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[seciqua]

31th of October.

Sobrang blessed ko talaga to have you. You bring things I never thought I wanted, like hidden Christmas wishes na akala ko di matutupad. Parang magic kasi when you’re around, everything seems easier, lighter. You have this way of making the simplest things feel extraordinary.

Hindi ko usually hilig tumanggap, pero when it’s from you, iba talaga. You give without asking, effortlessly. You make it seem like it’s second nature to you, na kahit di ko hingin, you already know what I need. Your touch is calming, like it’s meant to soothe every worry away. With you, ang dali ng lahat, parang sunlight na hindi masakit sa mata. You’re a reminder of every bright thing in my life. I watch you in awe, like a kid wishing on a falling star.

You make me want to be selfish, gusto ko ako lang ang may alam kung gaano ka ka-special. The way you laugh at silly things, yung mga quirks mo, and how you hate being in the spotlight but still, you let me in. It’s like you have this hidden world that you’re willing to share only with me. I want you so bad, sobra. I’m willing to let go of everything for something only we can have. Selfish man pakinggan, pero di naman masama lalo na kung lahat tungkol sayo ay parang miracle. Out of billions of people, ikaw lang ang nagbibigay sakin ng lahat ng kailangan ko.

But it’s not just about that. Hindi lang kita gusto dahil we could be perfect together. Even if you say na mahirap, alam kong ikaw lang ang gusto kong ipaglaban. Not pushy, promise, pero ikaw lang kasi nagpapakita na posible pala. To win something worth fighting for, kahit isang beses lang sa lifetime. You always say you’re not good enough. Na hindi ka pang-seryoso, kasi lahat ng lumapit sayo nasasaktan mo. You see yourself as difficult to love, pero para sakin, you’re a challenge I want to take on. I swear, we can make it work. Hindi ko sinasabing walang mali, pero tatanggapin ko lahat.

I could teach you how to love well, and I’d always watch you shine. Tuturuan kita ng mga kailangan mong malaman, basta handa ka rin matuto. It doesn’t have to be now. Gusto ko lang malaman mo na ikaw ang gusto ko balang-araw. I hope you’re willing to wait, for me.

Minsan iniisip ko, out of all the moments we could’ve missed, ito na yata yung tamang panahon. Yung mga missed chances, let’s not let them go to waste. I want to experience everything with you, the ups and downs, the wins and losses. Kasi lahat ng yun, mas worth it pag ikaw ang kasama. I’ll carry everything that is you, and I’ll trust you like no one else. Pinky promise. Bitbitin natin ang lahat ng meron tayo, because I know it’s you and me against the world.

I’m so sorry, baby. I wasn’t able to write you a letter on October 28, 29, and 30 because I was really busy. 😿