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secretress · 18 days ago

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❝𝐏𝐀𝐂: 𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞? 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐡.❞

What are you? (Detailed).

Masterlist.

Author's note,

I did this reading for myself and it healed my heart. I thought I could do the same for you.

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Pile I.

There is a child riding his bike to school each morning. In these mornings, it is pouring rain, and each time he makes it to his school building, it thunders badly. Each time, each morning, each day, he gets saved by the same route he took. Each time this route is cleaned and taken care of, but on a Sunday morning, it was closed off by a falling tree that was hit by thunder. This child had a bad feeling in his tummy about going to school, but his mother insisted. He begged his mother to stay home, even cried about it which was unusual for the resilient child. But nonetheless, the mother did not listen to him, scolded him, and so he went out in the rain on his bike and rode to school. Each movement he made riding to his school building made his tummy worse, and his breath hitched. His mind told him to stop, but his mother's scolding scared him, so he ignored it, after all, it was just a stomachache and nothing more. As he gets closer to his school building, thunder hits right in front of him, swerving his tires with a screeching sound—his heart is beating fast, adrenaline entering his body, and as he looks at his angle, he is reminded of his mother scolding again. It was in this moment, he had a choice: listen or follow his own guide. Follow.

Follow your intuition, follow the inner voice that has been leading you since you were a kid. Follow them, follow them, they hold the key to the fruits of labor, they know you, they know all of you—they love you. Do you love them? Do you care enough to bear that, to show them a new world? To help craft their world into inner peace? To show them something special, to be their mentor as they helped you in another lifetime? To cater to their every whim, to make them feel unique and to put yourself down? Do you prefer to be with them all the time because you are afraid of challenging yourself to become better? Do you like hurting yourself for them because you are too scared of getting to know yourself and finding out your worth is deemed by how many people talk to you? Do you like shutting down and breaking the bond you seem to create each time you meditate or journal things? Do you prefer it if you were friends with every single person in a village rather than with yourself?

The people you hang out with are those that take without giving. They are the people who are taking pieces of your soul that you keep rebuilding when angst appears. Each person that you know, except those who love the color red or associate themselves with the color, is not your friend or someone you should speak with. They don’t mean well and you already knew that, so why didn’t you listen to me? You have a lot of love to give, a lot, and I don’t mean that lightly—your heart is so warm that a red heart is bursting into flames, and the flames are instantly transformed into hearts. Someone in your family used to surround themselves with red or gold but has or will pass away; they mean the world to you, and you have been hanging out with the wrong people as a coping mechanism. Subconsciously though, you put yourself into red to cope.

Red is affiliated with danger, a warning, anger, and violence, but deep in your heart, you have made it into intense love, passion, devotion, warmth, and peace. In your world, red is peaceful and unique and it just has to mean something. And it does, each color represents others’ experiences and the love (good or bad) they have received. And in this world, it was good and cherished, but now that you have lost or will lose them, your mind is subconsciously holding control of what red meant to you and rebelling because of fear. You need to let go of your fear, or you will let these people steal all of your soul. Stop rebuilding what your soul used to be, and leave red. Leave everything about it and make another red. When they pass or when you visit them (their grave, urn, a memory, etc) tell them about the new red you made with their memory, your experience, and who you are now.

Masterlist.

Pile II.

Trigger warning: dark themes.

A man is staring at himself in a mirror. His reflection is blurry, though there is something staring right back at him. What is staring back at him isn’t who he wants to be, isn’t what he thought he looked like, and doesn’t feel like him. Something feels incredibly wrong. Who’s that staring back at me, he wonders but never does anything about it. Throughout the day, he feels another presence peering down at him as he reads the Bible, but the cross turns upside down, and something breathes heavily on his neck. It sounded like a demonic laugh. Who’s that staring back at me, he wonders but never does anything about it. As the day goes on, these thoughts linger in the back of his mind, rooted deep in his noggin, begging to be taken care of and have everything solved, but he never does anything about it. What was that staring at him? Who was that? What was that? Did it have any harmful intentions with me? These thoughts lingered rapidly and started to intensify within him, yet again, he never did anything about it.

