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Honour mode update:

Kinel’s hair grew :)
#Tav: Kinel#both them and Shads changed their hair in the same night#I was hoping for a mullet-y hairstyle for that authentic just-grown-out hair look but there wasn’t one#this hairstyle is still cute though I think he’s happy with it#I do headcanon that Shads offered to cut their hair and they turned her down because they kind of like it this length#he’s nonbinary and butch so I think he hasn’t grown out his hair for a while because he wasn’t sure if he’d like it#but now it’s growing out through circumstance they actually enjoy it
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I've been thinking about Renoir lately...spoilers under cut
I don't know how well I'll be able to put the nuances of this down because I don't think he's a bad father, I think he's a complicated one, the way the entire Dessdendre family is complicated and hurts each other often unintentionally, or just fails to be there for each other. It's very human.
Renoir clearly cherishes his kids. He writes letters to them that show his affection for them, he seems to have mostly positive relationships with them to the extent none can actually agree on who was the favorite (there's another post I'm cooking about how sometimes children growing up in the same family can have wildly different experiences of said family/home and how that seems to be at least partially true for the Dessendres. Nowhere do we see that better than the fact that all 3 have their own interpretations of who's the favorite. it feels very real).
From his letters, from the Axons, we get the sense that Renoir observes his children, that he is able to see their inner lives and channel that into these pieces of art. Alicia's Axon is clearly about his wishes for her, his hopes for his youngest. It's harder to say if Verso and Clea's Axons also have an element of that or if they are simply him going "I see you".
But there are PROBLEMS here, sir! When did Clea start shouldering the family burdens? When did Verso start feeling like he needed a mask? Why is Alicia so afraid to reach for the stars? is it possible people in the family (ahem) were discouraging to her? There were things going on in the Dessendre household that shaped these aspects of their personalities. Did he see that? Did he know it was happening under his nose (that he might have had a hand in it himself)?
Like Renoir. It's great that you want your daughter to reach for the stars but have you ever questioned that maybe her self-confidence issues are coming in part from. your wife?
I don't doubt Renoir loved his kids but perhaps he wasn't showing up for them the ways they actually needed. He loved them but the 'love alone is not enough' type of father.
This part is pure speculation but the vibes fit in my opinion: How much time was he actually spending with them where he was present? Yeah Renoir will write a heartfelt journal entry and craft the Reacher but will he help Alicia with her homework? Was he around for that?
#Renoir being such a complicated father is so important actually#because he loves his children. he loves them so much.#he writes letters and poetry where he hopes only for the best for them. creates parables to teach them and guide them.#but in that moment standing before Verso’s grave he only looks at his wife.#he fought to tear Alicia from the canvas but she’s left to hold the Esquie plushie alone off to the side#he knows Clea is fighting this war alone but he compounds her solitude#he created the Hauler knowing Clea has had to shoulder the burden of their family and yet he only adds to it#he created the Reacher with an insatiable need to reach for the sky for his daughter with vertigo#and yet… he created the Reacher with Alicia’s disabilities because he believes in her and loves her so much#he says Clea is the most like him of all his children and he trusts her decisions outside of the canvas completely#‘Papa and his parables’. was everything a lesson hidden behind three layers of meaning?#he loves his daughters. but was Alicia even healed when he first followed his wife into the painting?#Alicia says he has a soft spot for her. he doted on her. but did he listen to her. really listen?#‘did he ever help them with their homework’ is the sentence that will always stay with me about him ever since reading it#and that’s not even touching on Verso#clair obscur: expedition 33#expedition 33 spoilers#clair obscur spoilers
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the Divinity learning curve has been a little steeper than expected but I’ve finally managed to get the source collars removed, which will hopefully open up some new skills. my party is pretty well-balanced at the moment (my character is a rogue, Lohse is our mage, Red Prince is our warrior tank) but I am at a bit of a loose end of what to do with Sebille. I originally had her as an assassin-type character but that hasn’t been working for me with the current party composition so any tips for how to build her would be much appreciated 🙏 also if anyone knows where to find healing spell books please let me know
#divinity sinning#currently I’ve been switching between a spear and a bow for her but her skills are so unhelpful as they currently are#it’s definitely my fault I’ve for sure been building her wrong but I can’t work out how to fix it#the party is just me and my two weedsmoking girlfriends and our weird lizard guy#i’ve been having a great time so far despite the learning curve#me talking to the girl who removes your source collars: oh hey Jennifer English we meet again#there’s also another VA who is ALL over this game I need to find out who it is#she does like all the cockney-accented women and every time I speak to one I’m like she’s so cool I love her voice#shoutout to that actress who I will find out the name of eventually to properly credit for her work
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Oh? Clea? Hates her sister? Then how do you explain THIS?
