for marginalized Muslims) 💖 my shop closes november 30th, and the donation will be made once i receive store revenue - more info can be found on the about page! thank you!

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don't leave me!

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lately, i’ve been researching love-languages. i know mine is words of affirmation. mom was always the kind that said, “you know i never praise you for the sake of it”. maybe that’s why i want to cry everytime someone professes something tender to me; it weighs so heavily on me because i never learned tenderness to be an absentminded act. like praises that don’t come haphazardly, the weight of anything gentle feels like cement. dad is sixty now, he sleeps on the opposite side of the house, mom said when everything fell apart that he was going to find a path that would make him happier. 𝘩𝘦’𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘱𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵’𝘴 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥. my sister has her person, she’s worked a lot on her anger, he meets her with a hand on her back. i think she’s so angry because mom is so sad, she doesn’t know what to do with all the sadness that seeps out of her. i understand it more now, even if they don’t ask you to come along, you’re left following old breadcrumbs; incredulous to when they say 𝘸𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘴𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵. mom and dad never kissed on the mouth, i can’t remember it, anyway. i know now what it’s like to grow up in a household with disseminations of fragmented love. it’s not that there was never love, but that the love i saw was performative. mom used to cry when my sister and i would go to sleep without apologies, i know in her house, apologies came in the form of quiet bonding in trauma’s they poured into wineglasses. it’s not that the home i had was, or is devoid of love, it’s more that all the love i have ever seen is performative; 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘮 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘦, 𝘥𝘢𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬-𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘵, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘮 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨. it’s like that, with fragments of love.

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧/𝐟𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 (12. 18. 21)

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ronancetober day 2 - vampire/werewolf!

I know I’m pushing the timeline I KNOW I KNOW but look, becca made fluff!! that is so wild. thank you @lionydoorin for the prompts and this whole fantastic idea <333

800 words of mushy halloween-ness under the cut!

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“nancy has options” “also robin” “speaking of options”

RONANCE WORD ON THE STREET 🫶🫶

she’s really carrying ronance nation rn

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from this ask polly

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God I fucking love things made by people that are friends

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picking my nose

quick! if you were a player character in a video game what would your idle animation be

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I just want them to have a break, so here's a soft ronance scene.

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you are in love with me (threat)

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Ok so the thing about reading like books which are "predictable" is that I, a story enjoyer, go completely bonkers about it bc its like Enrichment in my Enclosure. A scene parallels another earlier scene between different characters thus serving to highlight the differences in their views and priorities???? A line makes me think "hmmm I bet that's gonna be relevant later" ends up being relevant later????? I am a tiger chewing ice cubes out of a pumpkin. I'm so so happy. Please foreshadow more things. Throw the completely anticipateable plot beats at me like catnip mousies!!!!!

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name one good heterosexual reason that explains

a) Robin going from thinking of Nancy as a total priss to stammering and rambling when she’s around her

and

b) Nancy going from being completely annoyed by Robin’s mere presence and rolling her eyes at the stuff she says to smiling like an idiot when she asks robin if they’re friends “officially”

oh right, you can’t.

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I think Robin and Nancy should kiss. Just a lil smooch. Just a gay little kiss. Just a little gay kiss on the mouth. I think they deserve it.

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exactly

oh its the religious trauma innit