Let him wonder what those thoughts are about; after all, this is a false reality he created within his mindscape when things became hard. Yet a mindscape should be your comfort area. Why is your mindscape a torturous area where you were bullied to death, where you allowed others to step over you when you got bullied, where you did everything wrong, where—where—WHERE—

Your mind is your greatest sin. Your mind has stopped being your friend. Your mind sees you as unholy, and you must be fixed. You are the reflection, you are—what’s wrong? You are what’s wrong, y—.

Each time I try to channel your reading, your inner thoughts become crazy and change the storyline of what you are supposed to hear. What is hidden? What are you hiding from yourself? What are you keeping harshly to your heart? What makes you feel the need to sabotage everything for yourself? Do you crave this feeling, the nagging sensation to sabotage—”the world would be a better place if everyone sabotaged each other, oh fuck, it would be fun.”

Your obsession, this obsession, this mindfuck that you do with yourself is obnoxious. It’s pathetic. You’re being pathetic with yourself. Is it hurting your feelings that I am telling you to get a grip? Good. You need to get a grip on yourself and reveal what you are hiding from yourself. But then again, I could tell you, would you read it? No.

VII of cups.

You’re being sloppy with yourself, you are not allowing yourself to move forward. How can you expect opportunities in your life just because you received the Seven of cups? That’s not even for you. That’s not even what the card means in your case. You want opportunities coming your way with this mindset, how can that be? Would you want to act that way, yeah, the way your mind is right now, with the people you genuinely care for? Do you think they will love you as you love them? You think they will even allow that around them? That crazy toxicity around them. You think they want you to even feel that crap? You think they are going to think it’s okay? And I don’t care that you don’t care about what others think about you. Great, then why are you reading this? If you don’t care about what others think about you, why are you reading this pile? You obviously care and were drawn to this in the first place. Another part of you just knows something is wrong and must be fixed.

You cannot control every little thing about yourself, or else you will rebel against yourself as you are doing right now and cause yourself pain. “An eye for an eye” appeared in my mind, and the same can be said with how you treat yourself. You believe in justice and how others should be hurt just as they did to the same person; you believe someone is unworthy of your presence if they disrespect you completely. These are fine because these are your beliefs based on what you went through, and no one should judge you based on what you went through. But I am not here to compliment you on the work you did to yourself. You are supposed to work on yourself, not shame yourself, not judge, not humiliate, not—not become your own demon.

Did you like becoming this self-obsessed, self-hating, and controlling person with yourself because you didn’t accomplish what you wanted? Did you like diminishing your worth for this materialistic aspect of your life? Did you like diminishing your entire existence because you failed in something you worked so hard to learn? Did you like ruining your concept of what you should have been for an ounce of anger and disgust with yourself because you got rejected by someone? Did you like it? Did it make you happy? Are you happy?

Do you feel happy with who you are right now? Do you feel cute, pretty, handsome, or lovely? Who do you think you are now? What are you now? He wonders but never does anything about it.

Masterlist.

Pile III.

IX of pentacles, VI of wands, the emperor, and the hanged man.

It’s your first time learning how to rollerblade, this place is filled with so many people that you are starting to feel dizzy. Music is playing in the background, but they have started to sound like noise, white noise to be exact—a white light is flashing at you, “hey! Hey! Hey! Over here, yeahhh, notice me, thanks!” Someone calls out to you as they did a spin with their roller skates and zoomed out from your view. Someone else grabs your hands and wants you to dance with them, but you suggest you cannot, pointing at your blade, but they won’t listen. They grab your hand to take you for a dance only for you to slip and flip around, falling face first. People laugh at you, but you stay still thinking about the best way to get up without causing more pain to your body. The person who wanted to dance with you wanted to see you fall, but your main focus is yourself—you weren’t worried about anyone, not even the white noise in the background. Simply the white light.