Alicia: *grunts*
Renoir: What's that, my darling? Are you in pain? Is it your throat or your face?
Clea, rolling her eyes: Papa, she is OBVIOUSLY making an observation about how the portrayal of women in fiction has evolved throughout the past century.
Alicia: *grunts more enthusiastically*
Clea: She says it's why she's struggling to enjoy Charles Dickens as much as she would like to. His female characters are victims of the standards of the time.
Alicia: *nods*
Renoir: ...
Clea: *returns to her Sculptors Weekly pamphlet*
#truly the sisters of all time#clair obscur: expedition 33#expedition 33 spoilers#clair obscur spoilers
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Btw if anyone remembers the Kagha companion au I mentioned ages ago I’ve made some more progress with it so it might actually become an actual posted fic sometime soon
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do you have a link to the video where jennifer english talks about shads being trans coded? 🥺🥺🥺🥺
Okay I just looked on youtube for like an hour and I couldn’t find it I’m sorry 😭 I remember it not having that many views, like only a couple of hundred (which might be why I’m finding it hard to find again)
From what I remember of the interview she mentioned the parallels to her own queer experience discovering she’s a lesbian, as well as being very aware of the trans coding in the storyline and the significance of that. She also brought up that Shads canonically punches transphobes and supported Nocturne through her transition
#sorry I tried but either I wasnt searching the right terms or youtube hates me one of the two#I wish I could link because I don’t like paraphrasing an actor’s words about their character in case I get things wrong
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Thinking about the Dessendre siblings
I just finished act 2 and I’m distraught…it’s a rough day for verso likers like me….
#Dessendre siblings you are so special to me…#clair obscur: expedition 33#expedition 33 spoilers#clair obscur spoilers
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I love that Maelle’s reaction to finding out that Clea tried to personally murder an entire crowd of people when they didn’t go home after she told them the truth about the Paintress is just an amused sigh and an affectionate “Clea…”
#she loves her murderous sister so much <3#expedition 33 spoilers#clair obscur: expedition 33#clair obscur spoilers
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a few days late for June, but I had to finish and post these bg3 pride doodles<3
bonus:
#obsessed with so much about this. in no particular order:#Shads’ lesbian flag bracelet and trans flag nails#Wyll’s trans flag cape and being the one to actually bring water for everyone because he knows nobody else will#literally everything about Karlach#Gale bringing Tara with him (she’s their designated sober adult)#Lae’zel about to spend all night study the origins of pride and bring a bagful of bricks with her to her first parade#quick sidenote saw a video recently of an interview with Jennifer English where she talked about Shadowheart being trans-coded and <3
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Our little shadow is awake.
CLAIR OBSCUR: EXPEDITION 33 (2025) dev. SANDFALL INTERACTIVE
#Dessendre sisters you are so endlessly fascinating to me#clair obscur: expedition 33#clair obscur spoilers#expedition 33 spoilers#I just know Clea told the most terrifying bedtime stories <3 number 1 champion of Tormenting Younger Siblings Competition 26 years running#‘why did you tell your sister there’s a giant hand monster in her wardrobe?’ ‘builds character :)’
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thinking of a durge run that starts out resisting but eventually succumbs to their father, romancing a Shadowheart who rejected Shar and their final kindness to her being dropping her outside the city before they take over Baldur’s Gate, and now Shadowheart and the ones who are left (Minthara, Astarion, Gale, Wyll, maybe Lae’zel depending on Orpheus’ fate) have to work together to try to take them down once and for all
#Jaheira would sadly be dead in this scenario and likely Minsc too#Karlach would also be dead because I can’t see her having hope when her friend just betrayed the world like that#the only issue with this would be that I guess the tadpoles in the companions would capitulate to durge#but let’s say that the last piece of the kindness involved the knocking out of the tadpoles#also contemplating having Arabella escape and help them too because the kid with insane uncontrollable magic power seems like#a good candidate for being able to escape at the last second#Yenna Scratch and the owlbear cub were hidden away out of the city where it’s safe so they were also spared the original blast#but to keep them safe the others need to take down the brain and their former friend/lover
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for the kiss meme - shadowlach, 8?
