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dunno how to make animations but i did it anyway

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SAM WINCHESTER

Supernatural | S2 EP14 : Born Under a Bad Sign

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some Sam side profile studies

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Sam and Dean used to sleep all tangled up together, well into Dean’s teens, never thinking much of it, until John finally said they were too old. 

Ten years later, and the motel they find in the middle of nowhere only has singles available. They get stuck sharing a bed. No big deal. Except they didn’t anticipate how they reach for each other like vines in the night. 

When Dean wakes up, it’s to the memory of being 15, with a little brother snuggled up to him, arms and legs thrown in with Dean’s, head ducked under his chin, making Dean feel important and strong and fearless. Nothing can get Sam if Dean already has him. And it’s not like he has the heart to move Sammy. God knows he needs the sleep anyway. 

When Sam wakes up, it’s the most content he’s felt since before Jess died. Since before Stanford even, if he’s being honest with himself. He’s not this Sam, he’s warm and safe and small—so small, because who on earth could possibly be bigger than his big brother? He should maybe move. Grown siblings don’t tend to become one being when they sleep. But. Well. It’s nice. And Dean probably needs the sleep anyway.

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what are your fav kripke era bottom!sam fics? :)

I gotta admit I’m not reading enough lately and have not properly kept any lists for fics I like and why, so I might have to edit/add to this when I finally get around to sorting through my ao3 history. Also multiple of these coincidentally are set around the same times in canon, sorry.

I’ll always recommend this one, it might genuinely be my favourite wincest fic:

i don’t smoke by brotherfucking (lovedhands)

With some plot:

Suffer Does the Wolf by oscuridad (baptistes)

Not With a Leap, but a Series of Staggers by nxyocity

What Went Wrong Yesterday by SinnamonSpider, stormbrite 

Graveyard in the bone white afternoon by passengerseatsam

Smut/crack

August Haze by alwaysthrowsscissors

The Incest Police by urchinesque

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I think about this photo a lot

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prev post. oh no i tripped and dropped my link to the bluray version of the pilot with the original soundtrack and no lines cut!!

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So something I've been thinking about-

Sam has to face Dean's death far sooner than Dean does his, and Sam is the one (between the brothers) to make the first deal.

In Faith (1.12) Dean is on his way out. He's dying, he WILL die. Imminently.

He tries to put a brave face on it, strong for Sammy, but Sam is in pieces and isn't buying it. He's terrified. So you see Sam go into research problem solving mode. He's researching hearts, heart health, heart surgeries. He's calling everyone he knows including their dad, looking for a supernatural out. If Meg had showed up right then he'd have made a deal with her.

As it is, he finds a faith healer. This is perfect. Dean is saved and Sam's faith is confirmed and rewarded. Of course its not as simple as that. And we see that the reality of it makes Dean sick, reinforcing his self loathing. Sam is equally disturbed. But he was willing to overlook it. And he might feel bad, but he absolutely would do the same thing again for Dean.

This is the first deal.

Its unintentional, but this is first time one trades a life for the other.

Two episodes later Sam sees Dean shot to death. A premonition he only barely manages to prevent. His fear unlocking an entire new ABILITY in his desperation to protect Dean.

Soon Sam will be communicating with Dean's displaced spirit in a hospital, fighting viciously with his father and be willing to move heaven and earth to bring Dean back to himself.

And I think its interesting that the first big deal and moment of loss is considered to be Sam's (first) death. And it is absolutely huge, I'm not trying to diminish it in anyway at all. And the responsibility for Sam's life has been on Dean since he was FOUR, and it gets unbelievably worse when John says scratch that actually kill him. Dean never stops worrying about Sam. Ever. (Arguably, even in Heaven.)

But Dean's ghosts have been stacking up on Sam since the very beginning.

And I guess, even though I hate it, things turning out the way they did in the barn does make sense.

Dean is terrified of being alone. Sam leaving him is always the worst possible outcome, the big Fear, and he does insane things to prevent that.

But, from the very first, Sam is the one left deal with his corpse.

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for wincest wednesday, some wincest fics with less than 1000 hits that I think you should read:

Cropped and Complicated - cianfries (5k, Explicit)

“I think someone left a shirt in the dryer,” Dean says. Sam’s eyes track the line of his page before lifting to meet Dean’s. “Oh, no,” he mutters. His cheeks flush from their usual sleep-deprived gray to a soft, dusty pink. “That’s mine.”

Only in the right hands - ferrera (4k, Explicit)

Another Playthings coda. Sam's drunk, Dean can't keep his mouth shut.

Last stop - orphan_account (4k, Teen)

Dean, Sam, an open road, a cheap motel, forever and a bit more to go.

Hold your hands upon my head - peculiarstate (28k, Teen)

six summers. 1994-1999.

Back door run - peculiarstate (23k, Mature)

An ache long-borne.

Malaise-era engineering - idiotbrothers (3k, Mature)

Dean should be allowed to get inside Sam like he does the car, root around for the exact source of every problem.

Let me be weak/sweet plague - hiljainen (3k, Explicit)

Crying in the dark and wrapped up in fever heat with the phone shaking in his hand, damp with sweat pressed to the side of his face, gasping are you there Sammy I’m sorry I’m sorry but I need you can you come I’m so sorry I’m scared I can’t see I’m alone I need, I need, can you help me please Sammy please.

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  ◎[‿]◎ ★~(◡ω⊙✿) (x)

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1.06 - “Skin”

Sam: Where is my brother? Shapeshifter!Dean: I am your brother.

7.06 - “Slash Fiction”

Sam: Dean? Leviathan!Dean: I’m not your brother.

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Dean Forester in “Gilmore Girls”  1.05 Cinnamon’s Wake

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pathetic obsessed top!dean is so delicious and makes all the sense in the world. dean with his face buried in sam’s neck, whimpering and growling like a dog in rut and sam’s overstimulated and he’s squirming and hissing and trying to push dean away, but it only makes dean fuck him harder

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cannot believe people think this is an alpha.

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“why are there so many wincest fics on ao3?” is like saying “why are there so many sharks in the ocean?” idk maybe cause that’s literally their house and you’re just visiting