The light follows you around again as you are still lying down, and the same voice pops back up, ‘’hey! Hey! Hey! How come you didn’t give me attention?” You deadpanly say, “I’m on the ground, do you think I can focus on you when I have to get up?” But as you spoke those words, you suddenly woke up to an empty room in bright white light. Everything is white—the hospital bed, the IV bag, the chairs, the door—hell, even the ceilings and windows except for what is out the door. You get up and go to it, only to enter a hospital room. You pause and look around and see your close ones. Not your friends, not your family, not your close ones—just you. The one that is cheering you on, the one that is by your side each time, the one that mourns your past selves and the wrongdoings that they had to deal with, the ones who would do anything to make sure you are okay. They are telling you to come closer, but each time you try to walk to them, your view is pulled away and they become farther and farther. Each time you try to run to them, they start to fade into white noise.

You cannot chase something you have to let go. It’s time to let go of your past and who you are now. Shed your skin as a snake would. Improving yourself to follow your goals is okay, but when you are overdoing it like you are now.. you make it harder for yourself to find things that are actually worth it. You following this goal is the white light asking for your attention, and yes, you are giving it each moment of your life—this obsession you have with it is killing your excitement in life and causing you depression. Whether or not you want to accept it, you are healed. Yes. You have healed. You are done healing. You have such powerful cards, everything fits, it does, but you are stalling from this power you have. You need to come to terms that you are done with your goal, you are done healing, and you are healed—you healed both your shadow self and your inner child. You have healed the light side of you, and now your higher self is calling out to you, but you are treating it as white noise.

Masterlist.

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secretress · 1 month ago

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Okay. So I was not going to read this, but it kept itching at me. Came back to it--

It read me like a book, word for word. I haven't seen anyone read my energy that well. Aside from myself, you were spot on about my future lover. It made a bit uncomfortable on how accurate you were.

Thank you for the reading, I wish you the best in life, and hope you have a lovely week.

pick a pile - your favourite things about your fs vs. your fs’ favourite things about you (detailed)

welcome back, dear reader. let's look into your favorite things about your future lover, and your future lover’s favorite things about you. note that this is a general reading, so not everything will resonate with everyone! it also highlights the positive sides of the connection. breathe slowly, take your time and use your intuition to go with the pile that speaks to you the most. remember to take what resonates, and let the rest flow. *ੈ✩‧₊˚

𓂃⭑ pile 1 ⭑𓂃

your favourite things about your fs

your fs has this ability, to give you a push in confidence. to help you believe in yourself more, and see yourself as the queen or king that you are. they will quite literally shower you in sweet words, are amazing at flattering.

there's this major theme of “you are such a badass and you need to know about it” they will have the ability to change the way you look at yourself, due to them cherishing you so much.

like calling you beautiful no matter which state you're in; after you just woke up barefaced in the morning, while you're getting ready, while you're focusing on your studies or work.

one of your favorite things about your fs, is how supportive they are of you, particularly when it comes to your own individual pursuits and goals.

i can especially see this in regards to decision-making; you might be someone who can struggle making a strong choice and standing behind it at times. your fs has the potential to help you be more sure of yourself, and strongly push yourself forward in a way that gives you a lot of personal success.

in a “don't overthink it so much, just go for it.” type of way. you'll love how they can get you out of your head, and open your eyes to the power you hold.

i can see this translating into numerous areas of your life; career-wise, personality-wise, appearance-wise, socially. you're likely the type of person who just glows in a different way, when they're in love. your friends could probably see something about your aura shifting, in a ✨ beautiful ✨ way.

you love that your fs is quite literally your no 1 fan, the person who makes you feel special, encourages you, empowers you.

i can see them being quite open and unapologetic about their support too. your fs is immensely proud of being with someone like you, so it's likely most people will know about it.