Number 8 - Interrupting with a kiss
“Did you mean what you said earlier?” Shadowheart asked. She was half-draped across Karlach’s lap, resting her head against one strong shoulder. Karlach leaned back against the frame of the bed (a real, solid wooden frame!) and tilted her head.
“When?”
“To your friend. In the city.” A blush began to creep over Shadowheart’s pale features as she averted her gaze slightly. Karlach couldn’t help but grin.
“Of course I did! Have you seen yourself? I’m the luckiest woman in the world, so long as I’m with you.”
“Don’t be silly.” Karlach’s gaze darted to the tips of Shadowheart’s (adorably adorable) ears, smiling even wider when she saw the familiar blush begin to grow there too. “I doubt there’s a single soul who’s laid eyes on you who hasn’t been attracted to you. And, well, I’m not with you just for your body, after all.” Shadowheart turned a little further to face her, reaching one hand up and resting it gently on Karlach’s cheek. “I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone as wonderful as you.”
“Aw, c’mon, Shads,” Karlach grinned, a little more bashful than before. Her tail curled around Shadowheart’s back, pulling her closer and supporting her as she leaned up. “This was supposed to be me complimenting you, not the other way around.” Shadowheart leaned even closer, a soft smile playing on her lips as she brushed them against Karlach’s cheek.
“I don’t think I could stop complimenting you if I tried. You’re…” she trailed off, gaze meeting Karlach’s, full of more emotion than words could ever express.
“You’re wonderful,” she finished, voice quiet.
Karlach couldn’t help herself, scooping Shadowheart up into her arms (prompting a surprised yet delighted giggle, one she would never grow tired of hearing) and cuddling her close.
“You’re so cute!” she said, nearly reverently. The blush was back, nearly coating Shadowheart’s nose and cheeks all the way to her ears, and she dipped her head slightly.
“You’re one to talk!”
“Nuh-uh,” Karlach gave the tip of one of her ears a gentle flick, unable to stop herself from grinning. “It’s your turn to get compliments now. You’re just going to sit here in my arms and listen, understand?”
“What a chore,” Shadowheart sighed, undercut by the laughter at the edge of her voice. “I suppose if I have no choice I will simply have to let you.”
“You say that, but you’ve not been great at it so far, little miss.” Shadowheart’s blush only seemed to grow at the nickname and Karlach couldn’t stop herself from pressing a kiss to her cheek. “Now behave yourself, alright? Let me tell you how brilliant you are.”
Shadowheart, still flushed pink, finally nodded. Karlach felt her heart physically ache, but not from the engine; a far deeper, more devoted ache that left her wanting to just pull Shadowheart in and kiss her. But right now she had a girlfriend to adore.
“You’re remarkable,” she said simply, honestly. “You’ve been through so much, but you’re stronger than everyone who’s tried to break you. No matter what they did to you, you stayed you. And you are the most beautiful person I know, Shadowheart, inside and out. I love you.”
Shadowheart’s eyes were shining, arms wrapping tightly around Karlach’s shoulders so they could press their foreheads together. She exhaled shakily, eyes closing.
“Careful. A girl could get used to this sort of treatment.”
“And I’ll tell you every day until you believe it.”
Shadowheart opened her eyes. One of her hands slipped back to cup Karlach’s face again and she gently ran her thumb against her cheek.
“Tell me I’m yours, Karlach.”
“You’re mi-” Karlach hadn’t even finished the word before Shadowheart closed the gap between them. The kiss was almost chaste in its softness, tender like a slowly-healing heart, and as Karlach pulled her even closer she let herself believe, just for a moment, that it could fix her own.
#prompt fic#shadowlach#they’re so sickeningly sweet I adore them so much#fun fact! Karlach canonically calls Shads ‘little miss’ during the game. admittedly not to her face but I thought it was cute#writes a fic full of saccharine fluff and then throws in a casual reminder about mortality
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INTIMANCY PROMPTS !
