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the sjm universe effect

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Me blasting off, back on my bs

~if u kno, u kno 🤪

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It’s really fucked up that I get disappointed when I get my period because it means I’m not skinny enough.

It’s like I can recognize how fucked up that is but also…. I don’t care I just want to be thin.

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Hi it’s me back on my bullshit 😜😒

Lets be honest we all took a break off tumblr for a couple months because we were having a long binge episode and called it failed ✨recovery✨

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Me af 😩

*comes online*

*reblogs 30 things within 5 minutes*

*fucks off again*

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I want to run away. Just completely disappear, tell nobody, and become someone entirely new. I can start my new life with my favourite and best person I ever met. I wanted to romanticize things with my best person. I wanted to visit museums where I can dress in pleated short skirts and blazers, be coy and mysterious enough that everywhere I go people are intrigued and charmed by my mere existence, only to vanish as quickly as I arrived. I want to be known yet unknown. Leave behind my past so I have enough secrets to fuel a thousand rumours about who I am. Maybe that's good material for being lonely, but is that not how all the best people live and die?

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r e b l o g (i f)

food consumes every thought

you feel heavy and just. so fucking disgusting.

you want to feel the hunger

gaining weight is one of your biggest fears

you want to be that friend who’s perfect

you just want it all to melt off right now.

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✨repost to get over your weight plateau tonight💫

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Hiiiiiii friends ❤️

I’m back.

During Christmas, my fave time of year, I let myself enjoy the foods, cookies, etc. I stopped counting calories religiously.

I went from 110 to about 118 ugh. I’m struggling to get back to 110. I’m currently 114. Can’t believe how much I gained in just one month of relaxed eating. Gross.

While I’m happy that I could enjoy the holidays, definitely regretting it now. My ability to fast all day has gotten harder and my body craves snacks in the evening again. Trying to work through it.

I don’t look terrible, but I definitely am not as thin as I want to be. I look better in clothes than I do without 🤢

Back on Tumblr to connect with my ana friends. Hoping to be reinspired and get to my ugw of 100.

Sending love and light to you all!! xx

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does everybody agree to avoid speaking about THE binge of Christmas and New Year??

'cause same

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heyyy,

anyone who still an active eating for eating disorder, weight loss etc.. please reblog! will follow ❤️

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sorry bro can’t go out tonight. i’m stuck in an eternal state of melancholy

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hi! i know i said i was gonna try and get into recovery but i’m spiraling again because i ✨gained weight✨

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December 2019 —-> December 2020

Same me, just 67 lbs lighter 😍✨

Feels soooo good

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