they'll quite literally gaze at you with so much sparkle and admiration in their eyes.

you will love how your fs isn't a person who ever puts themselves above you. they're very fair-minded, and balanced in their approach to your connection.

let's say you gifted something to your fs, it's not unlikely you'll see a surprise present as a thank you on your desk after you come home from work. there's this feeling of always wanting to give back what you give them.

they seem quite generous in terms of their finances, like the type to willingly splurge on expensive things for you.

i don't see the connection being one of extremely clingy or obsessive nature, and moreso one where the two of you are each other's main sources of support, the person you can comfortably fall back on if anything ever goes wrong.

your fs will provide you with this feeling that.. “even if i fail everything in life, this person will love me regardless. life can still be beautiful.” this can give you a renewed and stronger sense of courage, to step out of your comfort zone and take the leap of faith you might've put off for a while.

on a deeper note; i can see your future lover also making you realize you're lovable in every way, regardless of the emotional baggage and wounds you can potentially come with.

there might be some reluctance in you when it comes to laying your soul bare to people and making yourself vulnerable; you might worry it could turn them off, or make them see you in a different light.

i heard the chorus of jb's unstable here “i tried to scare you away, showed you the door, you adored me anyway. when i was broken in pieces, you were my peace of mind.”

you'll love, how your fs will embrace your flaws lovingly, accept your mistakes and still cherish you throughout everything. also, they won't force vulnerability. they'll allow it to unfold.

a lot of deep and heartfelt conversation. i see your fs being good at provoding you with emotional safety, and facilitating an environment, where you don't feel ashamed to talk about your deepest, darkest secrets to them.

and sometimes, you don't even have to say anything for your future lover to understand what you're feeling - they just get it. they'll be at a point where they just know you that well.

your bond will continue to grow deeper and more intimate through the two of you, especially you, learning how it's okay to open yourself up emotionally to a person. they still won't love you any less, or see you as any less than you are.

even if there's problems in your relationship, the depth of your connection always remains. the two of you help understand each other in a deeper manner. there is a lot of significant and meaningful life lessons you can learn from each other.

your fs' favourite things about you

for some of you, you might've been the one who pursued your fs. and they loved that about you.

the beginning of the spread suggests that your fs deeply admires the way you go after what, and who, you want. boldly, unapologetically, and with purpose.

what they love even more is how you continue to show up consistently. you're not just passionate in the beginning; you put in the work to keep the connection stable and growing.

it's something that gives them a sense of security in the relationship. knowing that you're always striving, not just for yourself, but for your shared future.

your fs loves how you communicate and talk to them. a lot of them might find the way you text them very endearing, some of you could text in this very animated and playful way.

they love that you're so witty, and the way things rarely get dull when they're with you. you might poke and tease them a lot, unafraid of talking back in a sassy manner. you just keep them on their toes, and bring a lighthearted spark to the relationship that they adore.

they love how you balance your sense of humor and playful energy, with a strong sense of focus and work ethic. you're fun, yes, but also grounded, driven, and committed to bettering yourself. that blend of personality traits is something they find incredibly attractive.

interestingly, i mentioned earlier how they find your focused expression really cute, and that theme seems to be repeating. there's something about the way you concentrate, that they find completely adorable.

i could see you guys being younger in age than your fs, there could be a cute height difference too, which your fs could tease you about (like you having to go on your tippy toes to give them a kiss and them playing with you by pulling away)

the energy between you two is sweet and doting. your fs sees you as the most adorable person they know, someone who capable of making them smile constantly.

the two of you could potentially be a couple of two fire signs. i'm feeling leo and aries strongly. particularly sun or venus. this connection is vibrant, passionate, and full of strong personalities.

you two could also have 5h synastry.

your fs loves how you match, or even challenge, their fiery energy. you might even be the one humbling them with your sass and confidence. they love that you can meet their intensity without ever losing your own shine.

they also love how you allow them to be their own person. how you don't brake your fs from having their individual pursuits in life. you encourage their passions, support their goals, and celebrate their individuality.