( feel free to request for characters on my masterlist )
a palm kiss
laying atop each other, kissing shoulders
touching foreheads
kissing their temple
holding hands, kissing the back of it
teasingly kissing the tip of the nose
kissing scars
interrupting with a kiss
watching movies / tv shows
going on a date
sharing secrets
hugs
cuddles
sharing drinks
talking
touching noses
laying your head on someone’s shoulder
playing with hair
back scratches
a hand written note
listening to someone’s heartbeat
nicknames
wearing someone’s clothes
teasing
falling asleep in their arms
play fighting
hugs from behind
pulling someone in by the waist
kisses when they’re mad
being protective
holding someone by the waist
neck kisses
lingering hugs
glancing at lips
running your finger down their spine
being pushed against a wall
smiling while kissing
delightful smiles
falling in someone’s arms
missing them
washing each other’s hair
doing each other’s hair
falling asleep with their head in your lap
head scratches
running hands through hair
making a blanket fort
cuddling under blankets
offering the other your coat
caring for them when they’re ill
patching up a wound
slow dancing
crying into their shoulder
cheek kisses
reading a book together
shoulder rubs
playing with their hair
secretly dating
being locked in a small space
a height difference
sitting in their lap
#had this reblog in my drafts for a rainy day#and it certainly is rainy right now!#open for my tav ships but also for companion ships#shadowlach is my bias of course but am open to several if you aren’t sure then feel free to ask!!
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i recently met someone who has the most comically rambunctious and sassy guide dog i've ever met, which is to say owlbear could totally be a beginner support animal
okay bear with me here… Shadowlach are together in this au and Karlach is getting the owlbear cub trained as a cardiac alert service animal to help monitor her heart (he’s just a baby still so he’s in the process of being trained but he’ll be qualified soon)
the cub also starts mimicking Scratch when he’s helping Shadowheart (because that’s his big brother and he likes copying him!!) and so they’re both there whenever she has a PTSD flashback and needs their support
#just imagining a whole seven foot tall owlbear being Karlach’s cardiac alert animal#he can sense it across the farm and comes running over to give her a gentle headbutt to let her know#or if she’s inside he can knock on the window with his beak to make sure she knows#it might be more prudent for Scratch to know how to do this lmao maybe he can learn too#or in this au maybe owlbears are like huge dogs. like Newfoundlands size#that seems more suitable for something like this
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you’ve never had a relationship like this, have you?
#they are so CUTE#as soon as act 3 hits these two are for sure the most disgustingly affectionate couple constantly in front of everyone#constant kisses and cuddles and Shadowheart sitting on Karlach’s lap and Karlach carrying her around#listen Karlach hasn’t been able to show affection for 10 years and Shadowheart can’t remember ever being shown affection#they have a lot to catch up on#Jaheira does have to tell them they need to get a room though. we’re happy for you girls but not everything is acceptable for public spaces#whatever you’re whispering about Shadowheart please save it until you two are alone. no Karlach i’m not scolding you I’m giving you advice.#(Karlach is embarrassed about being told this by her idol but y’know it needed to be said)
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what if in a modern au Scratch is Shadowheart’s PTSD support service animal
#he would do such a good job at it#if you remove the magic then imo the incurable wound becomes chronic pain paired with PTSD-triggered flashbacks and Scratch helps ground her#the owlbear cub too but he’s too little and rambunctious to be a support animal. maybe when he gets older#I mean it technically doesn’t have to be a modern au just I doubt they have service animal registration in Faerûn
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watching the dungeons and dragons movie for the first time in a few years (now knowing far more about the Forgotten Realms than I did when I watched it originally) and. Simon is a descendent of ELMINSTER??
#interesting considering Simon is a sorcerer. obviously magic can manifest regardless but interesting that one of Elminster’s descendants is#a sorcerer. wondering about the presence of the Weave.#also this movie takes place a few years after bg3 and not too far away from it#they go to the Emerald Enclave and am I insane or is that related to the Emerald Grove because I swear#you can find a dagger with an Emerald Enclave symbol on it near the harpies#also Edgin would have been in contact with Jaheira probably. or at least whoever his harper boss was would have been#every bg3 character alive at the end of the game would probably hear about the events of the movie#but ESPECIALLY Gale because he’s in Waterdeep which is even closer to Neverwinter#also because Elminster’s descendent is involved heavily with saving the day#also worth mentioning that the ‘richest man in Baldur’s Gate’ attended the games and in certain endings it’s impossible that#he wouldn’t know Astarion or Minthara. or Wyll if he becomes Duke#some of the kids in the game are probably around the same age as Kira now too#the sequel movie should be what the bg3 crew were doing at the same time that happened and they can have some crossover
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