also worthy to note, that your fs doesn't only appreciate that animated side in you, but also cherishes the sense of harmony you bring into you dynamic.

there's something about your energy they find to be very comforting, healing and soothing. like you're their comfort person and safe space, basically.

there's a little bit of this.. “you're the most precious gift of my life” type of love they have for you.

the connection never really feels like it settles or goes stale. even once things should've become familiar, once the spark and excitement should've started to quiet down the way it does for some couples.. somehow, it still feels new.

something about the way you love, or the way you show up in the relationship, constantly breathes fresh life into it.

your future lover doesn't just feel lucky to have met you. they feel lucky to keep meeting new sides of you all the time. they're continuously unfolding new reasons to fall in love with you, over and over again.

being around you reminds them that love isn’t only about fire and butterflies. it’s also about feeling safe, seen and treasured.

in addition, your fs admires your resilience. they love how you aren't one to allow life to break you down, but on the contrary, you find ways to rise above. whether it's through personal challenges, heartbreak, or difficult moments.. you don’t just let yourself be defeated. you keep moving forward.

they love that you're eager to use every lesson learned, as fuel to push yourself toward the next chapter.

your fs sees and acknowledges, how you've weathered your storms with grace, and it's not only something they deeply respect, but something that makes them love you, very dearly.

thank you for reading! i'd love to hear your feedback on what resonated for you <3

𓂃⭑ pile 2 ⭑𓂃

your favourite things about your fs

so to start off this pile, you give me the energy of an introvert, who's usually more comfortable in their own company. being with people might get tiring for you quickly, which is why you like to retreat into your own space at times.

what you will love about your future lover, is how adaptable they are. they're incredibly accepting, open-minded, and tolerant.

they aren't a person who's pushy, intrusive or stubborn; but a person, who's willing to match themselves to you. they'll be ready to adjust to your pace, your comfort levels, your boundaries, and approach you with a comfortingly understanding presence.

you'll appreciate how they rarely take offense when you need space or time alone. they aren't the type to guilt you for withdrawing, they'll simply leave you room to breathe.

your future lover displays an existence that supports you through your journey of finding your best self. someone who helps you understand yourself better.

there is a huge focus on comfort here. your energy is a little heavy. like someone carrying the weight of past pain.. many of you might've been through a lot.. emotionally, mentally, spiritually. perhaps some wounds from your childhood too.

i heard jungkook's seven “weight of the world on your shoulders, i kiss your waist and ease your mind”

this song is a little heavy.. but i somehow kept being drawn to ghostin' by ariana grande. “i'm a girl with a whole lot of baggage, but i love you”

your fs is someone who can help you let go of the past, that might've been weighing on you for a good while. it's almost like, you've been walking through life with all this emotional baggage on your back, and you just carried it by yourself, because you had to, and you didn't know any else. your future spouse will finally lighten it up for you. you will feel more free.

you'll love how your fs provides you with this beautiful feeling of “i finally found my person.”

they have a deeply empathetic energy, with high emotional intelligence. they're emotionally mature. someone who meets you with patience, not pressure.

even if you enter the connection still holding onto certain wounds or patterns, your future spouse won't run from that. they'll stay. they'll help you face what you've buried, and little by little, they'll walk beside you as you heal and uncover new sides of yourself.

they'll open your eyes to the beauty in the world.. in people, in connection, in joy. they'll show you that genuine souls do exist. that you're not too much. that there are people who simply love being around you for who you are.

they might introduce you to their circle, bringing new, healthy friendships into your life.

spirit gave me this metaphor of.. “you've been on the moon this whole time. i will introduce the sun to you now.” and you will be fascinated by the warmth. maybe because you haven't truly felt it in that way before.

it's likely for both of you to have significant water placements. i'm feeling scorpio and pisces strongly. perhaps you're the pisces, and they're the scorpio. doesn't have to be the sun. ofc you could also have conjunctions, and share placements.

there's also a libran way in which they love and approach the world, so i could see them having a libra rising, or libra venus.

i'm also sensing potential eighth house synastry, due to the transformative nature of your relationship. there's a strong theme of you constantly evolving within this bond, shedding layers and becoming more of who you're meant to be. (if you're a pisces rising, libra could fall into your eighth house.)

this person is likely to be more mature than you, maybe older in age. but with that maturity, there's also this sense of them being more in tune with their emotions, as in, they're more comfortable with their feelings.

while reading, i kept feeling the need to speak in a quieter voice, it was almost like there was a lump in my throat.

some of you might struggle speaking up at times, especially when it comes to how you feel. you may have been made to feel like your emotions were too much, or unworthy of space in the past. you may have gone through situations where your voice was purposely quieted. so over time, it became habitual..

this person's existence is like a warm hug, that'll find you right when you need it the most. your future lover will provide you with a sense of gentle compassion.

this love isn't superficial or based on shallow things; it's a love that goes deep, and loves in its entirety. your fs' love is one, that will embrace you with everything that you come with. even the things you yourself have always seen as unlovable.

this can help you to open up your eyes. it's almost like a butterfly, finally being able to see its own beautiful wings.

this union will feel like two people who were meant to be with each other, finally finding to each other, and beautifully completing each other's worlds.

your fs' favorite things about you

the way the two spreads aligned was so beautiful.. i may have shed a tear or two. (yes i actually did i got emotional lol)

so in the first part of the reading, there was some bittersweetness in terms of your feelings of loneliness, that you've carried within you throughout your life.

what's so sweet is, that your fs sees your independence as one of their favourite things about you. it's this feeling of, them seeing what you might condemn about yourself at times, as something genuinely beautiful from their perspective.

in your fs' eyes, there's just something so admirable, about how you've showed up for yourself till now.

you exude a calm and serene presence, one that makes it hard for others to truly get close. as if you're comfortably wrapped in your own quiet world.

this might've been one of their first impressions of you, and what drew them to you from the start.

the energy is strikingly similar to pile 2 from this reading. maybe you could look into it, in case you're more curious about their potential first impression of you.

i keep getting the theme of nature, so there could be a lot settings in nature for your relationship. maybe they first saw you in nature.

interestingly, i keep seeing flower fields and gardens in my minds eye. maybe your first date? or do you use flowery scents? also, something about animals. you might have a lot of love for animals and feel a special connection to them, which your fs finds wonderful.

your future lover might also be incredibly poetic. i could see them comparing you to a flower a lot, and saying slightly cheesy, but lovely things like that. they just see as so beautiful. like a piece of art you can't help but be in awe of.

they see you as immensely intelligent. your future spouse admires how much complexity you hold. how you're not someone who lives on the surface. there's this admiration of the depth your soul has, and how many layers there are to you.

your future spouse loves that you aren't easy to figure out. not because you're hiding, but because you've learned to protect your softness. every step closer to your heart feels like a gift to them, one they don't take for granted.

i can see you opening up to them slowly, and their love growing deeper with each layer they get to uncover. the more they understand you, the more they cherish you.

honestly, they love how much effort it takes to truly know you. might sound weird, but your fs actually enjoys having to put in the work to get past the walls around your heart.

they love it, because it's you. it feels worth it. being rewarded with someone they see as so precious, someone who brings such depth and richness to their life.. nothing else compares. it doesn't feel tiring to them.

random note, but i could see some of you having an earth venus, or maybe saturn in the 7h. in fact, the pisces risings watching this, would have a virgo (earth) descendant/7h 🫵🏻

your fs could have some strong earth placements too, in addition to the water placements.

your future lover's favorite thing to witness is those moments when you break free from your shell. when you let go of hesitation and fully immerse yourself in what brings you joy. they love seeing you light up, completely lost in the moment, expressing your passion without holding back.

if there's one thing they deeply wish to give you, it's the safety and encouragement to feel free. to let your light shine without fear of judgment. they never want you to dim yourself to make others comfortable.

in their eyes, you're a radiant, warm, and uniquely vibrant soul. they're drawn to the moments when your confidence sparks, when you choose your joy over your fears.

i was reminded of the bollywood film “kal ho naa hoo”, where the male lead quietly helps the female lead discover the beauties of life again. and watches her, as she begins to bloom in her own light. he doesn't rescue her.. he simply reminds her of the light she carries, and watches her shine.

note; i also kept feeling drawn to a few songs while being in this pile's energy, you might resonate with some of them:

glimpse of us by joji

just one day by bts

god is a woman by ariana grande

thank you for reading! i'd love to hear your feedback on what resonated for you <3

𓂃⭑ pile 3 ⭑𓂃

your favourite things about your fs

the main energy i'm getting here is that, you will recognize parts of yourself in your fs, which will give you this sense of familiarity with them. even if you don't really know them yet.

you know the feeling when you're looking at someone, and something about them just.. feels like you've known them for years. i could for sure see this being a past life connection too.

one aspect which i could see the two of you bonding over, is both of you being wrapped up in similar circumstances.

this is specific so, take it if it resonates. but when you meet your future lover, some of you might feel dissatisfied with where you're at in life, especially when it comes to the general direction it's going in. maybe your current job isn't truly emotionally fulfilling you.

there's a sense of apathy and emotional numbness. you might feel like you're at a point in life, where your life is just passing by you. nothing really feels all that exciting, it feels stale and stagnant.

this could also be rooted in past heartbreak. it could've caused you to grow more pessimistic, cynical and guarded.

meeting your fs, will feel like a breath of fresh air. they will come to you with a reassuring presence, like you're not the only one who feels this way.

the song the only by sasha alex sloan started playing in my head while reading.

you will love your fs' realistic approach towards the world. this isn't someone who escapes into their fantasy dream world, and has their head in the clouds. they're quite pragmatic, rational, and unafraid to speak the truth when it's necessary.

their lack of filter and honesty might come off as overly blunt to some people. but to you, it's refreshing. it's likely something that will draw you to them.

they're the person who's likely to point out the elephant in the room, while everyone else is walking on eggshells.

worthy to note though, is that i don't see this person being tactless, despite their outspoken attitude. they weigh their words out, but don't water them down.

you love how committed your future spouse is to the things that are important to them. they're the type of person who dedicates all their efforts to what they value, willing to show up, and put in consistent work to achieve their objectives.

your future lover is immensely protective. there is a strong sense of security they can provide you with. someone who just makes you feel like no one in the world can hurt you.

they're quite literally your human shield; the one who will place themselves in front of you, if anyone ever dares badmouthing or attacking you. they do lean towards the territorial side.

there's this feeling of.. after all i've been through, there's no storm i can't face at this point. now even more, with someone steady and loyal by my side, who resembles me in that regard.

in addition, you love the sense of wisdom your fs brings to the table. they might be an older soul, or simply person who's had significant life experiences for their age, which have shaped them into a person who's mature, and full of knowledge about life. they're introspective, and reflective.

this is something you could take note of, as the relationship progresses, and you engage in more deep and layered conversations with them. ones that go beyond the mundane and shallow topics.

i'm strongly getting earth energy, especially virgo or taurus. something mercurial about them, but also grounded and stable. additionally, there might be air energy such as aquarius or gemini, giving them a sharp intellect, wit and eloquence.

both of you read as being on the mature side, but your dynamic also seems very fun.

your future lover has the potential to bring out an inner softness in you, which might've been buried before. there's this sense of feeling younger, more playful, more free, and more hopeful when you're with them. like your future lover reawakening the inner child in you, that genuinely enjoys to live again.

in addition, you'll just feel like you can let loose when you're with your fs, you don't need to put on any act, or worry about what they'll think. you can be yourself in your entirety, and know your lover will adore you just the way you are.

this is random lmao, but you could literally burp around them, hang around with unwashed hair, no make up, pimples, whatever it is.. it'll just be comfortable, and come with a sense of ease, and lightheartedness.

i feel like your current environment might make you feel misunderstood. you might struggle finding someone who shares similar thoughts and outlooks as you.

what your fs can give you, is the feeling of being understood. they have similar principles and values in life as you do, and both of your life-paths align beautifully.

that mutual understanding has the potential to shift your perspective in a more positive light, and help you see things in a more optimistic manner again.

the emotional intimacy between the two of you will be special. there'll be things about each other, that only the the two of you know about. private moments, quiet nights, deep talks. your alone time will be meaningful, and the connection will be one that recharges you, instead of draining you.

i keep thinking of the sentence “being alone, together.”

your fs' favourite things about you

your fs will feel very attracted to you early on. they'll have this impression of you being a beautifully feminine and sensual individual. you'll awaken a lot of desire in them.

it's likely you'll shake up their world from the moment you enter their life. you'll just have a strong impact on them, from the beginning, they'll look at you as someone who makes an impression everywhere they go. like you enter the room, your fs' eyes are fixed on you. constantly. something about you they can't deny.

your future lover, will admire the strength you hold. they'll love that you're a person who can be logical and cut-throat when you really need to. they'll see you as intelligent, witty and strategic. someone who has a quick mind, a lot of intellect. you're just the type of person no one can really fool.

something about the way you communicate in particular, will intrigue them. you give them the impression of someone you can hold immensely interesting conversations with.

there's something about the way you bring a blend of several qualities to the table, which they adore. you can be very mature and rational at times, but they also recognize a down to earth, humble, and incredibly ambitious side to you.

your fs is likely to see you as a person who's always looking to learn more from life, and expand to higher places.

this is very specific, so it might not resonate with everyone, but some of your fs' might be your seniors at work, uni or school. so they look at you in this more “student” type of role.

for others, this could just apply to the grounded attitude you carry. how you're someone who's continuously looking to improve themselves. quite self-critical and hard on themselves, but also not easy to please in general.

your fs will love the sense of peace you bring into the relationship. they'll genuinely appreciate how you're someone who can provide them with the rest that they're in need of at times. solely being with you, makes them calm down.

your existence in itself is a source of comfort to them. their favourite thing to do with you, could quite literally be the most ordinary activities; like laying down at the end of the day, with candles lit, watching some random movie and cuddling. it's then, that they can finally exhale in a restful manner, and completely release their pent up stress.

i could see the both of you being career-oriented, and offering a type of outlet for each other. like you put your nose into your work all day, and look forward to spending the end of the day with each other, in order to just let go of the accumulated, inner tension. there's this beautiful sense of quiet, but strong support you can provide for each other in that way.

(this pile is sooo taurus coded..)

this is something i can see slowly developing as your connection deepens, but your fs is likely to genuinely appreciate you being a good listener. someone who just knows how to make them feel seen, and cared about.

as i said before, i can see the two of you bonding over shared experiences. this unique type of understanding you'll have for one another, is likely to bring your future lover a lot of healing.

the addition of you in their lives, can light their otherwise stressful life up in the most wonderful way. having someone by their side, who they share a genuine emotional connection with, will bring them this feeling of peace.

i just keep seeing this scene in my minds eye, of them looking you in the eyes, and feeling like.. okay, everything's fine again. you give them a sense of renewed hope, and inner strength.

what's worth to note for this pile, is that i probably had the hardest time tapping into the energy of your dynamic. there's just something remarkably private and intimate about your connection.

i really don't see you enjoying to share about it too much with others. when you're together, it feels as if it's just the two of you on planet earth.

the song my love mine all mine started playing on shuffle while i was writing this, might resonate with you guys..

thank you for reading! i'd love to hear your feedback on what resonated for you <3

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